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[3:18 pm]
"If I give up... would someone even care? If I stopped breathing... would someone actually miss me? I cannot find any reason to stay alive if this is how I am going to live. I just want to rest in peace." You kept whispering these words to yourself while crying in the corner of a dark room.
"You shouldn't think of this. If you can’t find a reason to stay alive I can help you, but just keep in mind that ‘this’ will not be the answer to your current problems. If you need support I will be here for you. I will always be here for you whenever you need me... okay?" You looked at the person, only then recognizing your best friend, Na Jaemin. Without thinking twice you just buried your face on his chest, allowing yourself to be pulled into his embrace while sobbing loudly and nodding slightly. "I love you way too much to let you do this to yourself." He said in a inaudibly while crying with you and holding you as if it depended on his life... and maybe it actually did.
[7:08 pm]
Xiaojun looked at you in shock and concern while you “dyed” your hair with a yellow highlighter to look like his.
What a great day to try to talk to people by sending messages, see how your messages doesn't sound good, delete them and give up on communication
“reblogs aren’t important you’re just whiny”
yeah because when you see this
tell me you don’t get annoyed.
tumblr’s algorithm only cares about posts that are reblogged, it doesn’t count likes. posts don’t get promoted or circulated when they only have likes (the way instagram functions), only reblogs matter for increasing reach on tumblr as a platform.
support content creators.
I Am: Broke.
✺.✳ ⑅ - ⑅ ┅ 971003 ┅ ⑅ - ⑅ ✳.✺
[7:43 pm]
"Will you come to my birthday party?" Hendery asked you for the hundredth time in the day. "Why you keep repeating the same question?" You was getting tired, it was already late and Hendery called you... when you should be sleeping.
"Stop avoiding the question! Just tell me yes or no!" He sounded like he was judging your behaviour and for real? He really was.
"Okay let's see. I'll see you then...?" "THANK YOU!" And with this he hung up the call.
Anyways Happy Hendery Day
MJ WHERE IS YOUR GODDAMN COVER
IN MY GODDAMN SIDE BLOG. IF YOU HAD TOLD ME EARLIER I WOULD HAVE TAGGED YOU!!
:(
happy birthday to our amazing, hilarious, and caring main rapper, quokka, mood-maker, and producer HAN JISUNG ♡ #HanOfAKind #HappyHanDay .: 00.09.14
[2:00 pm]
Your heart broke into pieces when you saw Lucas kissing another girl in the corner of a classroom. You felt your eyes getting watery the moment they broke the kiss and he looked at you with a smirk. You try to hold back your tears and run out of the school as fast as you could.
“How silly of me to believe Lucas would love me as he told me he would. He is still a player after all and I knew he wouldn't change himself just for me.” It was the only thing you could think of while crying on the way to somewhere. A place that you didn't even know where it would end up, you just knew that it would be far from him.
𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐎𝐈𝐑 — 𝐇.𝐑𝐉
requested: #5 - “Oh. I see”
Avenior ~ (n.) the desire that memory could flow backward
Huang Renjun is famous for his portraits. Every brushstroke is said to tell a story, every colour believed to show emotion, and every detail thought to symbolise parts of his own life. Well, the life he once had with you.
As he looks up to the ceiling, his eyes gloss over the white plaster beams and the arching glass windows letting in golden light. A tapestry adorned with angels and gods flows overhead, and he’s familiar with every single stroke, every lump in the fabric. He lets out a disparaging sigh and shakes his head, eyes immediately blinking away any tears. If only… If only he could go back.
…
Renjun sits amongst the grass as butterflies and ladybugs fly around him, the warm light hitting his face as he squints and tries to look at you. Through the sunlight, he manages to make out a few details: you have flowers in your hand and a comforting smile on your face.
“I love you so much.” you mutter, laying down on his chest and pressing a quick kiss to his temple.
“As do I, angel.”
He plucks another wildflower from beside him and intertwines it through your hair, stroking your cheek and laughing. Bells echo in the background and crickets chirp, Renjun couldn’t be happier. His life with you is perfect. It always would be, like destiny. And you’d be together until the end of time, right?
