Lillith Are You INSANE?????

weird unprompted opinion but i think out of all the storytelling mediums.....theatre best portrays loneliness

It's okay ( I cried till I couldn't breathe)

It's okay ( I got trust issues)

It's okay ( I can't fall asleep)

It's okay ( I hate myself)

It's okay ( I feel like I am not good enough)

It's okay ( I know I am the problem)

It's okay ( I got ptsd and trauma)

It's okay ( I lost my self confidence)

It's okay ( I find comfort in depression)

It's okay (I can't love anyone else)

It's okay ( I am cold-hearted now)

It's okay (I am not myself)

It's okay ( I lost myself)

It's okay It's okay It's okay

I am fine I am fine I am fine

is THIS your man? [shows an image of a malnourished injured exhausted man with big sad eyes looking up at the camera with blood smeared all over his face and mouth. and he is visibly trembling]

Sherlock: Zugzwang.

Me: *criminal minds flashbacks* HUH

Greek Gods 101: Ares

Ares is a God of war, battlelust, civil order, courage, and strength. Excluding the universal offerings, some common offerings include:

Steak

Red Wine

Weights

Thorns

Helmet Figurines or Photos

Swords or Sword Depictions

Alcohol

Medals or Certificates

For devotional acts, some activities that can be done for him include:

Exercise

Standing Up for Yourself

Drinking

Learning About Military

Learning About Past Wars

Learning How to Settle Conflicts

Playing Strategy Games

He are celebrated in 2 Athenian holidays:

Artemis Agrotera/Kharisteria

Genesios, maybe

Lately I’ve seen posts about [the lie] of Deku not knowing what triggered the awakening of Black Whip. And yeah, it can be agreed, that was weird. But Deku is not typically known for lying. The thought of Kacchan knowing how much he means to Deku (still)… could that have been scary to him? Because Deku has a hard time saying how he feels to Kacchan in particular, that will always be a possibility. 

But, there are still two other options left that we can’t ignore. Horikoshi not wanting to acknowledge it in a shounen manga? I used to wonder this a little bit, but after some thinking I’m starting to believe it might simply be: Deku is not fully remembering his traumas. Let’s dive down this rabbit hole!

Deku not remembering what happens in the times where he loses control of his heart might be a thing. 

Like with Shigaraki.

Kacchan specifically asked him “Do you remember what I told you when I got stabbed?” And Deku said he didn’t. But lets think about this for one moment.

Those could have been Kacchan’s last words to Deku, so it seems pretty poignant and noteworthy that he should forget them so easily, right? Maybe they were never even committed to memory. Because maybe, he has no clearcut recollection of what happened after at all. The Kacchan obsessed Deku not being able to remember Kacchan’s potential last words to him is a HUGE tell. 

Even the fact that his lack of memories of that particular time was brought up during their conversation is quite strange and seemed a little inorganically placed there…  possibly to establish a pattern? matte matte matte!  Thinking back, hasn’t this already happened multiple times now? With this, Deku Not Remembering TRAUMATIC Events Properly has actually become a thing. 

Because it also happened during their training camp, when Deku collapsed after the complete defeat and loss of Kacchan.

Speaking of which, when Kacchan was taken, Deku got super angry and possessive. It’s still amazing to me that his possessive behaviour towards Kacchan was noted and acknowledged by a third party in the manga. And that is why I want to say because of this one instance, Horikoshi not wanting to acknowledge the real trigger of Black Whip in a boys manga and make Deku “lie” for personal and professional reasons: I am gonna rule that out.

Because Horikoshi has already once acknowledged how much ownership Izuku feels over Katsuki’s existence, by his own imagination and creation through Compress, which in itself was a pretty odd exchange for a shounen manga to have in the first place. It means Horikoshi has shown from very early on he is not afraid of explicitly expressing the complex and sometimes nonsensical feelings the two protags have for each other.

Back to the story: When he lost Kacchan to the villains, Deku completely lost all cognition and cried out loud in unfiltered despair as he crumpled on the ground. Deku was in so much pain, not from the injuries, but the anguish inflicted on his psyche from losing the one person he cares about more than anything.

This image was so powerful that the anime left it unanimated there for five seconds. The scene was so powerful that anyone who saw it understood how important to him Kacchan is, if they didn’t know that already. I wouldn’t be surprised if the ones there gossiped a little bit because Kirishima, who wasn’t even there, seemed to be especially empathetic towards Izuku after it happened.

(Really makes you wonder why any of their classmates don’t point out how they really feel for each other to the both of them. For example, if Kacchan had known how Izuku acted (see above) after he got taken, would DvK2 have even happened at least in the way it did with him being delusional about how Izuku feels about him? I seriously doubt it. He might even have wanted to get to the bottom of Izuku’s strong feelings for him because in Kacchan’s shoes, and with their history, I would find it super confusing and even a little sussy.)

So after that complete mental breakdown in front of some classmates, Deku was in hospital on copium. You know, with the big dopey “I am dissociating from reality” eyes he gets. He actually even thinks the words: “I don’t remember a single thing.” 

