Shastrlight - Welcome?

As the staff post about ad-free tumblr continues to get thousands of notes telling staff to fuck off in the tags, I wanna remind you that this website's days are numbered. Tumblr is still unprofitable and by some modern-day miracle none of its acquiring companies pulled the plug on this money pit. But it will happen if it continues its trajectory.

Whether you like it or not, Tumblr needs to make money off you somehow in order to stay up. It either serves ads or asks for money to use it. This has been a paradigm on the web longer than many of you have been alive. It's Tumblr's job to make money right now because it's well past its grace period of being a black hole for cash. This has actually always been Tumblr's job, since it is a corporation, but that's capitalism for ya.

If you want Tumblr to be here for free and you want to continue to use it, you do yourself a disservice by opposing any changes Tumblr makes in order to pay for its costs. When this site finally goes belly-up then you're gonna be Tumblr-less until whatever startup takes its place and the cycle repeats itself.

If you think it should just ask for donations Wikipedia-style, remember that if and when that happens, there will be users repeating the same tired bullshit about giving Tumblr any money.

the truth of dares

As you might be aware I have big feelings about all besnouted creatures, but recently something has been grating on me. Sometimes, when people draw a snout animal, they draw the snout as a nose with the mouth as a separate entity underneath. This is a stylistic choice I greatly dislike because a snout or trunk is, by definition

A COMBINATION OF THE NOSE AND UPPER-LIP.

You can see here that the snout is not a separate entity from the mouth in these mammals, but is a fleshy protuberance emanating from the upper jaw. 

You can see in this illustration how a more anatomically accurate snout position gives an anthropomorphic pig a degree of charm that an inaccurate snout position does not.

Snout positioning can make or break a character design for me.

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BY INTERACTING WITH THIS POST YOU ARE HEREAFTER AND FOREVER PLEDGING YOUR ALLEGIANCE TO THE CAUSE OF TRANS WOMAN SUPREMACY.

FIGHT FOR YOUR SISTERS!

I want to live by myself when I move out of my parent's place but I'm really afraid of money problems? I'm afraid that the only place I can afford will be in the ghetto and it'll all be torn apart and I'll only be allowed to eat one granola bar a week. I'm really stressing out about this. I don't know anything about after school life. I don't know anything about paying bills or how to buy an apartment and it's really scaring me. is there anything you know that can help me?

HI darling,

I’ve actually got a super wonderful masterpost for you to check out:

Home

what the hell is a mortgage?

first apartment essentials checklist

how to care for cacti and succulents

the care and keeping of plants

Getting an apartment

Money

earn rewards by taking polls

how to coupon

what to do when you can’t pay your bills

see if you’re paying too much for your cell phone bill

how to save money

How to Balance a Check Book

How to do Your Own Taxes

Health

how to take care of yourself when you’re sick

things to bring to a doctor’s appointment

how to get free therapy

what to expect from your first gynecologist appointment

how to make a doctor’s appointment

how to pick a health insurance plan

how to avoid a hangover

a list of stress relievers

how to remove a splinter

Emergency

what to do if you get pulled over by a cop

a list of hotlines in a crisis

things to keep in your car in case of an emergency

how to do the heimlich maneuver

Job

time management

create a resume

find the right career

how to pick a major

how to avoid a hangover

how to interview for a job

how to stop procrastinating

How to write cover letters

Travel

ULTIMATE PACKING LIST

Traveling for Cheap

Travel Accessories

The Best Way to Pack a Suitcase

How To Read A Map

How to Apply For A Passport

How to Make A Travel Budget

Better You

read the news

leave your childhood traumas behind

how to quit smoking

how to knit

how to stop biting your nails

how to stop procrastinating

how to stop skipping breakfast

how to stop micromanaging

how to stop avoiding asking for help

how to stop swearing constantly

how to stop being a pushover

learn another language

how to improve your self-esteem

how to sew

learn how to embroider

how to love yourself

100 tips for life

Apartments/Houses/Moving

Moving Out and Getting an Apartment, Part 1: Are You Sure? (The Responsible One)

