i dont remember exactly what i said but oscar + road head, hes so nonchalant but sly at the same time hed be stroking her cheek while down her throat and shed be pouting because he doesnt seem the slightest bit flustered
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i think he'd maintain a straight face... or try to. his knuckles are white from gripping the wheel, and he's trying his hardest to contain the groans from escaping.
he'd lay one hand on the back of your head, coaxing you softly, muttering praises for how well you're taking him, voice even and not at all bothered. you're at odds with his composure, feeling second toâ well, your safety; he was still manning the wheel and making sure your were on the right side of the road, and away from speeding vehicles.
you huff, pulling away to level him with an aggrieved gaze. he just coos, when he notices; "you look pretty this way baby," he smothers the glistening precum and spit on your lips, muttering under his breath, "such a pretty girl." he grazes his fingers on your reddened cheek.
you hated his patronising lilt, lower lip jutted out from his gentle ministrations. for once, you'd want to see him lose his neverending self control.
you flattened your tongue against his weeping tip, wrapping your lips around his member and breathing through your nose as you slowly, inch by agonizing inch took him in your mouth.... you were gonna make him cry.
oscar hit the breaks hastily.
DadBstf!seb just teaching you how to fuck after your dad asked him to stay at the house with you whilst heâs away
this fucks. so much. you get it. you get me.
Just as you arrived home for summer break, your parents were leaving for the 25th wedding anniversary trip. Although you were 20 and had stayed home alone a million times over, your parents, well your dad, still didn't trust you to stay at home alone.Â
As an extra precaution, he asked his best friend, Sebastian, to stay with you for the few days they'd be gone.Â
You and Sebastian always co-existed, you got along just fine and there was no bad blood but it's not like you spent a lot of time having conversations with him. Truthfully, for most of your life, Sebastian popped in for a weekend here and there or your parents took a trip to see him race. Even when you did watch the races, he wasn't really there - Â he was mostly focussed on his race.Â
But now it was just the two of you, in the house for the next six days.Â
Sebastian have left earlier that day, knocking on your door and telling you that he's got some errands to run and he would be back later that afternoon. You shouted okay and rolled over and went back to sleep.Â
It was nearly 6, when you heard the front door unlocked. Sebastian coming in with a few bags before returning to the living room to check on you.Â
âWhatâre you watching?â He asked, walking around to sit next to you on the couch. âOh uh, fifty shades.â You shrugged, âthey finally put the second part on and I fell asleep in the theatre when we went to go see it.âÂ
âAre you old enough to be watching this?â Seb looked over at you, deadpan but you laughed. âVery funny,â you reached for the remote, âI can change it, we can watch something else.âÂ
âNo no,â Seb shook his head, settling in on the couch. âDonât change it on account of me, watch your movie.âÂ
The two of you sit in silence for a bit, focussed on the movie, playing on screen. And, of course, as expected, a sex scene on. You hear Sebastian snicker and you look over at him, confused.Â
âWhat?â You asked, âyouâre not that childish, are you?â You joked and he shook his head.Â
âIt looks so.. forced. I know itâs not real but they didnât even try to make it seem real.âÂ
âI wouldnât know the difference,â you shrugged, turning your attention back to the scene. Sebastian was curious, everyone knew that but they also knew curiosity was what killed the cat.Â
He shifts to face you, âwhat does that mean?âÂ
âI had sex once at this party but I was drunk and from what I can remember, it wasnât that great.âÂ
âWell thatâs no good,â he says and you shrug once again, âthatâs life.âÂ
âIt doesnât have to be that way.â He looks at you and you look back to him, brows furrowed. âWhat does that mean?âÂ
Sebastian scoots a little closer. âI can show you.. if youâd like.âÂ
âWe shouldn't,â you turn to face him.Â
He shrugs, âwhatâs the harm?â He pulls your leg and now you're face to face with him. âYou need a real man to show you how to fuck.â His hand comes up to rest on your cheek and you find yourself leaning into him. You close the gap, kissing the man.
It was heavy, heated. His hands on your body, pulling you over and onto him. You were perched on his lap, Sebâs hands on your ass when he kisses you.
Not a word is spoken between the two of you, what little clothes you had on was gathered in a pile on the floor when he rolls you two over again. You were flat on your back, Seb settled between your legs.
âAre we-â you cut him off with a kiss. âPlease,â your hand rested on his jaw, âSeb please.â
He nods, there wasn't much else to say. Not that anything makes sense at the moment, it was all physical. His hand slips between the two of you, his fingers rubbing slow circles on your clit. Your hips lift, wanting more from him.
Sebâs hand wandered a little lower, a finger pushed in slowly. He can feel how wet you are, wrapped around his finger and he smiles.
âAll of this for me?â He asks, cocky as ever.
âGod, just fuck me.â You mumble, not wanting to wait. You waited long enough.
Seb nods, barely pushing into you. Your hands grip on his biceps, his lips finding yours when he pushes in all the way, muffling the moans that left your lips.Â
He pulls one of your legs up to hitch on his hip. âFuck,â you breath, his thrusts faster and harder. How you wished you could scream his name right now. Sebâs hand drops between the two of you, rubbing your clit; matching the pace of his hips.
Your head falls back into the pillows when he hits the spot he was looking for. His fingers that were previous on your clit now shoved into your mouth to muffle the sounds tumbling from your lips.
Seb leans down, his lips next to your ear; âyou know those boys couldn't satisfy you the way I do.âÂ
kissing him from forehead to waist on a lazy day spent in bed just so that he gets all warm and flustered and hard as a rock before i pull down his underwear and ride him until heâs moaning broken i love youâs into my mouth
I smile like an idiot when I see my man, whoâs not my man, on my television screen.
I wanna date the cool House.
The House that's funny and sarcastic. Never fails to bring a smile to your face with a cheesy pick up line or a terrible joke.
The House that wears rock band shirts and checks you out when you steal one but has to physically pry it off you to have it back.
The House that's silly and plays on his imaginary guitar (cane) while jamming to a random song to make you laugh.
The House that picks you up from places in affectionally humiliating ways. Stopping his motorcycle right in front of you and saying a made up thing in an unnecessarily loud voice so everyone can hear, leaving you desperately trying to explain to people that, no, you don't have an abnormally hairy right big toe, nor have you created an account on a dating site to search for a sugar daddy.
The House that takes you on late night rides on his motorcycle when you're in a bad mood and buys you a pizza while he's at it.
The House that actually buys you (or already has two) the same band shirt he has so you're matching.
The House that sits with you in an empty bathtub, just eating, laughing, and talking. Spending time with you.
The House that, despite the pain in his leg, tries dancing with you to a song playing so loud he gets a noise complaint just because he wants to see you happy.
The House that happily and proudly wears the matching bracelet you made, shoving it in everyone's faces.
A/N: All right, letâs quickly talk about this threesome, I hope this is what you had in mind when requesting this, anon.
Prompt B107â âwanna join?â
Warnings: Hint of fluff, smut, touching, kissing, mention of voyeurism, nudeness, threesome, explicit language, blowjob(s), unprotected sex(reader is on the pill), hair pulling/gripping, pet name(princess), light choking, dirty talking, cum swallowing, pussy slapping, overstimulation?, mention of several orgasms, creampie.
W/C: 2.3K
Age Warning: I will not take responsibility because you wanted to read this, but if youâre under the  age of 18+, DO NOT INTERACT OR READ. Do not take this as educational, this is fiction!
You and Mick had the cabin to yourself, or so you had hoped, you went to a resort with everyone and shared a cabin with a few drivers, and unfortunately, you also shared a room with one of the drivers, but luckily for the night, Callum had decided to go out with everyone, leaving you and Mick alone in the cabin, you were laying on the bed, kissing and touching each other, his hands were on your covered breasts while your hand was rubbing him through his shorts, you had both already showered and were in your nightwear, ready for a couples evening, but somehow the evening had slowly turned heated.
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its literally like midnight and my brain has shut off
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hear me out!! being houseâs controversially young gf ?? (aka my fucking dream)
⢠the first time people found out? TOTAL MASS panic.
⢠everyone assumed it was some weird fling, a dumb rumor.
. . . until you actually showed up in his office, sitting on his desk, swinging your legs, all casual while house is leaned back in his chair, grinning like a smug bastard.
⢠cuddy 100% nearly had a STROKE.
âyouâyouâhouseâyou canât justâ??â
⢠âI canât just what, lisa? Have a hot, young girlfriend whoâs way too good for me? yeah, I know. tragic.â
⢠foreman thinks itâs insane and he would totally be the biggest hater. Cameron is lowkey jealous. chase is just fascinated. taub? oh, heâs taking NOTES
⢠Wilson, bless his soul, literally sits you down like a concerned dad and tries to have The Talkâ˘.
⢠âyou know heâs⌠house, right?â wilson spoke carefully, leaning his forearms on his desk looking you straight in the eye with a frown.
âI just mean, heâs difficult, heâs complicated, heâs olderââ
âYou forgot rude and insanely sexy.â we all know house. where did he just come from? who knows. but heâs ALWAYS going to be there to annoy wilson.
âRight. Those too.â and poor wilson is traumatised, exhausted, and fucking confused?? i mean- who wouldnt be??
⢠everyone assumes youâll break up with him in a few months, but jokeâs on themâyouâre just as unhinged, just as stubborn, and you get him in a way no one else does.
summary: soft aftercare with mick <3
authors note: first post of 2023 :)) thanks for sticking with me !!
mick has known about his gfs anxiety and vulnerability around sex since the early days of the relationship and they promised to take things slow
heâs always been the sweetest and most attentive lover in and out of the bedroom
so when she starts crying after their bout in the sheets one afternoon, his first instinct is to panic
âwhatâs wrong, leibling?â he says softly, using his thumb to brush away the tears
âitâs been a weird week. my emotions have been all over the place.â
snuggling into micks side, resting her head on his chest as he kisses the top of her head softly
âand the adrenaline drop isnât helping.â he said quietly, running his fingertips over her skin
âitâs okay, schatzi. i love you, y/n. and Iâve enjoyed every minute we spent in this bed today.â
heâs flicking in his mind through this little imaginary file deck of things that they usually do together after sex and heâs trying to decide what might relax or cheer her up the most
because heâs not always okay when sheâs not okay, especially if thereâs nothing he can do about it
âdo you want a warm shower, maybe weâll take angie for a walk afterwards?â
âIâd really like that.â she says, tangling her fingers with his. âif I join you in the shower, do I get a scalp massage?â
warm showers have always been one of micks favourite ways to reconnect after sex
just holding her close, standing skin to skin under the warm water, massaging the aches out of her body
â¨scalp massages â¨
massages are one of her absolute favourite things
massages have started many a night of passionate sex, like the afternoon theyâd just had, which started with warm massage oil and a stress relieving back massage and had ended with two orgasms
but his all time favourite form of aftercare is a romantic walk with angie and his girlfriend
to him itâs the most intimate thing in the world: something as mundane and normal as walking his dog with the woman that he loves
they dress after the shower, in comfortable clothes and stolen kisses as they let angie into the bedroom
âwhoâs a good girl?â y/ns face brightens instantly when she sees the dog, kneeling down to scratch angie behind the ears, tail wagging furiously
itâs a perfect way to end the afternoon
walking around genolier holding his lovers hand on one hand and Angieâs leash in the other
itâs so mundane and casual, breath fogging in the air as they buy hot chocolate from a street vendor
he wouldnât have it any other way
summary: she looks so good in her halloween costume, and all he wants is to bury his head between her thighs until she screams his name. even if it is in patoâs bathroom.
prompt: semi-public sex
pairing: david malukas x female reader
warnings: bathroom sex, david has an eensie weensie little bit of a corruption kink, sting ray gets traumatized
she looked so innocent, dancing with lissie and elba, her tight white dress hugging her curves. the dress was a decent length, down to just above her knees, but in davids hungry eyes, it was downright indecent.
the trio had dressed for the occasion: a triplets costume as kiss, marry and kill appropriately. elba was kiss, lissie was kill and y/n was marry, a charming white veil falling over her hair.
david malukas was smitten, it was an open secret.
there was nothing he wanted more than to hike his girlfriends skirt up to her waist, rip her lacy panties in half and bury his head between her thighs until she cried from overstimulation.
âdude, stop undressing her with your eyes. itâs getting creepy.â pato oâ ward laughed, placing a red solo cup in front of him. âi get that you two are in love or whatever, but I do not want to hear you two having sex in the trailer before a race.â
âbut itâs my good luck charm.â dave joked, finally managing to tear his eyes away from his lover âdonât worry, i wouldnât do that to you. I respect you guys too much. sting ray on the other handâŚgosh heâs fun to fuck with.â
âif you could stop being madly in love for five minutes, maybe youâd actually get something done.â pato joked, nudging his shoulder
well, how could dave get anything done when all he wanted to do was her?
he slipped behind her, resting his hands on his lovers waist before leaning down to rest his chin on the top of her head. she hummed in content, leaning into his touch, placing one hand on top of his.
lissie and elba gave them a knowing look before drifting off to find their respective partners: marcus was out on the porch with the other ganassi boys and elbas husband had long since vanished after pato sent him on a beer run.
âyour friends didnât have to leave.â
âthey did when you gave me bedroom eyes.â y/n laughed, mimicking her boyfriends âfuck meâ eyes before she kissed him softly, turning around in his touch so she could hug him.
one of davids hands come down to gently squeeze her ass, a fistful of flesh in his comforting grip. she knew what he wanted.
âyou look so innocent in white. with those carnations on your wrist and the lace on your hair. but nobody else knows what I know, my pretty perfect girl.â
âmhm, and whatâs that.â
âhow you sound anything but innocent when I have my tongue buried inside of you.â he rasped, lips just barely dusting her ear.
and thatâs how they found themselves on one of the houseâs cavernous bathrooms, their giggles echoing off the tile as david swept her off her feet, his lips stitched to hers with a grin as he guided her towards the vanity.
