modern empath crisis of faith
ive reached s4 in my ds9 rewatch and i love that sisko is surprised later on when he finds out he intimidates worf bc its so obvious why. in his very first episode sisko comes to worf and has a brief conversation with him before precisely explaining to him how hes only running away from starfleet because he falsely associates the uniform with the grief he's experienced while wearing it, but abandoning it won't help him cope with his grief so why not stay and take up a job on ds9. and worf, having been here like 24 hours maybe less, standing there having had his whole internal conflict laid bare by a man he's really only just met, after seven years serving under captain picard who was very supportive but ultimately oblivious when it came to his officers personal problems, has no option but to surrender to Being Percieved and say thanks Sisko I'll consider it. and then he takes a job on ds9.
two episodes later he comes to sisko to admit to having fucked something up and sisko's like i already know. gossip moves faster than official reports here it's one of the unwritten rules of this station. you're probably finding it difficult to intuite those but that's okay, something tells me you're gonna fit in to this dysfunctional workplace full of freaks and exiles :) and Worf again having had his whole deal casually intuited and laid out before him is just like nodding politely while internally deciding never to fuck with sisko no matter what
Well would you look at that!!
Another reason I like to write Garak as gentle is I don't think he or Bashir has had a lot of gentleness in their lives.
Part of it is just me projecting my sensory issues onto Bashir, but because of the heavy autism coding you get the feel that Bashir has spent a lot of his life in performance. He doesn't get to have boundaries with his parents. His parents probably wouldn't let him avoid things that trigger sensory issues or physical touch, so he learns that the world is something harsh that he doesn't get to flinch away from and neither do others.
So he spends a lot of his adult life bashing into others boundaries because that's what he's been taught is normal. And they react angrily, rightfully so, but the result is that the only contact Bashir has with people for a long time is them mistreating him and disliking him because of the abuse he's been taught is love. Combine that with all the toxic masculinity you get coming off him, it paints a picture of a man who isn't treated gently. He knuckles down and when human contact is finally given, he takes what's offered desperately.
There are no soft touches for a starving man, no gentle caresses or kind words - just the desperation of a person who wants to feel grounded and human. So I like to give him what he seems to have been denied.
I come barring art. I hope y’all like them.
Here we have another batch of uniforms because I’m indecisive and I can’t just stick to one idea.
And here we have Barbie’s Communicator, Phaser, and Tricorder.
What if Meru fell pregnant while under Dukat's """care""" and Kira was born into that gilded cage. She was raised by her mother, and Dukat to some extent, until she was 2 or 3; too young to really remember anything. Hand-wavey attack by the Bajoran resistance happens, and while Meru is killed in the skirmish, Kira is rescued and eventually ends up with Taban and her brothers, Reon and Pohl. When she's old enough, Taban tells her a lie about who her actual sire is to keep her safe. He raises her as his own daughter, basically following along with canon, except now she's half-Cardassian.
And that comes with all the internalized hatred, and micro/macro aggressions from everyone around you and interpersonal trauma that you can imagine :))) As she gets older she learns to support inwards, vent outwards and use that resentment as a weapon. But she comes out of her youth a much harder and more guarded person than in canon. Kira was raised 100% culturally a Bajoran, and refuses to have anything to do with her Cardassian heritage. btw Dukat knows she's (ONE OF) his fuckin long-lost illegitimate half-Bajoran daughter immediately bc of the family name, Kira. He keeps it to himself ofc, and does not let it slow his roll with being a massive pest towards her. If anything he desires her respect and admiration even more bc that's his. Also I have to add from @destroyersopera: "given all that she's been through and her experience with cardassians that she reads dukats interest in her as creepy lust when in this case it's just that he knows she's his daughter so naturally wants her approval" something something the way that would color so many episodes, "Cardassian", "Indiscretion", "Return to Grace", "Covenant" !!!! just of the top of my head. Dukat being So Pleased when Kira wants him to leave Ziyal on the station for her safety etc etc. The FALLOut when Kira realizes Ziyal is her sister!! I still think Kira fully finds out the truth for "Wrongs Darker Than Death or Night", uses The Orb, and sees him being an Actual Doting father to her and she just I think about Kira Nerys, Dukat's illegitimate half-Bajoran daughter a lot.
A recent commission of Worf’s son, Alexander Rozhenko, in a custom Starfleet uniform that reflects his Cossack heritage ✨
As someone with Tatar Cossack roots myself, this was such a blast to work on! I love when commissions let me get creative with all the details :)
Commissions are now open indefinitely, btw, so feel free to reach out if you’ve got an idea you’d like to bring to life!
This version is downscaled and watermarked at the client’s request. Please don’t copy to other sites.
odo thinking he's finally gonna catch quark this time
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garak, with a mildly twisted ankle: HELLO?!? whose dick do i have to suck to get PRIORITY MEDICAL TREATMENT around here???!? sisko, with a stress migraine: don’t answer that. nobody answer that question.
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