I search to be completely human; to feel, to give, to talk, to laugh, to get lost, to be found, to dance, to love; to just be so human
The other day, someone broke into my car by smashing my window. This made me furious because all my identity was gone, the thought of someone else knowing my details gave me a nightmare. Not only that but now I am left with the responsibility to get the window repaired. I was full of rage and felt like the world was against me. I wanted to do bad things and prayed that the thief had something terribly absurd happen to him/her/them. I hated the person who did this and I don’t even know the person.
After so much anger , I realised this behaviour was something I was against. I acted like Emily Thorne from Revenge. The anger was eating up my peace. I took out my anger to the people who are closet to me. I felt so angry at everything. I cried because I was annoyed. Within a week, this behaviour needed to stop. I reflected and knew I had to accept what had happen, and move on. I realised I was being a sook. Why was I making a scene over something I could repair? People are suffering from illnesses, dying of hunger, fighting to stay alive, and I’m over here crying over a stolen wallet.
Bad things will happen but we cannot let these bad things take away our happiness. Some people are raised up with no love, all they see around them are hate and how to survive on a daily basis. I need to not cry over a materialistic item and focus on the real humanity issue.
The Rock Bar is locate at Asanya Resort, Although we didn’t stay at this resort we still wanted to see the one and only Rock Bar. A $15.00 taxi ride from our hotel got us to the Rock Bar, the line was ridiculously long and fortunately the weather wasn’t on our side. We ended up getting one cocktail (price ranges from $13-$20) and than got forced to leave as there was no under cover area for us to stay dry and sheltered.
You know that saying 'when one door closes, another opens'? Well I'm in this predicament except without an open door of opportunity, not just yet, and don't know when. So I'm just going with the flow. Living within the usual routine. Work, home, see friends, eat, sleep, repeat. The idea of moving on from the last chapter I can't grasp. Maybe I'm just afraid to actually grow up and start making a living. I kind of don't want to yet. The thought of waking up every morning and going to work really is unpleasant. I want to go into the world and grow up this way. I don't know why people go to uni and get into the work field straight away. I'm the total opposite. I just finished my degree and I don't want to work. It's not because I won't enjoy the work, it's because I don't want to start working as of yet, I feel like this may take away the opportunity for me to be gypsie (a person who moves from one place to another). I don't think there's anything wrong with this pathway. The best way to grow up physically, mentally and intellectually I believe is through the interactions with people of different cultures, to be in an unusual environment and to fully seek the unknown. This will be the new door open to me and I will happily walk through it.
Love and stress: Multitasking doesn't come easy, unless you're not aware that you are multitasking. I have found myself in a predicament that involves being childishly in love and staying focused to get through the last few weeks of university. I'm not here complaining about life, but to talk about how I feel and how I am managing this stage of my life. This stage of my life is actually the topping to a bitter dessert. I've been studying ongoing and 5 years later, I am literally coming to the end of my schooling years. In about two weeks I am officially done and can start looking for a proper job. But lately I know that I have been slacking with prioritizing uni with love. When you're in love, all that you want to do is spend every breathing second with your companion. No matter the hours and hours spent together, it just isn't enough. I could lay in bed all day without a single thought of having to get my assessments done, I could stare at his face without getting sore from smiling from happiness, I could listen to him talk for hours without being afraid to get sick of his voice. It feels like paradise with every eye contact and I honestly don't think I could ever get sick of studying his expressions. In the other hand, I am quiet aware of the fact that I keep pushing aside work that will determine whether I will walk away as a teacher or not. I am aware that I may be enjoying the love life a little to much. I am aware that all my assesments are piling up, and they need to get done as soon as possible otherwise I will become an owl. I am aware of it all and I am somewhat stressed about it, but the advantage for me is that I am quiet a chiller when it comes to meeting deadlines. I find myself work better under pressure, knowing that I need to get it done. That is how I deal with it. I've gotten through the past 5 years of uni with this attitude and this performance. If I had done it wrong, I wouldn't be here today... So I must be doing it right... In my own way. Loving him has been the best thing that's happened to me since I bought my first ever car, which was a huge step into my pathway to becoming an independent young woman. I know that my work needs to be done, I am quiet informed of it, but being in love is just so much more fun. I will get my work done eventually.
7/11 pre BYO cup. Happy international peace day ✌️
Let it be... Ever get bother by what someone does, what they say and how they treat you? And you just bottle it all up because you just don't want to cause any conflicts? The only way I can deal with this is to just let it be and to let it go. If someone really cares, if that person really knows you they will know how to treat you, if they low how to treat you, they will treat you right. I guess it's just a matter of how to respond to the situation. Being a sensitive person, my feelings get hurt easily and I am always self aware. That is me. I don't expect everyone to be like me, and if everyone was like me, this world would be full of sookie la las. I find pleasure in writing and having a vent. It's my way of processing my annoyance with certain people and events that affect me. Best advice to myself, whatever happens happens. Just let it be. You yourself be the person to decide how you will let it affect you.
Hotel: Obviously each to their own will find a shelter that best suits them. These are the places I stayed at and I’m glad I stayed at these places as I felt like a princess.
The Aston - Uluwatu
Monday morning we get up and enjoy our buffet breakfast at the Aston. This hotel is new and has only been around for two years. It’s quiet luxurious and modern. Great view of the coastline and in the far distance is Kuta and Seminyak. For two nights here, the Ashton is very affordable ($130 per night); which includes breakfast and endless Wi-Fi. If you want to stay away from the big touristy location, Uluwatu is a great escape. Depending on your bargaining skills (mine sucks) you can go to other places quiet cheap as the location is still quiet central still.
Villa Kalisat - Ubud
The things I would do to back to Villa Kalisat!! This location is magical. Entwine with the mountain and palm tree jungle, this villa is on the edge giving you a 180degree view of what is in front you. The Villa itself makes you feel like your in a Buddist dream and definitely feels like one of them postcard advertisement you see about the Bali villas. At also an affordable price ($150 per night), which includes breakfast and Wi-Fi, you get to relax and embrace the beautiful surrounding. At the bottom of the mountain is a river, if you ask the workers nicely, someone will take you to the bottom and you can enjoy a swim looking up into the mountains. Feeling nostalgic thinking back to it.
Astanya Kunti – Seminyak
This apartment was average. It did meet our requirement, as we wanted a kitchen to cook our own meal. The four of us had this massive two-room apartment to ourself. Our room was a fair bit away from the pool so we spent most our time locked in our room under the air conditioner, as we couldn’t be bothered with the 3 mins trip to the pool. For four people, this accommodation was really affordable, highly recommended it for families with little kids or groups.
Amazing
. by peter methven on Flickr.
Soul mate
Open your mind. You will be amazed at what you learn. Listen to your heart. You will be amazed at what you already know. 🌻🌾🌳🍃🌞