âdavid!â she giggled, feeling his hands venture up her dress, hiking the white fabric over her hips before he groaned.
âjesus, you even wore the leg garter.â
âum, yeah. hand to god, I was hoping youâd rip it off me when we got home.â
at the confession, he wasted no time dropping to his knees, kissing up her thigh before gripping the garter between his teeth and attempting to tear it off. when that didnât work, the mclaren driver let out a disgruntled, well, grunt, before ripping it apart by hand. she gasped, feeling his hungry lips trailing up her thigh.
"here? in pato's bathroom?"
david shrugged. "i had a craving."
"for what?" she laughed
"you. on the counter, love. spread those gorgeous legs nice and wide for me."
she did as she was told, perching on the edge of the counter. her garter lay in shambles on the floor, which she had figured was going to happen at some point during the night. david's hands grappled for her lacy panties, the man barely paying the pattern any mind as he fought to yank them down her legs without breaking them (and he heard a few stitches pop, he can't guarantee there aren't any rips).
"you're my own personal angel, sweetheart." he breathed, sinking to the cold tile floor. the bathroom lighting was soft, framing her face in a gentle halo of light. "too wicked for heaven, but way too sweet for hell."
she breathed heavily as david's warm hands parted her slick lips, her juices dripping onto the counter.
"fuck, baby." he exhaled. "i got you this worked up already?"
she nodded, nudging him with one silver stiletto-clad foot. "david. please."
"patience, my sweet girl." david hummed, clicking his tongue before running his fingers over entrance. "so good for me." he breathed, the cold air to her most sensitive area making her jolt.
and when his tongue licked it's first path up her cunt, she couldn't stop the moan she let out; a hearty, yet strangled cry that she was certain could be heard through the drywal if not for felix's phone being hooked up to the sound system, currently blaring the monster mash.
she would never get tired of the way david ate her out, like he was on death row and she was his last meal. he paid her so much care and attention, her arousal dripping down his face as he practically french kissed her heat, strong hands keeping her legs spread for him.
"oh god, david." she whined, bucking against his face, tangling one hand in his curls.
"i know honey, i know. god, i love this pussy. but you need to stay quiet. we can't let anybody hear those sexy noises you make." he slurred, drunk off the taste of her as he plunged his tongue inside her without warning.
she tried to form words, tried to even just let out an expletive, but all that came out was another strangled moan, this one louder than the first, followed by a series of whimpers as she leaned back against the mirror, almost fucking herself on his tongue as she struggled to keep her hips under control.
âdavid!â she whined, pouting when he pulled away from her, a mischievous grin on his face.
âyou promised to be quiet, love.â
âfuck off. I can be quiet, I will be so fucking quiet.â she begged. âplease david, I need your tongue.â
âyou have to be so so quiet, pretty girl. or Iâll have to put your panties in your mouth to muffle those pretty whines.â
he focussed his attention back on her aching core, tongue lapping up every last drop of the juices spilling from her. she bit her lip to stop herself from moaning, hard enough to draw blood as he sucked her clit in between his lips.
âoh my god, david.â
âwhat the fuck?!?!â
david stumbled to his feet, almost tripping in the white lace lying against the floor as he moved the shield his girlfriend from the interlopers eyes.
âsting ray? what the fuck, dude!â david shouted, trying to wipe off his face. it was pointless: they were both flushed red and it was obvious what they had been doing.
of course, the garter and panties on the floor would probably give it away.
sting ray robb stood in the doorway blinking as he tried to comprehend what he had just walked in on. âhave you never heard of locking the goddamn door! I have seen things that no man should ever see!â
âhavenât you ever heard of knocking!â
shocked, dumbfounded and a little traumatized, sting ray shut his eyes and backed away from the doorframe, practically slamming the door closed with a disgusted shout.
âI have seen things I canât unsee!â his idaho drawl carried down the hall as david and y/n stood stock still in the bathroom, laughter on their rosy cheeks.
âdave!â she scolded âwhy didnât you lock the door?â
david shrugged, kissing her forehead. âyou distract me too much. I love you.â
âI love you too.â
âif I lock the door, can we finish what we started?â
âdavid malukas!â
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more bombshell reader and maybe jealous hotch!!
Masterlist || Ao3
Pairing:Â Aaron Hotchner x Bombshell Female Reader||Word Count:Â 20k!!
Tags/Warnings: No use of Y/N, canon-typical violence, canon-typical themes, spoilers/mentions of past character's death(s), hurt/comfort, jealousy, fluff, angst, breakups, forbidden romance, smut, sex without protection, yearning Hotch, Reader is Hotch's Boss, holidays, Reader has hair, cheating if you squint (not on each other; not Reader on/by Hotch), mentions of alcohol at social setting, bombshell reader, possessive Hotch, jealous reader
Sypnosis: As the new section chief of the BAU, youâre determined to lead with professionalismâdespite an undeniable connection with Aaron Hotchner, the stoic unit chief who understands you like no one else. When your growing romance draws scrutiny from the Bureau and threatens both your careers, breaking things off feels like the only choice. But resisting your feelings is easier said than done, and navigating the fallout proves more complicatedâand personalâthan either of you anticipated.
Aaron Hotchner had always believed in rules. They provided structure, a way to ensure order in the chaos of the world he inhabited daily. He lived by themâuntil you walked back into his life.
When you first stepped into Erin Straussâ old office as the new Section Chief of the Behavioral Analysis Unit, Aaron had already known you would get the job. Not because you were an excellent candidate, though that was undeniable, but because he had written the letter of recommendation that tipped the scales. Heâd been the one to argue your case, to convince the higher-ups that your tactical mind, people skills, and years of leadership in the Child Abduction and Serial Killer Unit made you the right choice.
He knew he couldnât take on the job himself. He didnât want to sacrifice his time in the field or more time away from Jack. Things with Beth had just mutually ended, and he knew now wasnât time for a big change in his career. His team needed stability, too. He knew where to find it for them. He couldnât think of a better boss for himself or his team.Â
But what Aaron hadnât expected was how your presence would shift the ground beneath his feet.
From day one, you were everything he rememberedâcommanding, intelligent, and stunning. But there was a new energy to you now. Your style was impeccable, all sharp lines and elegance, yet undeniably bold. You wore heels that clicked purposefully against the tiled floors, and your perfume lingered just long enough to be distracting. Every room you entered turned its attention to you, though you never seemed to revel in it. You worked hardâharder than anyoneâbut also knew how to treat yourself. Aaron admired that, envied it even.
And then there was the personal side, the one you didnât show many. The way you smiled when you spoke about your nieceâs upcoming recital. The way your laugh, a warm and genuine sound, filled the briefing room when someone cracked a joke. You were extra, yesâextravagant evenâbut never entitled. You could be sharp-tongued and exacting, but you were also kind and humble. You never asked anyone for anything you wouldnât provide for yourself.
You were a paradox, and Aaron found himself drawn to you more every day.
The first time the two of you crossed the line, it had been... unplanned.
It was late, the kind of late where the bullpen was empty except for the faint hum of desk lamps and the rhythmic clicks of Aaron typing. You had come down from your office, a mug of tea in your hand and a softness to your expression he rarely saw as you popped into his opened door.
âYouâre still here?â
âI could ask the same of you,â he replied, looking up from his laptop as you perched on the edge of his desk.
The conversation started as work but soon meandered. Aaron had always valued your opinion, and it wasnât unusual for the two of you to linger over cases. But that night, as the hours stretched on, there was a shift.
âIâve always admired your dedication,â you said quietly, your gaze steady on him.Â
âThank you,â Aaron replied, his throat tightening.
âAnd the way you fought for me to get this position... Aaron, it means more than you know.â
There was a vulnerability in your voice, a crack in the armor you so carefully maintained. Aaron wasnât sure what compelled him, but before he could second-guess it, his hand covered yours where it rested on his desk.
That simple touch was all it took to change everything.
Weeks passed before either of you acknowledged what was happening. It started innocently enoughâa lingering glance across the briefing room, the brush of hands when passing files, the way your voices softened when it was just the two of you. But it didnât take long for the connection to deepen, slipping past the professional boundaries you had so carefully constructed.
Aaron would find himself texting you late at night, ostensibly to discuss case details, but the conversations often veered into personal territory. It wouldnât take long until you crossed the boundary, deciding the messages werenât enough phone calls were needed. He learned that you hated mornings but loved the ritual of your complicated coffee orders, that you missed the simplicity of fieldwork but thrived in your new role because it gave you a broader sense of impact. You learned that he still struggled with guilt over Haley, that he missed spending more time with Jack but refused to let his son see his father falter.
The shift wasnât dramatic, but it was undeniable. The way you looked at him during meetings lingered too long, your gaze softening when you thought no one else was watching. The way he always stood a little closer to you than necessary, catching your perfumeâan elegant mix of jasmine and citrusâthat lingered long after you walked away. The stolen moments became something he craved, something he couldnât ignore.
Aaron knew it was wrongâor, at the very least, complicated. But the way you saw him, truly saw him, made it impossible to stay away. Aaron had met a lot of people in his life, nobody who completely saw him. It was almost as if he spent his whole life searching for it, for it to be looking him in the face all of these years.Â
The first time he kissed you, it was in your office.
You were pacing, heels clicking against the polished floor, your tailored suit jacket hanging neatly on the back of your chair. The soft silk blouse you wore glimmered faintly in the dim light, catching his attention more than it should have.
âCan you believe this?â you muttered, gesturing toward the papers on your desk. âA dozen forms to approve before tomorrow, as if I donât already have enough to do. And the Director wants an update onââ
âStop,â Aaron interrupted gently, his deep voice cutting through your frustration.
You froze mid-stride, turning to face him. Your expression softened slightly, but your eyesâthose piercing, calculating eyes that could read anyone in a heartbeatâsearched his face for answers.
âWhat is it, Aaron?â you asked the edge in your tone melting into something warmer.
He stood from the chair opposite your desk, his broad shoulders and crisp suit making him seem even taller in the small space.
âI canât do this anymore,â he admitted, his voice quiet but firm.
Your brow furrowed, confusion flickering across your features. âDo what?â
He stepped closer, his dark eyes locked on yours, his presence overwhelming in the best way.
âPretend that I donât want more.â
For a moment, the air between you stilled, charged with an unspoken tension that had been building for weeks. Your lips parted slightly, but no words came. Instead, you tilted your head, studying him with the same intensity you reserved for interrogations.
And then your free hand moved, reaching up to curl into his tie, the silk fabric slipping easily between your fingers. You tugged gently, pulling him toward you, your breath mingling with his.
âAaron,â you murmured, a faint warning still lingering in your tone.
But he didnât stop. His hand rose to cup the side of your face, his thumb brushing against your cheekbone. Your skin was warm, impossibly soft, and he couldnât remember the last time heâd felt anything so grounding.
The kiss started tentative, almost hesitant, but the moment your lips met, it shattered whatever walls remained between you. You leaned into him, your other hand finding its way to his chest, where his heart pounded beneath the crisp cotton of his shirt. His other hand slid to your waist, his fingers pressing lightly against the curve of your hip, steadying you as you deepened the kiss.
You tasted like mint and something sweet, and Aaron thought he might be losing his mind. The world outside your office door ceased to exist; there was only you, your warmth, your intoxicating presence.
When you finally pulled back, your cheeks were flushed, and your breathing uneven. His tie was slightly askew, and your fingers still clutched it loosely as if unsure whether to let go.
âWell,â you said, your voice teasing but laced with something raw, something real. âThatâs one way to solve a bureaucratic nightmare.â
Aaron chuckled softly, his forehead resting briefly against yours.
âIâm sorry,â he murmured, though he didnât look it. He certainly didnât feel it.Â
âDonât be,â you replied, your fingers brushing the lapel of his jacket. âJust... donât make me regret this.â
âI wonât,â he promised, his voice steady.
And he meant it. Whatever came next, whatever complications or consequences arose, Aaron knew one thing for certain: thisâyouâwas worth it.
Aaron Hotchner had never been one to let himself indulgeânot in anything that wasnât for Jack, at least. His life revolved around necessity and function, keeping his head above water while ensuring those around him could do the same. Haley and Beth had been simpleâŚthese minor things didnât appeal to them. But with you, indulgence didnât feel frivolous. It felt... right.
The kiss had been a turning point. It wasnât just the line crossedâit was the invitation to something more. After that moment in your office, there was no going back. Within days, the two of you had quietly shifted from colleagues to something undeniably personal. By the end of the first week, Aaron had asked you out, and to his surprise, youâd agreed without hesitation.
Your first date had been dinner at a small but elegant restaurant nestled in the heart of Georgetown. Aaron had chosen the spot carefullyâupscale enough to meet your polished tastes but intimate enough to keep prying eyes at bay.
âI have to admit,â youâd said over a glass of sauvignon blanc, âI wasnât sure youâd be able to keep up with me.â
Aaron had raised an eyebrow, a smirk tugging at his lips. âKeep up with you how?â
Your expression had turned playful, your eyes sparkling in the candlelight. âLetâs just say Iâve been accused of having... expensive taste.â
Aaron had leaned back in his chair, swirling his whiskey casually. âYou think I donât know that by now?â he teased. âYouâre the only person Iâve ever met who insisted on a specific brand of bottled water for office meetings.â
âThatâs called maintaining standards,â you countered with mock indignation.
He chuckled softly, the sound low and warm. âDonât worry. I might be frugal, but Iâm not struggling. And I like to spoil the people I care about.â
The admission had caught you off guard, he could tell. Your confident demeanor had faltered just enough for him to notice, and for a moment, youâd looked down at your glass, your smile softer. âWell,â youâd said finally, meeting his gaze again, âI wonât complain about that.â
By the time youâd gone on a few dates, Aaron found himself more at ease with the idea of what you were becoming. It wasnât just the shared dinners, the quiet moments in the corners of bars, or the back seats of dimly lit movie theaters. It was the way you fit into his life so seamlessly. Despite your differencesâyou with your love of extravagance and meticulous planning and him with his pragmatic approach and quiet restraintâyou balanced each other.
