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stage fear is a bitch and a half

Got a presentation in two days. I have MAJOR anxiety when it comes to presentations. But this is a funding opportunity and my partner is out of state.

I'll feel so bad if I do poorly, which is giving me more anxiety 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Find me somewhere I can go,

Find me a way to let words flow.

I try to speak but can't find the words,

And somewhere in me it really hurts.

But in life or in death,

I must fight till my last breath.

And though my heart is bleeding out,

And no one can hear me scream and shout,

I must lie in the bed I've made,

Of envy, rage and hate.

Words can no longer heal

The open skies and the clear air,

It's all new to me.

I've craved freedom my entire life,

And now it's within my grasp.

No longer am I bound

To the shackles of the city.

I've found silence,

After so long.

I've spent my entire life

Burdened by voices.

Silence, I've been searching

For so long,

For a place to just be.

No longer am I bound

To the shackles of the noises.

I've spent so long,

Searching for someone.

Never alone

But always lonely.

Finally, I've grown

I've found people

Who make me happy.

No longer am I bound,

The shackles of my own mind.

#1

I have this constant fear of not being great,

This fear of succumbing to fate.

Doing the same shit everyday,

a fear of fading away.

And it haunts me every night,

That maybe I'm not doing this right.

Maybe one day I'll just disappear,

No good deed done here.

Maybe one day I'll just die,

Leaving no mark to remember me by.