Into The Abyss By Esama Pixel Art Inspired By Esama's Work, "Into The Abyss" Where Shen Yuan Is A Feral

Does anyone

have like an exhaustive master source for clothes/garments worn in China throughout every century? It can be either a link or a book i’ll have to buy. It also doesn’t have to be every century or every piece if clothing, I just want a good place to start. Preferably not from a blog, but i’ll still look at them.

I want to make clothes for an oc but I want to know exactly what i’m drawing and its significance/lack of significance/etc

Shizun! Shizun! Shizun!!!!!!! 😘😘💕✨

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Bingqiu

Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

a certain something certain

A Pairing of Souls

Anew

a second chance for a sinister person full of resentment

A Willing Wager

Behind Closed Doors

Bend, So I Don’t Break

Beyond heaven, above hell

Buttermilk

Day 21:Angry Sex

Deluxe System 2.0: Co-op Mode!

Dew Over

dragonfly

Dying Caws

Follow Me (back pls)

fool’s gold

Forever, as he had promised

forever hold your peace

found you

Guys My Age

heart got teeth

High Mountain, How I Long

honesty is such a lonely word

How to Forgive Your Shizun with the Power of Hindsight

In My Defense, I Was Left Unsupervised!

Kiss it Better

let me be at ease

Love You Tomorrow

Luo Binghe in a Leather Jacket is Illegal!

night of yearning

No heart for me like yours

Obedience

Of The Ones Who Lead

Option Three for Easy Mode

Peerless_Eats

Proud Immortal Demon Way of the Househusband

Reclaim Your Crown

Say “I love you”

shen yuan and original luo binghe’s epic adventure in the modern world

Shizun is Drinking Vinegar

Snake Charmer

speak no evil

system failure

System Restore

The Qi Deviation

The Red Carpet In-Between

The Shizun Motivational Rewards Programme

the taste of blood, the claim of love

This Is Me Trying

To Inure

trial and error

two point perspective

What You Will

white amaranth, purple eggplant

Without a Clue

With You on Rainy Days

Wrap Me In Your Arms Tonight

You Reap What You Sow

Bingliushen

something you don’t give much attention

Stay the Night

the story unfolds in your touch

The Things We Wish For

where will we see this moon next year

Moshang

a cold bath is good for the heart

Adding frost to snow

A Dubious Defection

a heart so cold

a hungry heart

A King and His God

And You Are Smiling Back At Me

An Exchange of Many Things

AN IDIOT’S GUIDE TO A HAPPY MARRIAGE

Another Year, Together

a rose by any other name

A softer touch

as snow

baby, don’t you worry

Baring My Soul To You

Borealis

call and response

Courting of the Consort

darkness unknown to thee

desert without rain

dreams that had never come true

Fates We Saw in the Water

friendly takeover

galvanized fealty

Hairpins

heart’s bane

here, again

How to Panic Your Demon King

i can’t believe you bought that

If Not You

In My Defense, I Was Left Unsupervised!

lately, all I feel is bad and bruised

lost my head inside the dream

mirrors

My Roommate Is An Ice Dragon?!

Never Let Me Go

(not) a silver lining

Not the Blade that Kills

One Last Time

pass in a hurry

Performance Appraisal

protection

Quick, Easy Steps To Realizing You’re The Queen Consort

rosewater

safest in the shade

so you have a bad day

spambot

Stone Cold

sunbeam; flaring

system reboot

the ache for home lives in us all

The Coffin Scene

The Shang Qinghua Effect

tips for a healthy marriage

two steps forward

under a wicked star

until the sea returns you

waves of cold

we carried it all so well

winter’s gale

Won’t let go

先来后到 ⃒ first come, first served

you still eat away at me

The power dynamic between Bingqiu is so complex and unhinged.

On the one hand, Shen Qingqiu is the Shizun, and Luo Binghe the disciple. He still pretty much serves and defers to him as such. Shen Qingqiu is the master, the elder, the superior, in a way that can never change in a culture so steeped in respect for such hierarchies, and where reversal or equalization is simply not a thing. Shen Qingqiu himself still refers to himself as "this master" for most of the story (even post canon? I can't remember), and the one quality he appreciates in Luo Binghe (at least that he says aloud) is his obedience. In both their minds, he's very firmly the one who raised and trained Luo Binghe - though with very different connotations depending on who you ask.

On the other hand... well... Luo Binghe plays the obedient puppy-ish disciple, but he pretty much cute/pathetic-bullies his way into anything he wants, because Shen Qingqiu is weak to him and can't say no. So Luo Binghe plays submissive, cries a little, then gets to top Shen Qingqiu into next Sunday in the most unfillial way imaginable lol. Also, and I cannot stress this enough, he's the most powerful person in the world, he doesn't have to serve anyone in a humble cottage. He literally has an empire and is a ruler, but he plays housewife and meek disciple to this one spoiled guy who gave him the correct manual once and head-patted him with abandon.