You worked well together, too. Surprisingly well. If anything, your meticulous attention to detail and unrelenting standards had only strengthened the BAU. Aaron had always considered himself by the book, but compared to you, he realized he could be downright lenient.
âYouâre more Type A than I am,â he commented one night after a case briefing, leaning against the doorframe of your office.
You glanced up from your perfectly organized desk, where every file was stacked at precise right angles. âIs that your way of saying Iâm bossy?â
âNot at all,â he replied, his tone teasing. âIâm saying youâre by-the-book to a fault. Itâs impressive, really.â
You rolled your eyes, but your smile betrayed you. âSays the man who color-codes his case files.â
âTouchĂŠ,â he admitted, crossing his arms over his chest. âBut I donât panic at the thought of bending the rules when necessary.â
Your expression sobered slightly, and Aaron noticed the way your hands stilled over the papers in front of you. âI just... I donât want to give anyone a reason to question meâor us.â
Ah. There it was.
âYouâre worried about telling the Director,â Aaron said, stepping further into the room.
Your silence was answer enough.
Aaron sat on the edge of your desk, his presence grounding. âThings are going well,â he said firmly. âThe team respects you. Cases are running smoothly. We work together seamlessly. Thereâs no reason for anyone to take issue with thisâunless we give them one.â
You looked up at him, your expression vulnerable in a way few ever saw. âBut what if they do? What if they say itâs inappropriate or unprofessional? I could lose this position, Aaron.â
He reached for your hand, covering it with his. The touch was gentle, but his grip steady, reassuring. âYou wonât lose it. Youâve earned this. No one can take that from you.â
âBut what about you?â you asked quietly. âIf this affects your place on the team...â
âI wonât let it,â Aaron said with conviction. âWeâve handled worse than bureaucratic red tape. Besides, I think the Director has bigger problems than two senior members of the BAU in a consensual, functional relationship.â
Your lips twitched into a reluctant smile. âFunctional, huh? Thatâs romantic.â
Aaron smirked, brushing his thumb over your knuckles. âWhat can I say? Iâm a realist.â
You shook your head, your laughter soft but genuine. âI donât know how you stay so calm about this.â
âBecause Iâve spent my life trying to control everything,â he admitted. âAnd Iâve learned the hard way that some things are worth the risk.â
Your gaze lingered on his, the weight of his words settling between you. And for the first time since this all began, Aaron saw the tension in your shoulders ease.
âOkay,â you said finally, your voice steady. âWeâll tell the Director. Together.â
Aaron nodded, a small smile tugging at his lips. âTogether.â
In that moment, as the two of you sat in the quiet comfort of your shared understanding, Aaron knew one thing for certain: whatever the future held, you were worth it. Every risk, every consequenceâyou were worth it.
Aaron Hotchner had walked into more high-pressure situations than he could count. Interrogating unsubs. Negotiating with armed suspects. Delivering heartbreaking news to grieving families. But as he sat outside the Directorâs office with you beside him, he felt a knot in his stomach that rivaled even the most tense of standoffs.
You sat with your legs crossed, your polished heel bouncing ever so slightlyâa nervous tick Aaron had come to recognize. You were dressed impeccably, as always, your tailored blazer sharp enough to cut through steel. But Aaron knew you well enough to see the tension in the way you smoothed nonexistent wrinkles from your skirt or adjusted your necklace.
He reached over, his hand brushing yours lightly. âWeâll be fine,â he said quietly, his voice low enough not to carry.
You turned your head, offering him a small smile, but the doubt in your eyes was unmistakable.
Before he could say more, the assistant opened the door. âThe Director will see you now.â
The Directorâs office was a testament to order and authority. Every book on the shelves was carefully aligned, the awards and commendations behind the desk displayed with precision. Aaron Hotchner had sat across from this desk many times, but today, the air felt heavier. He wasnât just representing his team or defending a decision. Today was personal.
The Director greeted them with a curt nod, gesturing for them to sit. Aaron glanced at you as you settled into the chair beside him, your posture immaculate, your gaze steady. He knew the nerves beneath the surface were hidden behind that calm, polished exterior.
âYou wanted to discuss something... personal,â the Director said, leaning back slightly, his hands folded on the desk.
Aaron cleared his throat and straightened in his chair. âYes, sir. We wanted to inform you about our relationship.â
The Directorâs eyebrows rose slightly, but his face remained unreadable. He waited, prompting Aaron to continue.
âWeâve been seeing each other for some time now. Weâve taken every precaution to ensure it doesnât interfere with our work or the teamâs performance. Cases continue to run smoothly, and morale remains high. We believeââ
The Director raised a hand, signaling for Aaron to stop.
Aaron exchanged a brief glance with you. The air seemed to grow heavier.
âI appreciate your honesty,â the Director said, his voice even, almost sympathetic. âBut this isnât acceptable.â
You leaned forward slightly, your tone measured but firm. âWith all due respect, sir, weâve maintained professionalism at all times. There has been no impact on the teamâs dynamics or efficiency.â
The Director sighed and leaned back in his chair, his expression thoughtful but resolute. âThis isnât about professionalism or efficiency, though I trust that both of you believe youâve kept those intact. Itâs about perception. The BAU is already under a microscope. The media, oversight committees, politiciansâtheyâre all waiting for any reason to scrutinize this unit further.â
Aaron shifted in his seat. âSir, weâve handled public scrutiny before. Weâve worked under immense pressure and still delivered results. I believeââ
âYou believe,â the Director interrupted, his voice gentle but firm. âBut this is not about what you believe or how well you perform. Itâs about how this looks. Two of the highest-ranking members in the same unit, in a romantic relationship? It opens doors for questions about bias, favoritism, and poor judgment.â
You stiffened slightly, and Aaron could feel the tension radiating from you.
âWeâve had to address optics before,â the Director continued, his tone less stern and more weary. âWhen Erin Strauss was here, we allowed too much to slideâher personal struggles, her decisions that created friction within the team. It put the BAU in a precarious position, one we barely recovered from. And now, with our history, with every move under scrutiny, I canât let this slide. Not again.â
Aaron pressed his lips into a thin line, forcing himself to remain composed. âSir, neither of us would let this compromise our responsibilities. Our records speak for themselves.â
The Director nodded slowly. âThey do, Hotchner. Both of you have impeccable records, and I trust your intentions. But this isnât about trust. Itâs about precedent. If I allow this, what message does it send? That personal relationships among senior staff are acceptable? That the rules donât apply here?â
You spoke next, your voice calm but resolute. âWeâre not asking for special treatment. Weâre asking for acknowledgment that this doesnât interfere with our ability to lead.â
The Director exhaled, his tone softening. âI understand what youâre saying. And if the world operated on logic alone, I might agree. But the reality is perception matters. The BAU is too visible, too scrutinized. I canât allow this.â
âWhat are you saying?â Aaron asked, though he already knew the answer.
âIâm saying one of you has to transfer, or this relationship ends,â the Director said evenly. âThose are your options. I wonât dictate which path you choose, but this arrangement cannot continue while youâre both in these positions.â
The finality in his tone hit like a cold wind. Aaronâs fists clenched in his lap, though his face remained impassive. Beside him, he could feel you bristling but holding yourself together.
âIs there any room for reconsideration?â you asked, your voice level but tight.
The Director shook his head. âI wish there were. I respect both of you immensely. But this is a line we canât afford to cross.â
The silence that followed was suffocating.
âI can draft up some reccomendsations for units to transfer,â he continued, âBut Iâd warn you, that may put a bigger target on your back with the brass.âÂ
âIs that all, sir?â you asked finally, your voice sharper than you likely intended.
âThatâs all,â the Director replied, his tone tinged with something almost regretful.
The Directorâs words still echoed in Aaron Hotchnerâs ears as you stormed out of the office, your heels clicking sharply against the tile floor. Aaron trailed behind you, his thoughts spinning, barely registering the brisk pace you set.
When you reached the bullpen, you didnât stop. You headed straight for the stairs that led to the upper offices, bypassing your usual elevator ride. Aaron hesitated for a moment before following, his long strides catching up to you as you pushed through the door to your private office and let it slam shut behind you.
For a moment, Aaron stood outside, his hand hovering near the doorknob. He could hear you moving insideâpapers rustling, a muffled sigh, the creak of your chair as you sat heavily into it. He took a breath and opened the door, stepping inside and closing it quietly behind him.
You didnât look at him. Instead, you stared at your desk, your hands resting on its polished surface as if grounding yourself. Your jaw was tight, your expression unreadable, but Aaron had known you long enough to see the storm brewing beneath the surface.
âThis is ridiculous,â you said finally, your voice low but trembling with barely contained frustration. âWeâve done everything right. Everything. And it still doesnât matter.â
Aaron didnât respond immediately. What could he say that wouldnât feel hollow? That he agreed? That he hated the situation just as much as you did? None of it would change the reality bearing down on both of you.
âWeâll figure this out,â he said quietly, though the words felt inadequate even as he spoke them.
Your head snapped up, your eyes blazing as they met his. âHow, Aaron? How do we figure this out? Do I transfer? Do you? Do we just pretend weâre fine with throwing everything away?â
Aaron opened his mouth, but the words caught in his throat. Heâd been in impossible situations beforeâones where no option felt right, but he had to choose anyway. This time, though, the stakes felt different. He wasnât deciding a case, balancing strategy and risk. He was standing on the precipice of losing something he hadnât even realized he needed until it was almost too late.
When you finally looked away, your shoulders slumping under the weight of the conversation, Aaron allowed himself a moment to think. To really think.
He imagined what it would mean to leave. Retiring from fieldwork had crossed his mind beforeâJack was growing up fast, and Aaron had often wondered if he was missing too much. But the idea of stepping into a more conservative role, away from the pulse of the work, left a hollow ache in his chest.
And then there was you. He thought of you sacrificing your position, giving up this incredible opportunity that you had earned through sheer determination and talent. The thought twisted his stomach.
Aaron couldnât bear it. He couldnât let another person give up so much of themselves for his job. He had promised himself, after Haley, that he wouldnât let his work consume anyone else. That was why he had let Beth go so easily when she wanted more for herself and her career.
But you werenât Haley or Beth. You were different. You were his equal, his match in every way that mattered. And yet, the guilt and shame of letting you make that kind of sacrificeâfor him, for themâwas unbearable.
âYou shouldnât have to leave,â Aaron said finally, breaking the silence. His voice was steady, but the weight behind the words was impossible to miss.
You looked at him sharply. âAnd you think you should?â
âNo,â he admitted. âBut I canât ask you to give this up. I wonât.â
Your hands curled into fists on the desk, and Aaron saw the flicker of pain in your eyes before you looked away. âSo what? We just... stop?â
Aaron exhaled slowly, his heart aching at the rawness in your voice. âI donât want to,â he said honestly. âBut maybe itâs whatâs best.â
Your laugh was bitter, your head shaking. âBest for who? Them? The optics? Certainly not us.â
Aaron stepped closer, his hands resting on the edge of your desk. âItâs not fair,â he said quietly, meeting your gaze. âNone of this is. But if we keep fighting this, it could hurt the team. It could hurt you. And I canât live with that.â
Your eyes glistened, but you blinked quickly, refusing to let tears fall. âSo thatâs it? We just... agree to walk away?â
Aaronâs throat tightened. âI donât want to,â he repeated, his voice barely above a whisper. âBut I think we have to.â
For a moment, neither of you spoke. The air between you felt heavy, suffocating as if the weight of what you were agreeing to was pressing down on both of you at once.
Finally, you stood, your movements slow and deliberate. You rounded the desk, stopping just in front of him.
âDo you really think this is the right thing to do?â you asked, your voice cracking just enough to betray the strength you were trying to hold on to.
âNo,â Aaron admitted, his own voice hoarse. âBut I think itâs the only thing we can do.â
The words hung in the air like a final verdict, sealing something neither of you wanted to face.
When you stepped closer, your hand resting lightly on his chest, Aaronâs heart broke a little more. He covered your hand with his, holding it there for a moment as if trying to memorize the feeling.
âI hate this,â you whispered, your eyes meeting his one last time. He didnât miss the tears beginning to well in them. It was instinct to want to look away, it was a sight too painful to unsee, but he found himself still looking through to you.
âSo do I,â he replied, his voice raw.
And then, as you stepped back and let your hand fall away, Aaron felt the loss like a physical blowâa kick to the knees. You walked past him, your steps unsteady but resolute.
He didnât turn to watch you leave. He couldnât. All he could do was stand there, alone in your office, knowing that this decisionâthe right one, the necessary oneâwas going to haunt him for a long time.
The weeks that followed were some of the hardest Aaron Hotchner had endured, and that was saying something. He had always prided himself on compartmentalizing, on keeping his personal life from bleeding into his work. But thisâyouâmade that impossible.
The day after the decision, you had returned to work with the same polished professionalism you always displayed. Your suit was impeccable, your tone measured, and your focus sharp. But Aaron saw the cracks beneath the surface. He saw the way your eyes avoided his during meetings, the way your smilesârare as they were nowânever reached your eyes.
And it wasnât just you. Aaron could feel the weight of it pressing down on him, a constant ache in his chest that no amount of distraction could dull. He would catch himself looking at you across the bullpen, remembering how it felt to have you close, to hear you laugh in those unguarded moments. The memories were like splintersâsmall, sharp reminders of what heâd lost.
He wondered if it were some sort of sick joke. That once again, here he was, Aaron Hotchner choosing the job over what was right in front of him.Â
The team picked up on it quickly, though they didnât understand the cause at first.
âSomethingâs off,â Morgan said one afternoon, leaning against Aaronâs office door.
Aaron didnât look up from the file in front of him. âWhat do you mean?â
Morgan shrugged, his casual demeanor belying the concern in his eyes. âYou and her,â he said, nodding toward your office. âI donât know... You two used to be so in sync. Now itâs like thereâs this... distance.â
Aaronâs jaw tightened, but he kept his expression neutral. âWeâre fine. Just busy.â
Morgan raised an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced, but he didnât press further. Still, Aaron knew the others had noticed it too. Reidâs hesitant glances during meetings, JJâs subtle attempts to smooth over the tension, and even Garciaâs uncharacteristic silence when she addressed the two of you.
