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-Must be a nice dream.

adult asheiji just chilling <3

Eiji after Ash's death being told over and over by everyone that Ash died to protect him, but Eiji hoping to god that it isn't true, hoping that Ash finally finally understood that Eiji did love him, that Ash's death would hurt Eiji, and hoping that Ash decided, for once, to be selfish. That he knew it would hurt Eiji, but still decided to die because it was what he wanted. Eiji hoping -- praying -- that Ash didn't die for Eiji, but died for himself.

Eiji telling himself (because he has to believe it, for his own sake) that maybe, just maybe, Ash's last act was his most selfish.

Because God knows Ash deserved to be selfish for once.

My aroace ass and my deep yearning for somebody anyway. Just. Ugh. Why do I have to feel this way? I think that queerplatonic yearning started from Ash and Eiji's relationship. It almost hurts me physically. I miss and pine for someone I haven't even met.

day 3 - bar 🍻

has this been done yet

Little Women dir. Greta Gerwig | 2019

Ash and Eiji's first meeting felt like two universes colliding. You can feel the entire room shift even when there's nothing to shake it, and see the colors turn a bit brighter than usual. The moment they locked eyes it feels uncertain yet they were so sure of each other at the same time.

I guess Ash is somewhat guarded since Ibe's there. Knowing how he can't trust adults so much. Yet the next scenes that come after their first eye contact, Ash is interested, testy or maybe teasing even towards Eiji. To say the least they were both interested in each other. Curious.