Sentiach - Mostly SPN

urge to poke his tongue back into his mouth

in my mind a huge part of sam and dean’s dynamic at the beginning of season one is like.

dean is so terrified that sam doesn’t need him anymore. yes, he came back, but he’s grown up and he’s seen so much more of the world and he’s smart and self-sufficient, and so even though he’s with dean, dean feels basically useless as a protector/caretaker, the role he played his entire life, the only one he knows, and it’s now no longer really needed. so he handles that (poorly) by overcompensating to an EXTREME degree. like being even more of a helicopter parent, not letting sam go anywhere alone, checking on him all the time, etc etc.

then finally sam explodes on him, because he’s not a kid and dean doesn’t need to worry about him anymore.

and dean is soooo offended by that because like. how do you not KNOW, sam. if you think there’s a single universe where i don’t worry about you every waking moment of my life then you don’t know me at all.

and sam metabolizes that as, i’m a burden, i’m sorry for being such a fucking burden, i’m sorry you feel so stifled by having to take care of me.

and they never talk about any of this by the way. so it just becomes a never ending cycle of he doesn’t need me anymore // i’m such a burden to him on and on and on

SPN:1x04, 2x05, 3x16, 6x02, 7x06, 10x01, 10x05, 11x04, 11x10, 15x07

For @deangenchallenge - April 2022 - Theme 🎵 Music 🎵

Dean/Jay/Spn/Mix: @ddriverpicksthemusic @deansraspberrypie @charred-angelwings @septembersghost @siospins2 @jensensgotyoudean @queenofallerdalehall @brilovesdeanwinchester @wickedinspirations @thoughts-and-funnies @raidens-realm @deanwinchesterswitch @all-alone-he-turns-to-stone @eevvvaa @siospins2 @doublebill @avanatural @winchesterwhorehouse @doublebill @avanatural @winchesterwhorehouse @waywardbaby @catnipster69 @waynes-multiverse

*screams internally for several minutes*

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