The pain of working together was a constant, gnawing ache. Every interaction felt like walking a tightrope, balancing professionalism with the unspoken emotions neither of you could completely hide.
During briefings, Aaron found himself hyper-aware of you. The way you avoided sitting too close. The way your voice would falter, just slightly, when addressing him directly. It was subtle, so subtle that no one outside the team would notice. But Aaron noticed.
You rarely joined the team in the field, but you were more present than Straussâ constant absence due to her dislike of fieldwork when in your role. Even in the field, the strain was palpable. The easy rhythm you had once shared was gone, replaced by clipped exchanges and a formality that felt wrong coming from you.
âYouâre clear on the approach?â Aaron asked during one such mission, his voice firm but hollow.
You nodded, your tone equally curt. âI am.â
It was efficient. Professional. Everything it needed to be. But it wasnât you. At least not the you he knew.
The worst moments came in the quiet, in the spaces between the chaos. Late nights at the BAU, when the rest of the team had gone home and the building was quiet. Sometimes, Aaron would catch a glimpse of you in your office, the light from your desk lamp casting long shadows across your face. He wanted to go to you, to break the silence and bridge the gap, but he never did.
One night, as he packed up to leave, he saw you sitting at your desk, your head in your hands. You didnât notice him watching, and for a brief moment, he considered walking in, saying somethingâanything. But then you straightened, brushing a hand through your hair, and the moment passed.
Aaron turned away, the pit in his stomach growing heavier with each step he took toward the exit.
The team never said anything outright, but Aaron could feel their unease. They didnât know the detailsâdidnât know that the two of you had once been something more, or how close you had come to risking everything to stay that way. But they felt the shift.
JJ tried to smooth things over with small acts of kindnessâbringing coffee, lightening the mood in meetings. Morgan watched both of you with quiet curiosity, his usual teasing replaced by a patience Aaron hadnât expected. Even Garcia, ever perceptive, gave him a long, searching look one day before sighing and saying, âYou know, you can talk to us, right? About anything.â
Aaron had nodded, offering a faint smile he didnât feel. âThanks, Garcia.â
Months passed, and the ache dulled, but it never went away. Aaron learned to live with it, to bury it beneath the weight of his responsibilities. He told himself it was the right decision, the only decision, but there were momentsâlate at night, when the silence was deafeningâwhen he let himself imagine what could have been.
And youâhe could see it in your eyes, the way you carried the same weight. You were just as professional, just as efficient, but there was a sadness in you now that hadnât been there before. It mirrored his own, and that was perhaps the hardest part of all.
You were both doing what you thought was best. And it was killing you.
The bullpen was unusually quiet when Aaron Hotchner stepped out of his office. His team was gathered around JJâs desk, their conversation hushed but animated. The moment his presence registered, they all straightened slightly, trying to appear busy.
Aaron didnât buy it for a second.
âMorgan. JJ,â he said, his tone even but curious as he descended the steps. âWhatâs going on?â
JJ exchanged a quick look with Morgan before speaking. âOh, uh, nothing, Hotch. Just catching up on some... Quantico gossip.â
Aaron arched an eyebrow. Gossip wasnât something his team typically indulged inânot during work hours, at least. âWhat kind of gossip?â
Morgan rubbed the back of his neck, a rare flash of discomfort crossing his face. âThe kind that probably shouldnât leave the locker room, but since itâs about someone we all know... it didnât sit right with me.â
Aaronâs jaw tightened as he stopped a few feet from the group. âWho?â
Morgan hesitated, glancing at the others. Emily crossed her arms, her expression skeptical but intrigued, while Penelope fidgeted, clearly torn between curiosity and concern.
âLook,â Morgan started, his tone careful, âitâs aboutâŚYou knowââ
Aaronâs stomach sank. He didnât need Morgan to say your name to know exactly who he meant.
âGo on,â Aaron said, his voice clipped but controlled.
Morgan sighed, leaning against the desk. âJJ and I were at the gym downstairs yesterday. I was in the locker room, and I heard some guyâone of the suits from Finance, I thinkâtalking about her.â
Aaronâs chest tightened as Morgan continued.
âHe was bragging about how theyâve been... seeing each other,â Morgan said, his expression darkening. âBut the way he was talkingâman, it was gross. Like, disrespectful. He was sexualizing her in a way that made my skin crawl.â
JJ chimed in, her voice tinged with frustration. âHe called her a âgreat ass with brainsââas if thatâs all she is. Then he made some comment about how lucky he was to have caught her attention.â
Aaronâs hands curled into fists at his sides.
âI told him to knock it off,â Morgan said, his tone sharp. âTold him it wasnât cool to talk about her like thatâespecially in a damn locker room, where anyone could hear.â
Penelopeâs mouth fell open, her indignation bubbling to the surface. âYouâre kidding me. He said that in the locker room? What kind ofâugh! Men are the worst sometimes.â
Emily smirked faintly, her voice dry as she added, âNot all men. Just most.â
Rossi, who had been quiet up until now, leaned back in the chair and folded his arms. âSo sheâs seeing this guy? Or is he just running his mouth?â
Morgan shrugged. âCouldnât say for sure. But he seemed pretty confident.â
Aaronâs jaw clenched so tightly it ached. He could feel the teamâs eyes on him, but he refused to let his expression betray the storm brewing inside.
âHotch,â JJ said gently, her voice pulling him back. âYou okay?â
âIâm fine,â Aaron said curtly. âBut I need to remind all of you that gossipâabout anyoneâisnât appropriate here. If thereâs a problem, it needs to be addressed through the proper channels.â
The team exchanged glances, but no one pushed further.
Aaron returned to his office, closing the door behind him with a bit more force than necessary. He sank into his chair, staring at the stack of files on his desk without really seeing them.
The idea of you seeing someone else didnât sit well with him. Not because you didnât deserve happinessâyou did, more than anyone. But because the thought of you with someone who didnât appreciate you, who reduced you to nothing more than your appearance or used you as a bragging point, made his blood boil.
He hated the way that man in the locker room had spoken about you. Hated that it had happened at all.
And yet, there was something else eating at him. Something sharper, more selfish.
Jealousy.
The idea that you might have moved onâmight have found comfort in someone elseâs armsâcut deeper than he wanted to admit. He had no right to feel this way. The two of you had made your decision, painful as it was, and he had to live with it. But knowing you might be with someone else, hearing those crude words about you... it was unbearable.
Aaron rubbed a hand over his face, willing himself to focus. He couldnât afford to let his emotions cloud his judgment. Not now. Not ever.
But as he sat there, the words from the locker room replaying in his mind, he couldnât shake the gnawing feeling that he had let you go too soon. Too easily.
And it was killing him.
Time had a way of dulling pain, or so Aaron Hotchner told himself. Days turned into weeks and weeks into months. The ache of what had been and what could never be dulled into something he carried silently, like an old injury that flared up when the weather changed. But it never went away.
And then he found out for certain.
He hadnât meant to overhear the conversationâit was the kind of thing he normally tuned out. But as he passed by the kitchen in the Quantico building, he caught the tail end of a conversation between two agents from a different unit, their voices low but not low enough.
âYeah, theyâve been going out for a while now,â one said, his tone carrying an unmistakable edge of smugness. âI canât believe he managed to lock her down. Sheâs way out of his league.â
The other laughed. âI heard sheâs really something. Smart, gorgeous, the whole package. Lucky bastard.â
Aaron didnât need to hear your name to know exactly who they were talking about.
He found himself sitting in his office later that day, staring blankly at the case file in front of him. The words on the page blurred together, his focus shattered.
You were seeing himâthe man from Finance. The one Morgan had overheard in the locker room, the one who had spoken about you like you were nothing more than a conquest.
Aaronâs jaw tightened, and his chest ached with something that felt dangerously close to regret. He hated the thought of you with someone who didnât truly see youâwho didnât appreciate the sharpness of your mind, the strength in your character, the way you carried yourself with grace and confidence even under the heaviest burdens.
And yet, what right did he have to feel this way?
You had every right to move on. Every right to find happiness where you could. It wasnât your fault that he couldnât shake the lingering shadow of what the two of you had sharedâor what might have been if things had been different.
As the weeks dragged on, Aaron tried to bury himself in his work. He tried not to notice the way you laughed at something someone said in the bullpen or the way your eyes lit up during a briefing when an idea struck you. He tried not to think about the nights you spent with someone else, someone who wasnât him.
And then Beth called.
It had been months since theyâd last spoken, her name long buried in the recesses of his mind. But there she was, her voice warm and familiar, asking how he was, how Jack was if he might want to grab coffee sometime.
Aaron hesitated.
He thought of youâof the distance that had grown between you, the way your conversations were now stilted and professional, the warmth that used to linger between you replaced by a polite coolness. He thought of the man from Finance, the way his name had crept into conversations around the office, always tied to you.
Maybe it was time, Aaron thought. If you had moved on, maybe he should too.
He met Beth for coffee and then for dinner. She was as kind and understanding as he remembered, her smile easy, her company pleasant. But something was missing.
With you, there had been a fireâa spark that made every conversation electric, every glance charged with something unspoken. With Beth, it was different. Comfortable but muted.
Still, Aaron told himself it was the right thing to do. Jack liked her, and she was good to him. Maybe this was what he neededâa reminder of what it felt like to let someone in, to have a life outside the walls of the BAU.
But no matter how much he tried, Aaron couldnât shake the feeling that he was going through the motions. He couldnât stop himself from comparing every moment with Beth to the moments heâd shared with you.
When Beth laughed, it wasnât your laugh. When she reached for his hand, it didnât feel the same as when you had pulled him close in the quiet of your office.
And every time he saw you in the hallways of Quantico or across the table during a case briefing, that ache in his chest flared anew.
Aaron knew he had made his choice. He had chosen to let you go, to protect the work and the team, to do what he thought was right. And now, he was trying to live with that choice, even as it slowly unraveled him from the inside.
But as he sat in his office late one night, the bullpen quiet and empty, Aaron allowed himself a single, fleeting moment of honesty.
He had moved on.
But not really.
Because a part of himâthe part he tried to bury beneath duty and responsibilityâwould always belong to you.
Aaron Hotchner sat at the head of the conference table, scanning the stack of case files in front of him as the team settled into their usual seats. The murmur of conversation drifted around the roomâMorgan and Emily debating the odds of another late-night call, Penelope slipping a fresh report to Reid, Rossi sipping a coffee that smelled distinctly stronger than the usual bullpen brew.
You entered last, heels clicking sharply against the tile floor as you carried yourself with the effortless confidence Aaron admired. You placed your tablet on the table and glanced around the room, your polished demeanor demanding attention without a single word.
âBefore we get into case updates,â you began, your voice calm but firm, âI wanted to bring something to everyoneâs attention.â
Aaron leaned back in his chair, already anticipating the shift in focus. You had a way of setting the roomâs tone that even Rossi respected, and your next words proved no different.
âAs most of you know,â you continued, your gaze sweeping across the team, âthe Bureauâs annual holiday party is coming up. And while Iâm well aware that the BAU has a reputation for... skipping it, I feel this year itâs important that we all make an effort to attend.â
That got their attention. Emilyâs eyebrows lifted, Morgan tilted his chair back with an incredulous grin, and Penelope froze mid-sip of her elaborately decorated coffee.
âCome on,â Morgan said, his tone half-teasing. âYou canât be serious. You know those parties are all stiff handshakes and bad speeches.â
You smiled faintly, unruffled. âIâm very serious, Morgan. This isnât about the party itselfâitâs about the message it sends.â
Aaron noticed the way you paused, your gaze flickering briefly in his direction before continuing. âAfter the last few years, itâs important that we show the brass that weâre aligned with their expectations. It demonstrates that we care about appearances and that weâre just as invested in maintaining relationships as they are.â
There it was. A subtle but unmistakable reminder of why things between you and Aaron could never be, woven seamlessly into a broader point that the rest of the team couldnât grasp fully.
Morgan raised a skeptical eyebrow. âYou mean to tell me weâre going to this thing to rub elbows with suits who donât know what we actually do out here?â
âYes, thatâs exactly what I mean,â you replied, your tone calm but edged with authority. âAppearances matter. And itâs our job to ensure those appearances align with the professionalism the BAU stands for.â
Aaron watched as the words settled over the team, their expressions shifting from mild amusement to begrudging understanding. You had a way of cutting through their resistance without belittling themâa skill Aaron had always admired.
âPlus,â you added, a faint smile tugging at your lips, âIâve been assured the band will be better than last yearâs.â You paused. âAnd an open bar.âÂ
That earned a soft chuckle from Penelope, who set her mug down with a small shrug. âWell, if itâs formal attire and a better band, I suppose I could make an appearance.â
âAttire is black-tie,â you confirmed, your gaze sweeping the room. âAnd yes, plus-ones are welcome. But I expect every one of you to be there. No exceptions.â
Emily leaned back in her chair, smirking. âGuess that means we all have to dust off our evening wear.â
âI have a tux,â Reid offered quietly, drawing a chuckle from Rossi.
Aaron remained quiet, his focus trained on you. He could feel the weight of your wordsânot just the direct ones, but the subtext you didnât need to spell out. He knew why you were pushing for this, why it mattered so much to you. And he hated that he understood.
As the meeting wrapped and the team began to filter out, you lingered behind, gathering your tablet and a small stack of papers. Aaron stood as well, pausing briefly near the door.
âFormal wear suits you,â he said quietly, his voice low enough that only you could hear.
You glanced up, your expression unreadable but your eyes betraying the smallest flicker of something softer. âI expect to see you there, Hotchner. On time.â
âYes, maâam,â he replied, his tone carrying a faint edge of humor.
But as he left the room, his chest tightened with the familiar ache that came every time he was near you. Formal appearances, aligned expectationsâhe understood all of it.