…
And so just as he’s ready to begin his next portrait of you, Renjun truly starts to cry. Tears cascade down his cheeks as a wail echoes through the palace. His brush is ready on the canvas, waiting for the next stroke but his fingers are reluctant to move, stuttering.
He doesn’t know what to do.
Because after all this time, Huang Renjun — the love of your life — is finally beginning to forget you.
The memory begins to fade once more and Renjun pushes away the easel, tripping over the paint as he runs out of the hall. Messy maroon footsteps leave a trail after him on the slick marble floor while paintbrushes clatter against the cold tiles with every step. The fear begins seeping in, lord he can barely focus… Desperately clinging onto the memory of you smiling. He stumbles into the grand hall and frantically searches for the portraits, dragging down curtains, throwing away tarps and leaving everything around him in disarray.
Finally, a hand gently taps his shoulder, effectively stopping Renjun from doing any more damage. One of the palace groundkeepers timidly begins to speak, the uneasy expression on his face giving away too much as he fiddles with the broom beside him.
“Sir… If you’re looking for the portraits of Miss Y/N, I regret to inform you that some of them were lost in the fire last spring. The king thought it would be best not to advise anyone… Greatest apologies.“
And just like that, it feels like Renjun’s world is collapsing in on himself, his vision turning blurry as he through constricts withe very breath. It’s happening again. Through short gasps, he finally manages to speak:
"Oh. I see.”
Renjun takes off his beret and runs a calloused hand through his hair, his joints giving way as he finds himself kneeling underneath the tainted glass window, looking down at the rainbow of light at his feet.
They’re gone.
And now you’re gone. Forever.
…
“Renjun, my love…” you croak out, clinging onto his hand as you let out another ragged exhale.
“Shh, I promise you will be okay, please… They’re only a few days away, we will have the cure soon enough. Please just… Stay for a few more days angel.”
“Of course, I-I’ll try.” You offer him a small smile, lifting his hand and pressing it against your cold cheek.
A silence settles in the air as the two of you stare at each other, a despondent plea shining through your eyes. You don’t know what to tell him… You’re not going to make it. But before you can open your mouth once more, Renjun slides something up beside him, something covered in a silken tarp.
He gently places it in front of you before tearing away the fabric to reveal a portrait. It’s you and him. You’re both smiling under the midsummer sun, in the fields.
You shift closer to inspect it in more detail. Every stroke is full of love and desire. You can even see the wrinkles in the fabric of your clothes, the feathery wings of the birds and soft texture of wildflower petals. It is undoubtedly his best work yet, and you know that within months, people from all over the kingdom will come to see it in all its glory; hanging in the great hall, under the golden glow of the sun.
Renjun sees your expression and grins, pressing a kiss to your lips. You were ethereal.
His love. His muse. His everything.
Yet, just days later, you smile and let out your last breath while staring out towards the green fields, hand in hand with Renjun. And eventually, a whisper echoes through the halls as everything turns cold. The birds stop singing as the sun hides behind the clouds. A rough breeze flows through the fields below as the words fall from your lips.
“Please don’t forget me.”
…
Renjun slams his fits down and staggers up, wiping his red eyes and running back to his unfinished portrait. How he wishes he could go back in time, back to those memories and back to you. He wishes he could have made at least one more and now Renjun prays that he can paint your face one more time and show it to the world.
With that, he picks up his brushes and the pallet, fixing his beret and breathing in slowly.
One more time. He had to paint again, for you. Just one more time.
The strokes of colour flow once more on the canvas, covering the dull beige fabric and creating a world of emotions. With every flick of his wrist, Renjun begins to feel the warmth again.
But… He never finishes it.
The portrait is hung up in the grand hall, and people from all over rush in, immediately pointing towards the ceiling. Half of your face hasn’t been completed, the painting only showing a dissolving figure. And Renjun knows that is exactly the way it should have been. He was alright. You were still there, together again with him, for eternity.
The villagers all stare upwards, some even able to make out the gold inscription on the frame.
‘My love you may disappear forever yet I will be okay for as long as this portrait hangs above, I know you are beside me for another day’
And yangyang memes too :/
I need yuta, winwin, doyoung, taeil and mark memes and Lucas pics so if you can do it please send me some :/
I need yuta, winwin, doyoung, taeil and mark memes and Lucas pics so if you can do it please send me some :/
IT'S PLAYING BLACKPINK'S ICE CREAM ON THE RESTAURANT NEXT TO ME! WTF? IS A ITALIAN RESTAURANT?!
