Меня так заебало стонотство всей моей семьи. Типо блять

Вернулась в тумблер, думала, что сяду себе на дефицит и обратно похудею. А хрен мне. Сегодня опять зажор🤦‍♀️

Но как ни странно нужно было найти еду, которая вызвала бы отвращение. Я не знаю как это работает, но сегодня этой едой стал гранатовый сок, а точнее его запах. Бее. Хотя иногда я его пью, но сегодня прямо мерзко стало.

А вообще поражаюсь своей весенней выдержке. Я сорвалась всего один раз и после этого отсидела сутки на голоде. Учась на дистанте...

Сейчас я ем просто беспрерывно. Как прекратить, блин, я буду весить больше, чем до рпп... АААААА

Хотела бы сесть на шоко или опять посидеть на голоде, но учёба...

physically i’m here but mentally i’m floating face down in a river

Posting on Tumblr is like talking to your cat. You don’t know if they are listening, and you don’t know if they care, but for some reason, it still helps.

How am I mentally ill but not skinny

where is the justice

Вчера случилась истерика из-за еды. Мой отец сказал, когда мама предложила ему что-то из съестного, : "нее, я же не Соня, чтобы столько жрать". Сука. Расцарапала себе все руки и хожу теперь только в водолазке.

Ем через силу.

Потом опять будут кп?

Сегодня первый день учёбы. Мне скинули материалы к олимпиадам по русскому и литературе (я прошла на регион). Я н и ч е г о не понимаю. Не в смысле, что у меня мозги не работаю, а в смысле, что это просто не мой уровень совсем. Писать уже в четверг и в пятницу. Страшно.

Подняла калории до 1200. Не взвешиваюсь, так как это жутчайший триггер. Я понимаю, что до минималки далеко, как до луны пешком.

Рада, что перестала заниматься танцами, где нас взвешивали всех вместе. А ещё мерки для костюмов снимали...

Защемило спину. Хожу еле-еле. Тоже спасибо танцам за старые травмы.

😶

Блять

Eating Disorder Recovery Websites

1) http://eatingdisorderrecovery.com/index.php/home - Features a free eating disorder recovery workbook that helps you manage eating disorder symptoms. Includes blogs to help inspire eating disorder recovery. Allows visitors to post and discuss problems and questions in a forum that is monitored.

2) http://www.recoveryboat.com/ - A website that offers peer support for eating disorder recovery. This site includes a forum for those struggling. It also provides basic information about eating disorders for those suffering and those supporting a loved one who is suffering. Lastly, it provides some therapy exercises that can help overcome eating disorder behaviours and symptoms.

3)      http://www.something-fishy.org/ - An all exclusive website that provides a treatment finder, forums, eating disorder information, hotlines, and more. This site even includes resources for books and self-help worksheets to help combat eating disorder symptoms and behaviours.

4) http://www.webiteback.com/ - A pro-recovery website that exists to help others overcome their eating disorder and to combat pro-ana websites. This site provides a forum for users to post on to get advice and share struggles of their eating disorder. This site also provides an extensive resource list for those struggling.

5)  http://www.nedic.ca/index.shtml – The National Eating Disorder Information Centre. This website features all you need to know about eating disorders. It has a resource library that includes links on where to get help. NEDIC runs public service announcements and campaigns that you can get involved with in your own community.

6) http://www.eatingdisordersblogs.com/ - This site is a compilation of blogs written by different people to help inspire you to overcome your eating disorder. You can find blogs written by Doris Smeltzer, Karen Koenig, and even Jenni Schaefer. These blogs provide information on eating disorders, skills you can use to recover, and resources you can access.

7) http://www.mirror-mirror.org/ - This is a site dedicated to help promote awareness for eating disorders. It helps to educate about the dangers of eating disorders. It also has links to resources on getting support for your eating disorder. It provides information on relapses and has a relapse prevention plan. It gives a lot of ideas on coping skills to deal with the hard emotions you feel instead of using eating disorder symptoms.

8) http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/ - This website is dedicated to advocacy for eating disorder recovery. It provides resources to help teach about what eating disorders really look like. This site provides resources for recovery as well. This is the organization that holds the National Eating Disorder Awareness Week, held at the end of February. This site provides stories of hope that encourages others to seek out recovery.

9) http://eatingdisorderscoalition.org/ - Advocacy at its best! This site is your guide to help get legislators and representatives to hear your voice and get legal action for eating disorder help and recovery. You can find facts and information about eating disorders on this site. You can learn how you can advocate and lobby for eating disorder recovery at the federal and state level.

10) http://www.mentorconnect-ed.org/ - A website that pairs mentors and mentees together to help support those in eating disorder recovery. The purpose is to pair those who have been in recovery and those who are struggling with an eating disorder to share experiences, provide guidance and to help each other through the journey of recovery. 

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