CRAZYYYY
pairings: charles leclerc x reader (romantic/platonic).
summary: friendships donât always survive, you and charles would know.
warnings: cheating towards the end. no smut but a makeout session. sorry alex ð
authorâs note: the brocedes au that me and anon wanted. iâm trying something new btw. let me know how u feel about it.
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you never imagined yourself in the same room as charles. not willingly anyways. yet, when you received the invitation with his handwritten note asking you to come. you knew you couldnât say no. you had spent so much of your childhood discussing the future. he wanted a family. three kids, a dog and a gorgeous wife that loved him. you wanted a career. the glory, the accolades and the fans that loved you.
he made you promise one day that youâd be at his wedding. you were fifteen at the ice cream shop that heâd always drag you too. you had snuck out without arthur in order to have an extra scoop after charlesâ dad had paid for the ice cream youâd had earlier. he looked over at you, eyes serious and asked you to be his best man â (âbest woman, best girl. it doesnât matter. i just want you next to me. iâm serious yn.â he took a lick of his ice cream and the seriousness melted away when he left a smudge on his nose.)
you didnât break promises easily.
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however, when arthur came running up to you, asking you to follow him. when your relationship with charles disintegrated, you never lost touch with arthur. he was like a little brother to you. you would very rarely meet him for brunch in whatever city you happened to both be in. so when he asked you to follow him, you did willingly.
âwhere are we going?â you ask, as he pulls you along by your right hand. âusually, whenever you donât give me context it means youâre doing something bad. is this something bad leclerc?â
âwhen am i ever doing something bad?â he looks over his shoulder and gives you a wink. you roll your eyes. he plants you in front of a room and nods at it. you stare at him blankly.
âokay? iâm not a mind reader arthur.â
âi need you to help me look for something.â he nods at the room. âin there.â
âyou can do it yourself.â you turn to leave before he runs in front of you and stops you.
âlisten. i donât care if you had that weird breakup with my brother,â you start to protest that it wasnât a breakup but he stops you. âbut you didnât need to cut me off too. you were a part of my life too. you abandoned me too.â
âi donât ask you for anything yn but i need your help. iâm looking for my silver cufflinks. i need them.â he raised his cuffs to show you the distinct lack of cufflinks. âplease. iâm begging you. i wouldnât ask otherwise.â
you didnât expect to come here to be blackmailed and guilt tripped but it was working. you avoided everything leclerc. even his family, especially his family if you were being honest. they went from being your second family to nothing at all.
âokay.â you nod. âiâll get your cufflinks.â
arthur smiles and opens the door for you to walk in. itâs someoneâs hotel room. either arthurâs or a friendâs. itâs messy and you sigh. itâll be hard finding them in this mess but you start carding through clothes.
âyn?â
you know that voice anywhere. you turn around and itâs charles. heâs half dressed in his wedding suit, his crisp white shirt half unbuttoned. his hair is still messy as if heâs ran his hand through nervously multiple times. you smile with no teeth and move to open the door. itâs locked.
âarthur leclerc! open this fucking door!â you seethe. you bang against the door and hear his voice through the material.
ânot until you fucking talk! iâll be back in half an hour.â you hear his footsteps walk away. you turn to charles who smiles sheepishly at you.
âtea?â
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ham1ltonshaderoom: it seems all the rumours are true. sworn enemies f1 drivers charles leclerc and yn yln have seemed to call a truce to celebrate his wedding to art historian alexandra saint mleux. she was seen wearing a dark green vivienne westwood gown as she celebrated the coupleâs nuptials.
what do we think about the rekindling of this flame, ham1ltons?
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user1: CHARLESYN IN THE SAME ROOM NO ARGUING NO FIGHTS WE CHEERED!!
user2: i wish we had pictures of her. she always eats her outfits.
-> user3: wtf how does she digest them?
-> user2: figure of speech babe <3
user4: did she have a date??
-> user5: her longtime boyfriend!!
user6: they worked it out on the remix
-> user7: so FERRARI â€ïž
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charles makes you the tea. he doesnât finish buttoning his shirt as he pours it into a mug for you. he remembered how you liked it - two sugars and a splash of milk. you stay silent but nod gratefully.
itâs been so long since youâve been alone with him. youâre not the same wide eyed kid but neither is he. heâs getting married and youâre giving him the silent treatment. he sits on the edge of his bed awkwardly. tapping his thigh with a single finger.
âthank you for coming,â he says. âi didnât think you would.â
âthe handwritten invitation was a nice choice,â you sip your tea. âpersonal. did everyone else like it?â
âonly yours was,â he coughs into his elbow. âhandwritten. i mean. only yours.â
thatâs news to you but you donât have time to ponder what that means before he speaks again.
âiâve thought for the longest time on what iâd say to you if i got the chance. everything. how sorry i was, how sorry i am, how much i hated you and how much you meant to me. you were my best friend yn. my best friend. no one has even come close to what you were for me.â he chuckles as he presses his palms into his eyes. âwho else could i talk to besides you?â
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(insert a tiktok edit of the two of you throughout your careers. the song playing over it is the song âchemtrails over the country clubâ by lana del ray specifically the lyrics ânobodyâs son/nobodyâs daughterâ. it gets 167k likes.)
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âdo you still hate me?â charles looks at you under his lashes.
âof course i do. you hurt me.â
âyou hurt me. but i donât hate you.â charles fidgets in his seat. he stretches his hands to place them on his knees. you sip your tea. âdo you remember when i asked you to be my best woman?â
you nod.
âi didnât mean that. i wanted you to be my wife.â
you would choke on your tea if you didnât know that information but charles wasnât subtle. yet it was a case of missed opportunities. you didnât like him then and he didnât like you now.
âi couldnât hate you yn. god knows i tried. it hurts me knowing that you hate me as i could never hate you. i said all that shit because i was hurt and angry. you said i was a shitty driver. that is wouldnât have won without ferrariâs strategies which we both know are shit-â
âiâm sorry, i didnât know you still cared about my opinion.â you interrupt. your voice still has a defensive edge to it. he just shrugs.
âiâll always care about your opinion.â
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user1: editing yn to lâamour de ma vie by billie eilish (extended version) rn ð
user2: what part?
user1: listen from 2:15 till 2:56!!
user3: THATS GONNA EATT OMGGGG
user4: wish we could edit the wedding appearance of the two of them omggg.
user5: when i get off my lazy ass and finish my edit of them to âthe girl so confusingâ remix
user6: do yâall think theyâre talking at the wedding?
user7: babe do you know yn? sheâs probably at the very corner of the reception right now. sheâll take a pic with every other leclerc besides charles and probably leave before dinner is served.
user8: youâre so real. yn would NEVER talk to charles let alone be alone with him. i hate it but itâs the truth.
user9: plus charles is probably busy with the wedding.
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you never considered yourself to be a bad person but making out with your ex best friend/teammate literally a few hours before heâs about to get married? thatâs a bitch move.
you try to think about his fiancée. sheâs probably getting ready excitedly with her family and friends. thinking about being the future mrs leclerc while youâre two minutes away from committing adultery on both of your partners.
you pull apart from charles. he looks at you with wide eyes.
âwe canât fucking do this. weâre awful people,â you sit up. âmy fucking lipgloss is all over your mouth.â
âi look good in pink. itâll be fine.â he wipes it off.
âyou have a fiancée. youâre getting married.â
âtell me the word and iâll call it off. just for you.â he looks at you. âiâm quitting f1 after this year anyways. iâm not attempting to go for the second championship. i donât want it.â
âhow do you not want it?â
âwe have different priorities but i wonât be a f1 driver anymore. you always said you couldnât date a driver. iâve grown now. iâm fine being in your shadow. i love it. i want it.â
he looks at you as serious as he did when he asked you to be his best woman all those years ago.
âwhat do you want yn?â
you bite your lip, and think.
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user7: iâm hoping we get at least a picture. just one.
user4: i would DIE!!! imagine!!!
user3: charlesynnies suffer every day and everyone else wins.
user2: i think yn is right there with charles. maybe dancing.
user1: he always said sheâd be at his wedding. he was right. i think there is still love there.
user5: FINISHED MY FUCK ASS EDIT PLEASE LIKE AND COMMENT ON TIKTOK BESTIES
user6: okay i wrote a little fic for ao3. itâs called âwait until you like me againâ!! itâs domestic charlesyn as they are forced to work everything out. kinda angsty but really smutty.
user1: spamming u both charlesynnies are the best idc <3
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charles_leclerc: say hello to mr and mrs leclerc ð
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yourusername: happy for you ð
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interviewer â so is it true? youâre renewing your ferrari contract?
charles (laughing) â it is true. racing is my life. this is it for me. itâd take something big to take me away from it.
interviewer: you all heard it here first!
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"Are you sure we're at the right address, Sir?"
His chauffeur's question barely makes its way to his consciousness, as Jongseong allows his gaze to nervously and curiously roam the parts of Seoul he's never been to before.
As a business man he's definitely seen most of his favorite and most important capital, yet it genuinely feels like stepping foot into a whole new city.
All of a sudden and for the first time in his life, Jongseong simply can't recognize the place he was born and raised in, the capital he's always loved and appreciated. All of a sudden and for the first time in his life he genuinely feels out of place.
"Yes, it's the apartment complex right here", is the only thing he manages to say before the car comes to a halt and he finds himself in the midsts of Seoul's other kind of night life.
Despite the time being quite late, there are children and teenagers out on the street, laughing and playing together, a group of old man comfortably seated in front of a random little restaurant as the old women are slowly starting to close their shops.
Jongseong doesn't know what he expected when he had spontaneously decided to join his driver to pick you up, especially since you had already told him about where your apartment is located, yet it absolutely didn't prepare him for the reality of it.
It's not like he's never been to the less wealthy parts of Seoul, but for some reason he can't help but doubt the safety of it.
The thought of his pretty girl having to take the bus at late times with all these possible dangers lingering around has his head spinning with worry.
There's absolutely no way he'll let you go home by yourself ever again after this.
With a harsh gulp, Jongseong gets out of the car, the boys' and young men's attention quickly shifting to him as he shoots his body guard a firm gaze to stop him from following the way he'd usually do it. Because for some reason, Jay feels like he doesn't need him in his back in this particular situation.
"Oh, damn", one of the boys yells as soon as his eyes meet Jongseong's, his face quickly giving away just how young he is, however his height as well as the proportions of his body making him seem like they're the same age, "seems like Y/N's finally getting over that stupid asshole!"
His words leave the young CEO speechless.
Why does he know you? And why the fuck is he all up in your business to the point where he actually knows things about your personal life in such great detail?
Jongseong can't help but wonder if you've managed to create bonds to these young men, and as he thinks about the possibility of it, he knows it's nothing too unrealistic, as you usually tend to treat every single human being the exact same way, no matter who they are or where they come from.
"I like him the most so far", another boy yells, a little older than the other ones yet still young enough to be in school, "he actually looks like he'll treat her well."
For a short moment, Jay tries his best to understand whether or not this is actually happening because despite how overwhelmed he is, he feels way more comfortable than he would have ever expected to.
"Y/N and I are just â friends", Jay suddenly says, a soft smile on his lips and the way all boys are quick to reciprocate the sweet gesture melts his heart on the spot, "I'm here to pick her up."
"Nah, you guys aren't friends", the first boy chuckles, "you like her more than that, am I right?"
This time he simply can't hold back a little chuckle in response to the boy's playful words and yet all he does is shrug his comment off.
"What's your name? Might as well let us know since you'll obviously come around a lot more from now on."
For a moment, Jongseong hesitates. Not because he doesn't trust the boys but rather because for the first time in his life, he doesn't want people to know what reputation his name comes with.
"Jay", is what he decides on, "I'll make sure to get to know you all as well next time, but for now I gotta pick her up. The host of tonight's dinner we're invited to is incredibly stingy when it comes to being on time."
The boys nod, some of them shoot Jongseong another row of smiles whereas the older ones seem suspicious and mischievous. And as Jay comes to stand in front of the apartment building's front door, he carefully looks for your name on one of the tags before ringing your bell and silently praying that you won't speak to him through the speaker bur rather just buzz him in instead.
To his luck you're way too stressed and in a rush to actually care about who you're letting into the apartment complex. After almost two three of living here, you've grown used to the random ringings on your doorbell because one of the kids has forgotten their keys again or a random neighbor asking you for leftovers, especially towards the end of the month when the money situation gets a little critical for everyone.
Ever since you've started working for The Park Company, you've been earning way more than most people in your complex and since you have nobody but yourself to take care of, you love giving the rest to the people in your community.
To some people it might be too much but these exact people were the ones who took great care of you throughout the few times you spent jobless and on the actual edge of poverty, barely making ends meet.
It's a great privilege and honor to finally give back to them and there's nobody in this neighborhood you're not genuinely grateful for.
It takes Jay a little longer than five minutes to find his way to your door, the middle aged lady at the end of the hallway quickly letting out an amused laugh upon seeing the tall CEO desperately looking for the right way to go before finally helping him.
And as soon as he lifts his hand to knock on your door, he feels his heartbeat picking up its pace in no time, thrumming in his throat as the blood rushes in his ears and easily blends out every single other noise.
You can't help but be a little surprised as soon as you realise that there's actually someone on the other side of your door since you weren't really expecting anyone and are pretty sure Mr. Park's driver didn't feel the need to come all the way up to your apartment.
With only one boot on your feet and your lips half way lined, you swing the door open and find yourself standing in front of none other than your boss.
The sight of Park Jongseong in your complex hallway feels surreal, like it's nothing but a mentally created image and the longer you stare at him, the more intimated you feel. This block, this part of the city, your life â none of these things are made for people who were fed with silver spoons the second they came to this world and even if you don't feel ashamed or embarrassed, you definitely feel a little shy and yet defensive about it.
If it wasn't for the initial shock, you would have easily missed the way his eyes widen just the tiniest bit and for a moment you're not sure if he actually just gasped for air, but with him you usually tend to read too much into his behavior, so without giving it another thought you take a deep breath.
"I'm so sorry for making you wait, Sir", you say and start fumbling with the little belt of your rather small black dress, too nervous to make eye contact as you feel his dark eyes roaming your body almsot shamelessly.
"I didn't know you would be the one to pick me up."
"Don't worry about it", Jongseong says and clears his throat, every single drop of blood finding its way into his cock, "I wanted to make it a surprise."
His words leave you flabbergasted.
And from the sudden nervousness grazing his features you're pretty sure you haven't done a good job at hiding your reaction.
Jongseong doesn't want to make you uncomfortable, yet he simply has no idea what to say.
You look like you came straight out of his biggest fantasies, your whole demeanor is what he's been dreaming about for the past few weeks and besides that one night at Heeseung's new club he's never been in your presence outside of work.
For some reason he kind of expected this to be a little easier, but at the end of the day all of his worries and doubts have become reality.
"Call me Jay, please", he suddenly blurts and looks at you with his pretty eyes roaming your face, "I think we're past the point of you constantly addressing me as 'Sir' and by my last name."
"But...you're my boss", you whisper and start playing with your favorite necklace, but still too shy to look him kn the eyes, "I don't want to be unprofessional or inappropriate."
"Y/N, Iâ", but Jongseong doesn't get the opportunity to finish his sentence as his phone starts ringing and the custom ringtone lets him know exactly who it is.
"It's Hoonie", he sighs and pulls the device out of his pocket, not yet picking up the call, "I'll be here waiting for you to get ready. No need to rush yourself."
All you do is nod before turning around and quickly looking for your second shoe as well as finishing the last touch ups on your make up.
For a single second you actually consider inviting him inside but you're not ready for your boss to see your tiny little apartment. This time it is a little bit of shema which kind of hoods you back because compared to his big penthouse, your place is as big as his home office.
Once you've finally finished getting yourself ready and actually presentable, you try your best not to stare at your boss who's currently talking to his best friend, leaning against the wall and looking absolutely out of place and yet like he actually fits into the whole picture perfectly.
With a soft sigh you throw away all of those little thoughts and glimpses of hope before locking your door and waiting for Jongseong to join you.
You're too nervous, too anxious and excited to actually hear what he's saying to Hoonie on the phone and as soon as he pulls it away from his ear, you find yourself gasping for air at the mesmerizing sight of Park Jongseong.
He's not wearing his usual three piece but the casual version of his daily outfit. Few of the buttons on the top of his white dress shirt unbuttoned, revealing just the right amount of chest as the blazer hugs his strong biceps in just the right places. You don't let your eyes find their way to his legs because you know the sight of his thick thighs in those black slacks are going to drive you insane. Riding and using them for your own pleasure being one of your personal favorite fantasies.
Neither one of you says a single word as you make your way to the car, the cold November air hitting you a lot harder than expected and now you're absolutely regretting your choice of jacket.
You quickly check up on your boys, who have obviously been waiting for you two to come downstairs, before they all shoot Jay a knowing look and an appreciative nod of acknowledgment, which you would have missed if you hadn't been attentively watching your boss's reaction to the kids of your block.
With a soft smile, Jay opens the door to his car, making sure you're comfortably seated before making his way to the other side.
You're quick to start a conversation with his bodyguard, since the two of you have been spending just as much time with each as you have with Jay himself and for some reason he can't help but feel a sense of relief hit him.
You're here with him. You're in his car and he finally gets to take the tiniest bit of care of you, something he's been daydreaming about for so long.
You can feel his eyes burning through your skin and you can't even deny how much you're enjoying it. Knowing he actually seems to like what he sees has the butterflies in your tummy go absolutely crazy, despite your many attempts to kill them off completely. There's just something about Park Jongseong which seems to turn the easiest things into the biggest challenges.
"Y/N, I've thought a little about the rules I've set up for you in my office and have decided to abandon most of them", Jongseong suddenly says and when you turn your head to meet his strong gaze, you're surprised to see that he genuinely seems nervous.
"Oh?" You look at him with raised eyebrows, your hands neatly folded in your lap and all of a sudden you feel a lot less anxious than just a few seconds ago.
There's just something about him, which never fails to esse your mind, yet you still struggle to put a name on it.
"I've talked to Yeonie and the boys about this quite a lot and have realised that most of these rules were rather ridiculous. You can wear whatever you want and personalise your desk however you see fit. Please also don't hesitate to call or text me whenever you need something, anything, really. I want you to see how much I appreciate your hard work and you've never done anything to make me doubt your abilities, which is why those rules are kind of nonsense."
You can't help but be a little iverwhelmed because not only has he never been this casual and smiley around you before but the fact he actually gave these things another thought to the point where he felt the need to talk to his friends about makes you feel incredibly seen and appreciated.
"That is really, really thoughtful of you, Sir, thank you so much", you say calmly and are surprised just how well you're hiding the excitement currently rushing through your body.
"I'm also going to organise a company car for you because I don't feel comfortable having you take the bus every single day after working so hard", this one Jongseong was the most nervous about. His urge to lay the world to your feet has been absolutely overwhelming and after quite a little bit of arguing back and forth with Sunghoon, the lawyer had managed to put the company car idea into the CEO's head instead of his initial idea of letting you live rent free in one of Seoul's most expensive apartments.
"That is notâ", but Jongseong is determined and as soon as he cuts your words, you know there's no room for discussion left.
"It is necessary. Please, Y/N, let me do this for you. You work so hard snd you try your very best, at all times. Allow me to take care of you, it's the least I can do to show you my appreciation."
Fucking Park Jongseong.
Why the fuck did he have to pull the 'taking-care-of-you' card when literally every other explanation would have been the better choice? Because now that little voice you've been suppressing for the past few days, telling you that your boss isn't as neutral about you as he claims to be, has basically gotten a freeway ticket to freedom and you know it's going to be the only one up there for the next who knows how long.
"Thank you, Sir, I really appreciate this", you whisper and look away, whereas Jay refuses to look anywhere but you. He's been forcing himself to avoid you in any way possible for the past three months, he would never let an opportunity like this go to waste.
