Neil Josten is a really fucking phenomenal protagonist. Unreliable narrator or not, I really enjoyed his internal monologue. The reason I like his perspective so much is because we can we constantly see his internal conflict. He KNEW his father would find him, he KNEW about the Moriyamas and was terrified and he STILL CHOSE the Foxes and Andrew and Exy over it all. Even when he knew he was about to DIE, he told himself to that it was enough, because it was more than he ever thought he'd have.
I just- god, I love him so much. He's should be considered a national treasure. Anyway, happy birthday to Neil Abram Josten and thank you for coming to my TED talk.
Emo about Jeremy again. Wdym he still misses Leo and he keeps hoping his mother will show him warmth and sympathy, and he tracked all his father’s calls in a notebook, and hated the first time cat told him I love you because it wasn’t fair to come from her first when he’d been waiting so long. Wdym he still tries to connect with his sister and willed himself not to dream so he wouldn’t dream of Jean’s “I will choose you everytime ” out of context and lets all these men use him because at least if he’s being used he’s being thought of at all
request from @nick-c0rrupt3d of andrew and renee hanging/sparring. they go to first blood and she got him first ✨️✨️
JEAN AND NEIL. JEANEIL.
MISPLACED FOREVER PARTNERS
UNFULFILLED PROMISE
WATER AND FIRE
THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO BE PARTNERS
he's finally starting to look like I imagine him
thanks to my bestie who said I'm afraid to add some personality in his design