Once In A Blue Moon Some Characters Will Suddenly Pop Into My Head And I Have To DROP Everything And

Heya! How are you holding up? Still a huge fan! May I ask what you're planning on going into for school? Thanks

ty for checking up on me, its so kind xD Ive been doing better emotionally (thx to the wonders of pharmaceuticals), which is really all I needed to be better overall. Its still too hard for me to balance work/school and I had to drop some classes but Im still doing well in the ones Im still in I guess!!I'm studying electrical engineering because I love technology and GADGETS. Im really glad that its not boring for me lol, manipulating electricity is cool ;p Of course I just want to apply what I learn twd fancier art projectseventually... tbh I cant art at all, Im fried. When I have free time I dont have any juice left so I have been playing overwatch. A lot. Im so addicted to overwatchhelp

Dug around in my archive drives for Discworld fanarts. I have a lot of Feelings I can’t articulate very well soooooo I’m not going to, just enjoy the draws xD FYI Zombie Reg is still one of my favorite faces I’ve drawn of all time, ever!

MAN I just remembered how I sketched the Vimes family portrait after I read Thud! I should find that and finish it...

*~ the most beautiful bromance ~*

Hooooly shit, okay, I love your art a LOT./creepin

Thanks! I don't mind the creepin, I thought that was what the internets were for? 8| Trust me, if I didn't want to share my art I'd be ALL the way under my rock instead of just partially!

A crooked crook with a crooked grin >:D Hurr. I gave up on trying to be efficient with my work, it's just not me. Well, I GUESS I can make it me if I have to, but I don't have to like it! Pattern from squidfingers.

Don’t have time to draw currently :C so here’s something old I GUESS. Errikan’s life story gets peppered in through lots of flashbacks… I wrote it all out I may share if there’s interest (I… I’m shy though). I felt like I should have drawn him at further ages but I don’t actually know what he’d look like?? A happily ever after Errikan would look rather different from an Continuing Adventures-then-later-dies-in-a-barfight-related-freak-accident Errikan. … … I do know he keeps trying SO HARD to grow a beard and succeeds… eventually. Very eventually. Elvish men have it so hard.

Aaaaand of course the designs I finally settled on. It seems to have stuck cos I haven't been interested in changing them much for a few years now (actually I just checked, about eight years holy shit that's not a few at all!). Like I feel it reached some kind of creative maturity because they incorporate everything I learned about actual functional outfits over the years, but of course I still make them as fancy and stylish as possible. Because they are elves.

My fiercely burning Tony Stark fetish has been flaring up and the only cure is FAN ARRRT

Camera phone and photoshop express for android are poor substitutes for a scanner and actual photoshop, but those don't fit in my pocket, ok. I've been using my phone so much for stuff I'm considering getting a nicer one.. I kinda want a galaxy note for the giant screen and stylus, but I need my qwerty slider, kinda want a mytouch slide for the 12megapixel camera and HDR... etc. Godammit gadgets still not scifi enough, gimme all these things in one smartphone already I basically want a pocket-sized tablet laptop is that too much to ask??

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Extremis Tony is my favorite (ugh don't get me started on that magical bleeding edge armor, I suppose he stores his extra mass in a pocket dimension??) but a while back I did some research on bionanotechnology for a paper and I always have my own sci/fi bullshit ideas for how stuff works. Instead of having an undersuit stored in his bones (arrgh bones aren't hollow, learn to anatomy!) he'd sweat out a protocellular metallic gel that functioned as a medium for nanobots and synthetic flora to leave his body and interface with the armor like a circulatory system. He'd sprout fiber optic "hair" that would wire into his nervous system. Wetware! It would be super gross :D

I steal ideas from myself (in this case the Antonia Stark that I did forever ago)... cos it IS challenging and fun to design robot armor, but you can't really improve on perfection :p There's only so much you can do before it loses its iron man...ness.

BUT I needed to give him rocket launcher arms I DRAW WHAT I WANT

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The more you practice performing and sharing your art with people the easier it gets.

Thiiiiissss is what I'm talkinbout tho? One would assume 10+ years of trying would be enough to tell if such a thing is gonna work out or not D: I'm reeeaally reaching right now trying to decide if it ever got any easier during that decade of effort and fffffnnnnghmaybe? BUT worth it? That I am even less sure about. Cos when I draw something and I finish I'm good. It's like welp, got a thing out of my head, done, satisfied. Might show a friend or two if they're online at the time. Its a little easier with fanart because fangirling and FEEEELS. But meeeehhh? WHY should I continue to push for it, is what I want to ask. I never got much reason other than because people wanna see? And that's not motivational enough?... sorry...? The inspiration to others thing is but again only sometimes because that's not whyyyyy I do this, so when I struggle to share and can't, then I just feel ashamed and as I said, I'm done with that. 

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You can always become a secret artist with a pseudonym and just keep yourself in the shadows while letting your work speak for you. The masked artist! Or maybe an agent? It works for banksy and a lot of writers.

I have totally considered a pseudonym! At least for writing, if I ever actually finished anything fff. For visual art I don't think Banksy is a good example, being mysterious brings EXTRA attention... (besides doesn't he have an entire crew helping him out...?) Musically I sure love Daft Punk's thing but man how much harder would it be to start doing something like that nowadays? Anonymity is kind of impossible. I'm already probably as secret as I could even be :C

Thing is though, I love musical theater best. Like I LIVE for Cirque du Soleil shows (only time something has ever made me cry just because it was so beautiful), and I did a lot of that stuff when I was a kid. But you really have to put yourself out there for it. Collaborating with a bunch of people to create something thats so many kinds of art all at the same time that no single person could pull off is just the greatest feeling. SO its easier when its a group thing too, a cast and crew can be a really supportive kind of artist family. I made costumes and props and magic tricks, I danced at festivals, I played in band etc. Stopped doing all that stuff publicly when I was 15ish for mostly angsty teenager reasons, though one year I did audition for a musical and that was the last damn time I sang outside of the shower or alone in the car and let me tell you I was ASTRONOMICALLY outside of my comfort zone there, woosh. (but I admit I wasn't satisfied doing ONLY crew cos I gotta daaaaance) After that I would say... a lot of things happened that made life a little bit tougher and I had to lean on my art for emotional support. I don't feel like sharing stupid life story stuff but I mean, maybe some people can at least relate to the idea that you might need oh I dunno, a stable life (one where you don't use up all your energy just trying to survive, for whatever reason. I mean this very broadly cos everyone has struggles) before you can do extra stuff like art. And art is usually in the category of extra stuff. When I had enough spoons left in the day to draw I still wouldn't have enough to deal with the kind of ridiculousness artists online tend to have to deal with. I hope I make sense.

Things are better for me now though which is a big reason this nonsense is on my mind actually.

1. numbered list description again. 2. SO PROUD of that pipe wrench! I couldn't decide between vintage or modern styles of wrench so I just designed one that's both (it's called a hybrid) 3. finally confident in my ability to blend graphic design and illustration 4. real people are still too hard to draw hnnng. 5. tumblr is going to butcher this huge image but I couldn't bring myself to post anything smaller, this image is HUUUUUGE 6. did I mention its huge 7. hello favorite band! if you're reading this please know that I have a crush on each and every one of you. it's super annoying! hope y'all enjoy.