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Emet is now available for $5 as a PDF download!
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Debuted this @shortrunseattle and now it’s up for sale in my etsy
“Emet” is a short story about a woman and a Golem – $10, plus shipping 5.5 x 8.5, 12 pages, full color choose media shipping and save money!
I hope to post something about the awesome time I had at Short Run, but it might be a little while because I have about three grad school assignments I’m working on. Also there’s an election tomorrow and I will either be drowning my sorrows or celebrating having dodged the Apocalypse.
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Check it out! My comix on queer coding in horror is available as a PDF! It has a digital exclusive: A recommendation list with brief reviews of 20+ horror movies!
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Queer Code – hard copy $5!
So… this was originally gonna be a few pages explaining “queer coding” but the further I got in it, the more I had to say, so I chopped up the first few panels I made, rearranged them and added like 6 more pages.
When I heard they were making a tv version of “Preacher,” I decided to give the comics a read. I’d read some of Garth Ennis’ other stuff back in high school and I always heard him put up there with Neil Gaiman and Alan Moore.
By the end of the first arc in “Preacher,” I basically had to will-power my way through the rest of the comic because I wanted to know how it ended. Despite having read the whole damn thing only a few months ago, I can barely remember any of it, except for how utterly aggravated the whole thing made me. The most POSITIVE depiction of a queer character in the whole series is of a self-loathing gay cop who can only have sex with other men when they’re beating and humiliating him. THAT’S THE MOST POSITIVE DEPICTION OF A QUEER CHARACTER.
And then I recently read some contemporary manga
“Soil” – One canon queer character. A gay man who is a serial child molester.
“One Punch-Man” – One canon queer character. A gay man who is basically a walking prison rape joke.
“I Am a Hero” – One canon queer character. A transgender man who is repeatedly misgendered and insulted and ultimately dies. But he’s not a rapist or a murderer, so yay representation?
I’ll admit, this comic is coming from a place of anger and disappointment. That the Big Names in Serious Graphic Novels (some of which I really enjoy and really influenced me) still have so much homophobic/transphobic content. That a lot of contemporary comics haven’t progressed much further. I don’t expect every queer character to be a hero, but when you have a mere handful of queer characters and the majority of them die or are villains, it’s a problem. I’d rather see a body horror metaphor for queerness than see another shitty canon queer trope.
Shout out to my fellow queer comic book makers. Even if you’re just xeroxing comics in the campus computer lab and giving them to friends, you are doing good work.
And if Garth Ennis wants to argue that “Preacher” isn’t homophobic, I am ready to throw down in the alley behind my apartment. And by “throw down,” I mean “debate.”
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I drew a Zevran.
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to celebrate 3 years on testosterone, here’s a tutorial on how I do my quick and dirty screentones
To celebrate my 3rd year of being on testosterone, I’m releasing my comix on transmasculinity as a PDF for $4!
THIS COMIC IS INTENDED FOR MATURE READERS -- contains nudity, cigarettes, alcohol, and descriptions of gender dysphoria
Five comix on life and learning after seven hundred and seventy-eight days on testosterone
1. Cleanliness/Manliness - the most important thing I have learned
2. Trans Boy's Complaint - negotiating identity in light of gendered perception
3. Nutrisco et Extinguo - on the myth of testosterone rage
4. Double Stellar Black Hole - the experience of gender dysphoria when you don't know being transgender is a thing that exists
5. Adam Kadmon - for the first transgender man I ever knew
40+ pages, PDF format.
Digital version here:LINK
Hard copy version here:LINK
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Revisiting my "Alien Moon" idea because I'm not satisfied with how that image looks as digital. May re-do the whole thing in paint or color pencil.
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Happy Birthday to my Handsome Boyfriend
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NOW AVAILABLE AS A PDF!
Several people contacted me about getting a digital version of my “Couple’s Therapy” comic, as the cost of shipping for the hard copy was prohibitive.
So you can now get this as a PDF download, for half the price of the hard copy, and no shipping!
Digital copy here: LINK
Hard Copy here: LINK
I'm hoping to make some of my original comix available as PDFs too. This is the first time I've done the digital purchase/download option, so I appreciate any feedback or notification if anyone runs into problems with the files.
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11/14/22 UPDATE: I’ve taken both “Naruto: The Last King, The Last Priest” and “Therapist R. J. Hill” off my etsy store. Both comics can be read, in their entirety, on this tumblr.
I’m one million years behind the times and only just started playing Dragon Age: Origins.
Here is my Dalish Grey Warden, Nissim.
I haven’t *seriously* used color pencils since about middle school, so this is an interesting learning curve.
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Gather 'round for the tale of the apartment horrors I have just escaped!
