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I’ve been the shadow of your shadow

Richard Siken, Peter Wever, Ilya Kaminsky, Margaret Atwood, Ada Limón, Akseli Gallen-Kallela, Richard Siken, @maieste, Madeline Miller, Holly Warburton, Shauna Barbosa, Benjamin Alire Sáenz

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐍𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐀𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐠𝐞𝐝: A story where you play as the vessel of an old eldritch horror after a ritual to summon a god went horribly wrong…

[ Demo TBA ]

You were supposed to be a sacrifice in order to bring an eldritch god to your realm, a sacrifice that was never supposed to live. Instead of dying and summoning the god intended, you find yourself face to face with an ancient being that was chained and locked away for the horrors they once committed. 

Alzurahm is their name. A once revered god but now a pitiful creature made of bone and shadow. After finding themself free of their prison, they realise there is nothing to tether themself to, until you come into view.

They make you an offer. Become their host and allow them a taste of freedom and they will grant you power to ensure you both live.The catch is that their thoughts will become your thoughts, their weaknesses will become your weaknesses and their fears will become your fears. 

But things are never as simple as they seem. After the revelation that you are more than just human, The Court of Night decides to utilise the mistake they made by brainwashing you and shape you into something of their own that most would come to know simply as: The Vessel—someone who no one wishes to see at their doorstep.

After being sent on a mission to eliminate a traitor of The Court, a series of unfortunate events throw you off the planned course and onto another where you then find yourself hunting an evil much greater than the ones you were taught about.

Will you remain a puppet of The Court or will you cut the strings that tie you to them?

— Play as a female, male or non-binary character and customise your Vessel.

— Romance one of four ROs: A woman with unmatched skill in marksmanship, an agile swordsman, a figure who walks quietly in the shadows, and the traitor themself.

— Reluctantly join forces with The Order of Solitar and save the future from the reigning chaos or join them simply to save yourself.

— Reunite with people you never thought you’d see again…though it may not be as heartwarming as you may think.

—Be part of the Resurrection of a God that is of far greater power than you think was possible.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐉𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐃 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐊𝐒𝐌𝐀𝐍

Vira Duval [F] — Romanceable by f!MCs and nb!MCs 

Vira has the sharpest eye Providence has to offer. Events of the past has led her to build a wall of safety around her, but there is a crack in that wall created by the few people she trusts and it is a crack that can be easily exploited if you so wish. 

She is a tall woman, standing tall with a posture only nobles could have. Her skin is fair with faint scars that run along her back which were inflicted upon her when she was young. Much like her personality, her blue eyes are cold and calculating. She has hair of silk that reaches down to her lower back with a colour that is often compared to the feathers of a raven.

She is the twin sister of Aurius, older by three minutes.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐋𝐄 𝐒𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒𝐌𝐀𝐍

Aurius Duval [M] — Romanceable by all MCs

Aurius has refined mastery of all blades though his preferred weapon is a sword that was gifted to him by a friend. Unlike his sister, he is kinder and easier to speak with. Many have said that comfort is easy to find in him.

Like Vira, he is quite taller, almost by a head but he lacks the noble posture as she does. His skin is fair, clear of scars save for a tiny sliver by his lip. His eyes are a light blue that holds serenity and like the feathers of a raven, his hair is the same dark colour that is cut short and pushed back.

He is the twin brother of Vira, younger by three minutes.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐅 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐃𝐎𝐖𝐒

Rhian Scott [F/M/NB] — Romanceable by all MCs

Rhian is an expert of stealth, quietly making their way through conflict without being seen or heard. When they are out of the shadows, they tend to be charismatic and a bit flirty. But if they so wished, they could become just as serious as the jaded marksman. 

They are of average height with skin kissed by the sun. There is a beauty mark just under the left side of their lips and their eyes shine a bright amber shade that could act as a torch. They have dark brown hair that seems to shift into red when hit by sunlight. F!Rhian tends to keep her hair long past her shoulders whereas m!Rhian and nb!Rhian tend to keep theirs short.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐓𝐎𝐑

Ilya Roson [F/M/NB] — Romanceable by all MCs

Your former partner and a traitor of The Court. Before they burned the bridges between you and The Court, they were kind and understanding, even a bit protective. But it is unknown whether or not it was all an act.

They are of average height, leaning towards the tall side. Their porcelain skin is smooth but with markings carved into the palms of their hands. Their hair is wavy, reaching just past their shoulder with the colour of silver. There is a storm that rages behind their grey eyes, fury and hatred burning within. But when they look at you, the storm begins to settle and is replaced by guilt and regret.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐋𝐃𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐂𝐇 𝐆𝐎𝐃

Alzurahm [M/NB]

The horror that lives within you. They feed you power and often…their opinions. Only you can see them as they have no physical body anymore. They enjoy pretending to be what they aren’t—human.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐀𝐋𝐀𝐃𝐈𝐍 

Elias [M] 

A leader of Providence. He is someone whom you thought was long lost—your older brother.

And the sworn enemy of The Court of Night.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐎𝐑

Tiberius Cabas [M]

The man who raised you as The Vessel.

Behind the evils he’s commited, there is a part of him that still cares for you even though he shouldn’t.

𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐒

Judas & Lorraine [M/F]

They’re dead :/

Hey, I’m Zico! 