Moving Out and Getting an Apartment, Part 2: Finding the Damn Apartment (The Responsible One)

Moving Out and Getting an Apartment, Part 3: Questions to Ask about the Damn Apartment (The Responsible One)

Moving Out and Getting an Apartment, Part 4: Packing and Moving All of Your Shit (The Responsible One)

How to Protect Your Home Against Break-Ins (The Responsible One)

Education

How to Find a Fucking College (The Sudden Adult)

How to Find Some Fucking Money for College (The Sudden Adult)

What to Do When You Can’t Afford Your #1 Post-Secondary School (The Sudden Adult)

Stop Shitting on Community College Kids (Why Community College is Fucking Awesome) (The Responsible One)

How to Ask for a Recommendation Letter (The Responsible One)

How to Choose a College Major (The Sudden Adult)

Finances

How to Write a Goddamn Check (The Responsible One)

How to Convince Credit Companies You’re Not a Worthless Bag of Shit (The Responsible One)

Debit vs Credit (The Responsible One)

What to Do if Your Wallet is Stolen/Lost (The Sudden Adult)

Budgeting 101 (The Responsible One)

Important Tax Links to Know (The Responsible One)

How to Choose a Bank Without Screwing Yourself (The Responsible One)

Job Hunting

How to Write a Resume Like a Boss (The Responsible One)

How to Write a Cover Letter Someone Will Actually Read (The Responsible One)

How to Handle a Phone Interview without Fucking Up (The Responsible One)

10 Sites to Start Your Job Search (The Responsible One)

Life Skills

Staying in Touch with Friends/Family (The Sudden Adult)

Bar Etiquette (The Sudden Adult)

What to Do After a Car Accident (The Sudden Adult)

Grow Up and Buy Your Own Groceries (The Responsible One)

How to Survive Plane Trips (The Sudden Adult)

How to Make a List of Goals (The Responsible One)

How to Stop Whining and Make a Damn Appointment (The Responsible One)

Miscellaneous

What to Expect from the Hell that is Jury Duty (The Responsible One)

Relationships

Marriage: What the Fuck Does It Mean and How the Hell Do I Know When I’m Ready? (Guest post - The Northwest Adult)

How Fucked Are You for Moving In with Your Significant Other: An Interview with an Actual Real-Life Couple Living Together™ (mintypineapple  and catastrofries)

Travel & Vehicles

How to Winterize Your Piece of Shit Vehicle (The Responsible One)

How to Make Public Transportation Your Bitch (The Responsible One)

Other Blog Features

Apps for Asshats

Harsh Truths & Bitter Reminders

Asks I’ll Probably Need to Refer People to Later

Apartments (or Life Skills) - How Not to Live in Filth (The Sudden Adult)

Finances - Tax Basics (The Responsible One)

Important Documents - How to Get a Copy of Your Birth Certificate (The Responsible One)

Important Documents - How to Get a Replacement ID (The Responsible One)

Health - How to Deal with a Chemical Burn (The Responsible One)

Job Hunting - List of Jobs Based on Social Interaction Levels (The Sudden Adult)

Job Hunting - How to Avoid Falling into a Pit of Despair While Job Hunting (The Responsible One)

Job Hunting - Questions to Ask in an Interview (The Responsible One)

Life Skills - First-Time Flying Tips (The Sudden Adult)

Life Skills - How to Ask a Good Question (The Responsible One)

Life Skills - Reasons to Take a Foreign Language (The Responsible One)

Life Skills - Opening a Bar Tab (The Sudden Adult)

Relationships - Long Distance Relationships: How to Stay in Contact (The Responsible One)

Adult Cheat Sheet:

what to do if your pet gets lost

removing stains from your carpet

how to know if you’re eligible for food stamps

throwing a dinner party

i’m pregnant, now what?