"Please, Y/N, let's try and be a little less formal with each other, yeah? I know I've been super keen on keeping everything strictly business but realising how much time we actually spend with each other has changed my mind", he says calmly, this time obviously a little hesitant. Jongseong doesn't want to let his intentions be known right away but rather ease you into it.
He rejected just a few weeks ago, no matter how badly he wants to dive head first into this and just tell you how crazy you've been driving him, he knows he has to slow it down for the sake of your mental and emotional well-being.
"I'll try my best to use your first name but I am afraid I won't get rid of the 'Sir' as easily", you chuckle nervously and carefully watch his reaction, only to regret your decision because the way he oh so obviously lets his eyes fall to your lips and back up has your blood boiling with arousal.
"That's okay", Jay replies calmly, "I like to hear that one from you anyway."
As if destiny heard the sirens in your head going off in response to his flirty little comment, the car comes to a stop and before you can actually think of a verbal answer, Jay's bodyguard has already opened your door.
The following hour is filled withw ay too many hugs and handshakes as Hoonie makes sure to introduce you to everyone you're not familiar with and by the time you finally get the opportunity to sit down, your friends are already all over you.
You don't tell them about your conversation with your boss, too shy and embarassed but also a little scared someone might hear and for some reason their lack of knowledge eases your nerves and soothes your anxiety in the best way possible.
It's a rather small gathering with about twenty people, most of whom you know, which makes the evening so much more bearable than you had initially expected.
The fact that your boss can barely keep his eyes off of you doesn't help much with your nervousness but you can't even deny how much you're liking it.
Every time one of his or your own boys comes a little too close to you, Jay physically tenses up to the point where you can actually watch the way his knuckles start turning white from his tight grip on the table when Jungwon pulls you into a silly little bear hug.
For a while, you completely forget about your actual relation to Park Jongseong. In this moment, you're just two adults with way too much chemistry and sexual tension and it feels like neither one of you is trying to suppress or run away from it.
You can't help but feel a little bit silly for gaining hope yet again but for some reason tonight feels different. Jay's never been this relaxed and casual around you, seeing him interact with his friends in such an environment is something you've honestly daydreamed about and to see it become reality seems surreal.
To your surprise, you find yourself seated next to none other than the man who's been messing with your head for the past three months and as the official dining part of Sunghoon's birthday dinner is about to start, Jongseong casually pulls your chair out for you to sit.
Nothing but a whispered thank you falls past your lips as you try your very best to stay calm but as soon as your gaze meets your group of friends, you know exactly how well that attempt went.
You don't let the girls' wide eyes and smiles as well as the boys shocked facial expressions get to you, the only person you allow yourself to indulge in is your boss, who's been more than just adamant about having a proper conversation with you.
It doesn't take long for his boys to chime in this time and even if he can hide his annoyance very well, he knows their actual intentions. With a soft sigh, Jay decides to pull himself out of your argument about which kind of stew is the best and why, his eyes never once averting from you as they take in your breathtaking beauty.
Maybe it's because he hasn't allowed himself to actually look at you in person or maybe it's because he wanted to maintain the mental and emotional distance to you, but regardless of the reasoning, Jongseong realises that up until tonight he's never fully comprehend just how beautiful you are.
Everything about your facial expressions, from the way you raise your eyebrows or scrunch your nose, as well as your brsathtaking smile and your incredibly adorable laughter simply blows him away.
He dowsn't even realise that Jake as well as Heeseung have gone back to their seats until you tilt your head to the side and meet his curious gaze.
"Hoonie's gonna hold a speech, Jay", you say softly and never once in his life has he loved the sound of someone saying his first name as much as this.
"Oh, right, sorry", he replies quickly and clears his throat, his cheeks filling with blood as embarassmenr overwhelms him, so to avoid an even worse moment, he simply turns around to face his best friend, who's just a single shot away from being absolutely drunk, yet makes sure to hold his yearly birthday dinner speech.
And as the waiters serve the appetizers and side dishes, you finally have a moment of absolute peace, only for the constant vibration of your phone to disturb you.
For some "unknown" reason you're so not in the mood to talk to Jiwoong. It's not line you're going to cancel the date over a simple conversation you probably misinterpreted yet again but talking to him on a night where your boss gives you his actual attention just doesn't feel right.
And on top of that you really don't feel like being on your phone all the time.
With a soft sigh you put your phone right between your own plate and Jay's, knowing he might notice the unnecessary high amount of messages you're receiving and all you can do is hope that he won't actually comment on it.
"Someone seems to really need your attention right now", Jongseong suddenly says and he has no idea why he actually decided to say anything because as soon as he got a single glimpse of the contact name a few minutes ago, his blood has been boiling with rage and jealousy.
It's not like he has the right to feel the way he does but the mere thought of you with that loser of a man makes him want to take you back to his place and claim you in the most intimate way possible.
You're his and he'll make sure to let every single fucker on this planet know about it as soon as possible.
However, until he's made sure he's won you over again, Jay has no choice but to accept your decisions.
And for now, Jong doesn't mind. He's known to be a patient man. He knows exactly when and how he has to handle these things, if he didn't he would have never made it this far.
He'll just make sure to have you forget about every single one of your little boy toys once you let him back into your heart.
"Well, I've got great company here and it'd be a shame if I wasted a night like this by staring at my phone the whole time, right?"
Your response it witty and slightly sassy, your smile actually cheeky and even if Jay knows it's the few glasses of champagne talking, he can't hold back the little chuckle regardlessly.
"Exactly", he says calmly and holds his whiskey glass up, waiting for you to react to his offer and as soon as you xlink your own against his, that heaviness on his chest seems to get just light enough for him to take a deep breath.
And as he watches you burst into loud laughter because of Sunghoon's random childhood story, he knows he has to have you. There's no way he's going to back away ever again until you're his and his only.
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(A/N: I know this one's a little boring BUT it's super important because from now on Jay's finally about to act on those feelings and not just write them down and be all grumpy about the whole situation. I just wanted to thank you all for the love and support, you guys never fail to make me feel so loved and appreciated and it's everything to me. Sending everyone the fattest kiss! Feedback and reblogs are always appreciated!!!!ð€ð§ž)
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ð¥ Ý Ë Ë . â SOME THINGS NEVER CHANGED. Mila would dare say that the boys were one such thing â and so was she. Not in the sense that they were stagnant, but in the sense that their hearts were steady in their passion, their kindness, and their unfaltering love. One year, two years, three years going on to four⊠And after all this time, they were still them.
So it was no surprise that Mila could accurately predict their reaction to her role in the trailer for their new comeback.
The board meeting for âOrange Bloodâ was one that Mila looked forward to as much as she did any meeting discussing the future of the group. Though their schedules were busy with their upcoming Fate Tour, there was no denying the anticipation of releasing new songs, and the relief of knowing they were still very much in the race. (She considered herself fortunate that they werenât one of the mistreated artists sheâd often heard of, whose comebacks ranged around once a year â if at all.)
The concept was an unexpectedly bright and hopeful one compared to âDark Bloodâ. Or perhaps, ânostalgicâ was the better word â yes, indeed, nostalgia was a perfect word for the concept. And all members of Enhypen were pleased with the proposed title track, B-sides (including Mila and Kiaraâs subunit song, âSweet Juiceâ), and overall aesthetic of the new album. It seemed as if it would be a carefree and fun era free of the drama of its predecessor.
Except, of course, that wasnât exactly the case.
When the time came for the discussion of the concept trailer, the air of nostalgia surrounding âOrange Bloodâ instead became replaced by déjà vu.
âMila has a special part to play,â the director of the concept trailer said. âIf you remember from the âDark Bloodâ trailer, she was the only one of you nine who survived everything.â
âRight!â Sunoo exclaimed excitedly. âIt was one of the things all the Engenes kept making theories about.â
Mila smiled. Amidst all the drama of her jealousy for Sunghoon, Jay and the boysâ interactions with Park Jiwon, she didnât give much attention to her own role as she should have. But it was still a very intriguing point in the concept trailer for all who watched it.
The director nodded. âThat goes to say that means she wonât be with the rest of you for the majority of the trailer.â
A wave of surprise washed over the Enhypen members. Their eyes widened collectively, giving the impression of nine bewildered children who had just learnt Santa wasnât real.
âAnd before you askâ yes, sheâs still going to be in the trailer. Sheâll just have different scenes from everyone else.â Mila smiled when the tension in the othersâ shoulders relaxed. She knew they would be the first to jump to her defence if, for some reason, she was excluded.
âAfter being separated, their paths are obviously going different ways. While Mila is still unaware, you boys and Kiara will be reincarnated as humansâŠâ
The director began to explain the first part of the trailer, which consisted of the boys being taken out of the ocean by Jiwon, followed by the next couple of scenes. Mila became sceptical at one particular scene involving Sunooâs neck being bitten, but figured it wouldnât be anything new â after all, Jay had his neck bitten in the trailer for âDark Bloodâ. (She didnât want to admit she was a little bothered by it⊠though she would ignore that feeling for now.)
Then it came to the part where Mila would make her appearance.
âNow, after all this, we finally see what Mila has been up to this entire time. And since she no longer has her friends with her, she is living a pretty lonely life.â
The others made noises of sympathy.
ââŠBut then she finds a handsome young man who falls in love with her, and they live happily with each other as a seemingly loving coupleââ
The sound of Kiara choking on her water echoed through the now silent room.
âWhatâs wrong?â The director asked cluelessly as he observed the groupâs reactions. He blinked when he received no response. âWas it something I said?â
Kiara was alternating between laughing, struggling to swallow her water, and shaking her head in denial. Mila supposed it was good that at least one of them seemed amused by the situation â because the other eight of them were certainly not.
Sunghoon â who had been lost in his own daydream the whole time as he stared at a random spot on the table in front of him â suddenly snapped his head towards the director, eyebrows raised and eyes wide as if he had heard something incredibly offensive.
Sunooâs jaw dropped in a slacked âohâ, while he side-eyed Mila beside him, and then slowly looked back towards the director, looking a lot like he did in his iconic reaction towards Seon in the first episode of I-Land.
Jungwon, whose eyes looked devoid of all life, said, âNo⊠Not at all. Please â do go on.â
If his words could convince anyone that he was fine, they would have to be both blind and deafâ because anyone could hear the soulless conviction he spoke with, or the obviously forced smile on his face.Â
Mila glanced at him before smiling at the director and drawing his attention to her. âSo, Iâm guessing my scenes will be with the actor then?â
The director cleared his throat. âWell, like I was saying â Mila, youâre looking for love to fill the gap left behind by seeing the others die, and you decide to court this young man as a way of moving on. So your scenes together will be pretty romantic.â
Mila blinked. âI seeâŠâ
That was probably the last thing the boys wanted to hear. And honestly, she didnât feel too comfortable with the idea of acting romantically with another male, even if it was for work. It was awkward to try and replicate the chemistry of two lovers with someone that wasnât the boys â let alone someone she hadnât met.
Heeseung had visibly tensed, before rolling his shoulders to avoid seeming too affected. However, the way he pursed his lips and sat forward in his seat gave him away.
Jakeâs eyebrows raised as he licked the inside of his cheek, fidgeting nervously by cracking his knuckles while he declined back in his chair. He didnât take his eyes, instead staring at the sheet of paper in front of him.
Jay hadnât said or done anything of note, but the set in his jaw and the subtle flex of his hand ok the table served as enough of a sign.
At that moment, Mila felt a hand on her knee, and looked beside her to see Riki with a carefully stoic expression. The only sign that he was bothered was the gentle squeeze he gave her.
Mila discretely reached out under the table to squeeze his hand reassuringly.
Looking for a way to comfort them, she asked, âBut we wonât be overly touchy, will we? I mean â we wonât be kissing or anything.â
The director laughed, as if Mila had told him a funny joke. âOf course not! Weâd never ask you to do such a thing.â
The boys took this as a good sign, and the air around them immediately became more relaxed. Mila smiled. She thought that would be the end of it until the director continued.
âYouâll just be very close to each other, instead â oh, and you might have to bite his neck.â
Mila, the boys, Kiara, and the manager who had just bought in coffee for the nine of them fell quiet. No one said a word as the director beamed innocently. They were too stunned to speak.
âIâM SURE IT WONâT BE THAT BAD.â
Mila didnât know who she was trying to convince, but it didnât seem like it worked on any of the boys â or herself, for that matter. As soon as they had gotten back to the dorms from the meeting, the boys were spread across the living room with silly expressions. (Kiara had, as usual, disappeared to visit the TXT dorms as soon as she could.)
âIt will be just like you and Jiwon in the âDark Bloodâ trailer,â Mila said, âItâs all professional.â
âBut you still got jealous,â Sunoo pointed out.
Mila scrunched her nose. âYou really had to bring that back upâŠâ
Heeseung laughed and pinched her cheek. âDonât mind us, weâre just jealous that you get to act all romantic with someone else. But at the end of the day, we know itâs part of our job. Weâll be okay.â
Jake laughed. âThis kinda feels familiar, doesnât it?â
There was a silent agreement among everyone. Some things really didnât changeâŠ
âAnyway, it doesnât really make sense for us to mope about it when nothing has happened yet,â Jungwon claimed. âI donât know about you, but I just wanna appreciate now first.â With that, the leader stood up and held his arms out towards Mila. âCome here.â
Mila giggled and launched herself into his arms. The younger immediately wrapped his arms around her and rested his cheek against the top of her head, inhaling her scent. He closed his eyes and the other members chuckled around them.
âHey, donât forget me!â Jake said, before adding himself to the hug.
The others followed soon after, crowding around together in the middle of the living room.Â
âTo be honest, I think Iâd rather not be there to watch you film,â Jay said quietly. The first day of Milaâs filming happened to be the last day of filming for the boys, so they would all be on set with her when she would be filming with the actor. âI donât think Iâd be able to control my emotionsâŠâ
Mila hummed. âI get it. You canât help it. But at the end of the day, Iâm always only yours.â She smiled slyly. âAnd if you ever feel like reminding, you can always try and sneak a kiss on set.â
âAyyyyy,â the boys chorused.Â
Sunghoon chuckled and patted the top of her head. âThatâs my girl.â
âYou mean âourâ girl, right?â Sunoo asked with a raised eyebrow. Everyone laughed, causing Sunoo to smile. With a smug expression, he said, âWell, just for the recordâ Iâm the only one here who gets to film a scene with Mimi. And we get to hug.â
âThatâs not fair!â Riki whined. âWhy do you only get to film a scene with her?â
Sunoo shrugged sassily. âI guess weâre just destined to be together.â
âThen what about the rest of us?â Jay asked with a raised eyebrow.
âYou tell me,â Sunoo said. âI was her first boyfriend and her first kiss, you know. You guys were just add-ons to our relationship.â
âWhat are you saying?!â Riki exclaimed. âI was the closest to her during I-Land. All of you tried to vote her out of I-Land in the first elimination.â
âI didnât!â Sunghoon protested with a raised hand. âI liked her better than all of you.â
âYeah, well, me and Mila were likeâ!â (Jake crossed his index and middle finger.) ââTHIS!â
Heeseung crossed his arms over his chest. âWell, I was her first love. So technically, I beat all of you.â
âAre you sure you want to bring THAT up, Hyung?â Jungwon asked the older male with a glint in his eyes. âYou know how that went downâŠâ
The others gasped in shock at the young leaderâs bold attack. Mila laughed, watching the way Sunoo dramatically put both hands over his mouth with wide eyes.
As bickering started to ensue between the members, Mila shook her head in fond exasperation. She didnât say anything as they made shots at each other, instead choosing to enjoy watching their bonding moment.Â
There was something beautiful about these little moments they shared together. The moments that â while fleeting, and easily faded from memory â showed just how well they melded together. How much they belonged.
And she wished more than anything that they would be just as they always had. That this thing they had would never change.
Mila smiled as she rested her chin on her hand. Wouldnât that be nice?
Later on that night, Kiara â who had been asked for lyrical input for one of the side tracks of the album â had thought to ask Mila for some ideas. She would be one of the few people who knew just how profound the younger femaleâs thoughts could be, even on the smallest of topics.
âWhat do you think about the saying, âSome things never change?â Kiara had asked.
âI think even though humans change, there are some things they are so connected to that they canât do things any differently,â Mila said to her.
Ironically enough, Milaâs sentiment was the exact antithesis of the ephemerality romanticised in âOrange Bloodâ. There was no guessing what Mila could be thinking â she always managed to surprise people with her unpredictability. But it was for that reason that Kiara admired her mind so much.
âFor example, you and Yeonjunnie-oppa love each other a lot, right? And whether itâs today or tomorrow, if thereâs ever a time where youâre not together, youâll still miss each other. No matter how many times you do it, it doesnât hurt any less. And as long as you guys love each other, nothing will change, because your reactions and emotions come from the same place each and every time â in this case, your feelings for each other.â
Kiara blinked. She stared for a few seconds before she broke out of her awed state and started nodding.
âOkay⊠Damn.â She lowered her head as she stared at the paper in front of her, on which she had scribbled notes onto for inspiration. âI like that⊠I like that a lot.â
Mila beamed. âIs that enough to help you out? Or do you want some more to go off?â
Kiara looked at the younger female with a glint in her eye. Mila tilted her head in confusion, as Kiara smiled â the type one would give their student when they accomplished something significant in their studies.
âHow about this?â Kiara asked. âI think you have a better grasp of this than me â so what about you write down lyrics for this that you can pitch to the PD? I donât think I resonate with this song as much as you do, so itâs for the best. And I feel like you have a lot of good ideas for it.â
Mila furrowed her eyebrows. âBut Iâve never written lyrics before⊠And what if he doesnât like them?â Mila shook her head. âIt would be better if you wrote them.â
Kiara kissed her teeth. âYah. Arenât you the one who always says to Engenes that thereâs no harm in trying? If you donât have anything, thatâs fine. Iâll just hand in something. But if you do, then why not share it? Iâm just saying, itâs not like you to throw away a chance before trying.â
Mila couldnât deny the logic of Kiaraâs words. She would be a hypocrite if she didnât the didnât do as she always said â and that wasnât a standard she wanted to hold herself to. She nodded.
âFine,â she said with a determined smile. âIâll give it a try⊠Just donât expect too much, okay?â
Kiara laughed. âOkay, okay.â
As she stared at the computer in front of Kiara, where the demo of the track was playing, Mila found her eyes settling on the title, letting it ingrain itself into her brain like a tattoo.
âStill Monsterâ, huh?
IT WAS LATE IN THE NIGHT.
Mila found herself at the kitchen table, eating a snack as she scribbled mindlessly on the notepad in front of her. She had her AirPods in, repeatedly playing the demo of âStill Monsterâ as she wrote whatever came to mind. It had been a day since she was given the task of writing some lyrics for âStill Monsterâ, and ideas flooded her brain like a river â the struggle, however, was finding a way to express them all.
âNoona?â Mila looked up from her notepad for the first time in the past few minutes to see Riki standing there, half-asleep as he rubbed at his eyes sleepily. âWhat are you doing?â
Mila smiled, internally cooing at how adorable he looked. âIâm just writing somethingâŠâ
Riki tilted his head curiously. He slowly padded his way over to the table and pulled out a seat next to Mila. Mila watched as he rested his head on her shoulder, while groggily reading the contents of Milaâs notepad.
ââStill Monsterâ? Thatâs one of our tracks, isnât it?â Riki asked.
Mila hummed. She hadnât told the boys about it yet because she didnât want to disappoint them if the pitching didnât go well, so she decided to keep it to herself until she received good feedback.
But Riki had always been someone she let her guard down with. It was one of the reasons she called him her âPeter Panâ: if she was Wendy, he was the one around whom she could always be carefree. As much as they bickered, as much as they fought, as long as it was him, she knew she didnât have to fear being judged.
