Or they used to belong to Rion and Jord and she kept them because she’s “terribly sentimental.”
some of you might think that the random children's toys in Nine Fingers Keene's high security vault are some things sentimental and deeply personal to her. Some of you might think that they're there to fuck with whoever might dare to break into the Guildmaster's personal vault. actually its where she keeps the holiday presents for Jaheria's kids because we all know Jaheria is gonna forget to buy them herself
I've made it my personal mission to brighten up everyone's Mondays with a little bit of fluff. And this one is REALLY fluffy. If Lae'zel saw how soft I've made her in this one, she'd kick my ass. Enjoy!
Ship: Shadowzel
WC: 1,291
Warnings: None (unless mentions of unborn children count)
Istik life has definitely taken a toll on her, Lae'zel thinks as she takes a walk around the yard of Crèche Zav'rai. How was she able to grow up in such an environment with her sanity intact? Even though this place is a lot less strict than K'liir ever was, it feels unbelievably oppressive. Not a single moment to be on her own. Being a stranger doesn't help. While she assumes most members are used to her presence, she can't shake the impression that she's being constantly watched and judged. While she washes herself in the communal baths with young students. While she eats in the tiny canteen packed with loud, unruly children who are forever attacking each other with food projectiles. While she goes out to get some fresh air as the aspiring soldiers train. One day, out of sheer boredom, she asked the sa'varsh to let her practice with them; she can't recall a more frustrating experience in her life. She's positively out of practice.
According to the ghustil, she's only been there for nine days, but it seems like a hundred years. It's hard to keep track of time after spending most of it drifting in and out of sleep, high on whatever painkilling potions they were giving her. Since they decided she was healthy enough not to need them and allowed to leave Am'aari's office, her stay in the crèche has been extremely tedious except for the very few times Shadowheart has come to see her. She's still working her two jobs and taking care of the house and the cats, which doesn't leave her with many hours in her hands. Besides, now that night falls earlier, the streets of Baldur's Gate are not safe for a woman by herself; no matter if said woman is adept in radiant magic and knows how to use maces and daggers.
Tsk'va, she can't wait for that godsdamned egg to hatch already.
Looks like, in the end, it's only one baby. Good. Last time she visited, Shadowheart asked her if she was sad about the other two she gave birth to. She isn't. From her reads about the differences between her people's pregnancies and other races', the bond between an istik mother and her child is formed much earlier, already in the womb. Some experts theorize that this is due to the absence of eggs, which make it possible to sense the child's movements and heartbeat. Moreover, Lae'zel is aware that she and Shadowheart are not equipped to raise more than one hatchling.
She sits on the steps of the main entrance and winces, rubbing her breasts. They are fuller than ever, and strangely sensitive. There's a dull, yet persistent pain in them from producing milk. Her whole body is heavier, her endurance and nimbleness considerably lower than they used to be. She needs to start exercising soon, to get back in shape. Yet for the first time in her life, she's too self-conscious to train in front of the other gith.
It's cold outside. She should have put on that borrowed cloak, but wearing clothes that reek of someone else makes her nauseous, and that one is particularly strong. Or perhaps her senses are excessively sharpened. She embraces herself; her skin, too, has become more vulnerable to the ever-changing Faerûnian weather.
“Jhe'stil?” a high-pitched voice behind her calls.
It takes her a moment to realize they're addressing her. She turns around to face a young githzerai and nods for them to speak.
“Ghustil Am'aari sends me,” the youth says. “Your presence is required in the infirmary.”
In the infirmary? She's already been checked up today. What could they possibly need from her? Irrelevant. She rises and follows the child.
“Did she tell you what I am needed for?” she questions.
“Something happened in the hatchery, I believe.”
The hatchery! Lae'zel's heart misses a beat. Has the egg finally cracked open? Or has anything happened to her child?
Her chest tight with trepidation, she enters the ghustil's office without knocking.
