Sometimes I Can Spend Hours Thinking About How A Lot Of Gay Stereotypes (fast Walking, Weird Sitting,

there are few things that bring together jaded thirty-somethings and eighteen year olds high on caffeine and lean, but I think the one (1) thing that does is 30/90 by Andrew Garfield. Like

36 year old man with a mortgage who gets an uncomfortable feeling of dread in the back of his throat when he sees how the things he loved as a kid are now relics of a dead past: Gettin’ older sucks, huh?

18 year old kid, shaking from adrenaline high and terror, watching as the blue ‘one’ and ‘eight’ candles on their cake burn down to piles of wax because blowing them out will make it Real, and they’re suddenly on the verge of tears because they’ll never be small enough to cry on their mother’s lap again and they can’t play in the mud anymore and they’re being thrown into something grey and void of rest, knowing that the years that they can spend getting drunk and spraying graffiti on buildings (already a failed attempt at prolonging youth) are running out like grains of sand in a relentless hourglass: Yeah :(

the fatherless community has 𝙣𝙤𝙩 forgiven Qi Rong

How I see the tgcf timeline as someone who hasn’t gotten far enough to have my theories proved or not

(Note: this is based on what little evidence I’ve been given and mostly fandom spoilers)

Sp firstly, Jun Wu is a dope ass prince but has his kingdom all die to a volcano (I think) and ends up living what is basically a parallel to Xie Lian’s life (will touch on that later) but ends up becoming the emperor of heaven and just all around a real ominous dude. Before that, he became that half-smiley half-frowny dude (white-clothed calamity I think? Or, he might have just dressed up as that during the fall of Xianle? Idk yet)

He uses his little heaven binoculars or something and sees that Xie Lian is living his best life in Xianle and is an incredibly dope ass prince, just like JW was when he was alive mortal so JW decided to go ‘Haha kin’ and ruin his entire life because ‘Body in abyss mind in paradise’ or whatever the fuck his saying is (I think it’s actually cause he’s a bitch but whatever). Xie Lian has the worst life humanly (godly?) possible after that and also almost becomes a calamity but doesn’t for some reason idk. Then he gets banished and then ascends a second time, during which he lasts a whole thirty seconds as a god and gets turned into sort of (sword of haha) a pincushion (I’ll see myself out) and then banished again. Then he ascends a third time and the Story starts, and he ends up getting a ghost boyfriend who had the hots for him cause he caught him one time when he yeeted himself off a building. Eventually HC fucking dies somehow, idk how that happens. Qi Rong gets turned into a lamp somehow and now Guzi is traumatised (I think it was Lang Qianqiu (Who has a tiger for some reason btw) who did it?Fuck if I know. Also right before getting lampified Qi Rong might take Jun Wu’s side in something he shouldn’t which I honestly can’t say is out of character cause he’s a little shit. Anyways)

After all the mt tong’lu shit (that’s where I’m at rn) I imagine everyone tries to beat the shit outta Jun Wu and that’s probably where Hua Cheng dies, but idk. Will update later when I can be bothered to read more.

You ever have a dream that makes you just So Concerned, but not for the traditional reasons. Like, I don’t mean “omg I had a dream about doing bad stuff I must be insane” but moreso. I had a dream last night where I found out I had a stalker who was obsessed with me romantically. For some reason my choice of action was to lay next to him in my garden (because he had been watching through my window) and demand that he share his cigarette. I don’t know why, but I had the oddest desire to indulge him. Anyways this is concerning solely because it reveals a frightening amount about my self-preservation instincts. Or lack thereof.

Personally, I’m starting to think fake allies are worse than outright bigots.

Sure, some asshole in a park will call me a faggot and it sucks, but there’s something so insidious and cruel about someone who claims to support you but who won’t do the bare minimum for your community’s pain. Someone who tweets ‘trans rights are human rights’ again and again like mantra but won’t stop supporting the Worst Person Alive in favour of continuing to read a kids’ book about wizards. Someone who wears ‘Ally’ t-shirts and ‘love is love’ pins with every outfit but won’t stop eating a fucking chicken sandwich brand. Someone who claims to fight for your rights but actively contributes to the harming of those same rights, despite how fucking easy it’d be not to. I’d rather you just call me a tranny fag or whatever at this point. If you’re gonna be a piece of shit, at least grow a pair and go all the way.

Nothing is more painful than when the song you’re hyperfixating on can’t be connected in any way, no matter how hard you try, to your current special interest.

The worst part about having normal hobbies is that there aren’t any blowtorches or heavy machinery involved. I was born to wear cool goggles while I set shit on fire, and forced to do digital art like a normal teenager. This is bullshit.

TELL ME THESE FUCKERS WERE NOT IMPLYING HE WEARS FUCKING JORDANS

drawing fanart is so funny cause you notice details that you wouldn’t notice normally but make you actively murderous. Like what the fuck do you mean my wife walks around with these on his feet.

I am about to end up with an entire list of countries in which I am not welcome while in possession of my head and pulse

anime women in the 90’s versus now. I’m violent.

I’m biting people

When Daniel Howell started opening up about how much he hates shipping culture surrounding his relationship with Phil, but I never did that shit even as a kid so I get to watch people getting shamed for their fucked up behaviour