Yes I fucking love my moots and they have my whole fucking heart. How did you find out?
to all my moots or literally anyone, please feel free to tag me in your works!
i feel like i don’t read enough of my moots’ works and plus the added workload from uni, I barely have time to search for them myself so please tag me if you can/want!
How come this year gets even more shittier? 😤
The person I reblogged this from is super cute and deserves to have a nice day
@yayhei DON'T JUST JUMP TO THE CONCLUSION I NEVER HEARD OR MR. WHISKERS! I WAS JUST J O K I N G.
YOU UNCULTURED SWINE. FRANKENWEENIE YOU HAVE TO WATCH OR I WILL FITE >:OOOOOO AND MARJORIE HAVING NOT EVEN HEARD OF MR. WHISKERS. BITCH YOU WATCH THE F U C K I N G MOVIE
PAHAHJAHHAHAHDJASDSADSAGDASGDASGDHG
09:45
You recorded the dreamies blowing out the candle on their cake.
As you smiled you panned across them, to show all of their faces, all 7 of them grinning like fools. You then zoomed on the cake, which they hadn’t destroyed yet. It was a beautiful cake that read Happy 4th Anniversary, and once you gave them the okay, they cut into it.
All of a sudden Jisung had frosting all over him, and Haechan and Chenle were giggling hysterically. You shot them a pointed look, as if to say, really? you really had to do that? and saw Mark giving them a similar look. Then everyone was laughing, including the cake-smothered Jisung.
Once he had cleaned up, you all ate what was left of the cake. You were all really glad that jisung wasn’t wearing any makeup and had just washed his face.
You were all grinning at each other, before the boys shared a group hug. As if on cue…
“Yo Dream!”
“ 쩔어주자, 화이팅 !”
A/n: 1.The translation might not be accurate, i tried my best(read: I used google translate). 2. HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY DREAM!
Get to know me tag! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ
tagged by: @regularhuhhh thank you for tagging me :]
relationships: never had one :/
break-ups: I can't have a break-up if I never dated someone (right?)
kids: I don't have one
brothers and sisters: I have a younger brother
pets: three cats
surgeries: never had one
tattoos: I have got some tattoos but the temporary ones, never real tattoos
countries you’ve been to: USA and Argentina
been in an airplane: yes
been in an ambulance: never
i sing karaoke: yes, I love singing!
ice skating: yes, but only 2 or 3 times
been on a cruise: yes, only one time and I don't want to go back
driven a motorcycle: never in my whole life and I don't really want to
ridden a horse: yes! almost every year
stayed in a hospital: no
favourite fruit or berry: pitaya, strawberry and watermelon
favourite color: red, purple and green (and black and white if you consider them colors even if they are shades idc)
last text: "if you were a transformer you would be optimus fine" - (it was the end of a little pick up line fight)
coffee or tea: tea but I drink coffee more often.