All the blood in her veins begins flowing again when she notices that familiar blanket in the healer's arms. Shadowheart brought it the very first time she visited. Holding onto it every night before falling asleep has been more comforting than Lae'zel will ever dare to admit; the only familiar scent in this strange place.
“This is your daughter,” Am'aari tells her. “All cleaned and checked up.”
The weight of that tiny bundle alone is enough for Lae'zel to feel overcome with emotion. And as soon as she looks down, a symphony explodes inside her. Her baby is completely hairless, with skin the same chartreuse color as hers, dark freckles painting her cheeks. She hasn't opened her eyes completely, but those clumsy hands, balled into small fists, grope the air, as though wanting to touch and explore the whole world.
She's perfect.
Never before has Lae'zel seen anything that beautiful. Not the most picturesque sunrise. Not the sea of stars from the back of a red dragon. Not even Shadowheart's smile.
Finally, she understands what Emmeline, Exxvikyap, Isobel and all the other mothers she knows were talking about. The urge to protect such a helpless creature, to hold her and never let go. The incredulity that she created such a precious being. The feeling of seeing a part of her own soul reflected back at her.
The rush of love is so intense she could burst into tears.
“We have called for your partner,” the ghustil says. “My apprentice has been sent to inform her.”
Shadowheart will be here soon. They'll finally be able to go home.
To take her home.
From Lae'zel's point of view, time stops. Everything around her fades away. All she can see is that cute face, that minuscule body expanding with every breath. She traces the apple of her cheek with her fingertips, marveling at the softness. Gingerly, she removes the part of the blanket that's covering the child's head and kisses it. Her nostrils widen, catching the mesmerizing scent of her skin.
She smells like home. Like life. Like all that's pure and beautiful in the world.
And to think that she didn't believe in love until she fell for Shadowheart. This is even stronger, brighter. A warm, blinding light with the force of a thousand suns.
When Shadowheart arrives, she doesn't know how long she has spent there, sitting on one of the infirmary beds with the little one on her lap. Only when she – reluctantly – lets her wife take the baby from her arms does she notice how sore and numb she is. An adorable sound escapes Shadowheart's mouth as she takes in the sight of their newborn daughter.
“She's so beautiful!” Shadowheart coos. “Have you thought on a name?”
Quite honestly, Lae'zel hasn't. She did have a lot of time to think during those long days of waiting, but it seems as though any of those ideas have vanished from her mind.
“No,” she admits. “But I have thought that we could give her an elvish name. Or a human name. Something of your choice.”
“Hmm. I'm not sure about that.” Shadowheart bites her lip. “She looks so much like you! And she carries my family name, anyway. It'd be a crime not to give her a gith name.”
“Chk. I will not give her my name. We will not become like one of those istik families in which every member is called the same.”
“Agreed. I didn't mean that, of course. Aren't there any gith names that have a special meaning to you?”
How is she supposed to find only one word to describe someone that means the whole world to her? None of them would do her justice.
the real true purpose of having a brain is to think about fictional characters
It was one month since the battle of Baldur's Gate, one month since everything. Kethric Thorm lay dead at last, Orin and Gortash were defeated and the crown of karsus lay lost in the Chionthar.
Jaheira still wasn't used to it, being back in the city after so long away. Even before the battle, she'd been camping out in The Elfsong with that merry band of adventurers. She'd grown accustomed to their noise despite not being with them for long. That warm feeling of being part of an adventuring party once more. They were all gone now, back to whatever lives they'd lived before the nautiloid or carving out new ones: Gale back in Waterdeep, Shadowheart searching for a home with her parents and Lae’zel, Astarion doing some sort of vigilante work within the city (she'd met up with him a few times) and Minthara, Wyll and Karlach back in Avernus. Jaheira almost wasn't used to the silence. Maybe that's why she found herself in the Lower City sewers, checking in on an old friend far more often than she had in the past. Sure, Jaheira may have retired from the Harpers so the inner workings of the Guild were hardly any of her concern anymore. But, well, Minsc and Nine-Fingers were working together now (sort of?). She may as well be checking in every so often to make sure they hadn't killed each other.
