Two Fluffy Bois ʕ •ᴥ• ʔ

please allow my weak jealuc heart to ✨believe✨ that diluc is implying his concern towards a certain acting grand master ♡͙♡͚₍⸉ॢ⸍͕͈ ˕̫ ⸌͔͈⸊ॢ₎♡͚♡͙ because who else is famously stressed and exhausted in mondstadt but jean our beloved? (๑ↀᆺↀ๑)✧

in two days, i’ll be officially a month in, in my new workplace, and though this was supposed to be the last resort of all the last resorts (since i told myself i’d like to take a break in teaching), i’m glad that it turned out this way.

i’m proud of how i’m holding up so far considering i still have unprocessed emotions and trauma from my previous workplace (counselling sessions were put on a halt because i ran out of funds to pay my counsellor, and i have to find a definite time i could talk to her once more because i’m back to working again). perhaps it’s the reasonable workload that allows me to actually have a brief moment of centering myself and reassuring that i’m not in the same workplace anymore, and that my bosses are not my previous bosses anymore when i feel a trigger start. i’m also proud that i haven’t really super embarrassed myself, and i hope not to in the coming days, of course. moreover, i’m really proud of my students this term because i can see them do their best to perform as expected, but are also aware and open to receiving feedback. if only we can show the works of our students, but data privacy, ofc.

i still don’t know how to describe my relationship with teaching since i was burnt out for the most part, but i’m approaching all of this with an open mind, and open heart, and an open spirit. anyway, among the recurring themes in my life is restoration, so let’s see how things will go from here. o (◡‿◡✿)

Daily Gratitude

August 26, 2024

What are you grateful for today?

Welcome to my gratitude support group! All are welcome to be a part of the gratitude crew. Re-blog, write a note or send an ask as often as makes sense for you (just once, every day, twice a year, a few times a month— doesn’t matter!)

I tag parts of the crew almost every day. If you’d like to be on the tag list let me know.

All posts will be tagged ‘resiliencewithin’s daily gratitude group’.

Prompt (if you want): Something you are proud of (big or small).

nothing really makes me happy than finding out no one has used my very common name as a username for an online platform (๑ↀᆺↀ๑)✧

created a cara account to try something new and to have a space that’s devoted solely to my works hihihi. iz time to make new art again (๑ↀᆺↀ๑)✧

I've added other types of blind box to the shop!! And the new ones are on sale for this weekend!!! we're so close guys, just €2000 more to go 🩷 thank you for your help reblogging and donating 🩷

last saturday, i took some time off my games and work to assemble a small flower made up of entirely building blocks (they're not really lego pieces so i won't call it lego). the tiny flowers and the flower pot kept falling off every time i add a piece, but after the initial frustration of having to restack the tiny parts each time they fall, i found myself too absorbed completing everything, and even added a few pieces to add more details. now i want to buy another one, and buy an acrylic casing to keep all of the tiny building block models safe from dusts and our cats at home.

ofc there's going to be a photoshoot of the final output with pocket kaveh (´｡• ◡ •｡`) ♡

second part of my casual gamer diaries, and it shows that i'm either obsessed with hyv games or i am showing gambling behaviour (so aventurine of me amirite). while gacha isn't technically gambling (or considered as such in many countries), the tendency to develop gambling behaviour is there so...hehe? 🥹

(on a more serious note, the experience of gambling and the emotions it can evoke can make it addictive so i guess if one wants to try, it's best to approach it with caution and a lot of wisdom.)

at the time of the release of cyno's second story quest, i still had chiori's and arlecchino's story quest to finish, but because i love sumeru and the men of sumeru (actually i can say i'm ✨biased✨ towards sumeru characters and the nation itself), i went straight to cyno's quest ofc (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑

one thing that i like and amuses me about cyno is how he talks as if he's always going to be in a legendary battle of sorts or as if he's a protagonist in a shounen anime about duels and friendships u make along the way ✨ i think sethos mentioned his manner of speaking in one of his voicelines? i agree 100% with sethos.

he's one of my favourite characters in the game -- reliable, responsible, intelligent, and i do enjoy his sense of humour because mine is just as broken as his.

i'd like to write more about my thoughts on his second story quest, but i'll save that for another entry, and when my head is not as convoluted as it is atm.

also alhaitham is such a mood here. his lines always resonate with me as an introvert. i think i had a lot of screenshots from his story quest simply because most of his lines there are truly quotable.

i did finish chiori's story quest the day after i finished cyno's!

let me begin by saying that hyv did improve gradually in writing female characters, and chiori becomes an instant favourite because of her no nonsense approach to a lot of things. this is also one of those story quests that focused a lot on the character, which really helped in making me appreciate and understand why chiori is the way she is. my girl really made her dreams a reality! (TvT )

i will say her story quest falls easily as one of my favourites, but it hasn't beaten yoimiya's second story quest which currently sits at the top spot.

anyway, i loved her story quest and i'm glad i won the 50/50 on her banner (•́⌄•́๑)૭✧

the most recent patch had me going back to playing tcg just so i can secure a ✨kaveh tcg card✨ that i'll use as much as i'm using him in game as my dps (which is everyday except when fighting ridiculously strong bosses).

first of all!! he is so cute, handsome, and pretty at the same time. just look at him all proud about his tcg deck, and i love him for it 😌

i lost the first round and won the rematch with my inazumen deck (ayato, thoma, kazuha), so i got to see both endings. it's cute how he's trying not to goad about his win, but something in me hurt when i won the game. how ridiculous amirite, but such is the life of an ✨average kaveh enjoyer✨

kaveh being 2D is a sin!! why am i not a playable character in teyvat too??

it's time to fight his demons (himself) today.

