Lilys Feelings Realization Pt 3 Per @spillthebea Comments On Pt 2

Sirius is an introvert forced to be an extrovert- they use their loudness as a cover so that they are always cheery and nobody will think something’s wrong

Regulus is an extrovert forced to be an introvert- growing up he watched Sirius get in trouble for being loud and acting out so he learned to stay quiet

Sirius and Lily being the hottest people at Hogwarts

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Sirius and Lily not seeing each other's appeal.

have u watched the game of thrones if yes can i have some game of thrones blackinnon?

how sad it would be if i say no lol

i have landed on something, i’m going with my gut here.

i like the idea of knights watch/wilding but i fear i would make marlene too much like ygritte and no, we already knows how that one ends (🥲)

so… this is during the time where the starks are the kings of the north. orion is the hand of the king. he and his family don’t approve of the idea of bending the knee to the targaryen. i don’t know if there are direwolfs in this era, but even if there aren’t and they have zero defenses against dragons, the blacks are set to keep the north an independent kingdom.

sirius as the oldest son is meant to be lord of his house but, until he comes of age, he’s the squire of the king or whatever they call the position where he’s supposed to learn from under the wing of an important person 😂 haven’t read the books in a while and i even forget the right words in spanish so, anyway…

james is possibly the older son to the king (i can’t picture sirius without him). sirius is obviously living in the castle along side his dad and the stark/potter family.

marlene however… is the daughter of the inn keeper. the inn where all the major lords and people from the south come and stay when they can’t be in the castle.

she has always wanted to learn how to ride like a boy and duel and fight with swords, very much like arya. but she can’t exactly ride the few horses his father has because they’re not train for that or they are too old.

marlene is often working in the tavern and that’s how she meet sirius.

maybe he catches her trying to “steal” a sword or playing pretend, something like that when they are young and sirius would never admit it, but she’s the reason he keeps coming back even though he has full warm meals in the castle. he brings james from time to time.

now that’s all i have so far.

obviously whatever they have could never become something because of their situation, but in this scenario neither of them are content with their respective situation and most likely will take matters into their own hands.

so i was listening to a podcast about rereading books from when you were a teenager and apparently in divergent trilogy’s there’s a character name marlene who was a born-dauntless and were part of the loyal-dauntless after the whole mind control thing and she dies (obviously i had forgotten all about it).

she was portrayed by suki waterhouse in the movies.

i can’t. too many worlds colliding.

Here’s part one of what I don’t know when I finish cause, what can I say, I just have a lot of work and I don’t see it changing soon Just you know, it’s not Hogwarts my dears The first meeting

🏳️‍⚧️ Trans Tuesdays 🏳️‍⚧️

Sirius x Marlene(Blackinnon)sexually suggestive themes throughout

They’re totally best friends, conjoined at the hip, never seeing each other as anything more, until Sirius comes out. She spends a lot of time with the girls, and now that they’re out of school, she feels a lot freer to be herself and explore femininity.

She spends a fuck tonne of time with Mary, because Mary is the makeup and fashion lover of the group, and really helps Sirius find something that fits.

They’re going to a club one night, their whole group, to a queer club, and Sirius wants to go all out. Marlene puts on her suit jacket, just a bra underneath, smokey eye, chunky boots, feeling very hot and very gay.

Mary and Lily help get Sirius all dolled up, doing her makeup and making her try on all their dresses, and Marlene simply gets to watch and judge.

She ends up in a sparkly number, a pretty dark periwinkle that's pretty short, spaghetti straps that lace up at the back, so her entire back tattoo is exposed as well, just how she wanted since it was new. The girls put her in a very dark lip, a burgundy sort of colour, with silver shadow fading into a shimmery blue, then smoked out with black. Her hair is down with luscious waves and a couple of cute pins in it so it looks like pearls are in her hair. To top it all off, she’s putting on a pair of platform boots, which make her 6”5, and intimidating as fuck.

Marlene thinks she looks hot, because she does look hot, but it’s not in the same way she thinks Mary or Lily look hot. No she’s like, attracted to Sirius, which is odd.

