THEE OAKWREN QUOTE OF ALL TIME

push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.

push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.

get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.

stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.

buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.

buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.

strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.

organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.

have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.

push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.

message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.

think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.

become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.

lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.

Insanely cute letterpress postcards by Pottering Cat, Japan.

It’s not a hug, I’m just grabbin’ the door for ya.

My Opinion on Maven Calore

I have wanted to get this of my chest for a while. If you don’t want to read that’s okay, but it might be worthwhile! If you read the whole thing then you are definitely my friend :) Without further ado: 

I fell for Maven Calore, just like Mare Barrow did in Red Queen. I did not immediately fall in love with Marecal at “Thief, Obviously”, and that I think is okay even though most of the fandom did. I was conflicted because at the time, I truly did believe Maven was with the scarlet guard and that Cal wasn’t. Yet Cal was still incredibly kind and sweet to Mare  Then we all know what happened, and I was incredibly angry with Maven and could not comprehend what had happened. 

Throughout Glass Sword, I felt like Mare did, falling more in love with Cal but then also missing a boy that never really existed. But then King’s Cage caused even more heartbreak! I tried so hard to separate the dream and the reality. King’s Cage gave us more insight into how twisted Maven truly is. As someone who suffers depression and anxiety, it often feels like there are two versions of me in my head. One that isolates and self deprecates, and another that tells me to be kind to myself. The fact that Maven truly does not know what is him and what is what Elara constructed is devastating. He has grown up with endless mental and probably physical abuse from his mother. He never felt like he was good enough, that he was a shadow, and I personally know how difficult it is to feel like you are not enough. He is constantly battling so many parts of himself, the desperation and confusion must be terrifying. He admitted to Mare in the bathtub scene that he knows it is his fault that they aren’t together. He shows regret in his eyes when he is marrying Iris. 

I also think the reason why Mare understands him so much is because they are really similar in personality in how they deal with pain and fear. When Maven scratches his hands to inflict physical pain, Mare recognizes that in herself as a substitute for mental pain. Both of them hate each other but no matter how hard they try they can’t let each other go. Their twisted love is so toxic. Like Mare said, if she was raised by someone like that, what would she become? What was Maven supposed to be? Mare could easily become a monster too, and often fears she already is one. Both have murdered. Both are broken. Just imagine if you loved someone, then killed them by accident, then loved another yet had that affection butchered and shattered by your own mother .If you were molded  to become someone else’s tool for their desires, to live a fate you never wanted.

I do not excuse Maven’s horrible actions, but my heart breaks for the tragedy he is. When people say Maven should die, etc. I understand where it is coming from. Hell, Mare wants to kill him. She had the chance to, but she couldn’t. She sees all the layers he has and how difficult it is for him to sort through them and find the truth. In his twisted way, he does love Mare, and that love is poison. I think we must remember that he is a brilliant villain, a beautiful tragedy, and very much grey rather than black and white, but still a broken boy. 

@vaveyard

I took a glance at these photos and now I’m pregnant! How crazy😂😂

𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐠𝐟 ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥

• she's extremely protective over you.

• like if she notices a guy staring at you she immediately hugs your waist while glaring at him.

• bottom or switch in bed but she's very dominant (irl too).

• she's really possessive.

• she spends a lot of her time playing video games but that doesn't stop her from spending time with you.

• she loves teaching you how to play her games even though you mostly suck.

• whenever you give up trying to learn you sit on her lap while she hugs your waist with the controller in her hands.

• smoking sessions by the window.

• cooks for you, cleans for you, genuinely treats you like a princess.

• she's the big spoon while you guys cuddle.

• but she secretly loves it when she's the small spoon.

• she sucks at make up or plucking out her eyebrows and you keep begging her to help her but she always denies your help.

• but always end up on her lap drawing eyeliner on her eyes or plucking out her eyebrows for fun.

• whenever she's bored she starts playing with your fingers.

• wearing her oversized hoodies and her boxers for shorts.

• late night rides on her motorcycle.

• she custom made a helmet for you, using her own art equipment, your safety is first.

• every time you tell her to slow down she goes faster so you wrap your hands around her waist more.

• whenever your in a car though ( of youre a passenger princess) she keeps one hand on your thigh and the other one on the wheel.

• she is also a great tattoo artist so whenever she feels like it she makes little tattoos that remind her of you and then never shows them to you bc she's shy af.

• whenever you kiss she traces one hand on your body underneath your shirt and the other one is your head, pulling your hair.

• slow dancing with 50s music while she's holding your waist and your hands around her neck ( dina and ellie in tlou part ll be like).

• she would 100% kill for you without a doubt.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

"For someone who has spent the life too busy training with swords, you really know how to provoke men." He squinted at Jude, his voice dry.

She made a point of facing him, narrowing her eyes.

"What do you mean?"

"Make of that what you will." Cardan shrugged with a vague hand gesture, walking towards the bedroom.

"I'll interpret it the hard way then . Or come back here and tell me once and for all what you really think of me. If you have courage."

Cardan turned as if Jude had thrown something at his head.

"What kind of talk is that? Are we going to start a duel?" he asked indignantly.

"Maybe we should." She walked towards him, chin raised to look him in the eye.

"Maybe if you had a knife to your neck you wouldn't play games and just say what you mean."

"Are you threatening me?" He asked with a nervous laugh, raising his eyebrows.

Jude was unbelievable. This wasn't how he imagined wives acted. His wife wasn't like the other girls, though.

"Make of that what you will." She imitated him, her lowered voice still sounding menacing.

My English is terrible but I think that's the best passage I've ever written lol (I hope this doesn't sound like a 5th grade discussion 😭)

Vivaldi played by the South African elementary school Goede Hoop Marimba Band

Turn ON the sound

Ellie and Dina throughout The Last of Us Part II (1/2)

↳ "I don’t want to lose you."