first aid tools to keep in your house

how to keep a clean kitchen

learning how to become independent from your parents

job interview tips

opening your first bank account

what to do if you lose your wallet

tips for cheap furniture

easy ways to cut your spending

selecting the right tires for your car

taking out your first loan

picking out the right credit card

how to get out of parking tickets

how to fix a leaky faucet

get all of your news in one place

getting rid of mice & rats in your house

when to go to the e.r.

buying your first home

how to buy your first stocks

guide to brewing coffee

first apartment essentials checklist

coping with a job you hate

30 books to read before you’re 30

what’s the deal with retirement?

difference between insurances

Once you’ve looked over all those cool links, I have some general advice for you on how you can have some sort of support system going for you:

Reasons to move out of home

You may decide to leave home for many different reasons, including:

wishing to live independently

location difficulties – for example, the need to move closer to university

conflict with your parents

being asked to leave by your parents.

Issues to consider when moving out of home

It’s common to be a little unsure when you make a decision like leaving home. You may choose to move, but find that you face problems you didn’t anticipate, such as:

Unreadiness – you may find you are not quite ready to handle all the responsibilities.

Money worries – bills including rent, utilities like gas and electricity and the cost of groceries may catch you by surprise, especially if you are used to your parents providing for everything. Debt may become an issue.

Flatmate problems – issues such as paying bills on time, sharing housework equally, friends who never pay board, but stay anyway, and lifestyle incompatibilities (such as a non-drug-user flatting with a drug user) may result in hostilities and arguments.

Your parents may be worried

Think about how your parents may be feeling and talk with them if they are worried about you. Most parents want their children to be happy and independent, but they might be concerned about a lot of different things. For example:

They may worry that you are not ready.

They may be sad because they will miss you.

They may think you shouldn’t leave home until you are married or have bought a house.

They may be concerned about the people you have chosen to live with.

Reassure your parents that you will keep in touch and visit regularly. Try to leave on a positive note. Hopefully, they are happy about your plans and support your decision.

Tips for a successful move

Tips include:

Don’t make a rash decision – consider the situation carefully. Are you ready to live independently? Do you make enough money to support yourself? Are you moving out for the right reasons?

Draw up a realistic budget – don’t forget to include ‘hidden’ expenses such as the property’s security deposit or bond (usually four weeks’ rent), connection fees for utilities, and home and contents insurance.

Communicate – avoid misunderstandings, hostilities and arguments by talking openly and respectfully about your concerns with flatmates and parents. Make sure you’re open to their point of view too – getting along is a two-way street.

Keep in touch – talk to your parents about regular home visits: for example, having Sunday night dinner together every week.

Work out acceptable behaviour – if your parents don’t like your flatmate(s), find out why. It is usually the behaviour rather than the person that causes offence (for example, swearing or smoking). Out of respect for your parents, ask your flatmate(s) to be on their best behaviour when your parents visit and do the same for them.

Ask for help – if things are becoming difficult, don’t be too proud to ask your parents for help. They have a lot of life experience.

If your family home does not provide support

Not everyone who leaves home can return home or ask their parents for help in times of trouble. If you have been thrown out of home or left home to escape abuse or conflict, you may be too young or unprepared to cope.

If you are a fostered child, you will have to leave the state-care system when you turn 18, but you may not be ready to make the sudden transition to independence.

If you need support, help is available from a range of community and government organisations. Assistance includes emergency accommodation and food vouchers. If you can’t call your parents or foster parents, call one of the associations below for information, advice and assistance.

Where to get help

Your doctor

Kids Helpline Tel. 1800 55 1800

Lifeline Tel. 13 11 44

Home Ground Services Tel. 1800 048 325

Relationships Australia Tel. 1300 364 277

Centrelink Crisis or Special Help Tel. 13 28 50

Tenants Union of Victoria Tel. (03) 9416 2577

Things to remember

Try to solve any problems before you leave home. Don’t leave because of a fight or other family difficulty if you can possibly avoid it.