But that didnât mean it hurt any less.
The Bureauâs holiday party was exactly what Aaron Hotchner had expected: polished, overly formal, and steeped in thinly veiled networking. The grand ballroom at the hotel downtown was decorated in muted gold and deep red, elegant but impersonal. A string quartet played softly in one corner, their music adding to the ambiance without drowning out the hum of conversation.
Beth stood beside him, dressed in a sleek black gown that flattered her in every way. Her brunette hair was swept into a low chignon, and her smile was warm as she introduced herself to the occasional colleague who passed by. She looked stunning, and Aaron knew that anyone in the room would agree.
But when you walked in, Aaron forgot how to breathe.
You entered the ballroom on the arm of Jeff from Finance, a name that Aaron had come to resent more than he cared to admit. He was wearing a garish plaid tuxedo jacket that screamed âtrying too hard,â and his broad grin made Aaronâs jaw tighten. But none of that matteredâbecause you were radiant.
Your gown was a deep emerald green, the kind of color that made your eyes seem brighter, your skin glow. It hugged your figure perfectly, the fabric shimmering faintly under the chandelier light as you moved. Your hair, styled elegantly but effortlessly, framed your face in a way that made Aaronâs chest ache. You looked... otherworldly.
Aaron had always known you were beautiful. It was an undeniable fact, one that had never gone unnoticed by anyone who crossed your path. But tonight, you were something else entirely. You werenât just beautiful; you were extraordinary, like a rare phenomenon that people spend their entire lives waiting to glimpse.
When you stepped into the room, it was as though the world tilted slightly, every sound dulling, every light dimming except for the one that seemed to follow you. Aaronâs breath hitched, his chest tightening as a strange, almost childlike awe settled over him. He felt like a boy again, staring up at the stars for the first time and realizing just how vast and infinite the universe could be.
You were that kind of beautiful. The kind that made time seem to pause, as if the room itself was holding its breath just to take you in. You were the kind of beauty that inspired poetry and musicâthe kind artists yearned to capture and always failed to do justice.
And in that moment, Aaron finally understood why men wrote poetry, painted masterpieces, composed symphonies, and created entire films in honor of women like you. It was all a desperate attempt to grasp something fleeting, something divine, and pin it to the earth long enough to keep.
It wasnât just your gown, though the deep emerald green shimmered like it had been made for you, highlighting the curve of your shoulders and the elegance of your frame. It wasnât just the way your hair fell, soft waves framing your face in a way that seemed almost unfair. It was something deeper, something impossible to put into words.
Aaron felt it in his chest, a deep, aching yearning that heâd never experienced before. It was amazement, pure and unfiltered, like seeing magic for the first time and realizing it wasnât a trick. It was real. You were real. And yet, you didnât feel like something he could ever touch.
He couldnât stop staring, and for a brief, dizzying moment, he didnât care who saw. The logical part of his mindâthe one that always kept him groundedâwas overruled by something more primal, more human. How was it possible, he wondered, for someone to look like that? To exist in a way that felt so rare and unattainable and yet so deeply, painfully familiar?
He thought of how easily you commanded the room, not by seeking attention but simply by being. It wasnât forced, and it wasnât deliberate. It was just youâthis singular, dazzling presence that made everyone around you seem to fade into the background.
Aaron had never felt this way before, not even with Haley. Not even with anyone else heâd allowed into his life. This was something else entirely, something more profound and unsettling. It wasnât just admiration or attraction. It was belief. Belief in something he hadnât even realized heâd been missing.
And then he saw Jeff beside you, his tacky plaid suit clashing with the elegance of everything you were. The man who didnât seem to understand how lucky he was, who treated your presence like a status symbol rather than a gift.
Aaronâs stomach churned, his skin crawling as jealousy flared sharp and unrelenting. He hated itâhated the way it burned, the way it clawed at the edges of his composure.
But what he hated more was the knowledge that he had no right to feel it.
You werenât his. And yet, watching you from across the room, Aaron couldnât help but think you never truly belonged to anyone. You were too rare for that. Too extraordinary.
And God, how it ached to know he had let you go.
He forced himself to smile at Beth as she laughed at something Rossi said, but his attention kept drifting back to you. He hated the way Jeff hovered near you, his posture possessive and his grin smug. He hated the way Jeffâs gaudy suit jacket clashed with the elegance of your dress, as though he didnât understand how lucky he was to be standing beside you.
More than anything, Aaron hated the feeling crawling under his skinâthe sharp, searing jealousy that he couldnât shake. It was worse than anything he had felt before, even when Haley had been unfaithful right in front of his face. This was different.
Haleyâs betrayal had stung, yes, but it had been rooted in a relationship that had already begun to fracture. What Aaron felt now was raw and consuming, made worse by the knowledge that he had no claim on you. You werenât his.
You never would be.
Beth touched his arm gently, drawing his focus back to her. âYou okay?â she asked, her voice soft.
Aaron nodded quickly, plastering on a polite smile. âOf course. Just thinking about the week ahead.â
Beth gave him a knowing look but didnât press further. She turned her attention back to Rossi, leaving Aaron with his thoughts.
He glanced toward you again, catching the way you laughed at something Jeff said. It wasnât the laugh he rememberedâthe soft, genuine sound that used to fill his office late at night. This one was polite, reserved, a laugh you gave when you were being kind but not necessarily amused.
It was a small comfort but not enough to quiet the jealousy raging in his chest.
When you caught his eye from across the room, Aaron felt his breath hitch. Your gaze lingered for a momentâjust long enough for him to see the flicker of something in your expression before you turned away, a polite smile on your lips as you greeted someone else.
He had made his choice. You had made yours. But standing there, watching you with someone like Jeff, Aaron couldnât help but feel like he had made the wrong one.
And yet, there was nothing he could do but endure it.
So Aaron turned back to Beth, his expression carefully neutral, and let the music and the hum of conversation fade into the background. But the ache in his chest didnât go away.
It never did.
Aaron Hotchner stood at the bar, waiting for the bartender to return with his order. The room buzzed with conversation and the occasional burst of laughter, the hum of the holiday party continuing around him like static. Beth was across the room, talking animatedly with one of the Bureauâs administrators, her glass of white wine nearly empty.
He had volunteered to get her a refill, partly because he wanted to give her a moment to network uninterrupted, but mostly because he needed a moment to himself. Maybe Beth would sell a painting or two with the amount of stiff suits in the room thought, he thought.Â
The sight of you with Jeffâlaughing politely, your hand resting lightly on his armâwas wearing thin on his composure.
The bartender slid a fresh glass of wine and a scotch across the counter, and just as Aaron reached for them, he heard the unmistakable click of your heels behind him.
You didnât say anything at first. You simply sidled up beside him, so close that he could feel the faint warmth of your body through the fabric of his suit. The scent of your perfumeâsomething soft and alluring, with notes of jasmineâdrifted over him, making his pulse quicken.
Aaron didnât turn his head, but he felt the air shift between you. His grip on the glass tightened as he fought the urge to look.
Finally, you broke the silence.
âI hate you here with her.â
The words were quiet but sharp, cutting through the hum of the party like a knife. Aaron froze, his breath catching as he turned to look at you.
You werenât looking at him. Your gaze was fixed on the row of liquor bottles behind the bar, your expression calm but your eyes betraying the storm beneath.
He swallowed hard, his voice low and steady. âAnd you think I like seeing you here with Jeff?â
You let out a soft, bitter laugh, finally turning to meet his gaze. For a moment, neither of you spoke. The tension between you was palpable, crackling like static electricity in the small space that separated you.
Then you leaned in, so close that Aaron could feel the warmth of your breath against his ear.
âDo you know what I do?â you murmured, your voice almost a whisper. âI imagine itâs your hands on me instead of his. It makes it... easier.â
Aaronâs heart slammed against his ribcage, the weight of your words knocking the air out of him. He couldnât move, couldnât think, couldnât do anything but stare at you in stunned silence.
You straightened, your expression unreadable but your lips curling into a faint, almost sad smile. âI thought you should know.â
His throat felt dry, his voice caught somewhere between his chest and his mouth. He wanted to say somethingâanythingâbut nothing came.
Before he could gather his thoughts, you stepped back, your gaze flickering briefly to his hands, still clutching the glasses. âYour drinks,â you said softly, the faintest hint of something unspoken lingering in your tone.
And just like that, you were gone.
Aaron watched as you crossed the room, your hips swaying, your gown flowing gracefully behind you as you returned to Jeff and the group of section chiefs. You slipped back into the conversation effortlessly, smiling and nodding as though nothing had happened.
But Aaron knew better.
He stood there at the bar, the scotch and wine forgotten in his hands, as the weight of your words settled over him. His pulse still raced, his skin prickling with the memory of your closeness, your voice, your confession.
For a man who had always prided himself on control, Aaron felt anything but. You had shattered the careful walls heâd built around himself, leaving him standing in the middle of a crowded room, completely undone.
Aaron Hotchner sat at the table, his back straight, his hands loosely clasped around the tumbler of scotch in front of him. The room was alive with the sound of music, laughter, and the murmur of conversation, but to him, it all blurred into a distant hum.
Beth was seated beside him, engaged in an animated discussion with Penelope. Her warm laugh punctuated the conversation. Aaron nodded occasionally when prompted, but his focus was elsewhere.
Across the room, you swayed to the slow rhythm of the music, your body close to Jeffâs as he held you gently, one hand on your waist, the other resting lightly on your back. Your head tilted slightly, your cheek brushing the fabric of his shoulder. The two of you moved easily, almost effortlessly, to the soft melody of the band.
And then you looked up.
Your eyes found his across the room, and in that instant, the rest of the world fell away.
Aaron froze, his breath catching in his chest as your gaze locked onto his. There was something in the way you looked at him, something unspoken but deeply familiar, that cut through the noise and the lights and the meaningless chatter around him.
It wasnât just eye contact. It was a connectionâa thread pulled taut between you, invisible to everyone else but impossibly strong.
He couldnât look away.
Your eyes held his, and in them, he saw everything that words couldnât convey. Longing. Frustration. A quiet, desperate ache that mirrored his own. It was as though every emotion heâd buried, every feeling heâd suppressed, was reflected back at him in your gaze.
And then there was the tensionâthe undeniable, magnetic pull that had always existed between you but felt even stronger now. It was intoxicating, overwhelming, the kind of thing that made time seem irrelevant.
Aaron didnât notice the way his fingers tightened around the glass in his hand or the way his heart began to pound. All he knew was that he couldnât tear his eyes away from you.
You swayed gently in Jeffâs arms, your movements fluid and graceful, but your gaze never wavered. The music, the people, even Jeff himselfâall of it faded into the background. There was only you and him, locked in this moment, this silent conversation that neither of you could end.
It wasnât just attraction, though, that was there, simmering beneath the surface. It was something deeper, something raw and unspoken. It was the weight of every choice youâd made, every boundary youâd set, and every word youâd left unsaid.
Aaron felt like he couldnât breathe like the space between you was both infinite and nonexistent. It was a cruel paradoxâfeeling as though you were so close he could almost reach out and touch you, yet knowing you were untouchable, unreachable.
The ache in his chest wasnât just pain; it was a deep, hollow yearning that he couldnât ignore. It wasnât the sharp sting of a fleeting woundâit was the slow, relentless ache of loss. Of knowing exactly what he was missing and yet being powerless to reclaim it.
He missed you in ways that felt impossible to quantify, in ways that crept into his thoughts when he least expected it. He missed your touchâthe way your hand had lingered on his arm during late-night conversations, grounding him in moments when he felt untethered. He missed the warmth of your presence, the quiet reassurance that came with simply having you near.
But it wasnât just the physical things. It was everything about you, the parts of you that no one else seemed to notice or understand the way he did.
He missed your laughâthe genuine, full-bodied sound that lit up a room and chased away the weight of even the hardest days. It was rare, but when it happened, it was like the world itself paused to listen.
He missed your softnessâthe way you could be so strong, so unyielding in your convictions, and yet offer a kindness that made even the most jaded person feel seen. You had a way of making people believe they mattered, a way of making him believe he mattered.
And he missed your fiercenessâthe fire in your eyes when you were fighting for something you believed in, the way you carried yourself with confidence and grace, never backing down from a challenge. You inspired him in ways he didnât even realize until you werenât there to do it anymore.
Most of all, he missed your presence. That quiet, steady support that had become such a part of his life he hadnât realized how much he relied on it until it was gone. You were his equal, his match in every way that mattered. And now, you were just... gone.
The ache in his chest deepened as he sat at the table, staring at the empty doorway where you had disappeared. He didnât just miss what they had sharedâthe stolen moments, the quiet confessions. He missed you. The person who had seen him at his worst and still stood by him. The person who had understood him in ways no one else ever could.
And as the weight of that realization settled over him, Aaron knew that no matter how much time passed, no matter what choices either of them made, the space you had left in his life would never be filled.
And then, just as suddenly, you broke the spell.
You blinked, your gaze faltering as you looked away, your expression unreadable. Flustered almost. Aaron watched as you gently stepped back from Jeff, your movements deliberate but hurried.
âExcuse me,â you murmured to him, your voice just audible enough for Aaron to hear over the music.
You crossed the room with purpose, your gown flowing behind you like liquid emerald. Aaronâs eyes followed your every step, his heart sinking as you reached your table and grabbed your clutch.
Jeff, caught off guard, trailed after you, his expression confused but compliant. He said something to you, but you barely acknowledged him, your focus entirely on leaving.
Aaronâs gaze lingered on the empty space you left behind, his chest tightening as he watched the two of you disappear through the ballroomâs double doors.
The world slowly returnedâBethâs voice beside him, the hum of the music, the clinking of glassesâbut none of it felt real.
Aaron took a slow sip of his scotch, his gaze fixed on the door as though willing you to return. But he knew you wouldnât.
Because whatever had just passed between you, whatever that moment had been, was too much for either of you to bear.