They go to the club and are having an amazing time, dancing, drinking, whatever the fuck. Marlene's glad she picked her tall boots because dancing with Sirius would give her even more of a neck ache if she were any shorter.

And Sirius is… she knows how to move her hips, that's for sure. Tattooed arms moving up above her head as she dances, sometimes pressing into Marlene, and it’s hot in here. It’s so fucking hot in here.

And it doesn’t help that Sirius set a goal for all the single people to try and get a hookup - or at least a kiss - tonight, because she wanted to get with someone as a woman for the first time, but is nervous about doing it alone. And so here Marlene is, thinking about that. Thinking about Sirius getting all shy and flirting with someone, and letting them take her home for the night, and now she’s getting even hotter under the collar.

She goes to get them drinks, then comes back to find Sirius dancing with James. They’re having a laugh, holding each other close and grinding on each other a bit. And Marlene's jealous. She’s asking herself why the fuck Sirius picked that best friend to proper grind on rather than Marlene, even though it obviously means nothing, but like, one horny dance with Sirius might quench her thirst enough to not do something weird.

Sirius stops dancing with James the moment she spots Marlene and rushes to her to grab a drink, she drags Marlene back over and her and James are laughing about the good dance they just had. James makes a joke about getting at least a little bit of action since all the blokes seem to be taken tonight, and has yet to find someone else interested in men.

Sirius gets’ flirted with a few times, but the people either aren't her type, or she gets weird and flustered and runs away, complaining to Marlene about it. In the end, they end up home without having had a hookup, and Marlene is a little grateful for it.

They’re lying in bed together, having plopped down on the soft mattress the moment they got into James and Sirius’ apartment (James is getting busy with some pretty person in the next room), and they’re chatting about their night. Sirius is feeling euphoric, which makes Marlene really happy.

“I just… I wanted to hook up with someone tonight, you know?” She sighed, chewing on a silver painted nail, “I just… I know it’s probably stupid, but I think it’s just the last step I’d like to take with all this… like, other than the medical stuff. I’d just like to have sex with someone- or not even sex, just something with someone and feel like a girl doing it. You know, everyone I’ve been with have fucked me as a guy and it’s always been so shit and awful, and I’d like to feel good. You know? It will make me feel good. There was one guy, tonight, who was really hot but… he kinda gave me the impression that I might get misgendered, so-”

“Ew.” Marlene grimaced.

“Yeah.” Sirius shrugged, looking over at Marlene, “James said he’d fuck me, you know, if I didn’t find someone. I thought he was joking at first, but he wasn’t. He said he’d make sure I had a good time, and would call me all pretty things, which is nice.” She laughed, “When he started getting it on with that person he almost rejected them since I didn’t find someone, but I didn’t want him to not get a fuck he actually wanted for my sake.”

“You would have fucked him? Your best friend?” Marlene gasped.

“Yeah?” She giggled, looking up at the roof, “I mean, no denying he’s fucking fit, Marlene. Look at him. And I’ve seen him naked- hung.”

Marlene laughed and looked back up at the ceiling too, “I mean, sure, I guess. I don’t know, I’m a fucking lesbian.”

“Yeah.” Sirius said, “I know he wouldn’t make it awkward… and I actually feel comfortable and trust him, you know? I’d rather fuck someone I know would treat me correctly and have it be a bit awkward for a week after, than end up with some weirdo who calls me handsome or something, you know?”

“I suppose… yeah, I get it.”

“I could ask Remus.” Sirius shrugged, “He’s a whore- don’t know if he likes girls or not, actually, but, if he did, he’d… nah, wait, I think he doesn’t like girls… Petes taken- Do you think Mary or Lily would fuck me?”

Marlene's eyes widened and she looked over at her slowly, “Are you serious?”

“Yes, I am, darling.” She grinned, devilish, “And, I don’t know… Maybe. They’re pretty- god, girls are all so pretty. Do they have something going on? They were kind of…”

“Yeah, I’m waiting to see how long it takes them to fuck. Reckon they’re doing it tonight. I’ll probably get a text before morning from both of them saying they’ve got something crazy to tell me.”