âIâm writing some lyrics for it.â She sighed. âBut as you can see itâs not really going anywhere at the moment.â
There was a few seconds of silence, before Riki suddenly shot up in his seat. âYouâre writing a song?!â he asked, his eyes wide with awe. âThatâs amazing!â
Mila laughed as she brushed his hair away from his face. âThank you⊠But like I said, itâs not really going anywhere at the moment. I have ideas â I just donât know how to put them into words.â
Riki tilted his head. âWhy not? Youâre usually good at talking.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â Mila narrowed her eyes playfully. âAre you saying Iâm too talkative?â
Riki shook his head vigorously. âNo, itâs not that⊠I just mean, you always know what to say.â Riki lowered his head, once again resting it on Milaâs shoulder. The strands of his hair tickled her neck, causing her to giggle when he nuzzled his cheek against her. âRemember during I-Land, when I was feeling down after I kept losing battles?â
Mila hummed and nodded. Those days werenât ones he often reminisced on, but she knew they stuck with them even today â because how could it not? All of them, in some way, were affected by the wreck that was I-Land. Even if they didnât show it. And for Mila and Riki â who had left everything behind to move to a foreign country where nothing was guaranteed â that trauma only increased twofold.
When the two of them were in Ground, losing chance after chance to go back into I-Land, they had finally reached their breaking point. And by the time the last test of Part One had begun to air, they had to do everything in their power to make sure they would be debuting.
âDo you remember what you said to me when I told you I didnât think I was good enough?â Riki let out a small chuckle. His hand made its way to Milaâs, his fingers intertwining with hers like two pieces of a puzzle. âYou said that people who always see ways to improve will never stop getting better. So, I was good enough â but part of me knew I was meant to be so much more.â
Mila let a smile break through. âThat was such a long time ago⊠You still remember that?â
Riki nodded. âOf course,â he said, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. âI was so close to giving up, but as soon as you said that I realised I didnât want to stop there.â He sighed as he breathed in Milaâs comforting scent. âYou always said the right thing to make me feel better when I was sad⊠It didnât matter if your Korean was still kinda badââ
âYah!â Mila let out a strangled laugh in her surprise, slapping Rikiâs shoulder indignantly.
Riki laughed, before catching Milaâs hand in his own and placing a soft kiss on the back of it as an apology. âIâm just saying â itâs the message that I remember the most, not the words.â
Mila blinked. âThat⊠actually makes a lot of sense.â She looked down at Riki with feigned shock. âWhen did you become so smart?â
Riki scoffed. âYou didnât even know how to order anything other than jjajangmyeon from restaurants until I taught you â and youâve been living in Korea for longer than I have.â
Mila gasped. But before Mila could say anything, Riki looked up at her through his lashes. His eyes were like pools of pure water, containing nothing but clear international and sincerity. Mila faltered, watching the way his eyes held hers, the space between them both too far and too close for her heart to handle.
âJust write whatever comes to you. If itâs from you, thereâs no way it wonât be beautiful.â
Mila smiled. And without another second wasted, she pressed her lips to his.
That night, the lyrics came as effortlessly to her as breathing. And at the centre of it all was them â the ones who, like the stars in the night sky, brought the light into her otherwise pitch black night.
âThese lyrics are really good!â The producer praised as he looked over the final draft that Mila presented to them. âWeâll change some of it to fit the vampire concept â but otherwise itâs perfect.â The producer smiled. âI didnât know you were this good at writing lyrics.â
Mila smiled. âThank you⊠But I had help.â
I owe Riki some bunggeoppang.
The producer shook his head with a chuckle. âRegardless, this is a very good result. If you keep up the good work, you could even be doing songwriting on the side. Good work.â
Mila smiled sheepishly at the praise.Â
âWeâll make sure to add your name to the credits. After some tweaking, it should be ready for the boys to record the vocals.â
Mila nodded. Since it was a subunit song for the boys â the same way Mila and Kiara had their own subunit â she unfortunately wouldnât be able to be able to sing it herself. But somehow, Mila didnât mind it so much. After all, there was something about the boys singing a song that she wrote for them that made her feel giddy inside. The fact that she also asked Riki to keep quiet (in case the feedback wasnât good) also meant it would be a surprise to them.
She hummed as she left the producerâs office, looking like a giddy high school girl as she walked through the halls, greeting staff with a smile.
Mila couldnât wait to see the boysâ reaction when they found out. Maybe she would even play a little prank on them, and wait until after everything to reveal the secretâŠ
Mila giggled mischeviously. She was just full of good ideas, wasnât she?
THE FIRST DAY OF MILAâS FILMING FINALLY CAME, and it couldnât have been any sooner. The past few days, she had to watch the boys leave without her to go filming, and she had become the personification of a drowned puppy as a result.
Enhypen had already finished recording the singles for the album and the choreography, so the next step was to film the concept trailer. Since she was the only one who didnât have a role in the first few days of filming, she would stay behind for them â something which she obviously didnât take well to. The whole time while the boys were preparing to leave, she would follow them around the house with a cloud of gloom hovering over her head.
âHas anyone seen my charger?â Jay asked, while searching through his things.
Mila pouted from behind him and raised a finger to point to the door. âItâs in the living room, on the coffee table.â
âAhâ thanks, Angel.â Jay patted her on the head and left the room to find his charger. Mila sighed and trailed behind him, tugging on the ends of her (or rather, Sunghoonâs) shirt. When Jay found his charger, he packed it in his bag and put his hands on his hips. âOkay, thatâs all for me. Iâm done now.â
âSame here!â Jake replied as he slung his bag over his shoulder and placed a cap on his head.
Mila continued to sulk silently as the boys announced their readiness one by one. And when they got ready to leave the dorm, she stood at the door, giving each of them a hug before they walked out.
âSee you later,â she said sadly as she wrapped her arms around Sunooâs waist. âLove youâŠâ
Sunoo laughed as he returned her hug, the sound like chiming bells with its gentle tone. He gently stroked the back of her head while pressing his lips to her forehead. And with a caress of her cheek, he pulled away while smiling, eyes dripping with honey.
âLove you too, Byeol-ah. Donât miss us too much, okay? Weâll be back before you know it.â
âThatâs right.â Jungwon latched onto Milaâs waist in a side hug. He rested his cheek against her shoulder and closed his eyes as Mila reached up to pay his head. âWeâll bring snacks with us.â
Mila nodded weakly, sparing a small smile. âOkayâŠâ
Heeseung pressed a firm kiss against her cheek, making a slight smacking noise as he parted. âLove you saurrrr much.â
With that, Mila burst out into laughter.
The other boys gave her sweet goodbye kisses as they walked out the door, before eventually Mila was left alone. And the only thing she could say was sigh and trudge her way to her bed, where she would lie down scrolling through social media to see Engenesâ reactions to her new red hair.
And that process continued until today, the final day of the boysâ and Kiaraâs filming, before Mila would film her parts, along with her scene with Sunoo. Since they were relatively simple scenes, they would be able to finish in one day. (According to the director, that was.)
They look like theyâre having funâŠ
Mila smiled as she watched Kiara and the boys running through the field of flowers. Since all the scenes with Sooha were already shot, Park Jiwon wasnât on the set today, so Mila didnât get the chance to greet her.
Mila wouldnât admit that she still thought a lot about the potential bite scene between Jiwon and Sunoo after reading over the script so many times. But in the end, the girl had proven to be very hardworking and talented. It was hard not to like her.
Thatâs too bad, Mila thought. Maybe next time.
With that Mila smiled and continued to get ready with the help of her staff.
Mila had just finished changing into her dress â a long, white number with spaghetti straps â when she ran into the assistant director, who was standing with someone she had never met before. He was tall and handsome, as well as rather young (he didnât look much older than herself), and was standing before a makeup artist who seemed to be placing finishing touches on his face.
Mila immediately connected the dots and realised that he was, in fact, the actor she would be partnered with for the trailer.
âAh, Mila!â The assistant director smiled when he took note of Mila standing there. Mila bowed as he ushered her to come closer. âJust the girl I was looking for! Come here for a second!â
Mila hiked up her skirt and made her way over. By now, the actor finished having his makeup done and made eye contact with Mila when he turned around. The two subconsciously bowed their heads in greeting, while the assistant director smiled and nodded in approval.
âYou wanted to see me?â Mila asked.
The assistant said, âThatâs right. I wanted to introduce you.â He gestured to the younger man beside him. âThis is Park Hajoon, heâs been a model and actor under Hybe for the past two years. Heâll be your partner for today. Hajoon, you know Mila already. Greet your senior.â
Hajoon bowed to show respect before smiling widely. âNice to meet you, Sunbaenim. Iâve been a big fan of yours since I-Land. Iâm looking forward to today.â
Mila flashed a friendly smile. âOh, really? Nice to meet you too; Iâm lucky to have such a dedicated fan. Letâs work hard together, okay?â
Hajoon beamed enthusiastically, his eyes lit up in clear admiration. Mila lowered her head, avoiding looking into his eyes. She couldnât help but feel bashful â every time she met a fan who looked at her with the same respect that Hajoon did, she never really knew how to react.
The assistant director chuckled and pat the younger male on the shoulder. âWell, since youâre familiar now, why donât you two start discussing your scene together while the others wrap up their final scene?â
Mila nodded. âOkay, sounds good to me.â She turned to Hajoon with a smile and gestured to the tent not far away. âShall we?â
âYes, Sunbaenim!â he responded passionately.
Mila laughed. If he kept up the energy for the entirety of the shoot, he would be able to rival Mila for the title of the set moodmaker. And she couldnât have that, could she?
âLetâs go!â Mila exclaimed equally as enthusiastically.
With that, the two laughed and walked away. They arrived at the tent, where the staff had already set chairs out for Mila and the rest of the group to rest in when the others were done with their shoot. But Mila and Hajoon would be leaving as soon as they were finished to head towards a cottage not far from where they currently had their equipment set up.
âHow much experience do you have with acting?â Mila asked as she read through the script.
âIâve had small roles in web dramas before,â he replied.
Mila âoohâed. âThatâs impressive.â Hajoon lowered his head and sheepishly rubbed the back of his neck. âIn that case, we should be done in under three takes, right?â
Mila said it as a joke. She definitely wasnât expecting Hajoon to suddenly get all fired up, eyes burning with determination as he held up a fist. âRespectfully, Sunbaenim â but I believe we can do it one!â
Milaâs eyes widened. He really was a bold one, wasnât he? But that wasnât a bad thing â not at all. She admired that sort of confidence more than anything. So, at that moment she knew she had gotten lucky with her partner.
âI like it! Okay, letâs aim for one take then!â she said with a smile. Mila then put the script on the table between them and pointed to an outlined scene, where Hajoon would be standing over Mila as she awoke from a nightmare. âFor this scene here, I was thinkingâŠ.â
And just like that, the two became absorbed in their work.
âIS THAT THE GUY?â
The remaining members of Enhypen had just finished filming their final scene together for the trailer and were heading back to the tent while the staff prepared the equipment for moving. They had originally been in high springs, considering they finally finished â but some certain members were immediately cast into a bitter mood as they spotted Mila waiting for them under the tent with an unfamiliar male.
The two of them were peering over paper together, their heads almost touching as they conversed with each other, unaware of the eyes on them.
Sunghoon was the first to propose who the unknown male was. Immediately, the others followed with dejected realisation that he was in fact the man who would be filming very romantic scenes with their girlfriend.
Jungwon pouted as he continued to walk towards them. âCome on,â he said to the others. âWe should greet him.â
Regardless of their own feelings, the man hadnât done anything wrong, so there was no reason to host any animosity toward him. Not to mention, when the positions were switched during the âDark Bloodâ trailer, Mila was also expected to be polite with Jiwon, even knowing that the latter would be biting Jayâs neck and very nearly sharing a kiss with Sunghoon.
âNow I know why Mila was so bitter about the âDark Bloodâ trailer,â Jake said as he watched Mila and her partner look at each other.
The latter lifted a hand as if to brush a strand of hair out of his face. Logically, Jake already knew it was to practise a scene in the script. But it still irked him nonetheless when he watched the unnamed actor tenderly stroke Milaâs hair, the way he often did.
Jay clenched his jaw. âHeâs barely done anything, and I already feel defensive.â
âWhy donât you guys smile a little?â Kiara said with an amused smile. âYou canât scare the poor boy away.â
âWhy not?â Heeseung immediately replied. With his doe eyes, one would think he was genuinely asking â though his co-members knew better.
Kiara rolled her eyes in exasperation. âYou guysâŠâ
At that moment, as if sensing them approaching, Mila looked up from the script she was sharing with her partner. The boys could practically picture bunny ears standing to attention on the top of her head. Her eyes brightened in recognition and a wide smile crossed her face as she waved enthusiastically.
The boys immediately fixed smiles on their faces, not wanting to worry Mila with their feelings when she was preparing for work. They joined both her and her partner under the tent, causing them both to stand to their feet.
âCongrats on finishing!â Mila applauded the boys with genuine pride. âI was watching you before â you did good. I think the shots will come out nicely.â
The boys become visibly lightened at the praise.Â
Heeseung reached out and patted Milaâs head, smiling softly at her. âThank you,â he cooed, eyes full of adoration as Mila giggled under his touch.
The mood completely broke when Sunoo looked at the male beside Mila and said, âI donât think weâve met properly.â
Taking the cue, the male actor bowed formally towards the members with a smile. As soon as he straightened his back, he introduced himself confidently. âMy name is Park Hajoon. Iâm a model and actor under Hybe. Itâs nice to meet you all.â
Jungwon was the first to greet him back. âNice to meet you.â
The other followed suit, leaving Mila to smile brightly on the side. So far, she would say they were doing very well in putting aside their personal feelings â it looked like they didnât have to worry about much at all. She cleared her throat as she gestured to the script.
âWe were just practising for our scene together,â she announced. âHajoon here thinks we can get it done in one take.â
âThatâs good,â Sunghoon immediately responded. By his logic, one take meant that they would be done as soon as possible, meaning that he, Mila, and the other members would be free to go back to the dorms sooner. Hopefully he would be able to steal Mila for some cuddles before the others got to herâŠ
âHowâs it going so far?â Jay asked. âAnything youâre struggling with?â
Instead of Mila, Hajoon was the one who replied.
âNot at all,â he said happily. âMila-sunbaenim is really good at acting, so we already have a good idea of what weâre supposed to be doing.â Hajoon held a thumbs up as he smiled at Mila. âSheâs really awesome.â
Sunoo eyed Hajoon suspiciously. He could pinpoint admiration when he saw it, and from the way this Hajoon person looked at Mila, the youngest knew for a fact that he held a lot of it for Mila â and dare he say, perhaps a little more than thatâŠ
Mila noticed this and explained, âHajoon here has been a fan of mine since I-Land. Isnât that great?â
âAh, really?â Kiara asked with wide eyes. âWah, how cute! You must be really happy to be working beside someone youâve been a fan of for so long, right?â Kiaraâs eyes had a hint of sly calculation when Hajoon nodded enthusiastically. She then asked, âWhat do you think? Is she prettier in person?â
Jake and Jay, who were standing next to Kiara, immediately threw a glare towards the older female, who grinned smugly. The others had their attention pointed towards the male in question, who had suddenly turned redder than a tomato under the sudden scrutiny of everyone.
Milaâs eyes widened as Hajoon dropped his head and rubbed the back of his neck. âEung⊠Sheâs really beautiful.â
Kiara laughed light-heartedly and patted the flustered Hajoon on the shoulder. âWell, youâre lucky to be able to act as her boyfriend for one day. Make sure to cherish it while it lasts.â
âAhâ o-okay,â Hajoon stuttered out, turning even redder than before. And this of course, did not go unnoticed.
Kiara hummed, pleased by his reaction. With that, the elder female sauntered off towards her seat, escaping the inevitable fallout that would follow her controversial statement. As soon as she was gone, Hajoon found himself under the scrutiny of seven males who eyed him as if they were predators and he was a rival who appeared randomly in the wilderness.
He supposed he expected this. After all, having followed Milaâs journey for so long, he also got to know her members fairly well. And anyone who knew Enhypen knew that to get to the Princess, they would have to get past her seven knights first.
âSoâŠâ Heeseung crossed his arms over his chest. âYou must be really happy that you get to act as Milaâs lover, right?â
Before Hajoon could reply, Mila rolled her eyes and gently tugged in Heeseungâs arms to uncross them. âOppa, stop. Youâre intimidating him. People might think youâre having a power-trip over your juniors!â
For good measure, Mila added a pout and used her eyes to plead at him. And just like always, Heeseungâs resolve immediately faltered.
âOkay, okayâŠâ Heeseung turned to Hajoon. The latter immediately noticed that the light in Heeseungâs eyes from when he was looking upon Mila immediately flickered out as soon as they landed on him. Nonetheless, the elder offered a civil smile. âSorry about that. Iâm not trying to scare you.â
âThatâs right.â Jungwon immediately followed up the elderâs statement with his own excuses. âThe older members just worry a lot â donât mind them.â
Despite the reassuring words he spoke, the smile on his face didnât quite reach them.
Hajoon nodded and cleared his throat. âNo, itâs okay! I already know that youâre quite protective â but donât worry, I donât plan on taking advantage of my role in the trailer today to satisfy my own selfishness. I admire Mila-sunbaenim a lot, but I respect her enough to maintain a professional boundary. Iâm here to do my job and nothing more.â
Jay would be the first to admit he was pretty impressed with the actorâs initiative. He was sceptical at first of his obvious infatuation with Mila (call it a manâs intuition), but he did feel a little better seeing his conviction.
The rest of the boys â though some more begrudging than the others â would agree: Even if they were still very much jealous, they could tell the actor was sincere and had a pure soul. There was no reason to dislike him. They slowly started to lose some tension in their bodies.
âOkay, now that we got that cleared up, do you mind giving me and Hajoon some peace and quiet?â
Mila crossed her arms over her chest and raised an eyebrow, challenging the boys to keep them any longer from doing their job. The boys, being wise, immediately heeded the silent warning in her voice, which was perhaps the most polite form of âPlay niceâ that they would get from her if they didnât act right away.
âYes, maâam!â
Mila sighed as the boys scurried away. Shaking her head, she immediately gestured for Hajoon to take a seat. âSorry about them, they can be a bit much.â
Hajoon shook his head. âNo, itâs fine. If anything, I find it sweet that they openly show how much they care about you.â
Mila failed to hold back a smile as she replayed the boysâ reactions to Hajoonâs admiration for her. Even if she didnât admit it, she did feel a bit giddy seeing them act so protective of her â even if she had to scold them a bit for being too intimidating.
âYou know â youâre not wrong thereâŠâ
NOT TO BE OVERLY DRAMATIC, but Jungwon felt as if he was kicked in the stomach.
The staff had moved all the equipment to the cottage set for Mila and Hajoonâs scene together, with the cameramen and director being inside to film while the other Enhypen members and staff remained camped outside with monitoring screens. The scene between Mila and Hajoon was only a couple of seconds long, and so wasnât prolonged agony by any means â but it didnât make it any less painful to watch.
Jay, Jake and Sunghoon were smart enough not to watch it at all â however the others found themselves huddled around the monitoring screen, eyes fixated on the scene playing out before them.
Jungwon pouted as Hajoon caressed Milaâs face tenderly, the same way he would when they were in the privacy of their homes. (It was at times like this when he wished they didnât have to hide their relationship from the public eye â so that he could unapologetically show off just how much he loved her.) Mila looked up at Hajoon with glassy eyes, letting him wipe freshly fallen tears from her face with a gentle swipe of his thumb.
At that moment, Heeseung wordlessly turned around and left, leaving the three youngest members alone in front of the scene. Jungwon bit his lip as Hajoon leaned down, his face impossibly close to Milaâs. Riki scoffed, before turning away and following after the eldest of the group. And just like that, only Sunoo and Jungwon remained.
Hajoonâs eyes flickered down to Milaâs lips. Almost reflexively, Jungwonâs hand clenched into a fist. He didnât even know why he was still standing there â and yet he couldnât look away, either, even as Milaâs lips slowly drifted towards the crook of Hajoonâs neck.