favourite pie: lemon pie
favourite pizza: maybe pepperoni pizza idk
tagging : @give-seconds @dearyongs @ovelha-colorida-v @mona-devilthatdraws @starsandsoul @yayhei @sleepyyangyang (if someone already tagged you sorry and if you don't want to do this is ok)
aesthetic tag
tagged by: @theleemark (sorry for taking so long btw)
rules: bold the aesthetics you relate to and add 20 of your own aesthetic qualities for others to bold :)
[soft] baby pink | iridescent | glitter is always a good option | no bra | minimalistic tattoos | cherry patterns | sweet scented perfumes | wearing generous amounts of blush | doodling hearts | getting excited to pet an animal | fun nails | rewatching old barbie movies | hair sticking to glossed lips | heart shaped sunglasses | taking pictures of the sunset or sunrise | stuffed animals | protecting nature | stickers everywhere | teen movies | the light rain that falls from a clear sky at the beginning of the night
[dark academia] neutral tones | masculine outfits | studying languages | worn down copy of books | grey skies | turtleneck sweaters | loose fitting pants | hair tied with a silk ribbon | trying to remember a cool difficult word you read somewhere to use in a convo | thick belts | minimal makeup | windows fogged by rain | vintage jewelry | blouses with cuffed sleeves | reading a murder mystery and trying to solve it | oxford style shoes | sweater vests | subtitled old movies in a language you don’t speak | leaves crackling as you walk | annotating books to express your emotions about the story
[edgy] closet full of dark clothes | fishnet tights | makeup sweating off | neon signs | searching for unknown songs | chokers | band tees | doodling on old converses | finding smoking aesthetically pleasing but not doing it | weird humor | accidentally very dramatic | dim lights | layered outfits | chain belts | chipped nail polish | messy hair | low quality pics | piercings | combat boots | scribbling on desks
[seventies] colourful wardrobe | doodling flowers | wearing short shorts | using a bikini top or bra as a normal top | listening to ABBA | flowers in your hair | DIYing everything | jamming to songs alone in your room | drunkenly telling your friends you love them | patterned bandanas | mid heeled shoes | messy braids | flared sleeves | walking barefoot on grass or sand | bold sunglasses | the good kind of tired you get after doing something you enjoy for hours | feeding stray animals | fun patterned socks | room decorated with succulents and other plants | likes to go roller skating or skateboarding
[preppy casual] collared clothes | drinking juice out of a champagne glass | getting excited to see the met gala looks | thick headbands | small pastel cardigans | making your friends take your ootd pics | plaid mini skirts | tweed two pieces | watching reality tv to pass time | frilly tops | watching old hollywood movies | academically driven | long manicured nails | new year’s eve fireworks | colorful tights | layered golden jewelry | yearns for luxury brand items | decorating your room with fairy-lights | cursive and neat handwriting | lace details
[parfaitjoon] old book smell | doodles of eyes | stained paint palettes | jewel tones | sleepy eyes and red noses | always blushed cheeks | plushies with sentimental value | keroppi | ever-switching aesthetics | chunky trainers | curvy bodies | blurry vision | analysing movies | shouting when excited | green eye shadow | cool fresh water | tiny frogs | thirst for knowledge | random facts
[dreamiehrs] playing Roblox for 3 hours straight | loud laugh that could probably make someone deaf | listening to music 24/7 | hot chocolate on a chilly day | skirts galore | cat lady | has 2 fans on at all times | hibernates during the summer (not literally) | binge watching tons of anime episodes in one day | dark circles underneath their eyes | is on Tumblr 24/7 | loves buying merch | does online shopping in the middle of class | cannot go 1 day without screaming about their faves | having a dance party in their bathroom while getting ready for the day | has an obsession with buying tiny plants | lowkey never goes outside | wanting to write the day away | has millions of lists for every little thing | cannot stop doing the Chika dance
[bumblebeenct] midnight milkshake runs | listening to 80s music in the car with friends | bees moving flower to flower | study posters | too much stationary | drinking games | sunsets on the beach | studio ghibli piano playlists | starting a tv show and forgetting to finish | long-distance skype calls | having a song for every occasion | flared jeans | vintage 50′s dresses | jumping to a rock song at a party | bathroom mirror selfies | doctor martens | lanyard with keychains | movie days with friends | late night horror movies | too many blankets
[theleemark] memorizing flowers & their meanings | falling in love with fictional characters | late night car rides | mom jeans | sunflowers & sunshine | poetry | drinking tea | purple photoshoot aesthetic | falling asleep with a stuffed animal | stress baking | being the mom friend | random pick up lines | crime podcasts | stargazing | always sending love (sometimes through wholesome memes) | ice cream dates | spontaneous adventures | falling in love with cities | loving chocolate | 2 am guitar jams | soft rain with lofi music
[staymoarmyzen] play odd and unpopular games | loving biology, math and psychology | know the scientific name of some flowers & animals for fun | bad photographer | memes and smash keyboard | would still believe in santa claus if no one had told the truth | jump when excited | dolphin scream | emoticons over emojis | can accidentally use two different languages while talking | dress either as colorful as a kid and as dark as a gothic | loud laughter and mute laughter | would most likely know the lyrics of a song but won’t know the name of the song | discussions about mythical creatures and aliens existence | can read upside down | animes over netflix series | do origamis during boring classes | extrovert | loving bowling & karaoke | nerdy
tagging: @mona-devilthatdraws @give-seconds @ovelha-colorida-v @hwanunjin (if you were already tagged I am sorry and if you don’t want to do this is ok)
tag ppl you’d like to get to know better!