Also let's not forget that, to Luo Binghe, Shen Jiu and Shen Yuan are pretty seamlessly the same person. This serial head-patter is also the guy who poured hot tea on him and would string him up to beat him and made him sleep in the woodshed like a particularly miserable Cinderella. To him, one day, his cruel master deemed him worthy of his love after he made him go through many trials, and then slam-dunked him into the abyss, and then self-destructed to save him and then turned out to be alive and avoiding him like the plague and then sulked because Luo Binghe did not properly ask his hand in marriage. Luo Binghe may be the most powerful man in the world and have Shen Qingqiu wrapped around his manipulative golden little finger, BUT the grip and ascendant Shen Qingqiu possesses over Luo Binghe's psyche is unparalleled.

BUT the other side of this equation is that Shen Qingqiu feels so guilty, and loves Luo Binghe so much, he can't bear to make him unhappy and folds like a wet paper towel any time there is the merest hint of tears - which is a conscious strategy on Luo Binghe's part! Shang Qinghua told him acting pathetic works, and it does, and so he milks it! Who knows how much of it is real? Not me. Not Shen Qingqiu either, who also does not care that he's being manipulated. He knows he's being manipulated! But it works anyway!

Because what are you going to do when a cute puppy makes sad eyes at you?? Not give him the bit of meat???

You're his master but he owns your heart so that's your fate, now. He's huge and could maul you but he loves you too much and prefers to act spoiled. He sits when you say sit, comes when you say come. You tell him no but he climbs into your lap anyway and you are helpless to stop him so you pet him. It's messy, full of pathos, possibly unhealthy. You're both living your best life.

That's Bingqiu.

Thinking about how Ballister tried to convince Nimona to conform when he’s been singled out and targeted his whole life — how the whole kingdom was against someone outside the original knight bloodline joining them, how he had to work harder and still faced backlash, how even on the day he was supposed to be officially made one of the knights he still visually stood out because his armor was black while everyone (save Ambrosius, Glorith’s descendant) wore white

He was ignorant and sheltered, and he was also a queer elder seeing a queer kid embrace things that scare him because he was hurt just for existing — imagine how much worse it would’ve been if he intentionally rocked the boat like that

Thinking about how, despite everything he tried, he was still labeled the villain and she was still called a monster, and eventually he was willing to throw away everything he knew and loved to protect her. Thinking about the joy he experienced once he started cutting loose and questioning all the limits he put on himself and others put on him. Thinking about how he was tokenized and targeted growing up, thrust in the spotlight from a young and how even then very few people were willing to try and actually see him for who he is. Thinking about how he saw Nimona

Thinking about evolution and growth within the queer community, about in-fighting from actual good (if fear and ignorance based) intentions can be even more damaging than malicious intent, about how for some queer people being seen as “just like cishets” is a matter of life or death while for others embracing being “different” is the thing that keeps them going, and how empathy and understanding of others can unintentionally heal yourself. Something something something, we come together and then we win

yeah sure Across the Spiderverse is about being doomed by the narrative and knowing you’re doomed by the narrative, but also it’s about how different people react to that, and how no one reaction is the right one, like Peter B. has lived as Spider-man long enough that’s gone through most of the “canon events” and he’s in a place where he’s like “yeah, alright, I can work with this” and is afraid of doing anything drastic because after being a screw-up for so long and finally, finally getting it right wouldn’t you be afraid making a mistake again?

And Miguel is angry but resigned because the one time he tried to defy the narrative it spat in his face and beat him to the ground. So now he’s doing what he genuinely belives is to everyone’s benefit. Without a hint of flexibility. He’s even angrier when Miles suggests that fate can be defied both because he’s convinced Miles is wrong and is going to get people killed and also if Miles is right than Miguel has to reckon with the fact that he’s convinced so many Spider-people to just “follow the script” and let their loved ones died because he was convinced there was no fighting the narrative. That not everyone is as doomed as he is.

And Hobie, who knows he might be doomed but is dead-set on spitting in the narrative’s face for as long as he can regardless. A different kind of acceptance. A kind of acceptance that’s covered in spikes and has teeth. If the narrative is gonna take him down he’s taking as much bad guys as he can before he bites it. And he’s isn’t going to be nice or polite about it, and he sure as shit ain’t gonna be quiet. Proper fucking punk, right there.