Jaheira glances over at Astele. They're sat across from each other, Astele behind her desk wading through important looking paperwork and Jaheira on a little stool in front of it. They'd been sitting together like this in silence for what felt like an hour. Comfortable silence. Jaheira had bought a book with her to read (some novel she'd started before leaving for the shadow cursed lands, she hadn't gotten the chance to go back to it until now) just listening to the scratching of pen on paper and Astele's gentle humming.
“Did you miss me?”
Nine-Fingers barks with laughter, not even bothering to look up, “You seriously think I've had the time?”
Jaheira just hums in response. It made sense; between dealing with the Steel Watch, Bhaal's assassins, the Stonelord and a failed coup by the Zhents it was unlikely Nine-Fingers had even had time to think of herself. Let alone her enemy? Ally? Sort-of-friend-maybe-more? Jaheira still wasn't exactly sure what their relationship was at this point.
“Besides,” Astele finally looks up, meeting her gaze, “I knew you'd come back.”
“Ah, your offering to Kelemvor would imply otherwise.“
“Somehow I'm sure not even death could keep you away.”
I treasure our mutualship
✿Queer stuff I have read✿
(list under the cut)
I've had the wlw list sat in google docs for years so figured I may as well post it somewhere in case other people want reading recs!! They're in order from best to worst (or alternatively Iconic to Villian Origin story, obviously just based on my own opinion o7). I'll probably update it in the future 𖤣.𖥧.𖡼.⚘
For the titles themselves you have:
✿title-(18+ if there's mature content)-(author/artist name)-flag to show the language it was originally written in✿
♡ is for my favourite ones :)
-Opium ♡ (18+) (Aji & Junghyun) 🇰🇷
-Just Right There ♡ (18+) (Pecanpie & Withyou) 🇰🇷
-Getting To Know Grace ♡ (Hilde & Mokma)🇰🇷
-The Love Doctor ♡ (Chamsae & Bansook) 🇰🇷
-She Is Still Cute Today ♡ (Guo Si Te) 🇨🇳
-Ring My Bell ♡ (Yeongol)🇰🇷
-Straight Girl Trap ♡ (Grass Jelly Without Ice & 42 Degrees Latte)🇨🇳
-Ghosts Of Greywoods ♡ (letINK)🇰🇷
-Bead Master ♡ (Gyaga)🇰🇷
-Kill Switch ♡ (18+) (1172)🇰🇷
-The Guy She Was Interested In Was Actually Not A Guy At All ♡ (Arai Sumiko)🇯🇵
-Run Away With Me Girl ♡ (Battam)🇯🇵
-Not So Shoujo Love Story (curryuku)🇺🇸
-Dallae ♡🇰🇷
-My Mom's A Superstar ♡🇨🇳
-2DK, G Pen, Alarm Clock ♡ (Oosawa Yayoi)🇯🇵
-Serenade ♡ (18+) (Keum Kyesoo)🇰🇷
-Sadistic Beauty: Side Story ♡ (18+) (Woo Yunhee)🇰🇷
-Fatal Possession ♡ (An De & Tian Cai)🇨🇳
-Teachers Who Always Call Parents 🇨🇳
-Best Served Cold (18+) (Kim Jong Geon)🇰🇷
-Please Leave My House (18+) (Team Aemae)🇰🇷