his idle thought about the interior design of this place is so in character (ofc), and yk what, i agree with kaveh each time i invite another character to play tcg with me.

anyway, i love kaveh that my friends who are aware of it are probably tired of me having to talk about him in the most random moments. speaking of kaveh, i should upload the photos i took of him in-game for the kaveh goes around teyvat photosets i started.

i still haven't started arlecchino's or clorinde's story quests, but i went ahead and did the archon quest on the day of its release to keep myself from being spoiled ( ｡ • ᴖ • ｡)

i actually got shocked when caribert first appeared on screen, but let me just say: caribert is one of the most good-looking NPCs we've had in genshin.

i haven't really read or watched other people's opinions about it, but i'm okay with it. i'm not mad about it, and i actually liked that we got to sit down and talk with the twin. it made me tear up (hoyo has been doing well making me cry since focalors' appearance) especially when caribert managed to sneak out a memento of the twin's reunion (｡Ó᎔ ก̀๑)

i was also cheering atossa on, but ( ｡ • ᴖ • ｡) caribert u hurt me as well.

i was supposed to include my hsr diaries here (since i've been playing it more frequently to catch up with a lot of the missions), but i'll just put it on a separate entry instead.

when i have a clearer mind and in a better headspace, i'd probably spare some time writing about my thoughts about the game. like a reflection paper of some sort?

so my life is once again in danger

I'm a venezuelan refugee in Spain since 2019. My focus was entirely on escaping and staying in a safe country. When I got here, I got the help of an accountant/manager to start working legally.

He committed fraud in my name without telling me and refused to take responsibility. I was penalized to pay €8600 for his mistake.

I'll add the whole explanation after the read more because you need context to understand what he did.

And now if I can't pay this thing, my residence will be taken away. I will be deported.

I've tried so hard to raise this money. More work, more marketing, preorders, asking for a loan, but nothing has worked.

I have until next month to pay it so I can renew my residence.

All I wanted was to do things right. I thought seeking a professional to handle the legal aspects of my business was the right thing to do. I thought I could finally breathe after being treated like a criminal for years in Venezuela, when all I want is to make my silly little figurines in peace.

I need to take care of my babies (cats) and my parents who are still stuck in Venezuela. I only make enough to live + take care of them, and it's become clear that I can't raise this money by work alone.

So please, any help is appreciated. Reblogs, orders, commissions. I'm so incredibly embarrassed to make this post, but I'm desperate. I don't want to be deported. I don't want to be an illegal alien. I don't want to live in constant fear again.

Here's my Ko-fi link, thank you for reading

https://ko-fi.com/marlikesunicorns/goal?g=0

and this is my shop

There's some context needed to understand what happened, so here it goes.

In Spain, you need to pay a monthly fee of €300 in order to run a business. This goes to the Social Security.

The fee is mandatory, but the government realized it was unfair to charge it from the beginning to a business that's only starting. So they established a reduction of €240 for new entrepreneurs, for 1 year. After that, they'd slowly raise it.

They also gave benefits to people living in certain areas, especially small towns. The fee reduction extended for 6 extra months with this, but only applied as long as you continued to live there for 4 years.

I lived in a small town for 1 year. Then I moved to the closest small city.

But this accountant guy asked for this 6 month extension in my name without my consent.

So then the government demanded I pay the whole €240 for each month ever since I started my business. I went through all the legal processes to ask them to review this thing but it was impossible. They ignored everything. It didn't matter that I only received the benefit for the 1 year that I would've been given anyway for being a new entrepreneur. It didn't matter that I would never be able to afford to pay this in the 15 days they gave me.

If that wasn't enough, I got sick with covid twice, and missed 4 months of work in total, months I got 0 income because they also won't ensure me until I pay the thing. So those fees were also added to the debt + late fees that continue to grow.

Summary: Basically he promised the government I'd live in a small town for 4 years, and when I moved before then (because I had no idea he had done this) they demanded I pay back ALL the benefits they had granted me in the past year.

reuploaded my timely kaveh fanart because i wasn’t happy with the quality earlier, though this also needs some work post-processing wise (i will say it looks closer to how it looks like irl). anyway, happy birthday kaveh, the best husband ✨

i want to make this kaveh goes around teyvat thing a regular on this tumblog because i really, really adore kaveh, and there are so many well-rendered places in genshin hihihi.

here he is, somewhere underground in the vast desert of sumeru, where a door, speculated to be the door leading to khaenri’ah, sits deserted and sealed (for now).

oh, in spite of how i've been feeling and thinking recently, i am actually grateful for may.

last month, i made my resignation at wok official and this month will be my last month with them. my reasons include both personal and career-related ones, though the personal ones weigh so much more. it feels freeing, though quite emotional having to leave people i've made friends with at work, and my students, too. i don't think i'll ever be "good with goodbyes". ( • ᴖ • ｡ )

i'm also grateful for getting the chance to watch one of my favourite japanese bands perform live at the start of the month! radwimps just left the country a few days ago, and i'm still on a high thinking about the concert, rewatching the short clips i managed to record while immersing myself to their songs, and playing their asia setlist on repeat in spotify. i remember writing it on my original bucket list that i wanted to see one of my favourite japanese bands in a concert so for it to actually happen feels awesome! ＼＼\(۶•̀ᴗ•́)۶//／／

Daily Gratitude

May 2, 2024

What are you grateful for today?

Welcome to my gratitude support group! All are welcome to be a part of the gratitude crew. Re-blog, write a note or send an ask as often as makes sense for you (just once, every day, twice a year, a few times a month— doesn’t matter!)

I tag parts of the crew almost every day. If you’d like to be on the tag list let me know.

All posts will be tagged ‘resiliencewithin’s daily gratitude group’.

Prompt (if you want): In what way are you grateful for May?