🥀thoughtwithin 🥀

Y'all I just want you guys to know that at the protest tonight in Rochester, cops keep gassing the Frederick Douglass statue on the sidewalk because they think he's a protester who isn't leaving

You cannot MAKE THIS SHIT UP

women covered in blood is my inspiration💋💋

why do I have every symptom of anorexia but not skinny im fucking fuming

One of the worst feelings ever is being in your own house and feeling like you need to go home.

reasons to live: winter edition

cold and crisp air making you feel alive

your breath freezing and the wind making your skin tight

pitch black nights

heavy snowfall making even the ugliest landscapes breathtakingly beautiful

wrapping yourself in a huge blanket to keep yourself warm

frozen cold hands against your bare skin

ugly sweaters and fuzzy socks

hot chocolate after a long time out in the cold

the warmth and comfort you’ll experience due to increasing intimacy

christmas and the joy of giving

less partying and more intimate movie nights with your loved ones

the hundreds of blankets you’ll end up sleeping with

the smell of something freshly baked filling the entire house

the goose bumps you’ll notice everywhere on your body

as someone who spent time in a mental institution because of an eating disorder and lived with girls with similar problems - body hair fucking MULTIPLIES when you lose weight it’s annoying af - please for the love of God at least take vitamins if you’re restricting your food intake - victoria’s secret models talk about how they eat five meals a day and it’s fucking BULLSHIT i ate five times a day but you know what i considered a meal? four whole wheat cookies that’s dinner, soup w 10 pieces of penne that’s breakfast. your brain doesn’t work like it’s supposed to with this disease it starts to rationalize things that are very very scary - you don’t even notice yourself lose weight when you pass 100 lbs - your stomach shrinks to the point where three spoonfuls of rice make it feel full and for the first few weeks of recovery you’re just stuffing down food until it hurts and it feels heavy and that’s normal but it absolutely gets better - your body needs carbs to survive - your brain doesn’t work like it’s supposed to your concentration turns to shit and you feel like you’re walking around in a thick fog - everything is mentally and physically exhausting - a banana is not a meal, it’s barely a snack

here’s a list of my favourite playlists that i listen to when studying. only one playlist has lyrics so if you find that distracting you can skip it!

1 am study session - lofi hip hop/chill beats (1 hour)

a rainy town - animal crossing ost + thunderstorm ambiance (1 hour)

breath of the wild relaxing music with rain (1 hour)

lofi hip hop radio - beats to relax/study to (live radio)

relaxing life is strange music (1 hour) *has lyrics

relaxing music from uncharted series (45 mins)

skyrim music & ambiance - night (1 hour)

skyrim music & ambiance - rainy day (10 hours)

studio ghibli summer night piano collection with nature sounds (7 hours)

the last of us - relaxing music compilation (30 mins)

the legend of zelda - calming & relaxing music compilation (1 hour)

the witcher 3 - peaceful music & nature ambiance (1 hour)

the witcher 3 toussaint - relaxing music for sleep and study (1 hour)

uncharted - ambient music & ambience (1 hour)

all playlists