At the beginning of March, upstairs neighbors' fish tank leaked through their floor and my roommates' ceiling. Landlord came by, said the water was cleaned up, we just needed to open windows and run a fan, not a big deal.
In a semi-basement apartment. In the pacific north west.
I requested the place be inspected for water damage and mold. Landlord said he'd have the upstairs neighbors bring over a fan.
Just... A regular fucking fan.
I sent another request, this time citing local landlord/tenant law. Landlord agreed to get the place inspected.
Over the course of two weeks, we had THREE different inspectors, NOT including the city inspector.
1st inspector said they'd need to open ceiling and wall and deep clean.
2nd inspector said the place had foundation problems and seal around underground walls was cracked.
3rd inspector said they'd need to open ceiling and wall and take out the carpet.
3rd inspectors came in, opened the ceiling and found mold.
As well as asbestos.
(BTW, my maternal grandfather died of asbestos-induced lung cancer.)
So the landlord ~generously~ allowed us to move from that unit to a vacant unit. Which probably also has mold and asbestos.
While this was happening, I was having to take off from work and cancel appointments at my internship to meet inspectors and tenant advocacy groups.
I lost my appetite, barely ate.
Developed new anxiety symptoms: Heart palpitations & shortness of breath.
I found a studio apartment, smaller than any place I've been in so far, shared kitchen, more expensive, but nicer, in a nicer neighborhood. It basically wiped out my savings, but I was able to move out and get my name off the lease.
Landlord is now trying to make upstairs neighbors pay rent on the unit we vacated. He hasn't done any repairs in their unit or that one. They, and my ex-roommates, are lawyering up.
Idk if I'll get any of that deposit back but I'm fucking O U T!
To those of you that bought art from me or gave to my ko-fi, I can't even begin to say how much that meant to me. It really did make a difference.
Inaugurating this beautiful sketchbook made for me by my beautiful boyfriend with some gesture drawings.
1 min, 2 min, 5 min.
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I have been a very bad art school drop-out and have not done any gesture drawing in a looooong time.
A page of 1 minute drawings, and a page of 2 minute drawings.
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Quick doodles of faces and experimenting with marker and color pencil.
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Will R J Hill be back in stock on your etsy at any point ?
Yes! I will be restocking my Etsy this weekend.
Thank you for your patience and your interest in my work!
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Not to *~ blow my own horn ~* but my pieces for Push/Pull Gallery’s Hieronymus Bosch show are gonna be pretty fuckin hype.
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i'm really curious about the story behind "tattooed his ashes onto my ankle"
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT ENCOURAGE/ADVISE ANYONE TO DO AS I HAVE DONENemo died like no other cat I’ve ever had. Usually, if cats are getting old and/or sick, they run off and hole up somewhere. Nemo hopped off my dad’s lap and was heading to the food bowl when he just fell over. Must have had a heart attack or a stroke or something. He was an awesome cat (Thus the title “The Cat by Which All Other Cats are Judged and Found Wanting”) and my friend for 13 years.When we got his ashes back from the vet, I took a pinch of them, mixed them in with some tattoo ink, and gave myself a stick n’ poke of the alchemical symbol for ash.
I was super inspired by @g-e-gogarty ‘s drawings about the personalities of dog breeds, so I thought I’d do drawings of cat breeds but then I realized I’ve never encountered a cat that is actually a specific “breed.” I’ve just had cats that were “it showed up on our porch” breed.
So here is a guide to the many cats that raised me.
(Please view on my tumblr page since it got butchered on the dash...)
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Sooo... I was gonna do some Valentine’s art to sell, but of course I didn’t get it done in time for anyone to actually order it in time for Valentine’s day.
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just some recent sketchbook pages
I think it’s valuable to see artists’ unfinished/process work. It helps to show the amount of work that goes into art-making, and it helps other artists to remember that not every thing you do is a finished product and that’s okay.
I still remember seeing Gustav Klimt’s sketches for the first time and how reassuring it was to see that he also scribbled over faces and figures when they didn’t work out lol.
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Dilara Findikoglu Spring/Summer 2018
someone pay me to just do drawings of over the top fashion <
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more marker practice, this one based on photography by Charles Freger
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still figuring out this whole “drawing with markers” deal
based on the Edward Crutchley Spring/Summer 2018 collection because I am all for “big skirts, tits out” being a Look
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Embroidery piece for my mom.
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What I’ve been working on lately – my first ever piece of embroidery!
It’s for my grandmom.
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juice-demon replied to your post: You not only spent the time making this beast but also the time thinking about these characters, his power, and its explicit uses for sex to come up with this you absolute fucking nerd
┬┴┬┴┤ shh... (･ _├┬┴┬┴
juice-demon replied to your photo: Good lord
how dare you judge me in my own home, on my own internet connection.
which we both pay for.
I mean... WOULDN’T YOU??
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