He even begins to dissociate again the second he remembers mama Inko’s words during her breakdown about the dangers of him becoming a hero. (Said after he escaped Shigaraki at the mall.)

He either doesn’t want to or isn’t able to think about the traumatising, negative happenings in his life and by internalising all of it, maybe he has simply become horrible at processing and controlling his feelings and emotions and gets these almost borderline (bpd) type attacks when his emotions overflow their smolbean container. (The one above of him crying on the ground in particular resonated very strongly with me.)

When his classmates came, that got him remembering what happened again and Deku broke down crying because losing Kacchan had become a serious ptsd for him. This was an event so traumatising that his mind couldn’t cope with knowing it ever happened and sort of lost track of it to protect his heart. Deku locked everything away inside because he didn’t want to experience his broken heart anymore.

So is it really Deku not wanting to admit to AM and Kacchan that Kacchan’s honour was insulted and stuff just kinda happened?

(Side note: That is some major side-eye there, Kacchan. This could be way over-analysing things but the drawing of Kacchan’s always distrustful face and that speech bubble about external catalyst ending up over it feels uncoincidental and awkwardly funny to me. Like Horikoshi intentionally omitted out the real trigger from the dialogue but drew a panel that carries a 4th-wall-breaking air of “BUT WE ALL KNOW THE TRIGGER AND HES SITTING RIGHT THERE”.  Sadly, the anime gave the side-eye no justice lol.)

Or is it a bigger issue of Deku internalising everything bad that happens so much to the point he forgets it ever even happened?

I think we have enough evidence here to suggest the latter, that he wasn’t lying, at least not intentionally. Him forgetting a lot about traumatic experiences that cause him to lose control is being used as his defence mechanism because he is unable to cope with processing certain stuff.

Namely, Kacchan’s presence being forcibly removed from him,

a terrifying new quirk springing forth from his body because he feels so much empathy towards how hurt Kacchan was about the issue, before he could even process his feelings of anger at Monoma for insulting his Kacchan,

and the thought of Kacchan getting hurt or dying.

I think that these events were so traumatic for Izuku that his mind became warped and confused about what actually happened. It’s not that he’s being intentionally misleading when directly asked “why”, but due to unknown mental issues, he feels negative experiences too strongly and not being able to cope with his feelings and the subsequent [Feral Mode: Activate]s can make him an unreliable narrator of his own memories and story.

When it comes down to it, I think Kacchan is so deeply imbedded in Deku’s heart, his sense of empathy with Kacchan is so extreme that any attack against Kacchan is always taken very personally (see: Possessive Deku) and Deku goes wild and loses control of himself and his emotions (see: Feral Deku), and for at least three instances it has gotten to the point where he doesn’t seem to remember the circumstances surrounding it.

And lastly, we simply can’t overlook the pink elephant of an underlying theme in the manga. The pattern of him losing control and acting crazy for the sake of Kacchan. It’s definitely there. That pattern exists. But maybe, to Izuku, during the times he loses control, it all just becomes a blur to him.

I love them so much oh my god

Based on this post I made

Oliver frowned at the twins who sat on the other side of the table. “What’re you talking about?”

One of them, Fred maybe, turned towards him with a grin. “Just that Percy is the weakest physical in our family and that’s saying something with Ron being our brother.”

Ron, who had been talking with Harry and Hermione quietly, turned around and glared at his brothers. Harry and Hermione had both given Fred, (or was it George? Oliver wasn’t sure) the stink eye and shifted closer to their friend in comfort.

“I know what you’re talking about,” Oliver said with a hint of annoyance in his voice now, “I wanna know why you think that.”

Others at the table had started to turn their heads towards them in interest, Oliver was annoyed and a bit baffled to see that everyone was looking at him incredulously. As if he was the one who had said something that made no sense.

“Because it’s Percy?” George said in confusion.

Others around them nodded along as if that was all the information they needed to decide that. Before he could say anything a first year started snickering, Oliver turned his head and saw Percy walking into the Great Hall with a cup of coffee in his hands. Probably had five spoonfuls of sugar with his sweet tooth, at least.

Turning towards the twins he gave them a manic smile, “If I run and leap at Percy, he will most certainly catch me in his arms.” Oliver said with a confidence that he didn’t even have going into a quidditch match.

Lee choked on his pumpkin juice while the twins stared at him with open mouths.

“Oliver,” Hermione started off nervously as she looked at him with wide eyes.

But Oliver didn’t let her finish, he jumped off the bench and turned towards Percy who was busy talking to a first year, probably about homework from the looks of it.

Oliver sent the other a grin, everyone was watching now and he could see the professors glancing at him warily.

“Coming in!” Oliver yelled as he started running towards Percy at full speed.

Percy’s head shot, curls bouncing slightly, his eyes widen in alarm. “No! I’m holding coffee!” He yelled in alarm.

Too late now, Oliver thought as he jumped into his roommates arms with a wide grin. Percy had dropped the coffee just in time, he stood there with Oliver in his arms and a mournful look on his face as he looked at the shattered mug and spilled coffee.