Sirius giggled, “So they’re off the table then. Fuck.”

“Why do you wanna do it so bad?” Marlene asked.

“I don’t know, it’s stupid, I know.” She sighed, “But… I just… I want to feel sexy, okay? Is that such a crime? I feel pretty, and hot, and gorgeous, and beautiful, but I don't feel sexy. I want to be sexy- I want someone to think I’m a sexy woman and fuck me about it-”

“I think you’re sexy.” Marlene said, and immediately went red afterwards.

“What?” Sirius asked, looking at Marlene with alarm.

“I didn’t mean to say that, but- fuck, sure, alright, I’ll bite.” She mumbled, rolling onto her side to face Sirius, “Uh, yeah, it’s weird. You put on that dress tonight and I thought, shit, she’s hot, and those boots? Bloody hell, you’re so tall, and you dance like fucking sin, and your makeup looks amazing, and I’m so fucking attracted to you right now I felt my fucking boxers getting damp in the club-”

Sirius had kissed her, rolling them over until she was straddling marlene.

“W- Sirius, is this a bad idea?” She asked.

“I don’t care.” Sirius breathed, “You think I’m sexy, I want-”

“Yeah, but… I don’t know if-”

“Please.” Sirius muttered, “Fuck, I don’t even care if it fucks things up, Marlene. I want you- you’re so… for a while now. I fucking fancy you, okay? I don’t care if you don’t feel the same, just fuck me and… and… tomorrow.”

“This is stupid.” Marlene muttered, pulling Sirius down to kiss again, “We should talk about it-”

“Tomorrow.” Sirius said, muffled by her lips, “Please, I want you so bad, Marlene, I’m going insane.”

“Yeah- fuck, yeah, alright.” She whispered, tucking hair behind Sirius’ ear, “You’re so fucking pretty- take this off?”

Sirius blushed bright fucking red, Marlene had never seen her so shy. She thinks, maybe, she’s actually already succeeded in making Sirius feel like a sexy woman. But fuck if she isn’t going to make her feel like the sexiest woman alive. And then tomorrow, she thinks she’ll take Sirius out, on a real proper date, because Marlene is chivalrous and doesn’t fuck without a date.

Plus, her best friend is cute as hell and kinda exactly her type. 

Part 2 (pure smut so 18+ only please)

I love how this used to be like a massive ship in the fandom before ATYD i think and now they’re both just so fucking gay. The thought of these two being a massive ship is insane to me, such an odd thought, but I’m gonna think about it today. Specifically trans fem Sirius because I fucking love her with my whole heart, and also Marlene is THE lesbian, okay. She aint like men.

Blackkinnon sneaking off under the guise of being a good wingman/woman for Jily when really, they're having their own little date.

sillies

not super into marauders content anymore but i had this wip and i had to finish it

sirius and james being so codependent on each other that, every time i portray marlene being angry at sirius, she has to throw a little "fuck you too, potter" one way or another.

when sirius was little, he got into all kinds of trouble with his parents for doing the wrong things, so every time he caught regulus sneaking into their father’s office or hiding in the corners trying to listen in on the adult conversations, he tried to help him, he wanted to save regulus from encouraging their parents wrath.

he never thought much of why regulus did those things, not even after he saw regulus’ cutouts of the daily prophet of articles talking about death eaters.

it took for regulus to die for sirius to come to terms with the fact that his little brother had always wanted to be on those places, he wanted to sneak into their fathers office probably searching for secret information, he wanted to listen in those conversations because he was really interested in them. not because he was just a little bit naughty like him. and that if their parents had caught him, he probably would’ve been fine.

and though he finally accepted that he couldn’t have saved his brother, that there wasn’t anything he needed to be saved from, he never made peace with it.

when he talked about barty crouch jr, he still thought of regulus in terms of being able to get away from all that, like it was something that got into him and not something that was already a part of him.