Draw up a realistic budget that includes ‘hidden’ expenses, such as bond, connection fees for utilities, and home and contents insurance.

Remember that you can get help from a range of community and government organizations. 

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Keep me updated? xx

time traveler hyping themself up for the 1920s: it's the great war not WW1 it's the great war not WW1 it's the great war not WW1 it's the great war not WW1

I love and appreciate the writers, but I hate when reader is having body image issues and she’s like “do I look fat” and the character tells her “of course no, why would you think that” as if it was something bad, why can’t we normalize fat body, and not only talking about plus size bodies, I mean the ones that are not curvy, the ones that the fat is localized in every part of the body besides hips and breast.

Why are we still so afraid of the word “fat”? I wish I could read a fic where reader is like “do i look fat?” and the character answers “yes, but that’s not something bad. You look amazing”.

Even when you write plus size!reader fics she’s always being so insecure.

Let’s embrace fat bodies. Fat doesn’t equals unhealthy. Let’s keep in mind that a fat/plus size body is not always curvy.

If you know someone who speaks dismissively of people working service or retail jobs, please remind them that they are bad.

A Visit to the Grand Admiral (Leviathan x Gn!MC)

Genre: Fluff, Levi is sad but MC is there for him

Pairing: Gn!MC/Reader x Leviathan

Summary: Lucifer entrusts you to bring Levi's forgotten lunch to the Hell's Navy's headquarters.

Warnings: N/A

A/N: Yes, yes, I'm a big, BIG lover of anything related to Grand Admiral! Levi... To the surprise of no one, as a fellow Leviastan. Yet I figured that, while we headcanon him as the confident type whenever he wears his uniform... what if instead, his admiral facade suddenly crumbled at the sight of MC, when he least expects a visit from them?

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Despite how long you had started living in the Devildom, there was one thing you had yet to see from the third eldest of the brothers. Something he had so desperately hidden up until that point, that you were wondering how he had managed to slip away from the house anytime his "other self" (as you named it) was required somewhere, without letting you see him at least once. For some reason, you always missed his departures whenever he had to replace his usual long jacket and black sweatpants, for a dark blue, heavily decorated military uniform. Almost as if... he was meticulously making sure that you would never see this side of him, ever.

That side being... Leviathan, the official Grand Admiral of Hell's Navy.

Lucifer had come to your room early one morning, handing you a wrapped up box in a paper bag that contained different kinds of Devildom food. "You are planning on accompanying Beelzebub to his fangol practice later, correct? If you could pass by the Navy's Headquarters and deliver this to Levi on your way there...".

Such a simple request from the eldest that you had immediately accepted on the spot, not realizing right away that it would be your first time seeing Levi in a completely different environment, than the one his otaku lair.

His presence at the headquarters was relatively rare: about once or twice every month, since the naval army only had to deal with the usual sea pirates and raging monsters of the many Hell's seas. And with Levi being a master at turning invisible to anyone's eyes whenever he wanted, it was no surprise that you had missed every single time he'd stepped out of the house while wearing his uniform.

As you walked beside Beel in the Devildom streets, the paper bag swinging off your hand beside you, you asked the giant how come you had never seen the third born in his military attire in the past.

"Hmm, I guess it's because he's shy. Him being the Grand Admiral is something completely different from being a shut-in. Even if he is powerful enough to command tons of other demons and be recognized by them as a superior, I guess he's still scared of showing this side of him to you. For whatever reason."

Beel made sure to add that, despite your impromptu visit to him today, Levi would surely be glad to see you. 'Maybe he'll be surprised at first, but don't let that get to you', he smiled in a way to reassure you. After hearing those words, you were growing impatient and excited, your grasp on the paper bag tightening even more once the old fortress that served as the Navy's HQ finally came into view.