And Gwen, who is on the fence, but is sad and tired and just doesn’t have the strength to try anymore. She doesn’t have a home to come back to, or at least doesn’t think so, she’s stressed out and angry and she found out that as Spider-Woman that was always going to happen to her. She’s ready to give up, because being doomed is kinda freeing, if she was always doomed to fail, lose her friend, lose her dad, than it takes the pressure off. Sad as it was she could live with that. Until she sees Miles bite and fight and scream when he finds out he’s doomed, and that one little push gives her the courage to try and find out just how doomed she really is.

And Miles!! Free spirit, radical free thinker, “just let him spread his wings, man” Miles Morales. Who is trying so, so hard to figure out what his narrative even is, but is determined that he can figure it out, that he can spread his wings and manage on his own and find his place and be himself. Miles finding out he might be doomed is a slap in the face that he’s completely unprepared for. And he denies it completely. He refuses to lay down and just take it, he’s going to punch and kick and save everyone, no matter that every other Spider-person, Ham and Miguel and Gwen and every one, who’ve been doing this spider thing for much long tell him he can’t. And this radical rejection earns him pity, and earns him enemies, but he’s not backing down. He can’t back down. Because even if he is doomed he’ll never be able to forgive himself if he doesn’t even make an attempt.

 Across the spider-verse is so fucking good you guuuuuysss

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day 25 of krbk month @krbkmonth2020

(Comes in back late with boba) ahahaha hellooo hiiii welcome back~~

if you close your eyes and imagine you can pretend this is not 2 years later and i, in fact, have a consistent update schedule. eheheeheheh

In all seriousness, this is a good moment to remind everyone whos still here (hi) that im, above all, an artist in college, and not a particularly good or efficient or dedicated writer.

I started writing as a creative outlet during one of the worst art blocks ive ever had, which left me anxious and antsy with the need to make something. Anything at all. I wrote chapters 1 through 4 in a semiconscious state and tried to keep the pace afterwards. Im making art again, and writing doesn't come as easily anymore.

That being said, I have a sense of responsibility to this fic, and scenes i already wrote and im excited to weave into the story, so ill do my very best to give a finished result, for my own peace of mind and for you wonderful people who gave my silly story a shot and wrote such sweet comments.

im honestly so happy I can write something other people find fun, and not just me! :D

im always joking im my own target audience, but i adore your thoughts and comments, its honestly one of the things that stopped me from just abandoning all interest for finishing.

so, at my own pace and enjoyment, im going to continue to write. and even if it takes much more time, ill be flattered for those who continue to accompany me for as long as they wish to or until im finished ^^

I think, on some level, that Shen Yuan is like enrichment for Airplane Bro's enclosure. I think Airplane Bro kind of fucking LOVES having this guy around. Like, I do think their relationship is nuanced, weird and full of contradictions and not always good for them, but I also think that some chaotic part of Shang Qinghua honestly likes having his #1 hater weirdo running around completely fucking up his world.

Shen Qingqiu, grabbing Shang Qinghua by the shoulders: "Why didn't anyone TELL ME that Binghe is GAY NOW?! I'm going to die because of MONSTER DICK?!?!?!"

Shang Qinghua: (internally, probably only half-consciously) "Incredible. Amazing. How did I live without you? You torture me with your bullshit. You complete me in every possible way. I think we might be soulmates and we should make out about it. I hate you. I love you. You mean nothing to me and everything to me. This isn't your story and you stole it from me. I wrote this for you without even knowing you existed. You are a fascinating mystery that I will never solve. I will throw you under the bus at the first opportunity and yet I can't stop risking my life to help you. Your stupid game of gay murder chicken with my emotionally and mentally unstable protagonist is going to destroy the world and kill us all and I've never felt more alive. You have changed me as a person. Let's do this forever."

Shang Qinghua: (out loud) "Lol, sucks to be you, bro. At least you can get laid."

binghe fights sqh and he gives no indication at being powerful or with martial ability. he realises his mistake in approach. sqh makes himself small, pathetic, and easy to bully so that he is underestimated and ignored. fighting a PERSON will only increase that. well thats fine. mobei he's gonna toss ur human into a deathmatch against beasts rq ok? u wanna watch? if he gets too out of his depth you can step in he wont stop you but he knows you ALSO want to know what that little THANG is capeable of. nature doc mobei and binghe watching sqh in some demon forest. the wild qinghua, pressured out of its natural habitat. without greater predators to form symbiotic relationships with he must fend for himself. there comes the sunburst scorpion tailed bear goat- we shall soon see how the qinghua- OH HOLY SHIT HE RIPPED ITS HEAD OFF MOBEI YOUR SCRUNKLY RIPPED ITS GODDAMN HEAD OFF

THEYRE TAKING HIM OUT OF HIS NATURAL HABITAT AND SPYING ON HIM OH this is good

He didn't know he was capable of it either