âCUT!â
The sound of the directorâs voice couldnât have been anything but intervention from the universe â otherwise how could he have known to stop the scene as soon as Jungwon had reached his limit?
âThey have pretty good chemistryâŠâ
Jungwon turned to Sunoo in confusion. When he did, he was surprised to see the expression on his face â nothing like the ray of sunshine that fans knew him to be, but one that resembled the sly fox hidden beneath his sweet smiles. Sharp eyes, and a cool expression, complete with a sharp twist of his lips.
Jungwon blinked, but didnât get to say anything as Sunoo walked away. This hyungâŠ
Jungwon shook his head and turned to the cottage, where he could just make out Mila and Hajoon bowing to the staff through the window. He immediately ran towards the currently empty gazebo, awaiting the moment when Mila would walk out. And as soon as she appeared, he threw himself onto her, pulling her into a hidden corner from prying eyes and clinging onto her like she would disappear if he didnât.
âOhâ Wonie?â Mila laughed as soon as she realised who had unexpectedly jumped on her, a fond smile breaking out onto her face as she reciprocated the younger maleâs hug. âWhatâs this all of a sudden?â
Jungwon didnât respond, instead opting to bury his face deeper into her hair. He was too embarrassed to admit he was feeling this jealous over something meaningless, so he could only stay silent and hope Mila didnât think of him as too clingy when he did.
Mila hummed. âAre you feeling jealous, by any chance?â
Jungwon felt his face heat up at being caught so quickly. But then again, Mila had always been the perceptive type. He gave a nod, causing Mila to giggle softly. Her fingers made their way to the top of Jungwonâs head, threading their way through his soft hair and filling Jungwonâs being with comfort.
âItâs okay to feel that way, Wonie,â she said gently. âWhen itâs just the two of us, you donât have to be pressured to feel like a leader, remember? You donât need to hide how you feel.â
âI know that, butâŠâ Jungwonâs hands travelled down Milaâs sides before they settled around her waist. Jungwon frowned as he pulled away, before eating his forehead against Mila. âCan I have a kiss, please?â
Milaâs eyes widened. âA kiss?â
Jungwon hummed. âYou said if I needed reminding that you were still mine, I could steal kisses from you on set⊠Thereâs no one here â so it should be fine, right?â
Mila blinked. âItâs fineâŠâ
âThen kiss me,â Jungwon whispered, his eyes glassy and vulnerable as they stared into hers. Mila swallowed nervously as they travelled downwards, landing on her parted lips. Jungwonâs hands tightened their grip on her, his broad shoulders rising and falling with a deep breath. âI think Iâll go crazy if you donâtâŠâÂ
Mila didnât have to be told twice. As if possessed by his command, she pulled him down by the neck, so that his lips would find hers. The moment they met was like the collision of stars, forming something far brighter, far hotter than what they were on their own, consuming all others around them until there was nothing but the two of them left.
Milanâs hands wandered to Jungwonâs shoulders, smoothing down the length of them with trembling touch. She let out a stuttering breath when his lips parted from hers, taking in a gulp of fresh air â only to come crashing back towards hers once more. This time, more fiercely than before. His hands tightened their grip on their waist for a final time, before he parted for the final time, painting softly for air.
Jungwon let the final tendrils of the flame within him simmer down so that only ashes of his bitterness remained, completely doused by the sweetness of Milaâs mouth. Her face was flushed as she gazed up at him, eyes glazed over, as if lost in a trance â and Jungwon didnât know if that was her own feelings, or if he was just looking at the reflection of his own eyes. For even if he couldnât see his own face at that moment, he knew he had fallen far deeper than she had.
ââHow dare you, baby? My heart craves youâŠâ Milaâs eyes widened as Jungwon began to softly sing all-too familiar words, his smooth and sultry voice sending a rush of electricity through her veins. âEven though Iâm still a monsterâŠâ
âThatâsâŠâ
Jungwon chuckled softly. âItâs from one of our songs. âStill Monster.â I donât know why I thought of it all of a sudden⊠For some reason it just reminded me of you.â
Milaâs inhaled sharply, her heart thumping wildly in her chest. âSing more for me,â she whispered. âWhat else about it reminds you of me?â
Jungwon began to smirk, an all-too familiar glint in the depths of his Cheshire eyes. His hand wonders down the beck of her neck, fingers brushing gently against her pulse. And with a voice all too alluring, he began to sing.
ââThe purity of her neck makes me crazy,ââ he began, ââThrows me into a desire I cannot cope withâŠâ
Just like that, Milaâs lips collided with his once more.
IT WAS TIME FOR MILA AND SUNOO TO FILM THE FINAL SCENE OF THE CONCEPT TRAILER. The moment which Sunoo had been anxiously anticipating â and admittedly, so was Mila.
She hadnât gotten to see the others after her small rendezvous with Jungwon, and had to go straight into filming again before the sun went down. By now, she had finished filming the opening part of their scene, where Mila was running towards the remains of the burning house, and was now standing there, awaiting the next scene â where Mila would sense Sunoo standing behind her and run up to him to hug him.
As the two waited for the camera crew to get ready for filming, they stood side by side, chatting carefreely.
âYou did a good job filming with Hajoon earlier,â Sunoo suddenly said, with a petty undertone in his voice. âIt was reallyyyyy believable.â
Mila scoffed. âYah, are you being petty right now?â
Sunoo raised his eyebrows. âNo. Why would I? Itâs not like I had to watch you act so lovingly with some other man and make it look so real. I have no reason to be petty.â
Mila huffed and turned her head away, crossing her arms over her chest in defiance. âIâm not the one who had some womanâs lips on my neck,â she muttered.
She didnât want to think about it too much, but she knew that the scene between Jiwon and Sunoo would likely bother her when she eventually watched it. But she already had a dash of bitterness about it after hearing Kiaraâs account of the scene, which supposedly was very intense. So Mila figured why not get the pettiness out of her before then. After all, Sunoo was the one who started it.
âWhat was that?â Sunoo asked.
âNothing,â Mila replied.
Before anyone could say anything, the director suddenly called for everyone to get into positions. Mila turned away and walked to her starting position, leaving Sunoo to narrow his eyes at her from behind.
He had heard exactly what Mila had said â he just didnât know it was that big of a deal for her. After all, it was nowhere near the level of what Jay and Sunghoon had with Jiwon in the previous concept trailer. But then again, Mila had always been somewhat possessive in her own way â even if she didnât admit it.
Sunoo let out a small chuckle as he watched her stamp her way to her spot. Even if she was acting a little bratty, he still found her cute. And what sort of boyfriend would he be if he didnât comfort her?
Better yet: What sort of boyfriend would he be if he didnât upstage the performance between Mila and Hajoon with his own? After all, he couldnât have anyone thinking a random male was a better fit for Mila than him, could he? His pride as a man wouldnât let that happen. He formulated his own plan in his head and gave himself a satisfied smile when he decided what to do.Â
Not long after, the director finally signalled for the filming to begin.
Mila turned around to face Sunoo and had a shocked expression on her face. Sunoo internally admired her acting as her shock morphed into unadulterated joy, a wide smile breaking out on her face as he held out a bouquet of flowers. The familiar chime of Milaâs laughter flooded Sunooâs ears as she ran towards him, before throwing herself into his arms.
The next part came as naturally as it could have. One could say, Mila and Sunoo didnât need a script for it. Sunoo lowered his head to bury his nose into her hair. His hand with the bouquet wrapped around her waist while the other found its way to the back of her head.
That was supposed to be it. But of course, it wasnât. Sunooâs lips brushed against the shell of Milaâs ear, causing the girlâs figure to freeze in his arms.
Wait, Mila thought. This isnât part of the script.
Mila stood there frozen as she felt Sunooâs lips travel down to her earlobe, and then further until it found itself on the bare skin of Milaâs neck. She felt her breath hitch in her throat as his plush lips sneakily found the most sensitive part of her neck â a spot he was very familiar with. Her pulse quickened, and her face started to feel when she suddenly felt his lips part, as if ready to kiss the spot then and there.Â
The other members, who were watching from the monitor screen a distance away, were immediately taken aback when Sunoo looked at the camera with a sharp glare. He looked like a fox warning anyone who came close to stay away from both him and the woman in his arms â challenging and possessive.
The staff could only watch in awe at the electricity in the air. The tension between the two young people whose seemingly unidentified embrace became something more possessive â more carnal. And at that moment they accepted that, as expected, the chemistry between members of the same group was unmatchedâŠ
âAAAAND CUT!â The director yelled.
Mila barely heard his voice, or the following praises that he yelled at Mila and Sunoo, claiming that they were âperfectâ together. Instead, she could only shakily part from the hug between her and Sunoo, before searching his face for some sign of what had happened.
She didnât know what she expected. But it wasnât for Sunoo to unshaded as she smirked casually at her.
âStill jealous of Jiwon?â he asked teasingly.
Mila swallowed and shook her head. Every time she saw Sunoo like this â so assertive and, dare she say, masculine â she was never able to form words. Just his presence alone made her speechless. âN-noâŠâ
After all, Jiwon wasnât the woman who felt Sunooâs lips on her neck in front of so many spectators. She would be foolish to still hold any jealousy towardsÂ
the female after that bold display on Sunooâs end.
âMan, this is so not fair!â Jake complained as he watched the pair stare into each otherâs eyes, unplaced by the amount of people around them.
âI want to film a scene with Mila,â Sunghoon said sulkily.
âNext time we choose a concept we should ask about the concept trailers first,â Riki added. âWhy does only Sunoo-hyung get to film with her?â
âYAH!â Jay yelled. His voice was loud enough that it carried to where Sunoo and Mila were standing together, causing them to break apart in surprise. âThe shoot is over â stop hugging each other already!â
Sunoo and Mila shared a look. Their laughter was so loud the others could hear it perfectly, despite the distance between them.
THAT NIGHT, the members of Enhypen congratulated themselves on a job well done.
They still had a few more things to do for their comeback, but at the very least, they had made it through the concept trailer⊠Even if it was just barely. They (minus Kiara) had gathered in the living room to both enjoy each otherâs company and to rid themselves of the bitterness from todayâs shoot. Namely, their jealousy towards Mila and Hajoonâs scenes together.
âIâm so glad thatâs over with,â Jake said. âI donât ever want to see that kind of thing again. Never again, man.â
Mila laughed. âIt wasnât THAT bad.â
ââWasnât THAT bad?ââ Sunghoon raised his eyebrows. âThe two of you looked like you would have kissed if the director didnât say âcutâ.â
Mila tilted her head. âI thought you didnât watch me while filming?â
âHe wasnât,â Heeseung replied. âBut later on, he asked the cameraman if he could watch the scene again, because he wanted to see how bad it was. His logic was that if he didnât see it in real time, he could control his emotions better â but he still got jealous.â
âYouâre one to talk, hyung.â Sunoo crossed his legs on the couch. âYouâre the one who scared Hajoon the most.â
The other boys immediately nodded in agreement, convicting the eldest member for his actions.
âBut you know⊠I was kind of embarrassed today,â Jay admitted. âEven though I know it doesnât mean anything, I still get jealous over it.â Jay sighed. âI wish I had better control over my feelings⊠Then things would be easier for all of us.â
 A thick silence fell over the eight of them. None of them knew what to say, but it was clear that Jay wasnât alone in his feelings. If Mila was honest, she herself had thought similar things before. And it was because of that she was able to find the words to comfort him.
âMe too,â she said. All eyes turned to her. âWeâre only human, so itâs natural that we canât control how we feelâŠâ She smiled. âThatâs why I wrote those lyrics.â
The boys became puzzled. Only Riki â who was there with her though the whole process â knew what she was talking about and smiled conspiratorially. He had been wondering when she was going to tell the others about her contribution. It seemed that she was saving it for this moment.
In truth, Mila had a feeling the boys would react this way. That they would struggle to come to terms with the fact that, for some reason, they were reliving the same memories over and over again. And so, she thought that perhaps this would give them comfort in some way.
ââItâs as if nothing happened, you look at me with shadowless eyesâŠââ The boysâ (with the exception of Riki) eyes widened as Mila sang the opening lyrics to âStill Monsterâ. Realisation slowly sank in as she continued to sing, ââIâm the one whoâs been forgive countless times, but Iâm still a monsterâŠââ
Mila laughed at the shocked expressions on their faces. She shared a smile with Riki before ending her serenade there.
âObviously the lyrics are a bit more dramatic to suit the concept⊠but the meaning is practically the same,â she said.
âYou wrote that?â Jake asked in awe. âFor us?â
âAngel, why didnât you say anything?â Jay added with a wide smile, amazement and pride all to clear on his features. âThatâs amazing!â
Mila smiled sheepishly as the boys began to shower her with praises.
âI didnât know you could write lyrics⊠Good job,â Sunghoon said as he patted Milaâs hair. âIâm proud of you.â
Heeseung smiled. âWe all are.â He then hummed as he remembers the lyrics to the song, now seeing each line in a new light. âSo thatâs what they meant⊠If I knew it then, I probably would have given a better performance.â
Mila laughed. âI doubt you could have done better than you already did. But anywayâ those lyrics were basically my feelings about you guys⊠I mess up a lot, and sometimes I let my emotions get the better of me. But each time you help me become better. And by the end of it, I know that youâre the only ones Iâd want to be with.â
ââWhat is love to me? Teaching loveâŠââ
Sunoo began part of the chorus, immediately followed by the others who joined in.
ââIn the end, the answer is always, only you.ââ
Mila laughed as realisation spread over their faces. âSo? What do you think?â she asked. âDo you know what Iâm trying to tell you?â
âAwwww, BabyâŠâ Jake sprung into Mila and pulled her into his chest, smothering her with love. âIâm not jealous anymore! Iâm just really happyâŠâ
Heeseung giggled like a giddy lovesick teenager. âIâve never had someone write a song about me.â
âMe too!â Sunoo was beaming so widely, his eyes became descents.
âYou did so good, Angel,â Jay praised. âYou always know what to say, donât you?âÂ
Riki gave Mila a smug look that said, âTold you so.â Mila laughed and shook her head, causing both Riki and Jungwon (who was next to him) to smile at her with all the fondness and adoration that a man could afford their lover.
Sunghoon, who was still in awe, was zoned out, staring blankly at a distant spot in the wall. After a few seconds, Jay lightly nudged his shoulder, completely breaking his trance.
âYah, are you still there?â Jay asked.
âHuh?â Sunghoon shook his head. âUh, yeah⊠Iâm just still in shock. Itâs hard to believe you wrote it for us⊠Iâm touched. I think I might cry.â
Everyone laughed. Jay roughly pat Sunghoon on the back, and the previous tension in the air became infinitely lightened. After the revelation of Milaâs hidden talents, the boys â curious about hr work â continued to barrage her with questions, while simultaneously praising her to the heavens and back.
But one question in particular had Mila incapable of responding coherently.
âWait a minuteâŠâ Jungwon tilted his head. âDoes that mean you also wrote that line?â
Mila hummed. âWhich one?â
Jungwon smirked. âYou know⊠The one I sang to you before: âThe purity of your neckâââ
âAh!â Mila suddenly shot in from her seat was standing completely still as seven curious eyes turned to her. âNoâ you seeâ the thing is⊠they had to adjust the lyrics a bit to fit the vampire concept! So they⊠Well⊠UhâŠâ
âAyyyyy,â Sunghoon teased. âDonât tell meâŠâ
âWait so you have a thing for our necks?â Jake asked with a tilted head.
âNO!â Mila shouted.
Sunoo raised his eyebrow. âBut then what about the lyrics, then?â
âYou know, now that I think about itâŠâ Jay pretended to be in deep thought, stroking his chin like a sage would his beard. âShe does seem to like neck kisses a lotââ
Milaâs face almost exploded from how hot it was. âSHUT UP AND LET ME EXPLAIN!â
The room was filled with laughter as the busy observed Milaâs flustered state. And really â what else did she expect from them? Of course they had to tease her right after giving her so many complimentsâŠ.
Indeed, some things never changed.
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ahhh itâs so good to be back ð sorry for the wait guys but finally a full length chapter for you guys after my very long breakð€ (a very long chapter tooâ almost 10k wowza ð€¯) i figured that we had so many hyung like focused fics that the maknae line should have time to shine - which is why this one focused a lot on their interactions with mila ð the ending was a bit meh bc i ran out of brain juice so sorry about that â but hopefully you enjoyed it nonetheless!! ð«¶ð«¶ð«¶
but thank you guys for all your patience though the break and for being sl understanding! love you guys sm youâre the best readers na author could ask for and my break just made me appreciate you all the more MWAH MWAH MWAH ð©·ð©·ð©·
P.S. obv mila didnât actually write still monster and credit goes to the actually writer, but letâs pretend ð also! for the anonnie who made this request for manly sunoo - hope this satisfied the requirements! ð«¶
Kevin Magnussen on the grid in Abu Dhabi with his wife and daughter ahead of his last race in F1
part one | part two |
an: this is the most requested part three. i fell asleep so many times writing this but iâm waiting for tateâs new song so it gave me something to do. not proof read.
wc: 8.3k
It was nearly dawn when Franco turned off the engine, but the silence felt hollow. He sat motionless in the cockpit of his car, his hands still gripping the wheel even though he had finished his lap over an hour ago. The empty track stretched before him, a stark grey line splitting the waking sky, and for a fleeting moment, he considered taking off down it one more time, just for the noise.
That had been the only reason he'd even bothered coming out this morning. Noise. Anything loud enough to cut through the thick numbness that had settled over his life the last two years. Even racingâhis childhood dream, his only real thrillâfelt distant, just another repetition in an endless loop of things he used to care about.
He let go of the wheel, his fingers stiff and aching, and slumped back into his seat. The inside of the car still smelled new, though heâd driven this car all season. But everything in his life felt new in the wrong way, like he was breaking in someone else's skin.
Franco closed his eyes, but there was no escape there either. As much as he tried to avoid it, the image still came easily: two years ago, his wedding day. The hushed gasp of the guests as he had walked back down the aisle alone, the weight of his father-in-lawâs hand on his shoulder. And her eyesâhis childhood best friend, his first love, his confession to her still raw in his throat. He'd bared his heart, thought he was finally doing the right thing, only to watch her turn him down, her gaze steady and unwavering.
It was strange how clearly he could remember it. She had moved on. He was too late.
And yet here he was, two years later, sitting in the emptiness his choices had carved out. His marriage was the result of the aftermathâinevitable, unstoppable, once her father had coerced him into making it right. Heâd been a fool to think he could live with it, that he could somehow build a life out of that hollowed-out choice. But every day he woke up, and every day it was the same. A stranger beside him, a public charade. He was trapped in a marriage more binding than he had ever imagined, one that had closed off any other life he might have had.
A tap on the side of the car startled him out of his thoughts. His agent, Eddie, looked at him expectantly, his face creased with concern. Franco forced himself to meet his gaze, pulling on a blank expression heâd perfected over the last two years.
"You good, man?" Eddie's voice sounded so distant for some reason.
Franco forced a nod. âJust getting in some practice.â
Eddie raised an eyebrow. "You finished over an hour ago."
Franco shrugged, not offering any other excuse. What could he say? That he no longer felt the rush, that even the raw thrill of racing at 200 miles per hour left him feeling nothing? It would be admitting too much. He wasnât sure he could handle what Eddie would say if he knew.
As he finally climbed out of the car, his gaze drifted toward the track, that endless stretch of asphalt, and for just a second, he felt a flicker of what it used to mean to him. Freedom, purpose, maybe even love. But that had been before herâbefore he had thrown it all away, thinking he could have her back. And now all he was left with was this: the shadow of a life he hadnât chosen, the memory of a love that had been real once, and a future he couldnât bring himself to face.
Franco shook his head, stuffing the thought away. "Letâs just get through today" he muttered to himself, the words a quiet vow.