The demons guarding the entrance opposed no problem to letting you enter, having recognized Beel even before he had even opened his mouth. You quickly explained your reason for visiting their admiral, and after exchanging a look between each other, the demons nodded and opened the giant wooden doors to let you in. You were expecting Beel to follow behind you as you took the first steps inside, but he only shook his head with a smile. "You'll be fine, MC. Levi's soldiers know who you are, and what you mean to him. They won't do anything to you. And I'm sure Levi will prefer it if it's just you visiting him, so I'll wait for you here."

Although a bit reluctant to not have the reassuring presence of the demon beside you, you trusted him and his judgement. You let one of the soldiers accompany you within the fortress after waving a small goodbye to Beelzebub, keeping a slow pace behind him, and watching as he guided you through the different halls and up the many staircases leading to the Grand Admiral's office. It wasn't until you had climbed up several floors, that the soldier stopped rather abruptly next to a dark wooden door, attached to the cobblestone walls with golden hinges.

"We have arrived at the Grand Admiral's personal quarters, Mx. MC" The demon bowed his head to you as he stood beside the door, his back straight and the trident in his hand standing tall. "Shall I knock on your behalf?"

"N-No, that's alright." You shook a hand in front of you to decline his offer. "I'll, hm, do it myself. If that's okay with you...?"

You stood awkwardly in front of the demon, fingers wrapping around the lunch bag nervously. His eyes shifted between what you were holding and your face, almost as if he was judging you.

"Very well." He let out with a stern expression and a single arched eyebrow. "The Grand Admiral will let you know if you are allowed to enter. If you'll now excuse me."

On these words, the demon bowed once more in front of you, before marching past and walking back in the direction where you had come from. As his figure disappeared behind a corner, and now that you were alone in this silent corridor... you suddenly felt tense.

Turning around to face the Admiral's door, you grabbed the lunch bag between both of your hands, the paper slightly crinkling under your grasp. You were surprised by how loud you swallowed the saliva down your throat, and how shaky your whole body had become in the matter of just a couple seconds. Was the excitement finally getting to you? Was it even excitement you were feeling right now, with your feet firmly planted in front of the door and staring into nothing? Or was it apprehension about how different Levi could be in this environment? You couldn't stop wondering how he'd even react to seeing you at his workplace, and completely unannounced too.

With shy knocks, and a heart beating like a thousand hammers within your chest, you announced your presence behind the large wooden door. A ratherly loud voice came from the other side, commanding a single "come in", which you immediately recognized as Levi's, but with a much more commanding tone than you were used to hear coming from him. It instantly made you blink in surprise, as you'd expect any Grand Admiral to ask for the identity of anyone who'd ask to enter their quarters, but quickly brushed it off as you noticed your hand shaking as it hovered above the handle.

Why were you suddenly turning into a timid human, when the person behind the door was none other than Levi, a demon you had known for so long, and your best friend? There was no reason for you to feel apprehensive about him seeing you there, and yet, this stupid heart of yours wouldn't stop beating like crazy.

As you closed your eyes shut and deeply sighed in order to calm yourself down, you let a smile appear on your lips, and turned the handle of the door, before taking your first step inside the admiral's office.

You almost couldn't pay proper attention to the way the room was decorated, with so many props, paintings and banners attached to the stone walls around you. Several rows of trophies adorned the shelves of a glass display on your right side, while a library filled to the brim with old books, brown scrolls and parchments occupied your left. The room was big, almost as big as Lucifer's office back at home, with a round table in its center and two velvety chairs facing each other on each side of it. Probably used for the many meetings that Levi had to host with other admirals in the past.

And speaking of the demon... upon locking your eyes on the far back of the room, there he was. Seated behind a large wooden desk, clothed almost exactly how you had imagined his outfit to be: his jacket buttoned up to his throat, with several medals adorning the left side of his chest, and a military cap resting on top of his head, stuck between both his horns. Despite the distance from which you were standing, this outfit immediately left you awestruck.

