ᏍᎩᎦᏚᏏᏁ ᎠᏅᏱ - Sgigadusine Anvyi - March 15th

1/15/2025

What is going on? I'm on my phone more. I'm not doing the steps. Sleep is lacking. I'm not getting into motion. Discipline is falling apart in my mind. My thoughts are not positive. Why? How? When?

It's too much again? But last week it wasn't.

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Today: 1/7/2025

Walked at lunch. It was cold. Step goal complete. One load of dishes complete and put away. One load of laundry complete and put away. Assignment started, discussion post complete. Still need to do responses to two other discussion posts.

Reflection:

House seeing benefit of three day consistency. Encouraged to try to add more tasks. More tasks are needed. Worried about barriers popping up and derailing routine before it's built habit. Worried about taking too many tasks on in a day and burning out. Getting really really cold. Worried I won't feel like working out tomorrow. Need to maintain trigger of coming home, changing clothes, going to the garage and doing something. Doesn't matter what it is as long as it's physically moving my body for 20 minutes. With this new term worried that school is going to derail other priorities. Three days in, have maintained consistency so far. I'm worried that I won't maintain it. I need to keep these small steps going until they're habit. Before adding additional habit steps. A little bit everyday.

Plan for tomorrow:

Won't have opportunity to walk at work. Going to be facilitating training session during lunch hour. Attempt to do A thousand steps before work tomorrow. Need to complete one additional paragraph tomorrow on assignment. Do one load of dishes and put away. Do one load of laundry and put away. 20 minutes of physical activity after work. Ask for help for additional cleaning tasks.

I scheduled a therapy session. I don't know what's wrong. I'm just tired of things being the way they are.

Jaune Quick-to-See Smith (Native American: Confederated Salish and Kootenai Nation, Montana, born 1940),

Memory Map, 2000

Oil on canvas 34 x 46 in (86.4 x 116.8 cm)

Private collection

Follow for the same picture of a rock every day

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I'm back in fire fighting mode. This is the most stressful mindset to be in. Why is it comfortable? Why do I keep defaulting to this. This isn't healthy for me.