Tomorrow, heâd put on the act again.
The house was silent when Franco walked in. He closed the door softly, slipping off his shoes out of habit rather than any real desire to keep the peace. She was there, sitting in the dimly lit living room, curled on one end of the couch with her legs tucked under her. A book lay open on her lap, though her eyes werenât moving over the words.
They hadnât spoken much in days, maybe even weeks, except for the occasional small-talk exchange over morning coffee or at some public event. When they were alone, it was as if they were two strangers whoâd agreed on a routine. She looked up as he walked in, and he wondered if she was waiting for him to speak first.
But he didnât. He simply nodded, moving past her as if it were just another evening in this quiet, loveless house. He heard her shift, a quick intake of breath, and he paused, feeling her eyes on his back.
âI cheated,â she said, her voice flat, almost as if it were a statement sheâd practised a thousand times, something she needed to let out before it grew stale.
Franco slowly turned to face her, letting the words settle, though he didnât feel anything sharp or raw. Instead, there was just the dull, familiar weight of something like resignation. He studied her face, waiting for the anger or betrayal to come, but there was nothing. Just the same emptiness that had been there for two years.
âOkay,â he said, his voice calm, resigned.
She blinked, her expression faltering. âOkay?â she repeated, as if she hadnât expected that response. Her brow furrowed, and she set her book aside, sitting up straighter. âThatâs it? Just⊠okay?â
He shrugged, slipping his hands into his pockets. âWhat do you want me to do about it? Youâve already done it.â
She searched his face, a flicker of frustration and hurt sparking in her eyes. âWhy arenât you angry, Franco?â Her voice was louder now, cracking slightly. âWhy donât you care? Why donât you⊠love me? What did I do wrong?â
For the first time that evening, he felt something stir. Not anger, exactly, but a kind of distant ache. He looked at herâreally looked at herâand saw the exhaustion in her face, the years of pretending, of building a life on a foundation that had never been real. And he knew, somehow, that she felt as trapped as he did.
âThis isnât about what you did wrong,â he said quietly. âI just⊠I donât have it in me to love you, not in the way you want.â
She shook her head, her eyes brimming with frustration. âBut we were supposed to be in this together. My father⊠Your team. The whole world expects it. I have tried, Franco. Iâve done everything I could to make this work. I just wanted you to see me, to tryâŠâ
He sighed, looking away. âWeâve been pretending for two years. Itâs not that I havenât seen youâI just donât think we were ever meant to see each other this way.â
Her shoulders slumped, the fight draining out of her. She stared at her hands, twisted together in her lap. âSo what now? We just keep living like this, sharing the same house, putting on a show for everyone?â
Franco didnât have an answer for her. He didnât know what they were supposed to do, what the next step would even look like. They were bound together by more than their vowsâby the expectations, the pressure, the image of a life neither of them had chosen. He knew she deserved better than this emptiness, the hollow echo of what might have been.
After a moment, he sat down across from her, resting his elbows on his knees, his voice barely more than a whisper. âWhat do you want from me?â
She looked away, biting her lip, and for the first time he saw the loneliness in her eyes. "I donât know," she murmured, her voice quiet. "I donât know if I ever knew."
She looked down, fidgeting with the hem of her sweater, and then let out a long, quiet breath. "Iâll speak to my father," she said, her voice steady. âWeâll break it off. Thereâs⊠someone else. For me, I mean.â
Franco nodded, feeling only a strange sort of relief. âOkay.â
She gave a small, sad smile, as if sheâd expected moreâanger, maybe, or regret. âIâll make sure he keeps the sponsors on your team,â she added, her voice softening. âItâs the least I can do.â
Franco shook his head. âHe doesnât have to. I donât want you worrying about that.â
For a moment, she looked at him with something almost like sympathy. âFranco⊠itâs not your fault,â she said.
He frowned slightly, unsure what she meant. âWhat isnât?â
She looked away, gathering her thoughts, and then back at him, her gaze unwavering. âItâs not your fault you still love her after all these years. Some things⊠they just donât go away.â
His throat tightened, and he couldnât find the words to respond. Her words hung between them, exposing something heâd tried to bury, something he hadnât even admitted to himself. His silence was answer enough.
âShe was a very lovely woman when I met her,â she continued, her voice softer, almost wistful. âIâm sure she hasnât changed. Iâm sure you two would be perfect together.â
He looked down, swallowing the ache in his chest. For all their distance, sheâd seen more of him than heâd realised, even if they had never truly belonged to each other. Maybe sheâd known all along. Maybe thatâs why theyâd been drifting from the beginning, like two people playing their parts, waiting for the script to finally run out.
He stood up, running a hand over the back of his neck, his voice low. âIâll sleep in the guest room tonight.â
She nodded, her eyes full of an understanding that somehow made this harder. âOkay. Goodnight, Franco.â
He gave her a brief nod, then turned and headed down the hall, his footsteps soft against the hardwood. The walls of the house felt like a cage, closing in with every step, but he knew that maybe, for the first time, there was a way outâfor both of them.
Franco closed the door to the guest room, feeling the weight of everything settling over him. He felt like a visitor in his own life, just as he had every day for the past two years. He slipped off his watch, set it on the nightstand, and reached for his phone to set an alarm.
Just as he did, his motherâs name lit up the screen. She called him every night, their routine barely wavering since heâd left home all those years ago to chase his dream. He answered, feeling a bit of the tension ease from his shoulders.
âHey, Mama.â
âOh, finally, you picked up! I thought Iâd missed you tonight, hijo.â she said, her voice bright and warm, filling the room with a bit of comfort he hadnât known he needed.
âSorry. Itâs been⊠a long day,â he replied, not sure where to start even if heâd wanted to.
âOh, mi amor, Iâm sorry to hear that,â she said, sympathy lacing her voice. She paused, her tone shifting to something lighter. âWell, youâll never guess who I ran into today.â
He smiled slightly, settling back against the pillows. âKnowing you, mama, it could be anyone.â
âYou flatter me,â she laughed. âBut no, this one youâll want to hear. I ran into your chiquita's mama at the market this morning.â
At the mention of his childhood best friend, Francoâs heart gave a small, involuntary jolt. He kept his voice casual, though he could feel his pulse quicken. âOh yeah?â
âGuess whoâs moving back home?â she said, her voice bright with excitement. âSheâs coming back without that boyfriend of hersâwhat was his name, Angelo or something? Anyway, I donât know what happened there, but her mama didnât say much, just that sheâll be moving back in soon.â
Franco fell silent, her words sinking in. She was moving back. Back to the same town, back to where theyâd both grown up. It was strange hearing it now, after all this timeâespecially tonight. He tried to imagine her there, close by, after years of being nothing more than a memory, a lingering ache. She hadnât been in touch since his wedding. They hadnât spoken, not really, since that day heâd confessed everything.
âFranco?â his mother asked, her voice pulling him back. âYou still there?â
âYeah,â he murmured. âYeah, Iâm here. Just⊠surprised, I guess.â
âWell, I thought youâd be pleased to know,â she said gently. âI donât know why sheâs moving back, and I suppose itâs none of my business, but I hope sheâs doing alright. I always liked that girl.â
âMe too,â he said, his voice barely more than a whisper.
He wondered what could have happened to bring her back. Sheâd seemed happy, at least in the few times heâd seen her in the public eye over the last two yearsâsmiling, vibrant, that spark still in her. Whatever had drawn her back, he doubted it was anything good.
âAnyway, I just thought Iâd tell you,â his mother went on, a hint of cheer in her voice. âIâm sure youâll see her around when sheâs back. Goodness knows you two could catch up. Iâll let you get some sleep, though. You sound tired, love.â
âI am,â he said honestly. âThanks, mama.â
âGoodnight, mi amor,â she said softly. âTry not to worry so much. Things have a way of working out.â
He hung up, setting the phone down on the nightstand, but his mind kept circling back to her, the unanswered questions piling up. Why was she moving home? Why now, after everything?
He lay back, staring at the ceiling, feeling the quiet gnaw at him. For the first time in a long while, he felt something stirring beneath the emptinessâsomething that he hadnât let himself feel since that day two years ago. A flicker of hope, of curiosity. And maybe, just maybe, the faintest hint of longing.
Franco woke up to an unsettling silence the following morning. The kind that felt thick, heavy, and somehow different from the usual quiet heâd grown accustomed to in this house. He rubbed his eyes, groggy, his mind still tangled in the remnants of last nightâs conversation with his mother. She was moving back home. The thought had settled somewhere deep, like a stone sinking to the bottom of his chest, and he hadnât stopped wondering why sheâd come back.
He rose slowly, crossing the hall toward the master bedroom to grab his things, but as he reached the door, he noticed it was open just a crack. There was an odd stillness inside, an emptiness. Pushing the door open fully, he froze.
The wardrobes were wide open, their shelves bare, nothing left but empty hangers. He scanned the room, taking in the strange absence of her things: the jewellery stand, her perfumes, even the photos from the dresserâall gone.
On the bed, her wedding band glinted in the morning light, sitting atop a folded sheet of paper. Heart pounding, Franco walked over and picked up the note, her familiar handwriting scrawled across the page in clean, deliberate strokes.
"Go live a life youâll enjoy. Go get the girl."
He read the words over and over, the reality slowly sinking in. She had really left. It was over, finallyâno more strained conversations, no more pretences, no more empty rooms they shared out of duty. She had made the choice for both of them, letting him go in a way neither of them had been able to until now.
He let out a slow, deep breath, feeling a strange mixture of relief and regret. She had given him a way out, but he felt a twinge of sadness for the life theyâd tried and failed to build, and for the woman whoâd known him well enough to let him go.
After a moment, he picked up his phone and scrolled to his agentâs number. It rang twice before Eddie answered, his voice thick with sleep.
âFranco? Itâs barely morning. You okay?â
Franco ran a hand through his hair, still processing everything. âYeah. Listen, Eddie, I need you to book me a flight.â
âA flight? Where are you going?â
âHome. To Argentina.â He paused, and for the first time in two years, the words felt right. âI just need to go home.â
Eddie hesitated on the other end. âYou sure about this?â
âYes. Iâll figure everything out when I get there,â Franco replied, feeling a resolve he hadnât felt in years.
Eddie sighed, but there was something like approval in his voice. âAlright, Iâll get it sorted. Youâll be on a plane by tonight.â
âThank you, Eddie.â Franco hung up, glancing around the room one last time. He pocketed her note, her words still echoing in his mind.
True to Eddie's word, Franco was on a flight six hours later. The journey was a blur of cramped seats, stale air, and the faint taste of regret that clung to the back of his throat. The turbulence was relentless, like some cosmic joke, as if the universe itself wanted to remind him that nothing had ever been easy. He tried to sleep, but the aching pull of everything heâd left behind in that houseâhis marriage, his choices, his dreamsâkept him awake, staring out at the dark sky, thinking of all the roads that had led him here.
By the time he landed in Buenos Aires and caught a car for the long drive north to his family's old village, the exhaustion had crept under his skin, weighing him down like a thousand unspoken words. But the quiet beauty of the countrysideâthe sun setting over fields that stretched on foreverâstarted to soothe him, even if just a little.
The car ride seemed endless, every minute dragging with the weight of his thoughts. But when the familiar sight of his familyâs village finally came into viewâcobblestone streets, thatched roofs, the scent of freshly baked bread hanging in the airâsomething inside Franco began to shift. The city felt miles away, the noise, the crowds, the weight of his past life all falling away as he crossed into the place that had always felt like home.
The moment he stepped through the door of his childhood house, all of that exhaustion seemed to vanish. The house was exactly as he remembered itâwarm, full of life, and alive with the kind of energy he hadn't felt in so long. His motherâs soft humming from the kitchen filled the air, the scent of her cooking familiar and comforting in a way nothing else ever had been.
âMama?â he called, stepping into the kitchen.
She looked up from the stove, a warm smile spreading across her face as she caught sight of him. It was like the years had slipped away in an instant, and before he could even move, she was across the room, enveloping him in her arms.
âOh, hijo,â she said, pulling him in tight. âYouâre home. Youâre really home.â
Franco closed his eyes for a moment, inhaling the comforting smells of garlic and simmering stew. It was the same as it had always been. His motherâs embrace felt like a balm, her steady, familiar presence filling up the spaces in his chest that had been empty for so long. He let himself relax into the hug, feeling like he could finally breathe again.
âYeah, mama,â he murmured, his voice thick with emotion. âIâm home.â
She pulled back, looking at him with concern now, her gaze soft but knowing. âYou look like youâve been through a storm. What happened, Franco?â
He shook his head, a slight smile tugging at his lips. âItâs⊠been a hot minute.â
She stepped back, eyes still lingering on him as she turned toward the counter, gesturing for him to sit. "Come, sit. You must be starving."
As he slid into the chair at the table, his motherâs eyes flickered to his left hand, where the ring had once sat. The absence of it didnât go unnoticed.
"Franco," she said softly, her voice delicate but insistent, âWhereâs your wedding ring?â
He froze, his fingers absentmindedly tracing the spot where the band had once been. The question hit him harder than he expected, like a weight on his chest.
He took a deep breath, his words coming out slow, almost reluctant. "I⊠I never loved her, Mama. Not like I shouldâve. Not like I shouldâve loved the person I married."
His mother didnât flinch, didnât offer a shocked look or try to comfort him with false reassurances. Instead, she simply nodded, as if she had known all along. The silence between them was calm, understanding.
"I knew," she said, her voice gentle but firm. "I knew from the start, Franco. I could see it. You were never... you were never right with her."
He exhaled, a small weight lifting from his chest. His mother didnât judge him. She hadnât expected him to make some fairy tale of a marriage. She had always known him better than anyone.
"Why didnât you say something?" he asked, the question slipping out before he could stop it.
She smiled softly, her hand brushing his cheek. "You had to learn it on your own, cariño. I couldnât take that from you."
He sat back in his chair, letting her words sink in. This was home. The quiet understanding, the unconditional love. The very things he had been running from for so long. And now, in this moment, he felt like he was finally allowed to come back to it.
His mother leaned in, brushing the hair from his forehead as if he were still that little boy who had left for the big city years ago. "Youâll be alright, Franco. I know you will. You always find your way back."
He smiled, his heart full, and reached across the table to squeeze her hand. "Thanks, Mama," he said, his voice thick with emotion. "I think Iâm ready to find it now."
His mother studied him for a moment, as if weighing whether to say more. The comfortable silence stretched between them before she finally spoke, her voice casual, but with a slight undercurrent of something he couldnât quite place.
âYou know, she moved back this morning,â she said, a soft note of curiosity in her tone.
Franco looked up sharply, his stomach tightening at the mention of her. âShe did?â
His mother nodded, stirring a pot on the stove. He shifted in his seat, trying to steady the flutter of emotions that were beginning to rise in his chest. She was back. The thought of her living just next door made his heart ache in ways he wasnât prepared for, especially after everything that had happened. It felt like a sign, but it also felt like a questionâone he didnât know if he was ready to answer.
âI donât know whatâs happened,â he said, the words coming out quieter than he intended. âBut Iâm sure itâs for the best. Sheâs probably just trying to figure things out.â
His mother gave him a thoughtful look before turning back to the stove. "Itâs not easy, you know. Coming back here after all those years. Maybe she just needs some time. Things haven't been easy for her, either."
Franco nodded absently, his mind already racing, a thousand thoughts flooding his mind. Heâd always wondered what it would be like if they were close againâif the years between them could just vanish, and they could pick up where they left off. But that was before everything had changed.
Before heâd made a mess of everything.
âIâll give her space,â he said after a long pause. âShe clearly needs it if sheâs come back home. I donât want to crowd her, not like this.â
His mother looked at him for a long moment, her gaze soft and full of the kind of love only a mother could offer. She didnât press, but Franco could tell she was seeing more in him than he was letting on. She always had that way of reading him, even when he didnât want to be read.
âI think thatâs wise, Franco,â she said quietly. âBut donât wait too long. Sometimes, the right thingsâpeopleâcan slip away if we donât take the chance when we can.â She gave him a small smile, her eyes gentle but full of a motherâs wisdom. âDonât make the same mistake twice.â
He swallowed hard, looking down at his hands. The right things... people. Was she talking about her?
He wasnât sure. What he was sure of was that he had already lost so muchâlost the girl he had once called his best friend. His true love. That much was clear.
But he couldnât make the same mistake again. Not with her. Not now.
âYeah,â he said, his voice hoarse. âI wonât. Iâll give her the time she needs⊠and then, Iâll figure out what comes next.â He forced a small smile, looking back up at her. âBut first, I think I need to settle in here, Mama. Just for a bit.â
She smiled warmly at him, nodding as she moved to set the table. âTake your time, cariño. Youâve earned it.â Then she added softly, almost to herself, âAnd when youâre ready, you know where she is.â
Franco nodded, the weight of her words hanging in the air like a promise he wasnât sure he was ready to make. He had to sort through the years of distance, the pain, the confusion, and the mess he had made before he could even think of approaching her again.
That night the house was quiet as Franco prepared for bed, the kind of quiet that settled deep into the bones. The weight of the dayâs emotions, of the journeyâof everythingâpressed on him like a physical force, but he couldnât quite shake the feeling that something was still missing.
He stood in front of the mirror, his eyes scanning the reflectionâa man who hadnât truly looked at himself in a long time. His face was a little more worn, the years of racing and the strain of the past two had carved lines into his features. And yet, there was a boy in those eyes tooâthe one who used to laugh freely, who used to dream of more than just what life had given him.
He sighed, running a hand through his hair, the quiet ache of the past two years swirling in his chest again. Where did it all go wrong? Heâd asked himself this so many times, but the answer had never been clear. His life had seemed like it was on track, until it suddenly wasnât. Until it all came crashing down, leaving him here, in his childhood home, looking at a version of himself he didnât recognise.
Where did it all go to shit?
He turned away from the mirror, needing a moment of peace, a change of scenery. The night air felt crisp as he stepped out onto the balcony, the soft night breeze brushing against his skin. The village was quiet, the distant sound of crickets filling the silence. The stars above him were impossibly bright, as if they had been waiting for him to step out into this space to show themselves.
For a moment, he just stood there, taking it all in. The vast sky, the deep silence, the comfort of being home, of being away from all the chaos of the life heâd left behind. He closed his eyes for a beat, letting himself breathe.
Then, he froze.
From across the yard, on the roof of the house next door, a figure was sittingâher silhouette outlined by the soft glow of the stars.
Franco didnât know how long sheâd been sitting there. The sight of herâafter all these yearsâwas like a jolt to the chest, a flood of old memories and emotions crashing over him.
At first, he considered turning back into the house, pretending he hadnât seen her, pretending the universe wasnât trying to push him into a conversation he wasnât ready for. But his feet stayed rooted to the ground, his eyes locked on her figure, so familiar, so her. He hadnât expected to see her tonight, especially not like this. Not sitting on the roof, in the same place they used to sit together as kids, watching the stars and talking about everything and nothing.
He had no idea how to approach her.
Before he could make up his mind, she spoke, her voice drifting through the night air, quiet but unmistakable. âStaringâs rude, you know.â
Francoâs breath caught in his throat, his chest tightening at the sound of her voice. It had been so long since heâd heard it, and yet it felt like no time had passed at all.
He stayed where he was, still unsure, a little frozen by the way his heart was racing. âI didnât think youâd notice,â he finally said, his voice coming out quieter than he intended.
She tilted her head slightly, but didnât look directly at him. âI always notice,â she replied, a faint smile playing on her lips, though her tone was more playful than anything else.
He let out a small laugh, a bit surprised by her nonchalance. It was just like her to act so casual, even in the middle of something heavy.
âI wasnât planning to interrupt,â he added, his hands shoved deep into his pockets. "Just thought I'd leave you to it."
