Ada Limón, "In The Country Of Resurrection" // Jack Kerouac, Big Sur // Mary Oliver, "The Fourth Sign

the beast you made of me

The Truth and Grunewald, Juan Ramón Jiménez tr. W.S. Merwin | St. Michael,  Luca Giordano | The Bear - Episode 1, Christopher Storer | Fallen Angel, Alexandre Cabanel | Fury, Yevgeny Yevtushenko | Dante et Virgile, William Bouguereau | The Terre Haute Planetarium Rejected My Proposal, Paige Lewis | Study of a Man, Thomas Couture

THE LIVING HAUNTED HOUSE

The Haunting of Hill House, Shirley Jackson (1959) / House by the Railroad, Edward Hopper (1925) / The Fall of the House of Usher, Edgar Allan Poe (1839) / Haunted House, Paris Painting, Thomas Flint (2015) / Wuthering Heights, John Frederic Greenwood (c. 1924) / Flowers in the Attic, V.C. Andrews (1979) / Flowers in the Attic dir. Jeffrey Bloom (1987) / Flowers in the Attic: The Origin dir. Declan O'Dwyer & Robin Sheppard (2022) / Guillermo del Toro on Crimson Peak in W Magazine / Crimson Peak dir. Guillermo del Toro (2015) / Guillermo del Toro on Crimson Peak in The Sydney Morning Herald

there is no such thing as good grief

“big god,” florence + the machine/mary oliver/richard siken/wandavision/jamie anderson/“good grief,” hayley williams/unknown/“i promised no more poetry,” trista mateer/“heaven’s gate,” the wonder years

Joy Harjo, from “Nandia”, She Had Some Horses

i think my body is falling in pieces i think my blood is passing me by

Micah Nemerever These Violent Delights / I.B. Vyache Excerpt 07.01.21 / Silas Denver Melvin excerpt from Grit: A Poetry Collection / Christa Wolf excerpt from Cassandra: A Novel and Four Essays / Ethel Cain Family Tree (Intro) / unknown / Fiona Apple Left Alone / Richard Siken The Worm King's Lullaby / Gwen Benaway Holy Wild

i. Micah Nemerever, These Violent Nights

[ "I don't think you've ever felt anything that didn't hurt you. / We've found each other, out of everyone else in the world. Does that hurt, too?" ]

ii. I.B. Vyache, Excerpt 07.01.21

[ "It's time to forgive my hands for being hands. I'm going to hate myself a little less tomorrow. I'm going to hate myself a little less tomorrow." ]

iii. unknown

[ "have you shot a gun? is your blood authentic? is your blood authentic? is your blood authentic? can you prove it to me?" ]

iv. Christa Wolf, Cassandra: A Novel and Four Essays

[ "You looked at me / (did you still see me?)" ]

v. Ethel Cain, Family Tree (Intro)

[ "The fate's already fucked me sideways / Swinging by my neck from the family tree / He'll laugh and say, 'You know I raised you better than this' / Then leave me hanging so they all can laugh at me" ]

vi. unknown

[ "I fight. I resist. It doesn't even matter what I resist; there is simply something in me that tends to resist things as they are. I have been fighting since I was very small." ]

vii. Fiona Apple, Left Alone

[ "[Chorus] / How can I ask anyone to love me / When all I do is beg to be left alone?" ]

viii. Richard Siken, The Worm King's Lullaby

[ "Someone has to leave first. This is a very old story. There is no other version of this story." ]

ix. Gwen Benaway, Holy Wild

[ "I am tired of explaining the fire, / it burns because it must." ]

Euripides, tr. by Anne Carson, Grief Lessons: Four Plays by Euripides

ghada al-samman // little women, louisa may alcott // howl’s moving castle, hayao miyazaki // the inferno, henri barbusse // the book thief, markus zusak // a letter to louise webb, charles bukowski // anastasia, don bluth & gary goldman // primer for the nuclear age, rita dove // san francisco poems or letters to jack, cathy linh che // night and day, virginia woolf

Matthew Dickman, from “Montpelier” [ID in ALT]

Jon Ware, I Am In Eskew

selected diaries, virginia woolf / abandonment (the pair), henri de toulouse-lautrec / pillow thoughts, courtney peppernell / in bed, henri de toulouse-lautrec / work song, hozier / the two friends, henri de toulouse-lautrec / portrait of a lady on fire (2019), dir. céline sciamma