tagged by: @dreamiehrs and @weictzen :D ty ig (I am feeling anxious for nothing, HELP) (>~<)
favorite color(s): red, purple, green (mainly dark green), yellow (childhood favorite color actually but I think is a happy color so I kinda like it) and also... black and white are considered colors?
last song I listened to: I think it was... "Okay by Chase Atlantic"? (actually it was my own song 🤢 and before that was one of my group covers and I don't remember the name of the song😔)
favorite musicians: many kpop groups and soloist like chungha, boa, ailee, Jaehyun, zico, nct, stray kids, 3racha (can you consider it please?) and others (if I say all of them it will get boring)
last show I watched: [... I can't remember...]
favorite characters: Sai (Hikaru no Go [anime/manga]), The ghost from cube escape [it's a game], snorlax (Pokemon), the bird from duolingo [not kidding at all], Susan (The Thing About Jellyfish [book]), Pax (Pax [book]), Cheshire Cat (Alice In Wonderland) and Christine (The Phantom Of the Opera)
sweet, spicy, or savory: ...Bitter. I am not into any of these... maybe spicy even tho I can't eat anything too spicy '^'
sparkling water, tea, or coffee: wth is the first one? I guess coffee but I can't drink coffee that much... and I love tea too... yeah the answer is tea nevermind.
pets: my brother... Aslan, a cat (the older one), Caspian, also a cat (younger than Aslan) And Oprah, another cat (a she and the younger between the three of them) I HAD A LIZARD! But it ran away in the little (not so little) grove (I guess I can call it that) in my old little city :(
tagging: ... maybe... @give-seconds @starsandsoul @vegetablepacket @ovelha-colorida-v @mona-devilthatdraws @yayhei @gardenpebble @mozartwasajungkookstan (if you had already being tagged sorry and if you don't want to this is ok)
Baby We Go Wild
Enemies to lovers!au, snowmobiling!au (?)(don’t ask,I didn’t know how to say it), enemy!Jeno, teammates! Renjun, Haechan, Ryujin, and Somi, Opposing team! Jeno, Jaemin, Lia, and Yuna, female reader
Description: Jeno hated you. You hated him right back, but as your seasonly match came up, you felt something change in the air. You weren’t sure what it was but you weren’t gonna let it keep you from winning and breaking the record of most wins.
Continuar lendo
hey cutie! it's theleemark aka chai! i just wanted to say tysm for tagging me heh sending you lots of love!! 💛
No problem ^w^
;w; tysm Gia~
Uh I don't think I have many people to tag here ;-;
Tagging: @ovelha-colorida-v @regularhuhhh @catallergieswillnotstopme @theleemark @hyuckiebuns @give-seconds @asheyeon @vegetablepacket
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Dear everyone, please help spread the news of what’s happening in my country, Thailand
I know that I mostly post studyblr contents, but the situation in Thailand has been getting worse and worse. Last night (August 12, 2020), police officers were seen around the dorm of Thai democracy activists, and they were (and still are) likely to be arrested because of speaking the truth. They are safe for now (August 13, 2020), but we are not certain about the future. And there’re many more democracy activists targeted by the authority.
There have been a lot of protests calling for political changes in the past few months. But almost all of the Thai media are corrupted and told not to broadcast anything about them. I myself have only seen the news about the protests from foreign news’ Twitter accounts.
Since almost all of my followers are from many countries, I’m begging you to please spread and reblog this post about the news about the current situation in my country. Here, we can be targeted just by criticizing the government or the royal family.
resources and news:
freedomforthai-en.carrd.co/
In Thailand, Students Take on the Military (and ‘Death Eaters’)
Thailand protesters ‘cross the Rubicon’ and risk all to criticise the monarchy
Thousands in Bangkok Rally Against Thai Government
Infographics about what’s been happening (Google Drive)