She didnât respond right away, but he could see the way her gaze flickered toward him, though she didnât move. After a beat, she spoke again, her voice quieter now. âYou came home.â
âI did,â he said, his heart racing as he stood there, not knowing where to go from here. âTook me a while, but Iâm here.â
She nodded, the soft rustle of her hair catching the starlight. "Good. I didnât think you would."
Franco swallowed, the weight of the unspoken words hanging thick between them. "I... didnât think I would either."
There was another pause, but it wasnât uncomfortable. Just... heavy, in a way that felt like they were both waiting for something. Waiting for the moment when they could go back to being what they once were. But Franco knew, deep down, that it wasnât going to be that simple. Too much had happened between them, too many years spent apart.
Her voice broke the quiet, her words soft but inviting. âThereâs space next to me. You should come up here.â
Franco hesitated for a second longer, unsure, but something in her tone, a subtle pull, urged him forward. He glanced around briefly before deciding to take a chance.
Carefully, he climbed over the small stone wall dividing their balconies, his fingers finding familiar purchase as he pulled himself over. The moment his feet hit the roof, the memories of their childhood came rushing backâsitting on the very same roof, talking about everything and nothing, watching the stars as if they were the only two people in the world.
It felt surreal, like no time had passed at all, even though everything between them had changed.
She was already sitting cross-legged, her back turned slightly toward him, but she patted the spot next to her, silently urging him to join her. He moved toward her, then sat down, the cool roof beneath him grounding him in a way he hadnât expected.
When he finally reached the top, she shifted to make room, and before he even fully settled beside her, she was resting her head on his shoulder. It was as natural as breathing, a comfort he hadnât realised heâd been starved for.
The night seemed to stretch on forever as they sat together, not speaking, just sharing the same space, the same memories that lingered between them like a soft, delicate thread. It was as though the silence held all the things they couldnât say out loud.
Finally, it was her who broke the quiet, her voice low and tinged with regret. âSorry I never replied to your letter.â
Francoâs heart stuttered in his chest at the mention of the letter. He hadnât expected her to bring it up, not after everything that had happened. Slowly, he turned his head to look at her, his voice barely a whisper. âYou... you received it?â
She nodded slowly, lifting her head from his shoulder but not fully pulling away. She stared up at the stars, her fingers absentmindedly tracing shapes in the air. âFour days ago,â she said, her voice soft and distant, as though the words were hard to say.
Four days ago.
The words hit him like a punch to the gut. The letter. The letter heâd written years ago, before everything spiralled out of control, before the wedding, before he called it all off. The letter where he had laid bare his feelings for herâtelling her everything heâd never had the courage to say before. Telling her that he loved her. That heâd leave his fiancé for her. That he wanted to be with her.
The letter had been the final step, the desperate confession that he couldnât hold inside any longer.
âI⊠I didnât know,â Franco muttered, his throat tight. âI sent it because I thought you needed to know. I thought you needed to hear it.â He paused, looking down at his hands. âI didnât expect you to justâignore it.â
Her breath hitched slightly, and she looked over at him, her eyes meeting his with an intensity that made him ache. âI didnât ignore it,â she said softly. âI didnât know about it. Angelo hid it from me.â
Franco froze. Angelo. The same guy sheâd been with all those years, the one who had kept the letter from her. The weight of it hit him hard, a cold knot in his stomach. âHe hid it?â His voice barely came out above a whisper.
She nodded, her eyes not leaving his. âI only found it four days ago when I was packing.â She paused, as though weighing whether or not to say more, then sighed. âHe kept it from me, Franco. Told me it was nothing, just some silly thing from the past. But it wasnât nothing. It was you. It was everything you were trying to say. And I didnât even know until hours before your wedding.â
Franco could feel his chest tighten, the words he had written, the words that had been locked inside of him for so long, echoing in the space between them. He had no idea sheâd never received it. No idea she had been living in that oblivion, thinking that nothing had changed when, in reality, everything had been laid out for her years ago.
Franco closed his eyes, the weight of her words settling over him. His entire life had been built around the lies heâd told himself, and in the end, he had only hurt the one person who had always been there for him.
When he opened his eyes again, he was staring at the sky, the stars so far away. âI never stopped loving you,â he said quietly, the confession falling from his lips before he could stop it. âI never stopped thinking about you, even when I thought I should. Even when I tried to move on, I always... always thought about you. About Monza.â
Her voice was soft but steady, a quiet confession in the night air. âI shouldnât have come to that wedding,â she said, her words hanging in the space between them like a breath held too long.
Franco blinked, his heart stuttering slightly in his chest as he turned to look at her. âWhy?â
She sighed, her eyes focused on the distant horizon, her expression unreadable in the soft glow of the moon. âBecause I thought I was over you, Franco. I really did. I thought that seeing you get married to someone else, someone who wasnât me, would help me move on. But when I watched you declare your love for me in front of everyone... it hit me all at once. I felt like I was coasting through a lie with Angelo for two years.â
Francoâs chest tightened at the mention of Angelo again, but he didnât interrupt. He knew this was something that had been simmering beneath the surface for a long time, something they had never really spoken about. She took a slow breath, her fingers playing with the hem of her shirt as she spoke again.
âI couldnât give him all of me,â she continued, her voice wavering for the first time, just the slightest crack in her calm demeanour. âWhen you still had half my heart.â
Franco felt a lump form in his throat at her words. She still loved him. Despite everything, despite the time apart, despite the man she had been with, a part of her had never truly moved on.
He didnât know what to say. He couldnât find the right words to express the swirl of emotions inside him. The guilt, the confusion, the longing. All he could do was listen, his heart aching with each word she spoke.
âAmorâŠâ His voice faltered, and he cleared his throat, trying to find his grounding. âShe cheated on me. My wife.â He added as though she needed clarification.
Her head jerked up, her eyes wide with surprise, but she said nothing. She waited for him to continue, her breath catching in her throat.
Franco stared out at the stars, his voice barely more than a whisper. âI didnât feel much at first. I think I expected it. In some way, I always did. Iâd been living in a marriage where I wasnât really present for a long time.â He paused, his eyes distant as he recalled the feeling of his world unravelling. âBut... when I found out, I couldnât feel anything. It was like I had already shut myself off from it all.â
She studied him, her gaze soft but piercing. âReally? You didnât feel... anything?â
Francoâs heart twisted, âI felt guilty,â he admitted, his voice low. "I didnât feel hurt or anger. I just felt... guilty."
She frowned, the confusion and concern evident in her eyes. âGuilty? Why? You didnât cheat. You werenât the one betraying her.â
Franco chuckled bitterly, a hollow sound that felt foreign to him. âNo, I didnât cheat. But Iâve been mentally cheating on her for years now.â His voice cracked slightly, the admission slipping out before he could stop it. âWith you. Iâve been thinking about you. Wanting you. Wondering... what could have been.â
Her breath caught in her throat, and she stared at him for a long moment, the weight of his confession hanging between them like an invisible force. The air was thick, heavy with the things they hadnât said, the things they had both buried for too long.
For a moment, neither of them spoke. The only sound was the distant rustle of the trees, the wind whispering through the leaves. Then, she shifted slightly, her fingers brushing against his, tentative, like she wasnât sure if it was okay to reach out. But Franco didnât pull away. He let her fingers weave through his, and for a moment, they were back to the way they used to beâclose, without words, just a connection that had never truly faded.
âIâm sorry,â she whispered, her voice breaking the silence again. âI didnât mean to make things more complicated for you. I never wanted you to feel guilty.â
Franco shook his head, his fingers tightening around hers. âYou didnât. Itâs my fault. I shouldâve been honest with myself. With you. With everyone.â
Her hand found his, her grip soft but reassuring. âWe canât undo the past, Franco. But maybe... maybe we can stop running from it.â She looked up at him, her eyes searching his face for somethingâmaybe a sign that they were on the same page, that this wasnât just a momentary lapse, but the beginning of something else.
Francoâs heart skipped a beat. The ache inside himâthis pull, this longingâfelt more real now than it ever had before. But he couldnât let himself get lost in it. Not yet. Not before he figured out what came next.
âMaybe,â he whispered, his voice thick with emotion. âMaybe we can.â
But for now, they stayed there, hand in hand, watching the stars as the night stretched onâtogether, but not quite ready to bridge the distance between them. The future was uncertain, but in that moment, with her close to him again, it felt like the possibility of a new beginning was still there.
And maybe that was enough.
She shifted slightly, pulling her knees closer to her chest as she stared up at the night sky, the stars scattered above them like little pieces of a puzzle they couldnât quite put together. Her voice broke the quiet again, this time more introspective, tinged with a kind of sadness that Franco couldnât shake. âWhy are we like this?â she asked softly, the question hanging in the air between them. âWhy canât we ever get it right? Why does it feel like we keep missing each other?â
Franco felt a lump form in his throat as he turned his head to look at her. He had no answer. No easy explanation for the years of missed opportunities, the broken promises, the things left unsaid. All he could do was let the silence stretch for a moment before he spoke, his voice thick with regret.
âI donât deserve you,â he said, his words barely audible, but full of the weight of everything he had kept buried for so long.
Her hand tightened around his, her fingers warm and steady against his skin. She didnât look at him immediately. She just stared at the stars, letting the night take them both in. But when she did speak, her voice was clear, almost a little too sharp, as if she were trying to distance herself from the ache inside.
âI know,â she said, her words simple, yet filled with the unspoken truth between them.
Franco exhaled slowly, his chest tight with the unrelenting guilt that seemed to follow him wherever he went. âI really donât,â he added, his tone heavier this time, the words more raw, like they were scraping against his very soul.
She turned her head slightly, her eyes soft but steady as she met his gaze. âBut youâll always have me anyway,â she said, her voice gentle, almost a whisper, but strong in its promise. âAll of me. Even if you think you donât deserve it, even if you feel like youâve lost me, Iâm still here. I always will be.â
Franco closed his eyes, his heart pounding in his chest. He wanted to believe her. He wanted to reach out and pull her into him, to hold on to the promise she was offering, but he knew that he had to fix everything first. He had to prove to himself, to her, that he was worthy.
After a long moment, his mind shifted, a question bubbling up to the surface, something that had been nagging at him for a while now. âWhat happened to Angelo?â he asked, his voice quiet, but urgent with curiosity.
Her gaze flickered away, her expression becoming unreadable for a brief second. She didnât speak at first, but then, she sighed, her voice small as she turned her head back toward the night sky.
âHe proposed,â she said softly, her words hitting Franco like a punch to the gut. âHe got down on one knee, right there in the middle of a restaurant, and asked me to marry him.â
Francoâs heart sank. He had imagined the two of them together, but hearing her speak those words, hearing the finality in her tone, made something inside him shift. His breath caught in his throat.
âAnd you didnât say yes,â he whispered, the realisation washing over him slowly, painfully.
She shook her head, her fingers grazing the edge of her sleeve as she gathered her thoughts. âI couldnât bring myself to say yes,â she murmured, her voice distant, like the memory still held weight over her. âI couldnât lie to him, and I couldnât lie to myself anymore. Not after everything. I just... I couldnât. And when I looked at him, I knew something wasnât right. I knew that the whole time, I had been lying to both of us, pretending that he was enough when I wasnât even sure of myself.â
Franco felt his chest tighten, his heart aching with understanding. âIâm sorry,â he said, the words tumbling out before he could stop them. He wasnât sure if he was apologising for Angelo, for her, or for himself, but it felt like the right thing to say. âIâm sorry for everything.â
She didnât respond right away. She just sat there beside him, her head back on his shoulder, her fingers still twined with his. The night stretched on, both of them lost in their own thoughts, but there was something in the air that felt different now. It wasnât just the weight of their shared history or the unsaid words that hovered between them. There was something else.
Something that, for the first time, felt like the beginning of something new.
After a while, she spoke again, her voice barely audible. âI never wanted to hurt him. But I couldnât pretend anymore. Not when youâre still here, not when youâve always been here, Franco.â
Franco closed his eyes, his fingers tracing the curve of her hand. âI understand,â he whispered, though he wasnât sure if he did. He wasnât sure of anything right now except that he needed to make it rightâwhatever that looked like.
They stayed like that for what felt like hours, the quiet stretching between them, neither of them in a rush to break the stillness. The night air was cool against their skin, and the stars above seemed to twinkle with the same quiet understanding that hung in the air. For the first time in years, it felt like they were both exactly where they were meant to beâtogether.
But slowly, the rhythm of her breathing changed, softening, slowing. Franco felt it before he saw it, the gentle shift in the weight on his shoulder. He glanced down, his heart softening at the sight of herâher lashes fluttering closed, her face serene and peaceful in sleep. She was completely relaxed, as if the weight of everything had been lifted, even if just for a moment.
He didnât move, didnât want to disturb the quiet that had settled between them. But as minutes ticked by, he knew it was time to move her. Carefully, he slipped his arm beneath her, lifting her gently, cradling her close. Her head rested on his chest as he stood, her body instinctively curling against him. She felt weightless in his arms, and for a second, he couldnât believe how natural it all felt.
As he carried her through the door to her room, the familiar smell of her childhood home wrapped around himâthe scent of lavender and old wood, a place both foreign and intimately familiar. The room was just as he remembered, simple and cosy, with little traces of her scattered throughout. He looked down at the floor he used to sleep on when they were young The soft, pale light of the moon filtered through the window, casting everything in a gentle glow.
He placed her gently in the bed, tucking the covers around her small frame. For a moment, he just stood there, watching her, his chest heavy with emotion. Everything about this felt so right, so painfully wrong at the same time. He should have been here years ago. He should have never let things get so far. But now, he was here. And he wasnât going anywhere.
He leaned down, brushing a strand of hair away from her face before pressing a gentle kiss to her forehead. His lips lingered there for a second longer than he meant to, his heart aching with all the things he never said.
Just as he turned to leave, to head back to his own house, her voice stopped him.
âDonât.â
Franco froze. His hand rested on the window frame , his heart stalling in his chest. He turned slowly, not sure if he had heard her correctly.
âWhat?â he asked, his voice quiet, almost unsure.
She looked up at him, her eyes still heavy with sleep, but there was something in her gazeâvulnerable, raw, but full of longing. âDonât go,â she whispered, her voice thick with emotion. âI canât watch you walk away again. Please donât.â
For a moment, Franco stood there, his chest tight as he processed her words. Donât go. It was all he needed to hear. She didnât want him to leave. After everything that had happened, after all the distance between them, she still wanted him here.
He walked back toward the bed, his movements slow and deliberate. He didnât need to say anything; the weight of the moment, the look in her eyes, said it all. He carefully slid under the covers, settling beside her, the warmth of her body so familiar yet so new.
Without a word, she shifted, curling into him, her head finding its place on his chest, her hand resting gently against his side. Franco wrapped his arm around her, pulling her close, and for the first time in a long time, he felt at peace. It wasnât a perfect moment, but it was real. And it was theirs.
They stayed there, the rhythm of their breathing slowly syncing, the quiet of the night wrapping around them. No more words were needed. No more distance. Just the two of them, together, holding on to each other like they were afraid to let go.
And as they drifted off to sleep, tangled together beneath the covers, Franco realised that this momentâthis feeling of being homeâwas everything he had been searching for.
Home.
Her.
It was all synonymous.
She was his home.
the end.
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Sukuna is the type of boyfriend who tells you to shut up when youâre talkingâand to talk when youâre silent.
He âhatesâ it when you cuddle him. He âhatesâ when you kiss him or show any kind of affection in public.
He âhatesâ saying âI love you,â and even mocks you for saying it. He says he hates it when you try to hold his hand. He just hates everything.
He says he hates it, hates you, and hates this relationship. Thatâs what he tells youâevery single day.
At first, you thought maybe being mean was just his twisted way of showing he cared. It was weird, but you tried to be okay with it. But slowly, it started getting to you. When you reached for his hand, he would swat yours away. When you leaned in to kiss his cheek, he would push you back.
You werenât a talkative person by natureâyou only spoke when he asked you something. But even then, when you answered, heâd tell you to shut up or say, âWhy are you talking so much?â
By the sixth month of your relationship, you had grown painfully quiet inside. You barely said anything, barely did anything. It felt like he had sucked the spark and life right out of you. You were constantly second-guessing yourself.
Every time you had a date with him, it felt like a choreâa heavy, anxiety-inducing task you had to get through. It wasnât fun anymore. It made you lose sleep.
You started to doubt whether he even liked you as a person, let alone as a girlfriend.
Today was the fourth time you canceled a date on him. âThe first time was because you were on your period and didnât feel up to going out. He had grumbled, gone out to get takeout, then shoved the bag onto your chest and left without a word. âThe second time, you had to babysit your cousins. âThe third, you had to pick up your baby brother from a different state. âAnd now today, the fourth, you had a migraine.
For the past three weeks, youâd barely seen or spoken to each other. It seemed like life kept pulling you awayâand honestly, you didnât mind.
But he did.
He was already outside your house, waiting in his car when you texted him that you couldnât come. He didnât take it well.
Sukuna slammed his phone onto the passenger seat, got out, and slammed the car door behind him. Then he stormed up to your front door and started banging on it, hard.
You were lucky your parents werenât home.
You flinched at the sound of his fists slamming against the wood. It wasnât the first time he had gotten angry, but something about tonight felt worse. Maybe it was the pounding in your head, or maybe it was just the way your stomach dropped when you heard him yell your name through the door.
âOpen the damn door, Y/N!â he barked.
You rushed to open it, heart racingânot because you wanted to see him, but because you didnât want the neighbors hearing and calling your parents⊠or worse, the police.
His fist was mid-air when the door swung open.
He froze, standing in your doorway, chest heaving with fury. His eyes burned as they locked onto yours, and for a moment, you genuinely werenât sure what he was going to do.
You looked away, unable to hold his gaze.
âI donât feel well,â you said quietly. âYou should go.â
He scoffed, stepping forward. Sometimes you wondered just how big he really wasâhow he seemed to fill the doorway with his presence alone. Broad shoulders brushing both sides, head nearly grazing the top. It was like he was built to block the exit, to make everything feel smaller when he entered.
He walked you backward into the house and slammed the door shut behind him.
âAre you serious right now? Iâve been waiting out there for an hourâagainâand youâre gonna pull this shit?â
âI said I donât feel well,â you repeated, your voice a little steadier this time.
He laughed, that same bitter, cutting sound that made your stomach turn. âYeah, right. Another excuse.â
You went quiet, eyes dropping to your socks. You didnât want to look at him. You couldnât.
âYouâve been avoiding me,â he snapped. âWe havenât gone on a date in weeks. You barely text or call. Spit it outâwhat the fuck is your issue?â
Your fingers nervously played with the hem of your t-shirt, tugging it slightly as if that could anchor you.
Then, softlyâfirmlyâyou said it:
âLetâs break up.â
Silence.
It was immediate and deafening. He went completely still. You could feel the shift in the air, like all the heat had been sucked from the room. You swore you couldnât even hear him breathing.
But you still didnât look up.
You stood there, staring at the floor, heart pounding in your chest like a warning drum.
You didn't want to see the look on his face. You didnât want to see the moment he realized you meant it.
And you did.
You really meant it.
The silence didnât last.
It cracked.
âWhat the fuck did you just say to me?â
His voice was low. Dangerous. Like the calm before a storm that youâd been caught in too many times before.
You still didnât move. Didnât respond.
âI said,â he growled, stepping closer, âWhat the fuck did you just say to me?â
You finally looked up. Just once. And what you saw made your chest tighten.
His eyes were wildâred with fury, disbelief twisting his face into something almost unrecognizable. His jaw clenched, vein ticking in his temple.
âOh, I get it now,â he sneered, voice dripping venom. âThereâs another guy, right? Thatâs why youâve been so distant, so fucking weird lately.â
He stepped forward again, and you instinctively took a step backâuntil your back hit the wall.
He bent down slightly, crouching just enough to be level with your eyes. His face was so close, you could feel the heat of his breath, the way it shook with restrained anger.
