Cannot Sleep Too Busy Thinking Of Scenarios

Be excessive, be obsessive about what you truly want. There is no other option but getting what you want. You will work harder than you could imagine, there will be sleepless nights and probably you won't even have time to eat. But don't stop. Yes, for a long time it will be CHAOS, confusion. But let me tell you, THE SATISFACTION you have from the hard work, there is no better feeling than achieving your goal through hard work. And then, THE REGRET you'll have for not doing it will eat you alive. YOUR CHOICE

اللَّهُمَّ أَحْسَنْتَ خَلْقِي فَأَحْسِنْ خُلُقِي

O Allah, as you have made my form excellent, make my character excellent.

Source: Musnad Aḥmad 23871, Grade: Sahih

Ibn Uthaymin رحمه الله said:

“The test intensifies

when the relief is close.”

[Sharh al-Mukhtasar ‘Alaa Buloogh al-Mar’aam, 376]

“Our lack of intimacy with God causes a void that we try to fill with the frailest of substitutes.”

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If you are studying the deen and not realising your own ignorance then your ilm is not benefittng you. If it is only increasing you in arrogance then your intention is not sincere. Re-evaluate and start again

"I have discovered from my own experience that whenever someone increases in knowledge, they discover how much greater their ignorance is"

[The souls journey after death Ibnul-Qayyim Rahimahullah page 37]

The verse that made Iblis cry:

وَالَّذِينَ إِذَا فَعَلُواْ فَـحِشَةً أَوْ ظَلَمُواْ أَنْفُسَهُمْ ذَكَرُواْ اللَّهَ فَاسْتَغْفَرُواْ لِذُنُوبِهِمْ

Translation: If they fall in sin or wrong their souls, they remember Allaah and ask forgiveness for their sins.

Anas b. Malik:

"When this verse was revealed, Iblis cried."

● {تفسير ابن كثير ٣:١٣٥}

Ibn Mas’ūd (radiAllahu anhu) said:

Do not befriend except one who assists you in the remembrance (dhikr) of Allah.

الزهد لأبي داود (١/١٢٦)