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eventually you realize you don’t want to die. you just don’t want to live the life you’re living. and slowly you try to create a life you want to live. just gotta start there.

Felt

Honestly, I’m at my best when my ed is at it’s worst. My room is clean, I dress nice, I wash my face more, I whiten my teeth, I wear makeup, I do my hair. For some reason the only thing that pulls my out of my depression spiral is my ed and the only thing that pulls me out of my ed is my depression. Idk if anyone else feels like that? Idk I just always feel better when I’m losing weight and excersizing and not eating. Idk maybe it’s my body thinks I’m finally being healthy? But I’m not? So… idk, it’s just really weird.

Winona Ryder, 1990.

this🙈

I think this mentality stems from lived experience tbh. Most men I’ve met are only nice/kind to women they deem attractive. Even my friends have noticeed this. So when we meet a “nice guy” we think they’re tryna flirt.

Kindness is not flirting.

i miss being skinny

i binged and now i’m so full i can’t breathe. i wanna puke so bad.