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if i was a fictional character woukd you guys write fucked up angst fanfic about me yes or no
cvtting feels like the only thing i have control over. seeing my sc@rs develop has become fascinating
"meteor shower, quick! take cover! but the hues under our hair compliment one another."
• raytoebiter's user info! #342 stars!
➞ 101; ray/rei || 15.yo || filipino || he/they || loves music even tho music taste sucks || fighting the homoeroticism in my life 24/7
➞ currently in the fandom of: MHA, Genshin, JJK, Haikyuu, Apothecary Diary
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♯┆new works .ᐟ
tunes of your heartbeat (ongoing!!)
- xvi. my love
➞ ray's archive (♯┆old works .ᐟ )
- ayato x f!reader
- scaramouche x f!barista reader
- grumpy scaramouche x f!reader
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yk that thing wherein you read a fic so fucking good it feels like you're doing shitty astral projections to fucking heaven and somehow stumbling upon jesus's stash of porn, and you go, "oh!" because it's both downright mind-blowing and hilarious? yeah i lost myself halfway there
I wanted to ask does Scara have a labelled sexuality in your fic? :p 😼⁉️⁉️
yes of course obh ymg god he's a total king demisexual LMAO i can't ever imagine him getting into relationship with anyone he doesn't have a close bond with
though while we're on the topic i wanna share one of my first ideas of the smau which was having [name] and scara in a fwb relationship but also keeping their rivalry in school so like everytime scara gets annoying as fuck, [name] just presses him into the wall and makes out with him until he shuts up LMAO (which is why i opted to just have [name] overuse the phrase "shut up" instead) but like my main reason for the fwb relationship was that scara wanted to have another dynamic with [name] and [name] mistook his approach in a sexual way so when the climax comes in, scara's left to do some sort of therapeutic bs with his rs wirh [name] and blah blah yk the drill
xvi. my love
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───〃★tunes of your heartbeat masterlist
synopsis: in which your fate somehow gets entangled into a messy jumble between punk music in cozy cafés, intense rivalry, cherished yakults, parallelograms and quantum physics, competitions in contests and rainy days. or in other words; the universe seems to fucking hate your guts for whatever reason and decided to curse your love life with your awful crass emo twink-a-fuck rival. the question is; did the curse work?
taglist (50/50): @toekissers , @raineyun @localscarasimp , @potteraep , @shutingstar , @feiherp , @scaraenthusiast1 @dazqa , @wraithisd3adinside , @x-hihihi-x , @court-jester-stuff , @automaticpatroltragedy , @lalalaloveallmydays , @trulyylee , @jayzioxx , @featuredtofu @kazemiya @help-whatdoimakemyusername , @skyoverkill1 @phoenix-eclipses , @anqelkoz , @miyakomari @saechiro @franaby , @swivi , @vixialuvs , @heusalettle @kunikissr @yomishen @mywillt0live , @baldrapunzel @jiminscarmex @sushitushi, @liuaneee , @shynsgore , @mechanicalbeat1 , @marivaudages , @okukura , @azzumei @lucid1tty @iloveescara @usagiarchive @kyouzki @theunhingedmf @kangyeonie @mi2ukiss @bubblebellaz @eternallykira-143 @lumiicch
• featured song - stop this song (lovesick melody) by paramore
• notes - CAN'T SOMEONE STOP THIS SONG SO I WON'T SING ALONG SOMEONE STOP THIS SONG SO I WON'T SING ALONGGG fuck og my god this is so unrequited love scara im so fucking sorry AUGGH
authors' notes - summer really does things to a motherfucker huh cuz wdym I've been rotting in my goddamn useless bed for prolly almost a month now and majority of my class are out there fucking the damn ocean somewhere like hello??? ok but anyway i liked this chapter a lot cuz i had so many fucking ideas but unfortunately said ideas were too good for Tumblr since they don't let me post 30 plus fucking images but oh well i still like it anyways
p.s - ignore how ugly twinote is right now cuz im tweaking the slightest bit at how cheap it looks ughsg
(ask to be added or removed)
I fee like I'm rotting from the inside.
lock in? no. i’m locked out. please let me in. i promise im the real me and not my evil clone
lowkey i might die from embarrassment
godddd if I get access to cigarettes im going to smoke until my lungs are dead
I’d rather stay in and read fanfics on AO3 than do this thing called go outside and talk to people
me whenever my very specific (and honestly unrealistic) plans/expectations get ruined by unforeseen circumstances
i just think i should have the power to control thousands of knives, swords, or perhaps shards of glass synchronously with my mind. i will use this ability purely for culinary endeavors. you can trust me
this tweet is new but it is actually a fundamental text for me
i have hobbies, like cutting and thinking about death
Sir, that’s my emotional support unrealistic romantic delusion
his big wet eyes and loser boy personality have captivated me
How I look at my parents as if I didnt just slash the absolute shit out of my thighs:
does anyone else use one specific thing to harm themselves with?? for some reason i’m unable to cvt myself with anything other than my pink pocket knife. it HAS to be with my pink pocket knife. i carry it with me at all times
me: I write for myself, not validation
also me after posting a fic *refreshes ao3 every five minutes*
(two things can be true)
Do y'all ever read a fic so good that it makes you want to elevate your own craft and also befriend the writer? It's almost like, "Hi! You write so well that you've inspired me to embark on a creative training arc. Also, can I yell about the character in your dms because you get it?"
alright google calm down we all know this to be true
Being a pro censorship ao3 user is so insanely cringe. Either use the (incredibly effective and well designed) filtering system to avoid seeing the shit you don't like or stop complaining. Leave the pro censorship rhetoric to Wattpad or smth
Write it shitty, write it scared, write it without a clue but don't you be so spineless and have an AI write fanfic for you.
They should invent a new kind of Being Alive where it's not painful and it doesn't hurt constantly and actually feels worth it and you're happy for more than a few hours at a time
I love personalization. I love stickers on water bottles and on laptops. I love shitty marker drawing on the toes of converse. I love hand embroidered doodles on jeans. I love posters on walls. I love knick knacks on shelves. I love jewelry with goofy charms. I love when people take things and make them theirs.