âSo tell me,â he whispered, voice low and mocking, âis that it? Is it because of some guy?â
You blinked rapidly, trying to fight off the tears burning your eyes. Your breath hitched, chest rising and falling with the effort to stay calm.
His red eyes searched yours. But this time, it wasnât just rage in themâit was something else. He was looking at you like he was trying to memorize you. Like deep down, some part of him knew he was about to lose you for good.
âThereâs no one else,â you said. âItâs just you. Itâs only ever been you.â
He shook his head, his frustration growing by the second. His hands balled into fists at his sides, like he didnât know where to put them, didnât know what to do with the energy coiling in his chest.
âThen why?â he demanded, his voice cracking with desperation. âWhy? You need to tell me. I need to know. Why?â
His breath came quicker now, but his eyesâthey were wild, searching. As if you held the answers to a riddle he couldnât solve, no matter how many times he asked.
And then, the question slipped out. The one youâd been too afraid to ask, too afraid to even let yourself think about.
âSukuna,â you whispered, barely above a breath, âdo you even like me?â
You didnât want to ask it, but something in you had to know. Something inside you had to hear him admit itâwhether he cared, whether this had ever been real, or whether it was all just a game to him.
You didnât dare look at him directly, too scared to see the answer, whatever it was. You focused on the floor, trying to steady your breath, trying to hold yourself together.
There was a long pause.
And then, when he spoke again, it wasnât with the anger or spite youâd grown accustomed to.
It was softer. Almost too soft.
âOf course, I fucking like you,â he muttered, though there was no confidence in it.
You shook your head, unable to believe a single word he said. âNo, you donât, Sukuna. No, you donât. You hate me. You always say you find me annoying, and you hate this relationship. You donât like me, let alone love me.â
The words tumbled out faster than you could stop them, like once you started, you couldnât hold back anymore.
âSukuna...â You took a shaky breath, voice breaking despite your best efforts. âI... I canât even sleep. I donât know how you feel about me or what we have. Youâre so angry all the time. I get scared to talk to you or ask you anything...â
You almost felt like you were rambling, but the words were all that needed to be said, finally out in the open.
The truth, ugly and raw, spilled out of you like a dam breaking, everything youâd been bottling up for so long.
Sukuna stood there, staring at you with wide eyes, as if he couldnât comprehend what youâd just said. For a moment, you could almost see the walls crashing down around him.
He opened his mouth to say something, but no words came. He was still processing, still trying to piece together the pieces of what youâd just revealed.
And then, his eyes softenedânot in the way they usually did, filled with mockery or disdainâbut with something far more terrifying: regret.
âI... didnât mean for any of that to happen.â His voice was rough, hoarse, as if the words scraped against him.
âI didnât know... I didnât realize that it was like this for you.â
You looked up at him, your chest tight with emotion, heart pounding in your ears.
âI never wanted to hurt you,â he continued, his voice quieter now, almost defeated. âI was justâdamn it, IâŠI do love you, Y/N. I love you so much I don't know what to do with it.â
You blinked, stunned, It felt surreal, like a dream or some twisted joke, but the look in his eyesâwas undeniable.
For a second, you just stared at him, trying to piece it together. He loved you? After everything? After all the anger, the cruelty, the distance?
His eyes were searching yours desperately, as if he was afraid you wouldnât believe him, afraid that you would push him away before he could prove it to you.
âI donât know how to show it, okay?â he said, his voice cracking, frustration and fear bleeding through.
âI donât want to be like this,â he whispered, his voice barely audible now. âI donât want to hurt you. I donât want to make you feel scared or⊠or small.â
You swallowed hard, your heart a tangled mess of conflicting emotions. Was this just another lie? Another empty confession meant to keep you close, or was this the real thing?
Sukunaâs eyes bore into you, pleading, desperate for you to see past the anger, past the walls heâd built up over the years.
âPlease,â he breathed, his voice rough. âPlease donât leave me like this. I canât lose you. I know I fucked up, but I swear Iâll do anything to fix thisâ
You wanted to believe him. God, you did. But the fear still lingered. The fear that his words would fade, that the old habits would return, that the anger would drown out whatever this feeling was between you.
But... the way he was looking at you, the way he was fighting to keep youâmaybe, just maybe, there was a chance for something different.
Your heart pounded in your chest as you slowly took his hand in yours. His fingers tightened around yours almost immediately, as if he were afraid youâd pull away again.
âWe... we donât need to break up, Sukuna,â you said softly, eyes still fixed on the floor. âBut I need time. A break.â
You felt his body tense, his hand trembling in yours.
âA break?â he echoed, the word landing heavy between you both like a thunderclap. âWhat does that even mean?â
âIt means I need space,â you said, more firmly now. âI need time to think. To breathe. I need to figure out if I can still be in this... if you really mean what you say.â
His jaw clenched again, but he didnât pull away this time. His other hand ran through his hair, dragging it back with a frustrated sigh as he looked away from you.
âI donât want space,â he muttered. âI want to fix this now.â
âBut we canât,â you said, stepping back a little, your fingers slipping from his hand. âNot all at once. You canât just say the right words and expect it all to go back to normal. Iâve been walking on eggshells for months, Sukuna. Iâm tired. I need to feel like I matter to youânot just when youâre scared Iâll leave.â
Silence settled like fog between you. He didnât argue. He didnât yell. He just stood there, staring at you with an expression youâd rarely seen on himâsomething close to remorse. Maybe even understanding.
âIâll wait,â he said finally, his voice low and rough. âI donât know how, and Iâll probably mess it up, but... Iâll wait. Just donât disappear on me.â
You nodded slowly, swallowing hard. âI wonât.â
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2024 pairing. poly!ot7ìí x fem!member oc cw. suggestive themes, profanity, mentions of alcohol, making out; hyung line-centric req. mila dancing to lsrfm âsmartâ & engenes/enha reaction âš BACK to LIBRARY ?! â©
âYOU LOOK PRETTY.â Riki wrapped his hands around Milaâs waist form behind her, resting his chin on her shoulder as he watched her apply lip gloss in the mirror. âWhatâs the occasion?â
Mila was usually the type to dress up, but today it seemed she put a bit more effort into her appearance than usual â not that he was complaining.
She wore a cropped long-sleeve wrap top that showed off the curve of her waist where his large hands rested on her bare skin, just above a chain that hung loosely her like a belt and was decorated by several charms that chimed whenever she moved. She wore a matching white wrap skirt with layers of chiffon that were arranged like flower petals around her waist and a pair of white platform sandals that would make the shorter members of the group cry with the added boost it gave to her already impressive height.
It just so happened that when she got back from he schedules for the day, Mila had been invited to film a challenge for Le Sserafimâs new song, âSmartâ. âYou would actually eat this up, not gonna lie,â was the exactly phrasing Yunjin had usedâ which, to be perfectly honest, Mila wouldnât argue with.
So of course Mila had accepted the request, because what else was she supposed to do? Besides, she had already wanted to do one in the first place: the song was constantly on her mind from the moment it released, and had her wishing that she was able to do a similar concept in the future.
âIâm going to film a challenge today with the girls,â Mila replied to Rikiâs question. She looked at Riki after applying her lip gloss, their noses brushing against each other. âHow does this look? Itâs a new one.â
Rikiâs eyes flickered down to her lips, a deep hum reverberating in his chest. He leant down and stole a kiss from her sweet lips. Mila gasped before slapping the young man in the chest, causing his chuckled to bounce off the bathroom walls with her giggles. As Riki leaned away from her hand trying to clean the lip gloss from his mouth, he furrowed his eyebrows as he swiped his tongue across his plump lower lip.
âOh- strawberries?â he muttered in fascination.
Mila laughed at the youngerâs expression. âThatâs not edible, you idiot. Donât go eating it while Iâm gone.â
âGone where?â Mila and Riki turned to see Jungwon standing at the door of the bathroom, his arms over his chest as he looked between the two. If Mila had looked, she would have noticed the way the younger maleâs eyes raked over her appreciated, taking in the way her clothes perfectly complimented her figure.
âA challenge,â Mila said. âIt was last minute, but Le Sserafim wanted to do one for their new song.â
She gently patted Rikiâs hands, signalling for him to let go. Jungwon tilted his head as he and Riki followed the girl like lost puppies when she ventured into the kitchen, grabbing her handbag from the table. They had been so eager when their eldest noona had gone to her boyfriendâs dorms and their hyungs (save Sunoo, who was currently with one of his many non-idol friends) decided spend the night out drinking, thinking that it meant more time to spend for them to spend with Mila. But apparently, that was too much to ask of their workaholic girlfriend.
âWhat song are you doing?â Jungwon asked. He pulled Mila to him by the hips, lips jutted in a small pout as he rubbed his thumb against the home of the skirt, only to blink in surprise when it got caught in her waist chain. His breath caught in his chest as he slipped his finger away from the cold metal, letting it fall back onto the soft skin of Milaâs stomach. âThis looks nice on youâŠâ
Jungwonâs thumb traced a light path over the chain, smirking when he observed the slightest flex in the muscles of her abdomen. âThanks,â Mila whispered.
Riki, not one to be forgotten, quickly, stepped behind Mila and took a seat on the chair behind her. In one swift tug, he brought the woman down on his lap. He hugged her closely with his chest against her back and his arms wrapped around her.
âI think I can guess the song,â he whispered as he placed a chaste kiss on her neck. He smiled cheekily as he slipped a finger under the chain around her waist and playfully tugged on it, evoking the childlike imagery of a young boy who would pull a girlâs pigtails to get her attention. âThis doesnât look like something youâd wear for âEasyâ.â
Mila smiled at the youngestâs astute observation. It was hard to imagine the woman wearing such feminine clothing for a hip hop choreography. âYouâre right. Iâm doing âSmart.ââ
Mila couldnât help but be amused at the frown on Jungwonâs face as he took a hold of her hand. He gave it a light squeeze when she asked what was wrong. âJust try not to make it too sexy,â he said sulkily, âwe already have too many Engenes trying to steal you away.â
âAwww, donât worry. Theyâd have to get your permission first.â Mila cooed as she cupped the boyâs face and brought it down for a kiss on the lips. Mila turned to give Riki a kiss, leaving sugary lipstick marks on both of their lips as a reminder of her affections. âI have to go soon, but donât miss me too much! Once I get back, we can cuddle and watch movies, promise.â
The two maknaes agreed (albeit sulkily) to let their girlfriend go for the night, watching as she walked away in her cute little outfit, her long legs carrying her away faster than they could turn to each other and think, The hyungs are going to go crazy.
THEY DID INDEED GO CRAZY. They were on their second button of soju when Sunghoon had pulled out his phone to check a notification he had received, only to end up freezing completely when he had clicked on it. The last thing he expected was to be directed to a video of Mila swaying her hips sensually in a miniskirt and waist chain like some sort of hypnotic effect pendulum meant to put viewers under a spell.
âWhat the fuck?â Sunghoon muttered under his breath, unable to tear his eyes off the screen of his phoneâ because damn it, why was she looking like that?
âWhat is it?â Jake asked, leaning over his best friendâs shoulder. The Australian male almost fell off his chair when he saw what was on Sunghoonâs screen. Jake cursed as he spilled his drink over his lap, reaching for tissues to dry the damp soaked his jeans over his thigh. âShit!â
âWhat even?â Jay asked as he watched the man, both he and Heeseung having been distracted from their conversation because of Jakeâs outburst. Thatâs when they noticed what was happening.
Sunghoon was holding his phone so close to his face it might as well be glued there. The way his eyebrows furrowed in concentration only made the two eldest males look at each other in confusion. Jay leaned forward, trying to peek at the younger maleâs screen. âWhat are you doing?â
Sunghoon showed them the screen with a blank expression, as if saying, Look. We leave her alone for five seconds and she pulls this shit.
And like Sunghoon, the two eldest maleâs had a similar initial reaction of complete silence.
Her tongue peeked out from between her plump, glossy lips and her eyes held a sultry look in them as she trailed the movement of her own hips while she turned her back to the camera. She bundled the long strands of her hair in her hands and lifted it to reveal the expanse of her back and shoulders, that damned red tattoo inked on the back of her neck.
And where did they even get started on the way her skirt (despite not being nearly as short as the stuff her stylists put her in) managed to draw attention to the curve of her ass, beset by the pinch of her waist in a way that made it impossible to look away, especially with how her hips were moving to the song.
For a while, it was completely silent and all of the completely still. But when a pair of college students in the booth next to the boys had looked over and managed to throw a not-so-discrete appreciative glance of the video on Sunghoonâs phone, the Ice Prince hastily shut it off and shoved it into the pocket of his jeans. He took his glass of soju and emptied it in a single shot, throwing his head back with the aggressiveness of which he tipped the alcohol into his mouth.
âIâll be back,â he said, before walking towards the exit of the restaurant like a man on a mission.
âWhat even?â Jay turned to watch the younger man leave. âWhere are you going?â
Jake eyed his best friend for a moment. He quickly excused himself to go bathroom while Jay and Heeseung were distracted by Sunghoonâs sudden exit. Then he grabbed his phone from his pocket, his fingers typing a quick message after locating Milaâs phone contact.
You: i saw your new tiktok by the way
You: how come i didnât get a warning?
Jake bit back a smile at his girlfriendâs reply.
Baby â€ïž: surprise ð
Jake almost fell off his chair when a Weverse notification followed her text, and he opened it to find a selfie of Mila in the outfit she wore during the TikTok. It was shot at a high angle and featured a very intentional focus on the low cut of her satin top, which dipped to reveal the slightest bit of cleavage and the tattoo that trail of stars tattooed from her left shoulder to her upper left breast. The caption: âHope you like my gift~â
Fuck, Jake thought as he downed another drink. His girlfrien was going to be the end of him.
From across the table, Jay looked over Heeseungâs shoulder while the latter scrolled through the comments of the TikTok, thinking the exact same thing.
user1. HELLO?? MILANA?? BAI MINGLU?? ð
user2. okay but why did mila have to go so hard on this
user3. GYAAATT DAYUM
user4. mila rlly be risking hip replacement surgery with those moves and iâm here for it ðð
Heeseung laughed at the last comment. He wouldnât be lying if he hadnât thought about just physically impossible it seemed that Mila could move the way that she did â especially when it came to her hip movements â and he got to see her dance almost everyday. He closed the comments to focus back on the video, eyes drinking in every detail and every movement.
âIâm smarter, baby, smarter~â Heeseungâs eyes drifted for he chain around her waist, watching the charms as they moved with ever sway of her hips, the way her skirt would accentuate her movements and lengthen her legs. There were two other girls in the frame with her â Kazuha and Yunjin â and yet his eyes remained on her the entire time. It was like the song was made for her, and yet she wasnât even part of the group who sang it.
As Heeseung continue to smile down at his phone with pride and adoration, Jay turned his focus to his own phone, waiting the reply to the text he had sent Mila a few seconds ago.
You: make sure you get home safely â€ïž
The reply came sooner than he would have thought.
ì²ì¬Â âš angel â© : is that all? nothing else? â¹ïž
Jay chuckled at her obvious attempt to coax praise from him.
You: get home safely first and then iâll tell you anything you want
ì²ì¬Â âš angel â© : okay ð
ì²ì¬Â âš angel â© : then iâll rush home as soon as iâm finished here ðš
ì²ì¬Â âš angel â© : safely ofc
Jay smiled.
You: good girl â€ïž
At that moment, Sunghoon appeared again, taking his seat next to Jake. Upon close inspection, one would notice the slight frown on his lips as he filled his glass again, silently speaking of what occurred while he was outside.
Sunghoon wasnât going to admit that he had sulked about his girlfriend not inviting him to a private rehearsal of the âSmartâ choreography.
But, well, his members knew him well enough to infer that was what happened.
MILA KNEW HER BOYFRIENDS enough to know that by the time she got home, she was in for a mixture of sulking, praise and every other thing that lay in between those things. She had her phone to her ear as she unlocked the apartment, smiling as she spoke to Sunoo on the other end of the line, as the boy was yet to arrive home from his outing with his friends.
âYou could have given us a warning before you sprung that on us,â Sunoo said. âI wasnât mentally prepared.â
âWell, I didnât know I was doing it either until a few hours ago.â
Sunoo laughed, followed by the sound of a car door opening. âWhat did I do to get such a sexy girlfriend? I think your hips are going to be the only thing in my mind for the next three days. You need to let me breathe before you pull something else like that again.â
Mila hummed. âI was thinking of doing an encore performance though,â she teased. âMaybe I should cover Yunjin-eonnieâs part on the floor?â
âByeol-ah,â Sunoo said in a serious tone, causing Mila to pause on the middle of taking off her shoes. But his next words immediately erased any worry she might have had that something was wrong. âIf you get on your knees in front of a camera, donât expect the hyungs to be able to control themselves.â
Mila burst out into laughter. âAnd what about you? Are you included with the âhyungsâ?â
There was a small silence before Sunoo replied, âYou know Iâd last longer than any of them.â
There was a sly undertone in Sunooâs remark, as if he were both pointing out a known fact as well as proving a point. Milaâs face heated up at the suggestion â and yet, she couldnât find it in her to deny it. Sunoo may not be as eager to show off as the others, but that didnât mean he had nothing to show off if he wanted to⊠And, well, Mila would admit Sunoo was not as easy to drive insane as her other boyfriends were.
Speaking of the devil, Mila thought amusedly, when Heeseung appeared in front of her, arms wide for a hug. Mila laughed as she wrapped her arms around his middle, letting him hug her tightly to his chest and rocking their bodies back and forth. It was clear that he wasnât fully sober. But Mila simply let him be, allowing the older to shower her in face with aggressive kisses and giggling when he bit her cheek.
âMila is home,â Jay announced as he walked over to the duo, eyes warm with mirth as he looked Mila up and down. âYouâre back now?â
Mila nodded. âSafely,â she said, reiterating their conversation through text earlier on. Jay smiled and stroked the top of her head.
âGood job today, you were perfect.â
Mila chirped a thank you in response, basking in the older maleâs praises. At that moment, Sunghoon and Jake appeared from inside the shared bedroom of Sunoo, Sunghoon, Riki and Jungwon. Heeseung pulled away from Mila, allowing her to be swept away by Sunghoon who wrapped his arms around her shoulders from behind and and pulled her to his chest.
âFinally,â he mumbled as he rested his cheek against hers. âYour TikTok filming took forever.â
Jake reached out to her waist, his eyes trained on the chain around her waist much like Jungwon had before Mila left. He didnât say anything, simply admiring her while Sunghoon clung to her, seeking her affection. Mila giggled and kissed him on the lips. She only intended it to last for a second, but Sunghoon cupped her jaw, turning her head to him to grant him better access to her lips.
He swiped his tongue across her bottom lip, causing Mila to emit a small whine when he nibbled on the soft flesh with the point of his canine fangs. Sunghoon chuckled, before pulling back, unable to contain his amusement at her reactions.
âWhat was that for?â she protested. She looked at Heeseung. âOppa, he bit me. Look.â
Heeseung chuckled. âWhere? Let me see.â He tilted her chin up, his thumb brushing against her plush lower lip which jutted out as she pouted. Meanwhile, Sunghoon scoffed, lightly knocking away Heeseungâs hand. It just so happened that the door to the dorm opened, signalling Sunooâs return from his outing.
âOh, heâs back,â Sunghoon said. âIâm going to see if he bought the thing I asked from him.â
âAnyway,â Jay said with a smile, âSunooâs back now. Why donât you get changed so we can watch a move together like you mentioned before? Iâll go get the movie set up.â
Heeseung followed him. âIâll come with you.â
âOkay, then Iâll go get changed,â Mila said.â
Jake suddenly snapped out of his reverie, as if someone slapped him in the face. âOhâ wait a second⊠Why not wear it for a little longer? And you know⊠maybe even show us the dance again.â
Jakeâs words caused Mila to burst out laughing. She playfully pushed him by the shoulder, but he chuckled his hand gripping her by the waist and pulling her with him as he staggered backwards.