The drive to Bethâs apartment had been quiet. Too quiet. She had smiled softly at him when he pulled up in front of her building, the warmth of her expression filled with an affection that he knew he couldnât returnânot the way she deserved.
âDo you want to come up?â she asked, her tone light but hopeful.
Aaron hesitated, his hands tightening on the steering wheel. He forced a smile, one that felt more like a grimace. âNot tonight. Itâs been a long day.â
Beth studied him for a moment, her disappointment subtle but evident. âOkay,â she said softly, leaning over to kiss his cheek. âDrive safe, Aaron.â
He nodded, waiting until she disappeared into the building before exhaling a shaky breath. He should have gone home. He should have driven straight to his house, poured himself another drink, and buried the night in paperwork or sleep.
But he didnât.
Instead, Aaron found himself driving through the quiet streets, the sound of the city outside his car muffled by the relentless echo of your words in his mind.
Do you know what I do? I imagine itâs your hands on me instead of his. It makes it... easier.
The words played on a loop, relentless and consuming. He could see the way you had looked at him, the softness in your voice, the sadness and longing that mirrored his own. It unraveled him.
He loosened his tie, tugging at the silk knot with a sharp, frustrated motion as if it were choking him. His chest felt tight, his breath shallow, and he couldnât shake the image of you from his mindâyour gown, the way you moved, the way your eyes had locked with his in a silent confession across the room.
He didnât even notice his speed, the way the city blurred around him as he drove. All he knew was where he needed to go.
When he pulled up in front of your building, he hesitated only briefly. Jeff could be here. That much was obvious. But Aaron didnât careânot tonight.
He climbed out of the car, his footsteps quick and determined as he approached your door. His heart pounded in his chest, his pulse roaring in his ears, but his mind was clear.
He knocked, his knuckles rapping firmly against the wood.
The seconds stretched endlessly until the door opened, and there you were.
You were wearing a silk robe, its soft fabric clinging to your frame and catching the light. Your hair was loose, framing your face in soft waves, and your expression shifted from surprise to something unreadable when you saw him.
âAaron,â you said softly, your voice tentative.
âIs he here?â he asked, his voice low and steady, though his chest felt like it might explode.
You blinked, startled by the question, before shaking your head. âNo.â
âGood,â he said, stepping forward and into your space.
And then he kissed you.
It wasnât gentle. It wasnât hesitant.Â
Aaronâs lips crashed against yours, his hands finding your waist and pulling you flush against him as he pushed the door closed behind them with his foot. The kiss was fierce, dominating, raw, filled with all the pent-up tension and longing that had been building for months.
You gasped against his mouth, your hands gripping the lapels of his suit jacket as you stumbled slightly, the force of his kiss pushing you backward. He guided you with purpose, his body pressing yours against the wall just inside the entryway.
His hands moved to your face, his fingers threading into your hair as he deepened the kiss, pouring everything he couldnât say into the connection. It was raw, desperate, and consuming.
You responded in kind, your hands sliding up to his shoulders, pulling him impossibly closer. The silk of your robe brushed against his suit, the contrast of textures only heightening the sensation.
When he finally pulled back, both of you were breathless, your chests heaving as you stared at each other.
âAaron,â you whispered, your voice trembling but laced with something unmistakableâdesire, relief, and a trace of vulnerability.
He rested his forehead against yours, his hands still cradling your face as he closed his eyes. âI couldnât stay away,â he admitted, his voice rough and raw.
You didnât reply with words. Instead, you pulled him back into another kiss, and Aaron let himself surrender to the moment, the weight of everything else fading away.
For once, nothing else mattered.
Aaronâs breath was ragged as his lips moved against yours, his hands still cradling your face like he was afraid to let go. Every ounce of restraint heâd held onto for so long had snapped the moment youâd opened the door, and now, the thought of stopping felt impossible.
Your fingers curled into the lapels of his suit jacket, pulling him closer, and he responded in kind, his body pressing firmly against yours. The silk of your robe was impossibly soft under his hands as he slid them from your face to your waist, his fingers gripping you like he was trying to anchor himself to the moment.
Aaron knew he shouldnât be here. Knew this was a line heâd promised himself he wouldnât cross again. But every logical thought dissolved under the weight of your kiss, the way your lips moved against his with a hunger that matched his own.
âGod, we shouldnâtââ you murmured against his mouth, your voice breathless but tinged with something desperate.
âI know,â he whispered back, his hands trailing along your sides, feeling the warmth of your body through the thin fabric of your robe. âBut I canât stop.â
Your eyes met his, the intensity of your gaze nearly undoing him. It wasnât just lust that burned in your expressionâit was longing, the same yearning that had been simmering between you for months, the same ache heâd carried every time he saw you.
He kissed you again, deeper this time, his hands roaming up your back as he felt you relax into him. Your hands found the knot of his tie, tugging it loose with a deliberate pull that sent his pulse racing. The silk slipped free, and you tossed it aside, your fingers moving to the buttons of his shirt with a sense of urgency that mirrored his own.
Aaron let out a soft groan as your hands brushed against his chest, your touch igniting a fire in him that he hadnât felt in years. His mouth trailed from your lips to your jaw, pressing hot, open-mouthed kisses down your neck as you tilted your head to give him better access.
âAaron,â you breathed, his name falling from your lips like a prayer, and the sound of it sent a shiver down his spine.
His hands found the sash of your robe, his fingers hesitating briefly as he looked at you, searching your eyes for any sign of hesitation. But there was noneâonly want, only need.
âYouâre sure?â he asked, his voice rough but tender, his forehead resting lightly against yours.
Your answer was clear in the way you pulled him closer, your lips brushing against his as you whispered, âIâm sure.â
The robe slipped from your shoulders, pooling at your feet, and Aaronâs breath hitched at the sight of you, so beautiful and bare before him. His hands traced the curve of your waist, his touch reverent but firm, as though he was committing every detail to memory.
He kissed you again, deeper and slower this time, savoring the taste of you, the softness of your lips, the way your hands tangled in his hair. The tension between you crackled like electricity, the air heavy with the weight of everything unspoken but understood.
Every touch, every kiss, felt forbidden, a line crossed and recrossed with every passing second. But neither of you pulled away. You couldnât.
Aaron guided you gently toward the couch, his lips never leaving yours as you moved together. You sank down onto the cushions, pulling him with you, and he let himself get lost in youâthe way you smelled, the way your skin felt against his, the way you whispered his name like it was the only thing that mattered.
As his hands roamed over you, exploring, memorizing, Aaron felt a pang of guilt buried beneath the passion. He knew this was dangerous, that there would be consequences. But for now, in this moment, he didnât care.
Because for the first time in what felt like forever, you were his.
And he wasnât ready to let that go.
Aaronâs mind was a storm as he pressed you against the cushions of the couch, his lips moving with a ferocity he hadnât allowed himself to feel in so long. The weight of his body pressed into yours, grounding him in a way that made everything elseâBeth, Jeff, the consequences of this momentâfade into the background.
Your hands slid under his shirt, your fingers grazing his skin with a touch that sent shivers through him. He growled low in his throat, pulling back just enough to shrug out of his jacket and let it fall to the floor. His shirt followed, buttons undone hastily by your hands, and he barely registered the faint sound of fabric hitting the hardwood before his mouth was back on yours.
This was wrong. He knew it with every rational part of himself. But it didnât stop the way he kissed you, dominating, claiming like he was trying to erase the memory of anyone else who had touched you. His hands were everywhereâyour waist, your thighs, your backâpulling you closer, needing to feel every inch of you against him.
âYou have no idea what you do to me,â he murmured against your lips, his voice rough, almost a growl. His fingers found your bare skin so inviting. âIâve wanted this⌠you⌠for so long.â
You arched into him, your breath hitching as his lips trailed from your mouth to your collarbone, leaving a scorching path in their wake. Your hands tangled in his hair, pulling him closer, and Aaron felt like he might lose his mind at the way you responded to him.
âDo you know how hard itâs been?â he asked, his voice strained as he paused, his forehead pressed against yours. His fingers grazed your bare shoulder, his touch featherlight but filled with intent. âWatching you, wanting you, knowing I couldnât have you?â
Your eyes locked with his, and for a moment, neither of you moved. The intensity in your gaze was enough to undo him, filled with the same longing, the same desperation heâd been carrying for months.
âI know,â you whispered, your voice trembling. âIâve felt it too.â
That was all it took for Aaron to give in completely. His lips crashed against yours again, his kiss deep and consuming, leaving no room for second thoughts. He shifted, lifting you slightly as he moved you further onto the couch, his hands gripping your hips with a possessiveness he couldnât hold back.
You were his. At least in this moment, you were his.
His hands roamed over you with purpose, memorizing every curve, every inch of skin he could reach. His lips continued their relentless exploration of your body. He kissed you like he was starving like you were the only thing keeping him alive.
And maybe you were.
The air between you was thick with tension; each movement laced with the weight of everything unspoken. Aaronâs hands framed your face as he paused to look at you, his chest heaving as he tried to catch his breath.
âYouâre so beautiful,â he murmured, his voice soft but intense. âI donât deserve this. I donât deserve you.â
You shook your head, your fingers brushing over his jaw as you pulled him back to you. âStop,â you whispered, your voice trembling but firm. âDonât say that. Not now.â
Aaron didnât argue. He couldnât. The way you looked at himâlike he was the only thing in the world that matteredâwas enough to silence any doubts. He kissed you again, slower this time, savoring every second, every touch, every sigh that escaped your lips.
It was forbidden. It was reckless. But in that moment, it was everything.
Aaronâs control, the control he prided himself on in every aspect of his life, was slipping through his fingers. His hands gripped your waist as he pulled you impossibly closer, his lips moving against yours with a hunger he hadnât felt in yearsâif ever. The feel of your body beneath his was intoxicating, and for once, he allowed himself to surrender to the moment.
But you werenât passive. No, that wasnât who you were.
Your hands found their way to his shoulders, your nails raking down his back as you shifted beneath him, a movement so deliberate it nearly undid him. You pressed up against him, your strength and confidence matching his in a way that sent his pulse racing.
He pulled back just enough to meet your gaze, his breath heavy as his eyes roamed over you. The sight of youâflushed, lips swollen from his kisses, eyes dark with desireâwas enough to make his chest tighten.
âYouâre not getting away from me this time,â he said, his voice low and commanding, his hands sliding up your thighs as he leaned in close.
You smirked, your fingers tangling in his hair as you tugged him toward you. âI wasnât planning on it,â you murmured, your voice teasing but filled with intent.
Aaronâs response was immediate. His lips found your neck, his teeth grazing your skin just enough to make you gasp. He wanted to mark you, to leave a reminder of this moment, of him, as if to stake a claim neither of you would ever admit aloud.
Your hands moved to his belt, the boldness of your actions sending a jolt through him. He let out a low growl, gripping your wrists gently but firmly to still you.
âNot yet,â he said, his tone a mix of command and amusement.
You raised an eyebrow, your expression challenging. âAfraid you canât keep up, Hotchner?â
That did it.
Aaronâs lips crashed against yours again, his hands sliding up to cup your face as he deepened the kiss, pouring every ounce of frustration, desire, and possessiveness into it. His teeth grazed your bottom lip, drawing a soft moan from you that went straight to his core.
âYou have no idea what you do to me,â he said, his voice rough as he broke the kiss, his forehead resting against yours.
You smiled, your fingers trailing down his chest with deliberate slowness. âI think I have some idea,â you replied, your voice low and filled with heat.
The push and pull between you was electric, a constant dance of dominance and surrender that neither of you fully gave into. When you shifted, pushing him back with a surprising strength that only made him want you more, he couldnât help the low chuckle that escaped him.
âIs that how itâs going to be?â he asked, his hands gripping your hips as you straddled him, your robe slipping fully off your shoulders, completely bare to him.Â
You leaned in, your lips brushing against his ear as you whispered, âYou donât mind a challenge, do you?â
Aaronâs grip tightened, his fingers digging into your hips as he pulled you down against him, his voice a growl. âNot at all.â
The heat between you was overwhelming, the air thick with tension and desire as your lips met his again, both of you fighting for control even as you gave into the pull of each other. It was raw, intense, and unrelenting, a collision of two forces that had been held back for far too long.
Every touch, every kiss, every movement spoke volumes, the unspoken words of longing and frustration spilling out in the way you claimed each other, over and over again.
Aaron had always been a man of control, a man who measured his steps and chose his words with precision. But here, with you, that control was unraveling, slipping away with every kiss, every touch. The months of tension, the stolen glances, the unspoken words between you had built to this moment, and now, neither of you seemed capable of holding back.
Your nails dragged along his chest, leaving faint, red lines in their wake as you leaned into him. He hissed at the sensation, his hands gripping your hips with enough force to anchor himself. Aaron couldnât stop his hands from exploring, feeling the heat of your skin under his touch.
âYou drive me insane,â he growled, his voice rough and strained as he tilted his head to capture your lips again. The kiss was fierce, almost punishing, a testament to the months of restraint that had finally snapped.
You didnât shy away. You met his intensity with your own, your lips moving against his with a hunger that left no doubt about how much you wanted thisâwanted him.
âGood,â you murmured against his mouth, your voice breathless but laced with defiance. âBecause youâve been driving me insane for months.â
Aaron chuckled darkly, his teeth grazing the sensitive skin of your neck, earning a gasp from you that sent a surge of possessiveness through him. His hands slid down to the backs of your thighs, gripping firmly as he lifted you from the couch effortlessly. The action earned a surprised laugh from you, but it was cut short when he pressed you against the wall, his body pinning yours in place.
âThis is mine,â he said, his voice low and commanding as his hands roamed your body. He pressed his lips to your shoulder, trailing kisses down your collarbone, his breath hot against your skin. âYouâre mine.â
Your head tilted back against the wall, your fingers tangling in his hair as you pulled him closer. âThen take me,â you whispered, your voice trembling with a mix of challenge and desire. âIf you want me so badly, Aaron, prove it.â
Something snapped in him at your words. His hands tightened on your thighs as his lips found yours again, the kiss rough and consuming, leaving no room for doubt about who you belonged to in this moment. His fingers dug into your skin just enough to leave faint impressions, a silent mark of his claim on you.
