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The more I think about the differences between how the Trojans show affection vs how the Foxes do, the more I come to the conclusion that they unwittingly created the perfect environment for Jean and Neil’s arcs respectively.

Take for example the way Cat and Laila show Jean affection. The forehead kisses, the hugs, the endless reassurance and compassion. It may go without saying but Neil would’ve hated it if he ended up in that situation. He would’ve booked it faster than you can say Wesninski. But Jean? I mean sure he was baffled at first, but the way he grows to lean into it? The way he shows affection the same way back? Jean needed that brand of affection in a way Neil won’t ever. He needed to learn that he was deserving of such love; that there are people out there now who cared about him as deeply as he does them.

Neil on the other hand needed to learn a whole different set of lessons. The Foxes showing him that they care was less such obvious displays of love and more about patience in the face of his complications. More about their willingness to stick by him when the fabricated life he clung so hard to unraveled at the seams. Jean wouldn’t have flourished as much in that environment because he didn’t need understanding as much as he needed love. He didn’t need someone to help piece his life back together as much as he needed someone to love what was already there.

Neil is like an innocent looking stray cat that the foxes still kept even when they got bit; while Jean is like an abused show dog that the Trojans nurse back to health. And good lord do I love them both for it.

WAIT who out of the AFTG characters do we think can sing??? My immediate response is Renee, Jeremy, and Andrew. Hear me out:

Renee has a very soft voice. To me, she sounds similar to artists like AURORA, Adrienne Lenker, Faye Webster, etc. I think she writes her own little songs and can play either the guitar or piano. It’s a skill the rest of her team knows of but only because she hums and sings under her breath during practices.

Jeremy has a booming voice, and it’s raspy and powerful (cue Jean swooning in the background). He sounds like Caleb Followill from Kings of Leon, maybe a bit like Bruno Mars, or Scott Stapp. He sings whenever he gets the chance; at karaoke when the team goes out after games, when he’s a bit too drunk, when he’s out with friends and is feeling chirpy.

Now. Andrew. No one knows Andrew can sing. Neil himself has only ever heard Andrew hum while he does different tasks around the apartment. But if Andrew cared for it, he could seriously bust out some pretty good 2000’s punk rock. He sounds like Chester Bennington. But no one knows this, and no one will ever find out.

I was gonna try other ideas for January’s patreon sticker but I think we might’ve got it in one here. Air jail for the feral striker

kevin day you fake IDGAFer i saw you call jean your brother and being rude to an interviewer despite your PR image, I saw you send him a new postcard when you found out what happened to the old ones, I saw you being glad Jean loves cooking, loves something, despite the fact he becomes someone you can't recognise any more. I saw you agree to keep training Neil even though he was doomed by his father, I saw you giving Dobson the clear to speak with Jean about your trauma despite not trusting her because she's Andrew's and oh yeah speaking of, I saw you promising him you'll find something he can live for and you did. you fucking liar

Jean is not making it out of the viseral homoerotic codependent friendship 🗣️‼️

midday reading

When you like dark academia aesthetic and life gives you academic stress

genuinely the most heartbreaking part in aftg like out of the whole series is at the end of the kings men when neil snaps and starts begging for his life

like his “please, just let me go, just let me go i’m not—” LIKE UGHHHH

to me it really emphasizes just how young he is…like he’s literally only 19 he’s a teenager!!! begging for his life!!!! (after trying so hard to save face in front of lola in the car it didn’t even matter in the end bc fuck i’m about to die)

and also just the parallel with andrew and his hatred in the word, that he also said please and it didn’t work

(and the fact that he probably also came to a point where he knew it wouldn’t work but he had to try and beg anyways bc there’s no way out he has no other options he has nothing to gain but nothing to lose either just please let me go—)

I don't often post like. Fandom work. But I'm very proud of this thing I colored and rendered on stream <3

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