Latest Posts by sustain-the-stain - Page 6

happy birthday to me

I can't find interest in.. anything, anymore.

Lately I've realized I'm just, dragging myself from place to place, and that I don't really feel much? And I thought a way to change that would be to make a list of hobbies or interests I can do.

Nothing has worked. It's been at least a week and I've spent so much time on websites trying to find something, but I really don't like anything. Do I even want to do anything?

Absolutely stunning! I love the little details with the back. I do think the gills could use a little more detail with how fluffy they are but besides that I love it. Is this your first time?

Looks what I'm making!!!!! It's a clay axolotl!

Please reblog this- I am very proud of it and I wouldn't mind the feed back!

photos of possums because i honestly feel like they're underrated and deserve more love.

AAAAAAA my school club that i've been working on since last year is finally happening i'm so excited!! :))

i'm struggling so much with who i am it's like super painful. 😃

going to help give this advice to friends i know need this.

hey, im currently living with the abusive father you have described in the past. Any tips on making it out of here alive?

Jesus. Okay, so: write everything down. Any time something happens, write down the date, time, location, what was said, what happened, who was there, whatever you can. Hide it in a book, email it to yourself or someone you trust, whatever. Keep a paper trail going, just in case you need it down the road.

Next: do whatever you need to do to become independent and move out. This sounds scarier and harder than it is- I recommend finding a roommate, getting an online bank account, and taking courses like WHMIS, Foodsafe, etc. Online whenever possible. If you're in school, take a practical class if you can- higher education is great for highbrow work, but jobs will always have openings for manual labour. If you have something like welding or foodsafe under your belt, in addition to a driver's licence, you're pretty much good to go.

Do not underestimate the value of your local library. Public libraries are where you can go for study, computer work, printing and filling resumes, and getting assistance for whatever you can't do yourself.

I personally have a hard time clearly remembering day to day life from when I lived at home, but I do recall... Shit. Like.... Feeling empty? Empty and sharp and angry and scared? Indignant, too. Vindictive. But I also started developing a dependence on conflict to manage my stress, and that took a long time to get out of.

Also, a heads up: once you get out, things will probably seem great for a while, but don't be surprised if after a few months of safety and relative stability your mental health takes a sudden dive. Whatever wasn't safe to possess during your time at home often resurfaces once your brain feels secure to do so- 

read up on signs and symptoms of anxiety, depression, post traumatic stress, hypervigilance, anxiety and panic attacks, projection, and dissociation. 

Be prepared to speak to a doctor about it- keep a record of your mental and physical health when that happens. If the first doctor you see says anything about medication being "chemical crutches" or "hysteria blowing things out of proportion", go a different doctor. Find one that listens to what you say and is respectful when giving advice and opinions. If they disagree with your thinking, they should do so politely, and without making you feel irrational or dramatic.

Next.... What really changed my life for the better was time, cognitive processing exercises, and enrolling in a self-defense class.

Learning to recognize my own irrational thought patterns resulting from my abuse was fundamental to avoid spiralling into self-destruction, and self-defense gave me back the sense of autonomy and confidence I didn't realize had atrophied.

I won't lie- I'm not strong or fast or skilled enough to actually win a fight if someone intends to do me harm, but almost as valuable is the awareness that I am now *allowed* to defend myself. Encouraged, even! When someone touches me without my permission, I don't have to grit my teeth and wait it out. I now have the knowledge that I am able to react in self-defense, which seems obvious, but there is a very great difference between *knowing* and *comprehending*, after all. Working through that with other people certainly made that click.

Most importantly: the future probably feels very murky and abstract and far away, right now. But no matter what happens, your future will become your present, and you have in you the power to be whoever you want to be.

Life will bring you wonders you aren't yet equipped to comprehend, and that is a very encouraging truth.

I promise that you haven't yet imagined the good things waiting for you on the other side of the wall.

Please stay safe, and take care. I wish you the best of luck

right now i'm in a crisis where i have no idea what my style is and it's driving me insane you have no idea.

i love my bass guitar but i hate how much my fingertips ache for like, days afterwards? 😃

i saw a big slug on a small rock today and now i'm complete

like please, they're so good, and for what?

here, take these mushroom photos to feed your obsession.

“There are millions of users on tumblr”

No there are only 7 of us and we all agressively rb each other’s posts

give me your whole stock

a few days ago i woke up thinking: snails are cute, but what if they had legs?

so i made this, and i was like "aww yeahhh such a funny animal"

and then a second image popped up in my head

what if they acted like dogs?

YEAAAAHHHHH HAPPY PUPPY SNAIL

sick of wanting to write stories but afraid they're too cliché and overused so i end up not writing anything even though these stories are for nobody else but myself.. :((

honestly i like this it seems pretty cool man

HELLO MY LOVELIES WELCOME TO MY ACCOUNT <3

I mostly post about Kotlc, rant, and an aesthetic I made that I decided to call Ghostcore

I mostly only post about ghostcore lol

So here is the story behind ghostcore

I could never fit into an aesthetic. I wanted to be Goblincore, and fairy grunge, and dark académia, and SO MANY OTHER THINGS ALL AT ONCE

And I thought maybe other people were having the same problem

So I made an aesthetic for those people

It’s called Ghostcore

It includes

-Dark academia

-Goblincore

-Ravencore

-Fairy grunge

-Fairycore

-Cottagecore

-Light academia

-Cryptidcore

-Angelcore

AND GHOSTCORE IS A SPECTRUM

You don’t need to fit into all of those aesthetics to be a Ghostcore

You can be just 2 or 3 of them

Or maybe just one

Or maybe all of them

It doesn’t matter

You can be any combination

Personally, today I’m feeling very Goblincore, but that will be different tomorrow

Ghostcore is open to everyone. Everyone is welcome.

I absolutely LOVE getting asks and comments on my posts <3 especially about Ghostcore because it makes me happy when people show interest in it

So ya, welcome to my blog. I hope u like it <3

you don't know how much money i'd put in to buy these i am so in love with these mushroom lanterns

cave angel

I just sneezed through my nose and it's fucking life changing dude.

i love this.

Loving someone to the point of idiocy, where all rational thought goes out the window when you see them. Because you know that even if you know nothing except that you love them, that's enough.