âWhat?â Jake asked with a pout. âDonât you love us anymore? Your poor boyfriends want to see you dance, is that too much to ask for?â
Mila rolled her eyes, pushing the male down onto the couch. âI doubt dancing is the only thing you want to see.â Mila smiled as she took a seat on Jakeâs lap, her arms around his neck. She smiled sultry as she leaned into his ear, her lips brushing against his earlobe. âSee if you can leave the movie early. Iâll show you then.â
Jake was almost embarrassed at how quickly he agreed. But then again, who was he to refuse? He had to play it smart.
BONUS SCENE. âWORK HARD IN SECRETâ
âIâm smarter baby, smarter. Smarter baby, smarter.â Mila sang softly as she walked to her room, taking her earrings off along the way. She couldnât wait to get changed into her pyjamas and cuddle with her boyfriends. She opened the door, only to jump in surprise when she saw Jungwon lying on her bed.
Mila laughed. âYou scared me.â She walked to the bed and placed her earrings on the bedside table. âWhat are you doing in here? I thought you and Riki went to buy ice cream.â
They had texted her just as she was nearing the house that they went on a walk together, so she hadnât expected to find Jungwon waiting for her inside her room. âWe got back not long before you. Ni-ki went to shower and the hyungs were too loud so I decided to hide here until you got back.â
Mila hummed, not suspecting anything of the younger boyâs explanation. But she didnât know the full story behind why Jungwon was here: in truth, since watching her TikTok challenge for âSmart,â he already had a feeling that one of the hyungs would steal her away for the night. So naturally, he decided to get to her first, so that they could have alone time together.
But that was neither here nor there.
Jungwon sat up on Milaâs bed, watching as she removed the bracelet from her wrist. She began to reach for the clasp of their waist chain, only to be stopped by Jungwonâs hand reaching out to grasp hers. The woman raised a questioning brow as Jungwon pulled her towards him.
âLeave it on,â Jungwon said. He smiled as he pulled her in between his legs, his hands resting on her waist where the chain lay. âI like how it looks on you.â
Mila smiled, leaning towards him, so that her hands rested on his neck. They then smoothed their way down the breadth of his shoulders, reminding her of just how broad they were. âYeah?â
Jungwon hummed deeply. âEspecially when you were dancing.â
His Adamâs apple bobbed as he swallowed, dark eyes taking in the sight of Mila before him. He was reminded of the way she moved when she danced, hips swaying rhythmically and effortlessly. His hands tightened around her waist, thumbs seeking the coolness of her chain. Mila smiled, endeared by his expressiveness. She leant down to place a soft kiss on his lips with the full intention of making it short and sweet.
But she was taken off guard when he suddenly hooked his hands behind her thighs and tugged her down on to his lap so that she straddled his waist, her skirt hiking up to expose more of her thighs and their bare skin to his touch. But despite her surprise, she didnât fight him. Nor did she want to.
Mila could only surrender to the strength of his hold on her, knowing well she wouldnât be able to escape â not that she wanted to anyway. She fully welcomed the possessive touch of his mouth as it devoured hers, lips locked in a passionate exchange of strawberry lip gloss and traces of vanilla ice cream.
Jungwon hummed when Milaâs nails scratched against his scalp and her slender fingers dragged their way through his hair, bringing his mouth closer to hers. At the same time, he pulled her even closer than before, his fingers massaging their way up her soft thighs and beneath her skirt, until the palms of his hand rested just underneath the curve of her ass.
He kept his hands there, using them to press Mila even closer against him, her soft breasts pressed against his firm chest and plush thighs bracketing both of his sturdy ones. The only barrier between them was their clothes. As his tongue swiped across her fleshy pout, licking the taste of strawberries clean from her lip, she mewled softly against his mouth, melting against him completely.
And later, when Mila left her room with a pair of swollen lips and a poorly hidden hickey, Jungwonâs hyungs were left wondering when their baby leader became such a cunning feline.
Perhaps, they thought, he was the real smart one here.
NOTE jokes on the hyung line, they got upstaged by one of their maknaes 𥎠but srsly jungwon is drelt becoming such a problem - like he turned 20 and chose violence⊠that man needs to stop ð« on another note itâs my first time writing smth this spicy for him since he became an adult last year, funny it took me this long to even write about him making out with know touching and stuff ð
TAGLIST. @em1ejiee @menichoi
SUMMARY your new neighbors, the parks seem like the perfect family. they are not, you soon realize. the parkâs daughter adores you, her motherâs distaste for you the far opposite of that. the worst part of it? youâve got mr. park wrapped around your finger, and youâre not sure if itâs love, lust, or obsession heâs fueled by.
WARNINGS mdni, smut, infidelity, blackmail, more to be added.
CURRENT WC fic -> 3.2k+ and counting | teaser -> 0.4k (march 17)
PLAYLIST sad girl â lana. pretty when you cry â lana. nervous â the nbhd. the hills â the weeknd.
AUTHORS NOTE sunghoon is actually rotting my brain. sunghoon is a morally grey dick in this b/c what better way to cope with delusion than a dilf sunghoon fic?
TAGLIST (open) @alvojake @chaewonshoney @moon7jay @nyxtwixx @yizhoutv
Sunghoon heaves a sigh, warm breath tickling your jaw because of how close he is to you. You can see how tense he is, see it in the way his shoulders raise and feel it in the way his hands sit on your waist.
âMy wifeâs upstairs and Iâm here, hiding in a storage closet, with you.â He murmurs, shifting so that his leg rests between both of yours. âItâs almost like a game of home wrecking hide and seek.â
âI think thereâs another game,â you start to say, a gasp escaping you when he grinds his thigh against the growing wet spot on your panties. âAndâŠitâs just between us.â
His fingers drum against the waistband of your skirt. He hums, thinks about it for a second before moving to whisper in your ear. âAnd what do you think that game is?
Your breath hitches when his lips press to the spot right under your earlobe. You hate it when he does thisâmakes you feel like youâre so special. âCat and mouse.â
âHow come?â Sunghoon teases. Itâs hard to control the noises you so badly want to make when heâs doing this. Thereâs the feeling of his lips pressing into your skin, so softly, and you can feel a corner of his lips turn upward into a smirk. âBecause of the chase?â
Not just that, you want to tell him. You wish that it could stop there, that you could enjoy it because heâs an older, rich man whoâd rather bury you in his sheets than take his wife on a date.
But you know itâs more than just a stupid chase. Itâs cat and mouse because you came to him, and allowed yourself to be prey. Itâs cat and mouse because you know youâre only fleeting satisfaction before he finds something, someone else. Itâs cat and mouse, and it could be wolf and bunny too. Because no matter how you want to see it, in the end, to Sunghoon, you will be nothing more than a light repast.
Except, you donât say that at all, canât when heâs starting to press impatient kisses against the side of your neck. âYeah, because of the chase,â you say, voice just shy of a whimper.
And Sunghoon pulls away, starts to undo the small button on the side of your skirt. You let his fingers work, slowly pull the fabric off of your thighs. You know youâll let him every time.
âBut you like the chase, donât you?â He asks, concentrating on the way the once smooth skirt becomes ruined, now rumpled by his hands.
â sunny days ï¹ sim jaeyun ï¹
sum : jake is hopelessly in love with you. he tells himself heâll never be able to tell you. but that changes when he finds out you feel the same way. so now, finally, heâll be able to take you on a beautiful first date that heâs always dreamed of.
includes : jake x reader, mutual pining, jake is down bad and nervous, 2k words, tooth rotting fluff, small comedy, Heeseung and Sunghoon cameo
It was a sunny day outside, the prominence of spring being in full effect during this time of year.
Jake loved spring, he loved the smell of the flowers, and how nature just looked so lively. But what made his spring perfect this year was you.
You reminded him just of it. Your beauty, the equivalent of a freshly picked flower. The kind that heâd see when he would walk past a small flower shop. The sun couldnât even compare to how bright you were when youâd smile.
It was weird, how you had such an impact on him, and never once have you guys spoken. He would envy his friends for having a steady friendship with you.
It was even weirder that Jake was infatuated with you, given that you guys had never interacted. But thatâs just the effect you had on him.
Jake was like his favorite season, spring.
And like a flower, his love blossomed.
Jake sat in class, his most boring class of all, English. All the professor would do was talk and talk, he couldnât blame the many kids who fell asleep during it, it was a morning class anyways. His chin is resting on his palm, swinging his pencil in his hand. Until he can hear small sorryâs and excuse meâs.
âHey is it okay if I sit here?â Jake turns to the culprit and freezes.
Itâs you.
Your hair is in a messy bun, and you quite literally look like you just woke up. Heâs dumbfounded that you uttered words to him. You stand there awkwardly as students begin to stare at you for blocking the board. He finally snaps out of it, a small blush on his face.
âYea! Yea of course.â He says muttered out. You whisper a thank you, setting your stuff out and getting your laptop out. That is of course until you notice itâs dead. Nice.
You groan, you didnât even bring your bag with you. So, feeling a little ashamed you turn to him, tapping his shoulder.
âIâm so sorry, do you have a piece of paper I can borrow.â Your lip is pulled between your teeth and Jake canât help but think you look so cute. He blinks, malfunctioning once again.
âUm, yeah, here.â He hands it to you and your hand grazes his, immediately making his heart beat faster than it already was. Jake needed to calm down, he wasnât a teenager anymore, so he needed to stop acting like it.
âThank you.â You whisper again, leaning in so your guy's shoulders brush one another. Jake doesnât know what comes over him but heâs whispering back.
âIâm Jake.â And you giggle, covering your smile.
âI know.â His head snaps towards you, blinking once again. Okay, maybe the teenage puppy love antics could wait because oh my god you knew his name?
âIâm Y/n.â You look up at him, and his eyes soften.
He lets out a small laugh, âI know.â
Heeseung and Sunghoon sigh for the umpteenth time after Jake mentions your guy's little interaction.
âDude she knew my name! She knows who I am!â Jake was thrilled, his cute toothy smile on full display.
âYou told us a million times we get it.â Heeseung sighs, and Jake pouts.
âYou guys donât understand.â He sulks, recalling your cute giggle.
"Ask for her number or something. Stop being a pussy." Jake's jaw drops, slowly turning to his friends.
"I can't just ask for it, what if she thinks I'm weird." He bites his lip feeling nervous at the mere thought of it.
"I think you're just overthinking it. You're a hot dude, why would she say no to you." Heeseung says with a wiggle of his brows.
"Relax he's not as hot as me." Sunghoon rolls his eyes and both boys deadpanning.
The next time you have English, you scout the room for Jake. Finding him sat in a corner you pull the seat next to him. Once again Jake is awestruck but he recovers quickly this time.
"Hi." You whisper and he smiles.
"Hi." He whispers back.
He notices you have a bag this time and you move to grab something. You pull out a piece of paper, sliding it to him.
"Thanks for letting me borrow a piece of paper." You mumble and he's amused, his toothy smile making an appearance, causing yours to widen.
"You didn't have to give me one back." He looks at you and you swear your heart skips a beat.
"Just returning the favor." You twiddle with your fingers. Jake smiles at your antics and you both go back to paying attention to the lecture.
However he's distracted, Heeseungâs words plaguing his mind. "Just ask for her number."
This might've been the stupidest thing he's ever done before, not even his high school self pulled a stunt like this.
With the piece of paper you handed him, he's scribbling on it, his hand a little shaky. When he's done he hands it back to you, you look at him but he's already looking back at the board, messing with his lip. You grab the folded paper and open it up.
It read, "I was wondering (small doodle) if I could have your number?" Then right below it, a yes with a happy face and a box. Then a no with a terrible drawing of someone crying and a box next to it.
You stare at it with pure amusement, never in your years of living have you received, something like this. Yes, boys have asked for your number but it'd always be upfront or through other people, so you'd be lying if you thought it wasn't cheesy. But it was also cute and you liked cute things, especially Jake.
You canât help but giggle, and it makes Jake sweat. You tap on him and he slowly turns, you motion for his phone and he stares at you, not one thought in his head.
âJake?â He wasnât even standing up but he could feel himself lose feeling in his legs. He snaps out of it and shakily hands you his phone.
You quickly type in your number, clicking on the photo, and you take a silly picture, making Jake smile from his seat. You hand it back to him and just like that, your lecture is over.
âText me yeah? Make sure you tell me itâs you.â You smile at him, grabbing your belongings, and making sure to tuck the small paper in your bag. Jake nods mumbling an uh huh and you smile at his dumbfounded face.
It had been a week since you gave him your number. Jake bursts through the doors of the cafeteria, jogging to his friends. Sunghoon and Heeseung share a look and focus their attention back on Jake.
âI did it! I actually did it!â He fistbumps the sky, smiling brightly.
âDid what?â Sunghoon says, munching on his sandwich.
âI got her number.â He almost chokes mid bite, the both of them snapping their head at him.
âYou did?!â They yelled in unison. Jake happily nods, ignoring the lame way he asked for it.
âSee what did I tell you!â Heeseung slaps his back but Sunghoon looks behind them, smirking.
âHey Y/n.â He waves and Jake freezes, eyes wide as he stares at Heeseung. Heeseung jerks his head towards you but Jake shakes his head.
âOh, hey guys! What ya up to?â You smile, waving back. Sunghoon gets up grabbing his things.
âOh nothing much actually, Jake was just telling us how he was gonna ask you out on a date.â Jake could he feel his soul leave his body and of course, Heeseung plays along.
âYea, see you later.â
Jake stares dumbfounded at his friends as they walk away. He turns slowly to face you and you look shocked, blinking up at him. He gulps, planning out different ways in his mind how he was gonna make his friends pay.
âYou were gonna ask me what now?â You say a small smirk grazing your lips.
Jake lets out a nervous laugh, âO-Oh uh, I donât know what they were talking about, theyâre weird arenât they? Hey, Iâll text you later okay?-â He says rushed out trying to walk away but your words stop him.
âAw that sucks, so you werenât gonna ask me?â Your doe eyes looking up at him do nothing but make him more nervous.
âWell I mean, is that okay?â He nervously says, biting his lip.
âIâd love to.â You smile and he buffers.
âA-Actually?â You giggle.
âYes actually, text me okay? I gotta head to class.â You say with a small wave walking away.
Although he scored a date with you, it was now time to brainstorm the most perfect date for you.
In all honesty, Jake was stressed. You guys had been texting back and forth and he couldnât have been more happy. He did end up telling Heeseung and Sunghoon how much he hated them for doing that to him, but also how much he loved them because now he had a date with you.
Bipolar much?
Back to his plan, it wouldnât be bad for a little walk in the park, right? He was planning to take you to the spot his friends would visit all the time during the spring. However, this time heâd take you instead. Even if it was a first date, this place held a special place in his heart, you didnât have to know that but heâd love to share it with you.
He doesnât spoil things too much, only telling you to wear something summery and comfortable.
When he picks you up, he stares at you for a good minute not saying anything. You were wearing a white flowy dress, the more you looked at him the more you could see his eyes sparkle.
âJake?â
He whispers a sorry, leading you to his car and opening the door for you. As he begins to drive he mumbles.
âYou look really pretty.â Drumming his fingers along the steering wheel.
âThank you, now wanna tell me where youâre taking me.â
He glances at you and shakes his head, turning up the music. You stare at him amused, rolling your eyes playfully you left it at that. The drive was a little far but the view was amazing.
âWeâre here, you donât mind walking a bit right?â He says almost a little nervous. You shake your head and he smiles brightly, you noticed that small things made Jake happy and it is adorable.
He quickly grabs the basket, opening the door for you again. Hesitantly, he holds out his hand. You stare at him and his hand.
âYou know so you wonât get hurt?â He awkwardly laughs and you intertwine your hands with him.
As you both walked, Jake talked. It gave you time to observe him, how his lips were softly pointed at the ends, and how expressive he was when he talked. Moved his hand that was intertwined with yours and the other with the basket. He stops abruptly, giving him a confused look youâre about to say something but he beats you to it.
âDo you trust me?â He says, his cute smile in full display.
âNo.â You say and he immediately pouts. âIâm joking.â You giggle and he sulks.
âYouâre mean, but Iâm gonna cover your eyes okay?â You nod and he gently covers your eyes, the other on the small of your back to guide you carefully.
âOk, you can open your eyes.â He says softly and you gasp at the sight before you.
Itâs a field of flowers, a small hill with a huge cherry blossom tree not too far from you guys. You can faintly see a blanket on the grass.
âOh my god.â You breathe out. It was beautiful but before you could actually bask in the whole view, Jake is nudging you.
âLast one up the hill is a loser.â He takes off in a sprint and you yell for him.
âJake!â You donât say anything else chasing after him. You can hear his laugh in the distance as you both run through the flower field, smiles on both of your faces.
âLooks like youâre the loser.â He laughs, catching his breath.
âYou cheated.â You say in the same state as well. You both sit down and he pulls out drinks, pouring one for you.
âThis place is honestly beautiful Jake. No oneâs ever done anything like this for me before.â You gush, playing with the glass. He mentally cheers, turning to you with a small smile.
âThis place uh, reminds me a lot of you.â He whispers and you gaze at him curiously.
âReally?â You ask shyly and he nods.
âI know weâve never really talked but Iâve always admired you from afar, youâre just so beautiful and I know youâre even prettier on the inside.â He smiles and your brows pull together.
With his heart full of you and love in the air, he confesses. âS-Sorry if thatâs a lot to take in but uh, I like you a lot.â He fiddles with his lip. Heâs unsure of your silence but when he looks up youâre fondly smiling at him.
The birds chirped above you, small petals falling around the both of you. Jake truly was in love, and being with you right here and now was all he needed to see to fully know he wanted you as his.
Before any doubtful words can come out of Jakeâs mouth you peck his cheek, reckoning him still.
âI like you too Jake.â
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BITTERSWEET
( a jay drabble )
A look through of Jayâs diary expressing how things ended up between you two. â starâs note . Sorry for the messy writing i just wanted to post angst
I hate you.
I remember the first time I saw you. It was at this crazy party, with music blasting and people dancing everywhere. In the middle of the crowd, I spotted you chatting with a girl, and your smile lit up the whole room. That smile got stuck in my head, and I just wanted to see it every day.
I never thought that Iâd ever fall in love, to me everyone was just a blur but you changed that. You were bright, like a star shining in the sky. You were the light of my life.
I hate how much power you had over me. I couldn't go a moment without thinking about you. Every little thing reminded me of you.
I was so in love with you, to the point I wish it never happened. Would it have been better if we never met?
My life feels empty all because of you. I hate the amount of nights you made me cry myself to sleep, I hate how you made me unable to love anyone else.
Nobody could make me forget you, it was like you were haunting my mind.
I know you canât read this but remember when you said I was talented enough to be a guitarist? I know youâll kill me for this but I got an offer from a big company and I rejected them.
I just couldn't pick up my guitar again after you left, every time I looked at my guitar it reminded me of you and that stupid voice of yours cheering me on.
Why did you have to leave? We were so happy. I hate myself for not fixing the messy fate we have. I wish I could have turned back time and fixed everything.
I feel so selfish for letting you leave without a fight. I despise myself for watching you slip away from my grasp so effortlessly.
Iâm sorry, my love. I hope one day I can meet you again.
Iâm sorry for not noticing what you were going through, I still talk to you through the sky. You look gorgeous even tho I can't physically see you.
I love you, it's a bittersweet feeling.
Iâm sorry for not answering your final call when you were about to leave, I still hate myself for it.
This is my final note before I meet you again. I hope I can meet you again in the skies, I can't wait. Maybe we can finally have our happy ending, see you soon, my love.
â
As Jay finished writing his letter on the small sheet of paper, he gripped the letter in his hand with tears falling down his eyes before swallowing the final pills.
Jay falls to the ground slowly losing his consciousness, before finishing his last breath.
Maybe you two will finally have your happy endings.