Every movement was deliberate, every touch a blend of dominance and reverence. Aaronâs hands slid beneath the loosened fabric of your robe, his fingers exploring every curve, every inch of skin he could reach.Â
Your body arched against his, your hands gripping his shoulders as you met him with equal fervor. There was nothing soft or gentle about the way you moved together; it was raw, fierce, a collision of passion and pent-up frustration that neither of you could contain.
âAaron,â you gasped, his name falling from your lips like a plea, and it undid him. His forehead pressed against yours, his breath ragged as he looked into your eyes, his grip on you firm and steady.
âSay it again,â he demanded, his voice a growl as he tightened his hold on you.
Your eyes locked with his, dark with desire and unspoken emotion. âAaron,â you repeated, your voice softer this time but no less commanding.
His lips crashed against yours again, his hands roaming freely, claiming you in every way he could. There was no hesitation, no room for second thoughtsâonly the overwhelming need to have you, to show you exactly what you meant to him, even if he couldnât say the words aloud.
He pressed his forehead against yours, his eyes searching yours for any hesitation. What he saw thereâdesire, longing, and something deeper, more vulnerableâunraveled him completely.
âI need you,â he murmured, his voice low and hoarse, filled with the weight of months of suppressed emotions. âTell me you want this.â
Your hands cupped his face, your thumbs brushing lightly over his jawline as you looked at him with a gaze that left him breathless. âIâve always wanted this,â you whispered, your voice trembling but certain.
That was all he needed.
Aaronâs lips crashed against yours, the kiss hungry and all-consuming as his hands slid up your thighs, securing your legs around his waist. He pressed you harder against the wall, the roughness of the plaster against your back contrasting with the heat of his body against yours.
Every touch, every kiss, every movement was filled with urgency, a desperate need to make up for all the time youâd spent denying yourselves this moment. His hands roamed your body, possessive and reverent as if trying to commit every inch of you to memory.
Your hands tugged at the rest of his clothes, pushing them further off him as your lips moved from his mouth to his jawline, trailing kisses down his neck. The soft, breathy sound you made against his skin sent a jolt of electricity through him, his control slipping further.
âAaron,â you gasped, your voice breaking as his hands moved to the small of your back, pulling you closer.
He groaned in response, his name on your lips undoing him in a way he hadnât expected. âYouâre mine,â he growled, his voice rough and raw as his lips found yours again. âNo one elseâs.â
Your response was immediate, your arms tightening around his neck as you kissed him back with equal fervor. The way you moved against him, the way you whispered his name between gasps, left no room for doubtâyou were his, and he was yours.
The tension between you reached its breaking point, the air heavy with the weight of everything unspoken but understood. Aaronâs movements became more deliberate, his hands gripping you firmly as he gave in completely to the moment.
It was raw, intense, and unrelenting, a culmination of months of longing and frustration. Every touch, every kiss, every movement was filled with a passion that left you both breathless, the line between control and surrender blurring as you claimed each other fully.
When he reached between you, he found you wet and wanting. Bucking your hips against his hand. He circled his fingers, warming you up--not that you needed it. Savoring the little responses he got from you. His other hand reached for your breast, caressing and cupping it with achingly slow motions.Â
âAaron!â It was almost a demand, telling him you needed him now. He understood as you pushed yourself up, wrapping one leg around his waist. His pants and belt pooled at his ankles--it wasnât the most practical scene, but was anything about this situation?Â
He entered you swiftly, an open-mouthed kiss with a shared groan between the two of you. Your hands found his hair, tugging on it as your eyes rolled back. His mouth moved to the hollow of your neck, his hands exploring you all at once, but still not enough.Â
He imagined the angle was physically more demanding for you as he lifted you, holding you up against the wall, bringing him impossibly deeper now. He rocked into you with a rhythm that was unmatched. The sound of his metal belt buckle shifting on the floor with every swift slap of his hips against yours filled the room.
It didnât take long for you to reach your peak, basically melting in his arms. It was like a domino effect, taking him down with you. He released deep inside of you, his forehead resting against your shoulder as he groaned your name.Â
Something deep was released inside in this moment, too, more emotionally than any sexual release. He knew in this moment he couldnât not have you again.Â
You unwrapped your legs from his hips, the two of you slowly separating with a whimper.Â
Aaron held you against him, his forehead resting against yours as both of you tried to catch your breath. His hands remained on your waist, his grip firm but gentle, as if he couldnât bear to let go just yet.
For a moment, neither of you spoke. The weight of what youâd just done hung in the air, but so did the undeniable connection that had brought you to this point.
âYou okay?â he asked softly, his voice low and rough as his fingers brushed lightly against your side.
You nodded, your lips curving into a faint, almost bittersweet smile. âYeah,â you whispered. âIâm okay.â
Aaron exhaled, pressing a soft kiss to your forehead as he closed his eyes. For now, in this moment, everything else could wait. For now, there was only you.
The intensity between you had cooled slightly, replaced now by a quiet tenderness that neither of you knew how to navigate. Reaching down, he pulled his boxers, pants and belt back up, leaving them still undone.
The silence was thick, and as Aaron stepped back, his gaze flicked to the disheveled state of both of you. He ran a hand through his hair, his breathing still uneven as the realization hit him like a jolt.
âWe didnât...â he started, his voice low and gravelly. âWe didnât use protection.â
Your lips parted, and for a moment, you didnât respond. Then, with a softness that caught him off guard, you said, âI know.â
Aaron frowned, confusion furrowing his brow. âAnd youâre... with Jeff.â
The words tasted bitter on his tongue, but he forced them out, needing to understand. He watched as you turned away.
âWe havenât had sex,â you admitted quietly, your voice barely above a whisper.
Aaron froze, the weight of your words sinking in slowly. âWhat?â
You turned to face him, your expression vulnerable in a way he wasnât used to seeing. âI couldnât,â you said, meeting his eyes. âI couldnât bring myself to... be with him. Heâsââ You let out a bitter laugh, shaking your head. âHeâs been an accessory. Something to keep people from asking questions.â
Aaron stared at you, his mind racing. Jeffâs smug comments in the locker room, the way heâd hovered near you at the partyâit had all been an act, a performance. You hadnât been with him. Youâd been pulling him along to keep up appearances, just like youâd said.
âI thought...â he began, but his words faltered. He took a breath, running a hand down his face. âYouâre with him, and Iâm with Beth. Or at least I thought I was.â
You studied him, your eyes searching his face. âHave you?â you asked, the question hesitant but pointed.
Aaron shook his head, his voice quieter now. âNo. I havenât been able to.â His lips pressed into a thin line as he met your gaze. âSheâs not... sheâs not you.â
For a moment, the weight of that truth hung between you, unspoken but undeniable. Neither of you moved, the air between you thick with something that felt too fragile to name.
Eventually, Aaron stepped forward, his hand brushing against yours before gently taking it in his. âCome on,â he said softly. âLetâs get cleaned up.â
You followed him without a word, the quiet between you more comfortable now, though still heavy with everything unsaid. In the dim light of the small bathroom, Aaron found a clean towel, dampening it with warm water before turning back to you.
He worked in silence, his movements careful and deliberate as he wiped away the remnants of your shared passion. His touch was tender, his fingers brushing against your skin with a reverence that made your breath hitch.
When it was your turn, you took another face cloth, your hands steady but your expression unreadable. You dabbed at his face, his neck, his chest, your fingers lingering just a little too long as if memorizing the feel of him.
Neither of you spoke, the quiet filled only with the soft sound of water and the unspoken tension that neither of you knew how to address. Aaron watched you, his chest tightening as he saw the flicker of vulnerability in your eyes, the way your lips pressed into a thin line as you concentrated on your task.
He wanted to say somethingâanythingâbut the words wouldnât come. So he let the moment stretch, allowing the silence to say what neither of you could.
When you were finished, you folded the towel and set it aside, your hands brushing his one last time before you stepped back. Aaron caught your wrist gently, his touch lingering just long enough for you to meet his gaze.
But still, neither of you spoke.
Instead, you turned away, pulling your robe tighter around you as Aaron let his hand fall to his side. The weight of everything youâd shared pressed heavily on both of you and for now, neither of you had the courage to face what came next.
Aaron stood in the quiet of your bedroom, his hands resting on his hips as he tried to gather his scattered thoughts. The events of the night weighed heavily on himâwhat they meant, what they would lead toâbut before he could sink too deeply into his own mind, you reappeared.
Your silk robe was gone, replaced by his button-up shirt, which hung loosely on your frame, the hem brushing the tops of your thighs. You looked both effortless and intimate, like you belonged in it.
âI missed this,â you said softly, your voice breaking through his thoughts. You smoothed your hands over the fabric, as though savoring the feel of it. âI missed the smell of you. I missed you. Everything about you.â
The words hit Aaron like a punch to the chest, and he exhaled slowly, his throat tightening. He knew the feeling all too well. He had missed you, tooâmore than he could admit, more than he had allowed himself to feel until now.
You took his hand, your fingers curling around his as you gently tugged him toward the bed. Aaron followed, the quiet intimacy of the moment grounding him even as his heart raced. Removing his dresspants, folding them, and placing them on a chair nearby.Â
He sat on the edge of the bed, his body taut with hesitation, but you didnât let him linger there. You climbed onto the mattress, settling in on your side and motioning for him to join you.
Aaron hesitated for a moment, then slid under the covers, lying on his side to face you. The moonlight spilled through the curtains, bathing the room in a soft, silver glow. It cast delicate shadows across your face, highlighting the vulnerability in your expression as you looked at him.
For a long moment, neither of you spoke. The quiet stretched between you, filled with the weight of everything unspoken. Aaronâs gaze traced the lines of your face, committing every detail to memoryâthe curve of your cheek, the softness of your lips, the way your eyes held his with an intensity that made his chest ache.
âLove me,â you whispered suddenly, your voice trembling but insistent. Your fingers brushed lightly against his jaw, your touch hesitant but desperate. âPlease, Aaron. Love me.â
The vulnerability in your voice, the way you said the words like they were both a demand and a plea, sent a wave of emotion crashing over him. This was almost uncharacteristic for you. Your presence never demanded attention, yet here you were, asking him to love you. Aaronâs heart twisted painfully, and he reached for your hand, bringing it to his lips and pressing a gentle kiss to your knuckles.
âYou donât have to ask me to do that,â he said softly, his voice thick with emotion. âI already do.â
Your breath hitched, your eyes searching his as if trying to find the truth in his words. But there was no doubt, no hesitation in his gaze. He loved youâhe always had, even when he couldnât say it, even when it felt impossible.
âBut we canât,â he continued, his voice breaking slightly. âYou know that. If we do this, we risk everythingâour jobs, the team, the work weâve both sacrificed so much for.â
âI donât care,â you said, your voice firm despite the tears shining in your eyes. âI donât care about any of that, Aaron. I just care about you.â
Aaron closed his eyes, his chest heaving as he struggled to reconcile the conflicting emotions tearing through him. He hated how complicated this was, how the world seemed determined to keep the two of you apart.
âI hate it, too,â he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. âI hate how complicated this is, how much we have to give up just to be together. But I canât lose you. I canât risk losing everything that makes you... you.â
Your hand cupped his face, your thumb brushing lightly over his cheek as you leaned closer. âThen donât,â you said, your voice soft but resolute. âDonât lose me. Weâll figure it out. We have to.â
Aaron exhaled shakily, his forehead pressing against yours as his eyes closed. The thought of giving you up, of walking away from this, was unbearable. And yet, the thought of losing everything you had worked so hard for was just as devastating.
âIâd give it all up,â he murmured, his voice raw with emotion. âThe job, the teamâall of it. Iâd give it up to have you.â
Your breath caught, and for a moment, neither of you spoke, the weight of his words settling over you. He had reached a point where he couldnât even get to with Haley--ready to put the job and whatever else behind him. Then, slowly, you leaned forward, your lips brushing against his in a kiss so soft it felt like a promise.
Aaron kissed you back, his hands cradling your face as he poured everything he couldnât say into the connection. And as the two of you lay there in the quiet, the moonlight casting its gentle glow over the room, Aaron realized that, for the first time in a long time, he wasnât afraid of what came next.
The morning light filtered through the curtains, casting a soft glow across the room as Aaron woke to the warmth of your body next to his. For a moment, he allowed himself the luxury of forgetting everything outside this space. But the weight of reality settled quickly, and he knew there were choices to be madeâchoices that couldnât wait.
You stirred beside him, your head turning slightly on the pillow as your eyes fluttered open. When you looked at him, there was a quiet understanding in your gaze, as though youâd already been thinking about what needed to happen next.
The day was spent in quiet, focused conversation. You sat together at the kitchen table, steaming cups of coffee in front of you, as you laid out the possibilities. Aaron admired your methodical approach, the way you analyzed every angle every consequence, even as he felt the heaviness of the discussion pressing down on him.
âWhat if we went to the team first?â you suggested your voice steady but laced with uncertainty. âIf theyâre on our sideâif they donât have any reservationsâit might give us the leverage we need when we talk to the Director again.â
Aaron considered your words carefully, his fingers drumming lightly on the table. âItâs risky,â he admitted, his gaze meeting yours. âBut it might be the only way to prove that this wonât affect the teamâs dynamic. If they can support us, it could make a difference.â
You nodded, your hands wrapped around your mug as you leaned back in your chair. âAnd if the Director still refuses?â
Aaronâs jaw tightened, his eyes darkening with determination. âThen we donât give him a choice. We go in together and tell him itâs either thisâor we both walk.â
The silence that followed was heavy but not uncomfortable. It was a shared understanding of the enormity of what you were discussing. Neither of you had ever walked away from anything lightly, but the thought of giving each other up again was unbearable.
Later, as the day stretched on, the two of you made the decisions youâd been avoiding for weeks. Beth deserved the truth, as did Jeff, no matter how difficult those conversations would be.