Even with the presence of a large window behind him, where the usual light of the Devildom's moon was in full view, you were still able to properly see within the room thanks to the many candles attached to the walls around you.

"Is it about the lost crates again?" Levi's piercing orange eyes were slightly glowing under the darkness of his military cap, the oculars going from left to right as they followed the tip of his quill upon the paper he was filling.

With an annoyed sigh, he placed the feather back onto the table, and you swore you could have seen his canines show for a split second within his mouth. "I swear, if you tell me they lost even more ammunition, I'll-"

His eyes finally rose to stop on you. Almost instantly, a squeal, absolutely not befitting of a man of his current status, escaped the confines of his body upon seeing the identity of the person who had entered his quarters. You backed away with a startled expression, your eyes almost as wide as his and your heart suddenly going twice as fast as it was a few seconds ago.

"M-M-MC??!" Levi's body immediately shot out of his seat at the sight of you, his legs hitting his chair and nearly making him lose his balance in the process. He grabbed the edge of his hardwood desk in the nick of time before falling on the ground, staring at you with the most flushed face you had seen yet. His wide open eyes and his agape mouth let you know that he TRULY didn't expect your presence there.

"W-What? What's going on?" You asked, a bit alerted at such a reaction from him, despite your best at trying to keep your composure. It was almost like he had seen a ghost!

"H-Huh?! Me?! You're asking ME what's going on!?" Levi asked, bewildered, his eyebrows raised up high on his forehead. "W-What are you doing here?!"

"I..." You tried to find your words, attempting to crack a smile despite him staring so intently at you. You raised your hand to show the paper bag you were holding. "You forgot your lunch...?"

If Levi's mouth was already open large enough for a fly to enter, now an entire bird could easily pass and he wouldn't even notice. He stayed there for a few seconds, silent and red in the face, before slumping back into his chair and bringing both his hands over his face as he curled up on himself. "Y-You aren't supposed to be here!! At least not without telling me in advance...!"

The sight could have made you laugh, if it weren't for the fact that... it was Levi, and seeing him flustered shouldn't be surprising. Yet, he was supposed to be a highly-decorated military expert, with what you can imagine many hundreds of victories. And here he was, desperately trying to hide his blush and contain his flustered whimpers from the human living at his house.

You had to stop standing there without doing anything, or you would surely end up laughing, and embarrass the poor demon even more.

"Sorry." You allowed yourself to step further into the room, making your way towards the desk. As you stopped in front of his huddled form on his chair, Levi let an eye poke from between his fingers. "I was going with Beel to his practice today, and Lucifer asked me to bring your lunch on the way. I thought not telling you would maybe surprise you. In a good way, that is."

"I-I mean..." He muttered against his palms, his eye suddenly avoiding your gaze. The red of his cheeks could still partially be seen despite his attempt to hide it. "I'm not m-mad, but..."

Levi straightened up in his chair and turned back towards his desk, placing his elbows on the hardwood and his hands back on his face. "I didn't think you'd actually show up like that..."

"... Surprise?" You chuckled, before placing the lunch bag next to him. Your eyes wandered around the room. "It's a really nice office you have. You must get a lot of work done here, huh?"

Too busy with looking at his decoration and furniture, you couldn't notice Levi partially opening his hand to glance at you. "Y-Yeah. I don't have any distraction here so it allows me to focus and... "

His renewed silence caused you to bring back your focus onto him, and his hand quickly closed back, causing you to miss him staring at you. For some reason, Levi really seemed more flustered by your presence than usual, and you weren't sure what was the cause.

"Hm, Levi... Am I unwanted here, while you're at work?" You decided to ask, rather bluntly, but as much as you feared the answer to be a positive one, you also didn't want to bother Levi in a place where his family probably didn't see him very often. Maybe he actually felt quite comfortable here on his own, and you were bringing him anxiety just by standing in his office?

Your worries were immediately erased upon seeing his hands go from hiding his face, to grabbing yours in a rush.