-Kids Being Kids 🇵🇭
-There's Weird Voices Coming from the Room Next Door! (18+) 🇰🇷
-Hateful Lady (18+) (Jo Sangdeuk & Park Minam)🇰🇷
-Mage And Demon Queen (color_les)🇺🇸
-Moonlight Garden (18+) (Kang Unni & Misspm)🇰🇷
-Shiori And Yuki🇯🇵
-On A Leash (18+) (Aji)🇰🇷
-I'm More Dangerous Than You (An De & Zhuang Zhuang)🇨🇳
-Bittersweet con panna🇰🇷
-My Dear Enemy 🇯🇵
-Girl Like A Pilgrim 🇯🇵
-Yamada To Kase-san🇯🇵
-It Would Be Great If You Didn't Exist 🇰🇷
-Pulse (18+) (Ratana Satis)🇹🇭
-The Neighbours Temptation (18+)🇰🇷
-Tamen De Gushi (Tan Jiu)🇨🇳
-Marie And Alex (18+) (Jung Shira)🇰🇷
-That Time I Was Blackmailed By The Class's Green Tea Bitch (Xian Jun)🇨🇳
-Bai Lijin Among Mortals (Viva & Julys)🇨🇳
-I Favour The Villainess 🇯🇵
-Love My Life (18+)🇯🇵
-Jiang Ting And I/When We Get Closer🇨🇳
-Romance Of The Stars 🇨🇳
-Reblooming (18+)🇰🇷
-Maka-maka (18+) (Kishi Torajirou)🇯🇵
-This Is Obviously A Yuri Story 🇨🇳
-The Friend Of My Friend Is My Enemy
-Red Dot (18+) 🇰🇷
-Kissing Lilies
-Living Will
-Program Me (18+) (Takeil & Shira)🇰🇷
-Drunken Relationship (18+)🇰🇷
-Gentle Flutters (one useless dogggg)🇨🇳
-The Playgirl And The Prince
-Heartworker (18+) (Akiosketch)🇺🇸
-Tendering Resignation (Yeon-Hui Woo & Daman)🇰🇷
-Relationship Guidelines (Epum)🇰🇷
-Mojito 🇨🇳
-Goddess Of Jealousy 🇨🇳
-The Marriage Partner of My Dreams Turned Out To Be My Female Junior at Work?!🇯🇵
-Us Right Now 🇰🇷
-Words And Kisses 🇰🇷
-I Love You So Much I Hate You (18+) (Yuni)🇰🇷
-My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness (18+) (Nagata Kabi)🇯🇵
-My Solo Exchange Diary (18+) (Nagata Kabi)🇯🇵
-I Fake Married My Friend To Shut Up My Parents 🇯🇵
-I don't Know Why, But I Suddenly Wanted To Have Sex With My Coworker Who Sits Next To Me (18+)🇯🇵
-Can Love Be Recycled (18+) (Hyuk)🇰🇷
-Megan He Danai🇯🇵
-Us, The End Of The World And The Rest Of Our Lives 🇯🇵
-Two Birds In Spring (18+)🇰🇷
-Brides Of Iberis 🇯🇵
-After School Love Affair 🇯🇵
-The Sea, You And The Sun (18+) (peachpulser mira)🇯🇵
-Vengeance (18+)(Aji) 🇰🇷
-Bad Thinking Diary (18+) (Rangrarii)
-Kill Me Now (18+) (Cosmos) 🇰🇷
-Arousing Taste (18+) 🇰🇷
-Goodnight Cinderella (18+) 🇰🇷
-You Taste So Sweet (18+) 🇯🇵
-What Does The Fox Say 🇰🇷
-Lily Of The Valley (18+) (Rangrarii) 🇰🇷
-Soul Drifter (18+) (Ratana Satis) 🇹🇭
-Exlir 🇰🇷
-Aoi Hana 🇯🇵
-Outro 🇰🇷
-Lilith (18+) (Sirius & Chesire) 🇰🇷
-Given (Natsuki Kizu) 🇯🇵 ♡
-Heartstopper (Alice Oseman) 🇬🇧 ♡
-Boys Run The Riot (Keito Gaku) 🇯🇵 ♡
-Love Me For Who I Am (Kata Konayama) 🇯🇵 ♡
-Six Of Crows/Crooked Kingdom (Leigh Bardugo) 🇺🇸 ♡
if you’re having a bad day, here’s a cute little marching band
How do fanfic writers feel knowing that people might have been masturbating to their work?