„but You Survived“ But I Didn’t Want To Lol. I Wasn’t Supposed To. I Hate That I Did. I’m Angry

I wonder how the meteor that was supposed to hit us back in 2012 is doing and if it’s interested in hitting us now

things I've been learning since moving out of my (abusive) family home:

if you immediately stop having rage spirals that make you feel ashamed to be alive the moment you stop being around someone, they were probably the problem the whole time

having boundaries doesn't make you selfish. wanting to stop talking to your family doesn't make you selfish. you don't need to be grateful for what they did for you

you're probably not the worst person to exist. or the most worthless. or fundamentally awful. you're probably not the best either. chances are you're just normal. surprisingly hard to come to terms with this

if people offer to take care of you, it doesn't always mean they're saving it up as a reason to manipulate you later. sometimes people just want to help. and it's Good to let them do that

I don't know. I just don't know

there are few things that make my skin want to invert itself like corny, try hard kitten/daddy “bdsm” language but i cant stop using it right now it’s like i got bit by some mediocre 20 something in an ill fitting suit and i am. changing

well i guess that's fine

to stand motionless in the morning with a vacant stare and hot beverage in hand is a global phenomenon