"W-What?! No, no!! You're not unwanted and never will!" You felt him squeeze your hands as his brow began to lower, as if he suddenly felt ashamed to have caused you to imagine such a thing. "I-I, I just... Sorry, I didn't mean to react like that. I'm happy you're here, MC, really... I'm always happy to see you, anywhere. You know it."

As his cheeks burned with a deep crimson, you slid a hand out of his grasp to rest it on his arm, your palm gently brushing it over the sleeve of his jacket. "But there's a reason why you don't want me to see you as "Grand Admiral Leviathan", right?"

Levi opens his mouth to say something, yet no words come out of it. He looks at you with a defeated expression, which lets you know you've hit the nail on the head.

"I'm not mad, Levi. If there's a reason why you've been avoiding me seeing you like this, then I'm sorry I didn't warn you of my visit beforehand." His half-lidded eyes fall upon your hand resting on his arm, as you continue. "But I guess there's a part of me that would like to know, why I've never had the chance to see you off anytime you had to leave to take care of your admiral duties."

Levi's mouth turns into a straight line, eyebrows pinching hard against each other on his forehead. You can easily see he's debating whether or not to tell you the reason he's kept for himself for so long now, even more so when he grabs the hand that's holding him and begins twiddling with your own fingers. You notice a pout birthing upon his lips.

"It's gonna sound dumb..."

"I'm sure it won't." You reply, your tone as soft and understanding as you can.

"But it really is dumb." He moves your fingers around gently, without any real purpose. "You've always been used to see me as the shut-in that I really am, always locked up in his room and babbling about anime and games and this kind of stuff. But when I have to wear my uniform, I have to set all that aside and be extremely serious about my duties. That's not the "me" you're used to see everyday. So I thought that..."

He stops moving your fingers, instead settling it in the warmth of his palm as his head lowers even more, in the hopes you wouldn't be able to see his face anymore thanks to the visor of his cap. "If you were to see that I can be something else than just a typical otaku... That I can actually shut up and be responsible for once, and that I can act as a "real" demon... Maybe you'd prefer Leviathan, the official Grand Admiral of Hell's Navy, rather than Levi, the official recluse of the House of Lamentation."

You watch as his fingers hesitantly close upon the back of your hand, his head now so low it'd look like he was bowing to you in his seat. The silence grew within the room, making the already tense atmosphere you had felt upon entering turn heavier by the second.

"Levi." Your voice in his ears, combined with the feeling of his cap being pulled off his head, made the demon blink. Just as he looks up to meet your eyes, he barely has time to see yours close, your body leaning in to place a kiss onto his indigo hair.

"Never in a million years would I expect you to stop being you." You place the hand that's not holding his cap on his shoulder, as you lean back to look at him. "You are both the Grand Admiral, and my favorite otaku. And no matter what clothes you wear, or whether you act like yourself or like a leader, I'll always regard you as only one person. Because you can be both an otaku, and an admiral at the same time. That's what makes you you, Leviathan."

You offer a small smile to the demon, before gently placing back his cap between his horns. "They're both the real you. Why would I want to choose one or the other, when I'm sure they're both as great and awesome to have around?"

"MC..." Levi says weakly, his lips trembling as he desperately tries to fight back tears.

Before you can react, the demon shakes his head, as well as his emotions away, before slightly opening his arms in an invitation to receive a hug from you. You happily oblige, stepping closer to him, and as your arms close around his shoulders, and his around your waist, a sigh escapes him.

"I'm sorry for doubting you. I didn't mean to." You feel him bury his face further against your collarbone.

"No harm done, Levi. Your worries were understandable." Your hand goes to rub circles on his back. "But you know I'll never prefer one side of you over the other. Never did, and never will. I'll always be proud of you regardless."

"T-Thank you, MC. I'm... r-really happy to hear that." After making sure that no tears had been accidently shed, Levi squeezes you in his arms one more time, before eventually pulling away. "Sorry, guess I kinda screwed up your first visit here, huh?"