Aaron made the visit to Beth first. She was tinged with confusion at his sudden need to talk. He kept his words measured and respectful, explaining that he couldnât give her what she deservedâthat his heart had always belonged to someone else. Beth was hurt but graceful, her acceptance tinged with sadness.
When he returned to the your house later on after also attending to fatherly duties with Jack, you were finishing your call with Jeff. Your expression was unreadable, but the way you let out a soft sigh as you set your phone down spoke volumes. âHe didnât take it well,â you admitted quietly, your fingers tracing the edge of your mug. âBut I couldnât keep leading him on. It wasnât fair.â
Aaron placed a hand over yours, his touch grounding and steady. âWe did what we had to,â he said, his voice low and resolute. âNow we move forward.â
That evening, as you sat together in the quiet, the weight of the dayâs decisions settled over you both. The path ahead was uncertain, filled with potential challenges and risks, but for the first time, there was a glimmer of hope.
The two of you had a planâa united frontâand whatever came next, you knew youâd face it.
The BAU conference room felt smaller than usual as Aaron Hotchner stood to the side, leaning against the wall with his arms crossed. You were seated at the head of the table, your posture poised but your hands clasped tightly togetherâa rare sign of nervousness that only someone who knew you well, like Aaron, would notice.
The team filtered in one by one, their expressions curious but light. Emily had a cup of coffee in hand, Derek was chatting with JJ about some recent Quantico gossip, and Penelope trailed behind with a bright, questioning look. Reid sat toward the middle, already flipping through a notepad, and Rossi took his usual spot near the back, his eyes sharp as they scanned the room.
âAlright, whatâs going on?â Derek asked, his grin playful as he pulled out a chair and settled in. âThis doesnât feel like our usual meeting vibe.â
You took a steadying breath, your gaze sweeping across the table before landing briefly on Aaron. He gave you a small nod, his expression calm but supportive.
âThank you all for coming,â you began, your voice steady despite the undercurrent of tension in the room. âI know this isnât our usual meeting. Aaron and I asked you here because we need to discuss something importantâsomething personal that affects the team.â
The lighthearted chatter died down instantly, replaced by a palpable curiosity and concern.
You continued, your hands tightening slightly around each other as you spoke. âOver the past few months, Aaron and I have realized that we want to pursue a personal relationship. I know this might come as a surpriseâor even a concernâto some of you, given our roles and the nature of our work.â
Aaron watched as the team processed your words, their expressions a mixture of surprise, curiosity, and, in some cases, quiet understanding.
You straightened, your tone firm but earnest. âWeâve thought this through carefully. We understand the gravity of this decision, not just for ourselves but for all of you. This team is a family. Itâs been my honor to work with each of you, and I donât take lightly the idea of doing anything that could disrupt that dynamic.â
Aaron stepped forward then, his voice calm and measured as he added, âThatâs why we wanted to be upfront with all of you. We respect your opinions, and weâre here to listen if any of you have reservations or concerns.â
There was a beat of silence before Emily leaned back in her chair, crossing her arms with a thoughtful look. âSo let me get this straight,â she said, her voice tinged with dry amusement. âThe two of you want to be together, but the higher-ups donât approve?â
You nodded, your gaze steady. âCorrect. The Director has made it clear that our relationship is considered inappropriate given our positions. He gave us two options: end it or find roles outside the team.â
JJ frowned, her concern evident. âAnd what are you planning to do?â
Aaron glanced at you, and you gave a slight nod before he spoke. âWeâve decided to pursue the relationship despite those orders. But weâre not going into this without a plan. We believe the best course of action is to go to the Director with the support of this team. If we can demonstrate that our relationship wonât compromise our work or the dynamic here, it may give us the leverage we need.â
âAnd if it doesnât?â Reid asked quietly, his brow furrowed in thought.
You hesitated, and Aaron stepped in. âIf the Director wonât budge, weâre prepared to leave. Together.â
That admission hung heavy in the air, and Aaron could feel the weight of the teamâs reactions pressing down on him.
Derek leaned forward, resting his elbows on the table as he let out a low whistle. âMan, thatâs a big gamble. But youâve always been a risk-taker, Hotch.â
Emily smirked faintly, her tone more teasing than judgmental. âNever wouldâve pegged you for a rule-breaker, though.â
Penelope, wide-eyed and fidgeting with her bracelets, finally spoke up. âSo⌠does this mean weâre, like, the deciding vote? Because, no pressure, but this feels like a really big deal!â
You smiled faintly, the tension in your posture easing slightly. âIt is a big deal, Penelope. But we trust you. All of you. Thatâs why we wanted to have this conversation first.â
Rossi, who had been quietly observing, finally leaned forward, his expression thoughtful. âFor what itâs worth,â he said, his voice calm but firm, âIâve seen a lot of things in this job. Relationships, breakups, people falling apart under pressure. But Iâve never doubted the professionalism or dedication of either of you. And I donât see that changing now.â
Aaron felt a flicker of gratitude as Rossiâs words hung in the air, setting the tone for the rest of the discussion.
One by one, the team voiced their thoughts. JJ expressed some concern about how this might look to the brass but ultimately supported you both, trusting your judgment. Reid, after asking a few logistical questions, nodded thoughtfully and said he believed the two of you could handle it. Penelope gave an impassioned speech about love conquering all, which drew chuckles around the table, and Emily and Derek exchanged a look before both offering their backing with only a bit of playful ribbing.
By the end of the discussion, Aaron felt a weight lift from his chest. The teamâs support wasnât just a reliefâit was a validation of the respect and trust you had built with each of them over the years.
You stood, your hands resting lightly on the table as you addressed them one last time. âThank you. Truly. This means everything to us. And I promise, no matter what happens, the integrity of this team will always come first.â
Aaron stepped beside you, his gaze sweeping over the team with quiet gratitude. âWeâll take this to the Director together. And whatever happens, weâll figure it out.â
As the team began to disperse, Derek clapped him on the shoulder with a grin. âNever thought Iâd see the day, Hotch. You breaking rules for love? Guess thereâs hope for all of us.â
Aaron chuckled softly, but as he turned to look at you, his expression softened. This wasnât just about breaking rulesâit was about finally choosing the person who made it all worthwhile.
Aaron Hotchner stood in the hallway outside the Directorâs office, his hands in his pockets and his gaze steady. The weight of what they were about to do hung heavily between you, but he felt none of the apprehension he might have expected. Instead, he felt a strange calm bolstered by the resolve that radiated from you as you stood beside him.
You turned to him, your expression set but your eyes soft. You had dressed sharply for the meeting, your tailored suit immaculate, projecting the authority you carried so effortlessly. Still, there was something in the way your fingers brushed against his as you reached for him that made his chest tighten.
âYou ready for this?â you asked, your voice low but steady.
Aaron looked at you, taking in the determined set of your jaw and the quiet strength in your posture. âWith you? Always.â
A faint smile tugged at your lips, and for a moment, the tension between you softened. You stepped closer, your hand resting lightly on his chest as you leaned in, your lips brushing against his in a kiss that was both grounding and electrifying.
âLetâs do this,â you murmured against his mouth, and he nodded, his hands lingering briefly on your waist before you pulled away.
When you entered the Directorâs office together, the atmosphere shifted. The room was large and imposing, the walls lined with awards and photos that told the story of the Bureauâs successes. The Director sat behind his desk, his expression unreadable as he gestured for you to sit.
Aaron stayed standing beside you as you took the lead, your voice calm and authoritative as you began. âThank you for meeting with us, sir. We wanted to address the situation between Agent Hotchner and myself directly.â
The Director leaned back in his chair, his hands folded neatly in front of him. âIâm listening.â
Aaron watched as you laid out your case with precision and confidence, detailing how the two of you had handled your relationship with professionalism, how you had sought the teamâs support, and how they had expressed their trust in your ability to maintain the integrity of the BAU.
âWe understand your concerns, and we donât take this lightly,â you said, your gaze steady on the Director. âBut we also know the value we bring to the Bureau, both individually and as a team. Weâre here to ask for your trust, just as weâve earned the trust of the people we lead.â
Aaron stepped in then, his voice steady but firm. âWeâve always put the mission of the BAU first, and that wonât change. But if this is a line you believe weâve crossed, weâre prepared to accept the consequences. Both of us.â
The Directorâs gaze sharpened at that, his eyes narrowing slightly as he studied you both. âYouâre telling me youâre willing to walk away? Both of you?â
âYes,â you said simply, your tone leaving no room for doubt. âWe believe in what weâve built here, but we wonât compromise our integrityâor the teamâsâby pretending this relationship doesnât exist.â
The room was silent for a long moment, the weight of your words settling heavily in the air. Aaron could feel the tension coiled in his chest, but he didnât waver. He stood beside you, unflinching, as the Director considered their ultimatum.
Finally, the Director let out a slow breath; his fingers steepled under his chin. âThis is highly irregular. You both know that. The Bureau doesnât operate on personal exceptions.â
You nodded, your posture unyielding. âWe understand that, sir. But losing both of us would be a significant blow to the BAU, especially given our track record and the current demands on the unit.â
The Directorâs lips pressed into a thin line. âYouâre asking for a lot.â
Aaron stepped forward, his voice quiet but firm. âAnd weâre offering a solution. Put us on a review period. Watch us closely. If there are any issuesâany compromises to the integrity of the BAUâyouâll have our resignations. No questions asked.â
The Directorâs gaze flicked between the two of you, his expression inscrutable. After what felt like an eternity, he leaned back in his chair and exhaled sharply. âFine. A review period. But understand this: youâll both be under intense scrutiny. Any sign that this relationship is affecting the team or your work, and it ends. Am I clear?â
âYes, sir,â you said immediately, your voice steady.
Aaron nodded. âCrystal.â
When the two of you left the office, the tension in the hallway was palpable, but it quickly gave way to a quiet sense of victory. You turned to him, your eyes meeting his, and for the first time that day, you allowed yourself a small, relieved smile.
âThat went better than expected,â you said, your voice light with a mix of relief and determination.
Aaron chuckled softly, his hand brushing against yours as you walked. âIâd say we make a pretty good team.â
You stopped then, turning to face him fully. The moonlight streaming through the hallway windows cast a soft glow over your face, and Aaron felt his chest tighten at the sight of youâstrong, confident, and absolutely unshakable.
âWith you?â you said, echoing his earlier words. âWe can do anything.â
Aaron smiled, his hand finding yours and giving it a firm, reassuring squeeze. And as the two of you walked away from the Directorâs office, united in purpose and resolve, he knew that whatever challenges lay ahead, you would face them together.
Days later, the grand estate was already alive with warmth and light as Aaron Hotchner guided you up the stone steps to Rossiâs front door. The crisp New Yearâs Eve air bit at his skin, but it was nothing compared to the warmth he felt when he glanced at you, wrapped in a deep burgundy coat that highlighted the glow in your cheeks.
âRossi doesnât do anything halfway,â Aaron remarked quietly, his lips curving into a faint smile as you reached the top step.
âYou say that like youâre surprised,â you teased, your eyes sparkling as you met his gaze.
Aaron chuckled softly, his hand finding the small of your back as the door swung open, revealing Rossi himself. Dressed in a sharp suit, his expression was one of genuine delight as he welcomed you both with open arms.
âAh, my two favorite rule-breakers,â Rossi said with a grin, stepping aside to let you in. âCome in, come in. Thereâs champagne waiting, and plenty of people to charm.â
The party was every bit as grand as Aaron had expected. Rossiâs expansive living room was filled with colleagues, friends, and family, all dressed in their finest. A jazz quartet played softly in the corner, their music weaving seamlessly through the low hum of conversation.
Aaron scanned the room instinctively, cataloging familiar facesâEmily and JJ chatting near the bar, Penelope gesturing animatedly to Reid, and Derek leaning against a nearby column, his easy grin drawing a small crowd of admirers.
But his focus always returned to you.
You were by his side, your coat now replaced by an elegant black dress that hugged your figure perfectly, the neckline just daring enough to make his chest tighten. You smiled at someone who greeted you, your laugh soft but genuine, and Aaron couldnât help but marvel at how effortlessly you commanded the room.
âEnjoying yourself?â you asked, tilting your head to look at him as you handed him a glass of champagne.
He took it with a small smile, his fingers brushing yours briefly. âIâd say that depends entirely on you.â
Your lips quirked into a faint smirk, and for a moment, the noise of the room faded, leaving only the quiet connection between the two of you.
As the evening wore on, Aaron found himself drawn to you again and again, his gaze seeking you out even when you were across the room. You had a way of grounding him, even in the chaos of a room full of people, and he felt a quiet thrill every time your eyes met his, a silent understanding passing between you.
When the two of you found yourselves alone on Rossiâs terrace, the night sky stretched out above you, Aaron couldnât help but steal a moment. The cold air bit at his skin, but the warmth of your presence was enough to chase it away.
âYou look stunning tonight,â he said softly, his voice low as he leaned on the railing beside you.
You glanced at him, your smile softening into something more intimate. âYouâre not so bad yourself, Agent Hotchner.â
The teasing tone in your voice made him chuckle, but there was an undercurrent of sincerity that made his chest ache in the best way.
The sound of the party spilling onto the terrace broke the moment, and the two of you turned to see Rossi stepping out, his hands raised theatrically.
âTwo minutes to midnight, folks!â he called, his grin as wide as ever. âLetâs make it count!â
Aaron glanced at you, his heart pounding as he saw the faint blush on your cheeks. Without a word, he reached for your hand, pulling you gently closer.
âHappy New Year,â he murmured, his voice soft but firm as the first sounds of the countdown began to echo from inside.
âHappy New Year,â you whispered back, your lips curling into a small, private smile as the world around you blurred.
And as the clock struck midnight and the room erupted in cheers, Aaron kissed you, his hand cradling your face as the noise and the cold and everything else faded away. It was just you and him, standing together at the start of something new, something strong.
Together, you could conquer anything.
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