Quick Tsujimura Doodle

Today's Sigma is: throwing up from anxiety

Imagine you are Atsushi. You think you know a man. You think you see him for who he is- bleeding claws and all. You think that you are sure in his character and in his entirety. You think that after so many battles and so much death, there is nothing else for you to know.

You are wrong.

You think the two of you could not be more different or distant if you tried. You think that despite any change you may have brought, he is still someone you could never understand. You've come to terms with the idea that you both are simply two sides of the same coin.

You are wrong.

And it takes an unfeeling blade for you to finally learn how much so.

You learn that you only vaguely knew him- a shadow blurred across your vision. You learn his claws are not simply bloodied from pain caused but from pain given- from climbing a mountain insurmountable even to one as strong as him. You learn that you knew his surface but not his core- something no battle had ever taught you. There is so much you have yet to know.

So, you follow.

You learn the two of you are not so very different, the distance no more than a few steps. You learn that any change you brought in him was because, unknowingly, you were speaking a language that you didn't know he spoke right back. You learn that the hate that he held for you was born of a desire just as your own.

So, you follow.

And you learn that there was never a coin at all, just a mirror- a thing made of broken edges, bruised bones, and hateful words. And you learn there were never two sides, simply two caged and cornered animals staring back at the other- hearts bleeding and hands grasping.

Grasping for acknowledgment, for acceptance, for a reason, for permission, for someone to tell them they were finally enough.

You stare at the man in the mirror, a dark anger of a person- all sharp points and serrated defenses- and can see yourself in his eyes. Eyes that don't look at you the same way they used to.

You wonder: when he looks in this mirror, does he see the same?

You will simply have to ask him once you return.

Imagine you are Atsushi. You have seen the heart of a man. A man with whom you cannot accurately describe your relationship- no word seems precise enough nor powerful enough. You still don't fully understand him. He still confuses you, annoys you, and causes an itch you cannot seem to scratch.

But none of that matters because you have already decided he is worth sacrificing for. Because he is Ryuunosuke Akutagawa.

You have already made it to the door that- if done right -will guide you back to him, aided by the ghosts of his past and yours.

And so, you place your hands upon the entrance and push.

felt like I was about to have a panic attack and cried but I have to thank this post and the Wahoo fish for making me laugh for a solid minute lmfao

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freak of nature

atsushi nakajima doesn't know what various physical signs of affections mean -- he grew up with none afterall

the first time kenji hugs him, he asks why he's squeezing him

he's a quick study tho, so he's able to hug kyouka after realizing she's not dead

but he gets shy about asking questions, doesnt even know what questions to ask, so he just does his best

for example

kunikida, ruffling atsushi's hair: thanks brat

atsushi, not knowing why he's messing up his hair: ????

*later*

kunikida: thanks kid

*hair ruffle*

atsushi, lightbulb moment: :O

so...

fukuzawa: your report was well done, atsushi

atsushi: thank you!!

atsushi, remembering kunikida:

atsushi, shuffling forward, and shyly ruffling fukuzawa's hair:

fukuzawa:

atsushi:

fukuzawa:

atsushi, proud for doing it right: okay bye then :)

fukuzawa, half confused, half touched:

/

atsushi, noticing two strangers holding hands:

atsushi: why r u guys doing that

strangers: uh we're partners?

atsushi: is that what partners do?

strangers: uh yes???

atsushi: huh

*later*

akutagawa: hurry jinko i do not have time---

atsushi, reaching out and holding akutagawa's hand:

akutagawa:

akutagawa:

atsushi, to himself: oh my god, has he been a bitch becuz i didn't realize work partners had to hold hands????

/

atsushi, nervous:

junichiro, giving him a comforting shoulder squeeze:

atsushi: ohhh i get it

junichiro: ???

*later*

poe, his usual shy anxious self:

atsushi, going over and squeezing his shoulder:

poe, red, more anxious, flabbergasted:

atsushi, who did it and then just left:

karl:

poe:

/

dazai, patting atsushi on the back: good job atsushi!!

atsushi: ????????

*later*

yosano, covered in blood and guts, after saving civilians:

atsushi, materializing randomly, patting yosano's back, awkwardly: good job yosano!!! you're amazing like always!!!!

yosano, touched and amused: thank you atsushi

/

dazai: atsushi i got you this

atsushi, confident after his encounter with fukuzawa, reaching up and ruffling dazai's hair: thank you !!!!

dazai: af;lksdjf;las????

/

and so on and so forth

She be staring at her like a pack of fresh baby teeth.

the funniest card in project sekai has to be minori getting blasted full force in the face by the overwhelming power of her own homosexuality and taking critical damage from the deadly attack of haruka with cat ears

devotion