Saveperfect - Redemtion

Felt

i fantasize about being skinny all day tbh

now I’m just getting super hungry. I can’t even go 12 hrs with out eating a meal. At this point I’m considering sleeping through the hunger.

tried to fast today. 16 hours in, the room started spinning and i felt extremely nauseous and weak. when i tried to eat, my body rejected it. i cant fast like i used to, in fact I cant fast at all anymore. i’ve gotten to a point where every time that i try to, it feels like i’m dying.

listen to your body. be careful with your body. nourish your body.

Debbie Harry (Blondie), Viv Albertine (The Slits), Siouxsie Sioux (Siouxsie and the Banshees), Chrissie Hynde (The Pretenders), Poly Styrene (X-Ray Spex) and Pauline Black (The Selecter).

I almost just fainted while taking a shower. I deadass I fell on the floor. I don’t know if it’s because of my lack of iron or not eating for 10+hrs. I actually thought I was dying.

Holy shit.

I have to finish my shower though.

Back in I go.

Winona Ryder, 1990.

I think this mentality stems from lived experience tbh. Most men I’ve met are only nice/kind to women they deem attractive. Even my friends have noticeed this. So when we meet a “nice guy” we think they’re tryna flirt.

Kindness is not flirting.

My parents just told me I’m losing weight and that they where scared. I felt so happy and told them it’s because I’m switching to veganism and it’ll balance out eventually.

It’s kinda annoying because they don’t get to tell me what to do, I’m 18. It actually makes me want to keep going because of that simple fact.

My mother legit told me

“I don’t want you to lose anymore weight”

Yet she is always making jokes about me being fat.

Make it make sense, woman

I want my gay rights now! - Marsha P. Johnson (NYC Pride Parade, 1973)