“Couldn’t have waited until I finished my cup could you?” Percy muttered as he shifted the other boy in a more comfortable position.

“I don’t even know how you can call that coffee, it’s basically just a cup of sugar.” Oliver said rolling his eyes as he grinned at everyone else.

Percy blinked at him for a moment before looking around and turning pale, Oliver couldn’t help but stare at the way his freckles stood out on his now very pale skin.

But he had to be a good friend instead of a lovesick idiot first, Oliver tore his eyes away and looked at everyone else. Everyone, and Oliver meant everyone, was staring at them. His eyes flickered towards the Ravenclaw and Slytherin table, he saw Marcus and Penny looking at them with amusement.

Assholes, Oliver thought fondly. Of course those two would happily sit back and watch instead of helping.

“Oh bloody fucking hell,” Percy muttered dazedly.

An odd noise came from the Gryffindor table at that, Percy must have said that louder than he thought. He also must have realized this by the red blush that was climbing up his neck.

“What the fuck,” A student whispered to themselves.

That was the breaking point for Penny apparently. The girl snorted before slapping her hands over her mouth with a mortified look.

“Oh wow, real smooth Clearwater,” Marcus muttered before freezing.

“Real smooth,” Penny mocked.

Oliver decided to ignore them and instead turned towards the twins and other Gryffindors, “Still think he’s the weakest?”

Percy frowned in confusion before glaring down at Oliver. “You made me drop my coffee because you wanted to defend my honor!?”

Oliver shrugged, “Well, yeah- wait, wait Percy doNT!”

Percy dropped Oliver.

Jason Todd Fic Recs That You Have Probably Have Not Read Before [Part 1]

just some fics! enjoy! :D

We’re not in crime alley anymore by Chimaera-Hero

When Bruce returned to the car that night, it was a nine-year-old holding the tire iron, not a young teen. Somehow, Jason Todd at nine was even more precocious than Jason Todd at 12. Bruce has his work cut out for him.

something to mend by butterflysky

When someone sits across from Jason, he hardly notices he’s so absorbed in the pages before him. But he notices when a hand reaches for the sugar next to him, and then he looks up, and he’s so shocked he can’t think of a single thing to say.

“Jason,” Bruce says evenly. Jason just stares.

(Or: Bruce and Jason attempt to mend their relationship in the immediate aftermath of Under the Red Hood, one meeting at a time.)

Jason Todd is not your Big Brother by starknjarvis

Jason isn't part of the Wayne family. No one told his siblings that.

Grave Danger by starknjarvis

Jason wakes up in a coffin. His comms are down, and he's surrounded by dark and silence.

...The comms are not down for Batman. He can hear every scream.

Homecoming by Ionaperidot

Your son’s grave. It’s been disturbed.”

In which people actually notice when Jason breaks out of his grave, and Bruce finds him before Talia does.

Reclaiming Innocence by MurtaghMonzanson (WIP)

Jason Todd was kidnapped at nine-years-old and given two options. Work for his keep, or be forced to to work for his keep.

His life was not pleasant, but Jason was nothing if not a fighter, and dammit if was he going to let the hell around him kill who he was as a person. Or his dreams of growing up and going to college.

Those dreams suddenly came a little more into focus, when his idiot of a pimp accidentally tried to rent him to Bruce Wayne. Poor bastard could have never guessed he was the Batman himself. Heck, not even Jason figured that out, at first. And Batman had practically adopted him.

Bird by Bird by laceymcbain

Bullets, knives, a three story fall, even a fucking crowbar hadn't managed to keep Jason down permanently, but Dick Grayson (and the rest of his "family") was going to kill him with kindness.

From the Alley by bluebein

Jason Todd stumbles upon something bizarre when looting for scraps one night, thus changing the course of several lives.

life if well lived by CaptainOzone

Jason wakes up from a time-travel mishap to find Thomas and Martha Wayne hovering over him.

Just another day in the life, right?

...Not quite.

The Most Important Thing by Ionaperidot

"He pulls off his stupid helmet, and then the domino mask beneath it.

Which is when Dick loses his grip on the support beams and falls, just barely escaping a broken ankle, and his dead baby brother points a gun at his head."

Jason is alive, and the only thing that matters is bringing him home.

Hide The Bullet by WorkingChemistry

Jason’s lost his teammates, shot the Penguin, and lost his family. He’s got nothing left. He didn’t ask to be brought back; he was happier when he was dead. There’s only one way to fix everything.

Tim and Dick disagree.

Not All Kidnappings Are Bad by Cdelphiki

While out on patrol one night, Bruce encounters a kidnapping attempt. A pretty routine night, unfortunately.

When the victim in question happens to be a 9-year-old Jason Todd, however, Bruce finds himself getting a little too attached to a child he just met. Was it okay to kidnap a child right off the street and keep him?

If He Had Come by bronwe_iris

Jason Todd has been a prisoner of the Joker for nine months. Then, against all odds and all hope, Batman rescues Jason and brings him back to Wayne Manor to recover. But has Batman come too late to save what is left of Jason? (AU of the Arkham Knight video game)