The Night Abridged is intended for 17+ audiences due to the content warnings: Body horror, strong language, violence, blood & gore and possibly more. It may be changed to 18+ in the future!

This is a project of mine that I’ve been daydreaming about lately so I thought I’d try my hand at turning it into an IF. I’m a sucker for romances so there won’t be platonic routes. Apologies to anyone who’s disappointed with that!

Reblogs are much appreciated! Thanks for checking out this post! I’m still getting used to tumblr but if you have any questions, feel free to hit me up and send an ask.

ALL THESE TWENTY YEARS TRYING TO FILL THE VOID

As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh by Susan Sontag x || Love Me More by Mitski || I’m Lazy, Reckless, and Addicted to Social Media. Help! by Heather Havrilesky || artwork by @blluish x || The Singing by Kim Addonizio x || My Solo Exchange Diary (Hitori Koukan Nikki) by Kabi Nagata || The Drama of the Gifted Child by Alice Miller, trans. by Ruth Ward || Remember My Name by Mitski || artwork by @blluish x || Humpty by Mitski

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[ID:

1 : "I, in my corner, with my monstrous needs.", underlined in red

2: "I need you to love me more / Love me more, love me more / Love enough to fill me up / Fill me up, fill me full up / I need you to love me more / Love me more, love me more / Love enough to drown it out / Drown it out, drown me out". Dark red text on red background.

3: "You’re exhausted because [highlight-start] you’re looking for love every second of every day, in everything you do. [highlight-end]". Black on white; gray highlight.

4: Photograph of a ceramic sculpture of an anatomical heart. There is a big, roundish hole in its center. The heart is painted red and white to resemble the color of flesh; it darkens nearing the edge of the hole, which are black. The background is black.

5: "I don’t know what I want, only that I’m desperate for it, that I can’t stop asking." . The pic is a screenshot of an indented tumblr textpost, background set in dark mode.

6: It’s a manga comic strip that reads from right to left. It opens with a quadrangular text box: “Every part of me started going cold.”. In the middle of the strip are drawn three scenes of life, which depict a shivering woman with a bob cut (the protagonist) struggling to warm herself up: she hugs herself in a blanket near a heater (1), she bathes in hot water (2), she buries herself under a futon dryer (3). Near each scene there’s written, in order,: “HEATER” (1), “BATH” (2), “FUTON DRYER” (3). Over the third scene, with an arrow pointing to it, there is an additional text that reads: “APPARENTLY, YOU’RE NOT SUPPOSED TO DO THIS…”. The strip closes with another quadrangular text box: “No matter what I did, I couldn’t warm up”. The blanket, the hot water and the futon, all in pink, are the only colored parts of the strip.

7: “It is thus impossible for the grandiose person to cut the tragic link between admiration and love. In his compulsion to repeat [underline-start] he seeks insatiably for admiration, of which he never gets enough because admiration is not the same thing as love. It is only a substitute gratification of the primary needs for respect, understanding, and being taken seriously —needs that have remained unconscious. [underline-end]”. After a line of blank space, the text continues: “ [...]If his success the previous night only serves as the denial of childhood frustrations, then, like every substitute, it can only bring momentary satiation. [underline-start]In fact, true satiation is no longer possible, since the right time for that now lies irrevocably in the past. [underline-end]The former child no longer exists, nor do the former parents. The present parents—if they are”. Black on white.

8: “[highlight-start] I need something bigger than the sky /Hold it in my arms and know it's m

ine [highlight-end] / Just how many stars will I need to hang around me / To finally get somewhere I can be all done / Somewhere like heaven”. Black on white; pink highlight.

9: Photograph of a ceramic sculpture of the nude upper body of a woman. She has pale skin, black length shoulder black hair with bangs and closed eyes. Her expression is one of resignation, sorrow and hopelessness. Like in the heart before, there is a big roundish hole through the middle of her chest. It’s edges are red, though, and the color slowly fades on the skin. It’s the same shade of red of her cheeks (that goes up to her eyes, making her look like she has just finished crying), mouth, nose and chin. The background is black.

10: “I broke what you gave me / But you kept giving more / And I'm sorry for taking / [highlight-start] But I keep wanting more, more, more, oh [highlight-end]”. Black on white; dark gray highlight over white text.

/END ID]

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Why do we do this thing where we're like "You wouldn't do this to another marginalized community."

I just saw a video of a bi person going "people act like the only bi woman is white and middle class, but they don't do that with lesbians or gay men." I immediately thought "Yes they do, though."

I've seen people say it with "You wouldn't say it about Jews" as a talking point against racism, with examples that I've definitely seen happen to Jewish people. "You wouldn't say this to a Black person" about comments I've seen Black people receive.

"Don't tell me I can heal my invisible disabilities with enough willpower, you wouldn't say that to a wheelchair user!" - they do though.

It's rare that a bigoted mindset doesn't replicate itself across groups. There are specifics for each marginalized group, but if a shitty attitude exists towards one, it most likely exists towards others. If you haven't seen it - it's likely your positioning.

If you want to discuss an issue you experience, you don't have to use another marginalized group as an example of someone who has it better. If you're wrong and they do suffer, you just contributed to erasure.

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