Who Are You Slurring At 💀?

“You don’t need a cane! Smartass.” We have been seizing. We were alone in our room with nobody to help us and couldn’t walk, we had to use the cane because we kept collapsing. She’s done this before. When we seized at school, we had to be wheelchaired out, she screamed at us for 30 minutes, saying we were faking, doing it for attention, all that stuff. She eventually told us that we were a burden, and that she meant it. She constantly reaffirms it.

Our brother tells us to stop being “too much” , We had not said anything offensive. All we asked is why she was mad at us, because we just got out of our room.

This is all in the span of the 3 minutes i left my room after being in it for about 2 hours.

No typing quirk for this, Recovering from a panic attack and flashback, that was.. awful. I can’t wait to move out.

This.. from my old blog.

Tr9lls are amazing and all, especially transTr9lls, 6ut if y9u are g9ing t9 j9in us, y9u sh9uld educate y9urself 9n 9ur hist9ry and culture, al9ng with p9litics and just av9id using slurs. Als9, enf9rcing caste system prejudice is a quick way t9 get 6l9cked. It is a h9rri6le thing that leaves many 9f 9ur kind suffering everyday.

Thank you. We’re alright for now. I just need to take our meds before we get to bed. Thank you for your concern.

9h dear, I ap9l9gize f9r all that was p9sted 9n my 6l9g while i was away.

Sprry for the random vent. That just, was one of the worst panic attacks we’ve had in months, and we’ve been seizing lately. I get so scared we’re getting worse, I don’t want to fail. And.. what am I supposed to do in this economy, I’m getting so much worse , i can’t even handle a solid week of school without getting drained. Disability is kicking my ass. I can’t live as a disabled person in here. I don’t have a good cane, the one I have is too tall (unadjustable) and doesn’t have a rubber tip, so it slides. Not to mention that a day without my medication could literally send me into a psychotic break, and i’m going to be moving soon, possibly loose my medication. I know I say i’m working hard, but i’m really not. I’m trying, sure, but it’s not nearly enough. I can’t give my all without leaving myself worthless for the next few days, but i *need* to give my all or i’ll fail.

I’m just scared. Nobody needs to reply to this, I just needed to get it out there. Off my chest.

No typing quirk for this, Recovering from a panic attack and flashback, that was.. awful. I can’t wait to move out.

What do you do to feel euphoric in your blood color? Do you have any tips? I feel weird and clockable wearing my symbol in my desired color, and have been mocked before for "that Homestuck shit", so if you have anything a little less overt I'd really appreciate it.

Also, what was your exploration like? I was and am afraid to be hemophobic, both internally and to trolls of other castes. How did you discover you were pink blooded?

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Hm! I supposed smaller things like jewelry or maybe clothes or even a blog theme in your desired color could help? As our clothes typically correspond with the color of our blood. As does our internet presence (unless hiding it). makeup, can help. Also! Try and look into the specific caste type and any differences they had from the other castes. Try to mimic those things! Maybe make a blog?

It was.. scary, to say the least. I had always prided myself on being otherblooded, it felt like i was throwing it all alway. I understand the fear of being hemophobic, but the best way to overcome that is to be open to correction and learning. That’s the best anybody can do. It was quite a easy thing actually, I remember once, letting a friend dress me up head to toe in fancy clothes, it was mostly pink because she didn’t have.. red. But, I liked it. I’ve decided since then that I felt pink blooded, and I wasn’t going to give that up.

Oh dear. That must of been so irritating.

Does anybody remember the base of our horns being quite itchy? It would . flake? I suppose? Old horn fragments chipping off as the new permanent part grew in. I remember it was nice to get the base of your horns scratched or “preened” basically.

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Is it stereotypical to identify with the jade caste in part due to my maternal nature? Is it reductive?

not at all.

I am s9rry. That was mituna, he was.. upset. And had n9 6l9g 9f his 9wn.

9h dear, I ap9l9gize f9r all that was p9sted 9n my 6l9g while i was away.