My Boyfriend (real) Is Back

If you had the opportunity to rewrite dementia any way you wanted, what would you do?

that is a really good question! since I am having a bit of a hiccup warming up to her.

it's bc I require emotional depth for me to be interested in a character.

which I'm absolutely sure there is a lot of in her... but we've just not seen enough to work with. I like mentally disturbed characters that are struggling more outwardly, like Flug or Miss Heed. I think it's less of a writing flaw and more CN/Warner holding them back from releasing the stuff as it was roughly planned probably. maybe if we had the rest of the 1st season we'd already be much further in her character development.

there's core emotions that I NEED to see in a character to get hooked, which is fear, regret and grief.

none of which we've seen in her yet. nothing genuine that's not caused by the brainwash she stands under.

the most conflicting thing we've seen her do is having tears well up in her eyes after Flug hit her which didn't come off as physical pain, but emotional. that's interesting, but too short of a moment.

I feel like anything I'd "change" about her are things that are canonically planned, we just have to wait.

I think what's missing in her rn is self-awareness.

without her artificial obsession with Black Hat, she is nobody. maybe she'll have a crisis later about exactly that; not knowing who she is as a person. she should. if and when she snaps out of that she's wasted a large chunk of her life under his influence.

let's say it like that, if they don't start to show clearer signs of character development in the remaining S1 episodes, that's what I'd change. pick up the pace a bit. there's more obvious foreshadowing about literally every other character than about her. they really keep her backstory a secret.

there's so much to work with. why is her name Demencia? what's her real name? why did she arrive there "barefoot"? why is she better at math than Flug? why did she react so silenced when confronted with her mortality? was it fear? what does she truly fear? what or who is important to her outside of the hypnosis? does she have a real goal, for herself? smth must have led her to Black Hat... did he lure her or did she have such a terrible life before all this that she saw no other use to her existence than to turn to him?

you already know this drawing but I think I never posted it here

however I'd like to change 1 thing about her visual design for sure.

Please give her muscles. like... all the time.

I've criticized often before that I find the female characters in the show slowly drift too much into one and the same mould, their silhouettes are all the same, since Miss Heed; every relevant female character looks like her body type (...and some newer ones even in the face.) they could start diverting from that by giving Demencia muscles (not just in promo illustrations or closeup shots of her flexing, I feel like they could easily always draw a visible biceps on her)

that's not too hard to animate either, I mean they animated Sunblast and Airlock and that whole 5th episode, and it can't be harder than all the striped and spiked elements in Dem's design.

Um were you talking requests a while back? If so, are there any rules or conditions that we should be aware of?

ok

a good rule of thumb is: if you try any more often than once, I'm not doing it (out of spite even if I thought that idea is fun but now I feel pressured and used, I'm not a machine after all! I sometimes feel like people speak to me like they throw a prompt into an AI) (also I'm stealing that idea and you'll never see it)

my askbox is pretty much always open and I receive a lot. I currently have 81 unanswered ones, to give you an idea. you see how often I actually have time to answer them and then I never do half-assed things bc I set my standards on myself too high so I usually include a doodle whether you asked for it or not bc I kinda just don't like to clog my blog with boring text-only posts.

it's actually unlikely...

but I always say it's worth a shot.

it's literally a gamble. (where you can try again with another prompt after a few weeks of a cooldown period so it doesn't feel like you're spamming and pushing me)

bc I am incapable of making smth messy and call it a day. you basically get a commission for free. bc I do not take commissions. that shit will be fully clean, rendered, maybe even an entire cluster comic page as I like to call them. I LOVE DOING THIS. I love to surprise people. to utterly flummox them. I specifically like to do art to make people happy, so I always swore to myself I would never take money for it. it stays a hobby and smth to spread joy with.

by keeping it a rare, by-chance occurrence it stays special.

you pay by being creative and kind + luck. my requests come closer to a raffle I guess.

I just do em when ADHD inspiration strikes me. since June of last year where I started paperhatober it's just. become MUCH slower. bc I REFUSE to give up. so my life has been on hold literally bc of that omg. I swear I will finish this.

I swear

I may not have finished highschool but I WILL finish this (it's personal. I will actually talk about it once I'm done)

so the smart move rn is to wait until the glorious day where I finish that god forsaken challenge... I can think of like 5 requests off the dome that I would be fire and flames for and perhaps I even have drafts somewhere but I can't get distracted yet...

also yeah literally any topic is ok but I do sometimes wonder why I get hardcore NSFW requests bc... brother. god knows I want to. but how do you expect me to post that onto The Censorship Site .com

foot note: yes, mutuals are prioritized. I follow like 20 people.

Yo, super awesome to see you back! I followed you on Twitter and Instagram so it nice to see you here too :)

Just wanted to ask if you by chance have a toy house, or anything else where you just show your doodles? I love all your content, especially bottom bitch black hat lol <3.

Thank you!🧡🐢 I'm already overwhelmed but I guess if you want a more reliable presence/career online then posting on as many sites as possible is the safest bet! I've been wanting to get used to that since a long time and now I have a reason that pushes me into this habit a bit.

A toy house? Is that what people call the shit nowadays? I like that🤭

That'd be my insta! I am always on there, everyday, 24/7, it's quite literally my diary. Exclusively on my stories. Low quality, nothing ever finished, but more content.

It's 99% Flug and getting worse by the day but anyway-

Edit: This post had about 4 drawings but this is the only one tumblr deemed as ok

Secret touch

i think paperhat is an amusing ship

Hello could you draw BlackHat dancing with Ariel please?

I finally found time amongst all my projects to post this, so here we go!

I hope you like it! Was very challenging but so much fun, at first just a sketch but I was sorely tempted to color it, so I ended up doing that. It was such an interesting and unique idea.

Anyone can request something! I can’t promise to draw everything and definitely not always in full color but if you catch my attention there’s the possibility to get yourself some art! Please bear with me tho, I’m dilatory in nature, especially during this December

*slamming my fists on the table*

Flug! Is! A! Top!

FLUG IS A TOP!

What do you mean "yet", Flug, you're like 8 months...

Demencia sketches I forgot to post here

I can't sleep...

we DMed and I got an audio of Flug speaking to me

so if you need me, I died.

my greatest achievement of my life is that Flug's english VA is my mutual (I can't believe it with my weird ahh art)