A Memory Of Hope

I feel like some people need to relearn Genre Expectations... "Man, this tragedy sucks!!! Why didn't they just do XYZ, then everything could have ended happily!!" well, then it wouldn't be a tragedy, would it. "Man, this lighthearted teen romcom is terrible, it's so sappy and unrealistic!!" Well, yeah. If it had been gritty and dark, it wouldn't have been a lighthearted romcom, would it. Is the writing actually bad or are you just trying to order a milkshake from a Home Depot

In my defense your honor I had really good music on and it made me want to do something evil

My issue with writing Julian POV is that I don’t think Julian is actually self-aware enough to realise how mind-blowingly attracted to Garak he actually is, no.

I think he would be in denial about it conciously, because Garak is a dangerous Cardassian who may or may not be a spy. Julian would filter his attraction through whatever justifications he can for why he’s not ~really~ attracted to him. (While blushing and being flustered by Garak’s overt attraction and flirting back like his life depends on it for reasons he will conveniently brush over in his head.)

But you see, I cannot conceive that anyone could ever, ever look at Garak and not immediately be overcome with lust that makes them dizzy. I can’t imagine having someone who looks like that approach so blatantly flirty and not just immediately following them back to their store to do whatever the fuck they tell you for as long as they want.

So it’s very hard for me to write Julian not being immediately on his knees for Garak because it baffles me that he didn’t just throw himself at Garak over the table in that replimat to begin with.

Maybe it’s my bizarre taste in men talking but how did this scene not end with Julian following him back to his store and being like “Yes, sir, what do you want to do with me, sir”.

julian bashir stutters !!!

which yknow he was kinda upset about because he felt so dumb to people. he knew he was intelligent, but he just couldn’t articulate it in a way that other people could understand. he always paused during his sentences, letting his words catch up to his thoughts. tripped over words, tongue going to the next syllable before he even got to the first.

and when people hear those pauses and breaks, it’s like they forget about everything else. screw theoretical hyperbolic geometry applications to worldly development, it wouldn’t fucking matter if he mixed the words up.

but, it does hide him. hides him well. because no matter how smart you are, how enhanced or augmented, it doesn’t matter if you have a stutter.

He's gay he's a patholical liar he's a political exile his boyfriend is the stations wannabe pass around party twink who can't actually get anyone to pass him around or party

I'm painting all of DS9's main characters (+ some others) in my sketchbook ( because I want to look at them whenever possible) and so far all of them look sort of not good, but I really like how Garak turned out :) Also, I've started listening to ASIT, but I get really embarrassed listening to it for some reason, so let's hope I can push through that.

LMAOOOOO IM LISTING TO THE GARAK BOOK RIGHT NOW AND IT'S JUST HIM TRAMA DUMPING TO BASHIR FOR 20 HOURS STRAIGHT... I can't stop picturing Bashir listening to all of Garaks messages like:

POV: you're a cardassian space vole and the twink doctor is tryna grab you with his little grabbers

"You made me into a better person, and now here I am without you, feeling incomplete. But in completely unrelated news, you're always welcome to come spend time with me."

What Garak says at the end of ASIT vs what he means:

"I'm an unfinished man" - please come help finish me

"you would never judge me as harshly as I judge myself, you would never deny me opportunity of a second chance" - you saved me, any good I do is because of you

"I'm getting on with my life" - I wish you were here

"you're always welcome, doctor" - I love you I miss you I love you I love you I miss you I love you I trust you I miss you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you

STRANGE NEW WORLDS ― S3 TEASER TRAILER P1