"Oh, not at all. It's quite the exclusive sight you gave me, getting to see the Grand Admiral blush so hard because his human came without notice." You say with a delighted smile, before passing your thumb under his eye despite the absence of any tears. "You know, it almost looks like I'm a spouse bringing their husband lunch."

"S-Stop!!" The deep red from earlier reappears all over his face in a flash, the color even reaching his ears this time. Levi shuts his eyes close before hiding them under his hands again. "I-I- can't believe you'd just-- you can't say something like that out of nowhere!!"

You let out a chuckle, before gently pulling his hands out of the way so you can kiss his forehead. "Sorry, you're too easy to tease. Hey, I have to go now. Beel's still waiting for me. But I'll see you at home tonight, okay?"

Levi huffs, his eyes dropping to stare at his knees. "Y-Yeah. I'll call a guard to bring you back at the entrance. I'd accompany you myself, but, I'm already late on filling those papers..."

"Lots of work, hm? Try to take it easy for me, then." You push the lunch bag a bit more in front of him, before walking back to the front of the desk. Before you could take any more steps away from him, Levi calls for you, causing you to turn around and witness the shy little mess he had become.

"Y-You saw I have a lot of work to do, and I'll probably have to come back here tomorrow too, so... D-Do you think you could-- huh-" he twiddles with his fingers on top of the desk. "M-Maybe you could bring my lunch tomorrow, too... ?"

A feeling of satisfaction and content washes over you upon hearing his request. You beam at him in response. "I'd love to, Levi. Same time tomorrow, would that be good?"

"Y-Yes! Please, thank you!" The demon stutters, barely able to hide his own joy as he shows you a little smile. "Thank you for visiting today, MC. I-I'll see you at home!"

The nod you gave him was full of vigor, and it only made his smile grow even more. You eventually turned your back to him to walk towards the door, waving him a little goodbye which he returned with a wave of his own, and exited the room.

Before you knew it, a guard came to fetch you in the corridor, and promptly escorted you back to the entrance gates of the fortress. You greeted Beel upon returning to him, the giant thanking the soldiers to have brought back safely. You gave your thanks as well, before walking away beside the sixth-born to accompany him to his destination.

"So? Was Levi happy to see you?" His purple eyes scanned your face for any sign that your meeting with Levi had gone well. He instantly noticed you turning to him with a certain glow in your eyes.

"Yup! Actually, before I forget, maybe I could accompany you to your training tomorrow... "

From his window, located in the highest floors of the Hell's Navy's headquarters, Levi watches you depart alongside his little brother. He does not stop looking until the two of you are small dots on the horizon, and when you finally disappear from his view, his clutch on the cap resting on his knees tightens a little more.

"I shouldn't doubt them like that." He says to himself, before turning his chair back to face his desk. "They care for me. They do."

His eyes trail back to the paper bag sitting in front of him. He grabs it between his hands, and inspects the contents inside. It is indeed the lunch box he had made himself, and forgotten on the kitchen counter before leaving this morning. Although, as he inspected further, it seemed like... someone had dropped a small paper inside?

Upon pulling the lunch box out of the bag, the piece of paper fluttered around in the air, before gently landing onto the surface of the desk. As Levi picked it between his gloved fingers, he instantly felt his heart squeeze upon laying his eyes on it. It was a note in your handwriting, he recognized, wishing him a good lunch, along with a smiling doodle of yourself saying "Keep doing your best, super admiral Levi".

If the demon still felt remnants of his shyness linger deep within him, it was now even more powerful than before. Pressing the note against his chest, and internally thanking you again and again for being way too adorable, Levi was already visualizing how tomorrow's visit would go. Perhaps, with a little luck, he could actually ask you to prepare his lunch before bringing it to him, too...

Yes, MC. For you, I'll always do my best. I promise.

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