4.17.21. Brooklyn Center, MN

Reading 🌈

As protests against injustice in legal system, discrimination, police brutality spread through the US, it is necessary to educate yourself about these issues. 

Here are some recommendations, include both non-fiction and fiction about racism and challenges that black people face throughout their lifetimes. 

full on offense but asylums, psych wards and any other variation of mental health facilities are not and will never be an aesthetic. mental illness is not an aesthetic.

and yes, this is coming from someone who has been hospitalized several times, fully angry that a white billionaire can be her quirky silly i-need-a-lobotomy [insert a tiktok reference] self while simultaneously having access to every single health treatment in the world.

while the rest of the world struggles to have access to a diagnosis, medication or human rights pertaining mental health.

"you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me", no, taylor. YOU wouldn't last an hour in the real world, where private jets are only ever seen on television and mental illness often means you cannot get a fucking job.

So my immediate thought when watching the interview with Colbert, is that I feel like the bit about “hey Stephen” being about him, and there being all this evidence (as a bit) and her denying it, is like a parallel to all of the gaylor/kaylor evidence and then everyone (including Taylor via her pr narrative) denying it.

She says to him that if she were going to write a song about him she wouldn’t name it after him, that would be too obvious. She says songwriting “is in the details”. She even lists things that she would say about him like him being on tv, on the daily show, being 5’11” etc. when she said “I love you on the tv” it immediately made me think of “you’re a queen selling dreams, selling make up and magazines”.

At another point she describes where his exact location is in New York, which immediately made me think of “you’re the west village”. Another detail that shows the truth of a song.

The basic take away of too-obvious titles, and the truth being in the details of the song, is so LOUD. It reinforces the falseness of all of the anachronisms that we’ve been pointing out in her last four albums. Songs said to be about toe, but whose details only actually work with Karlie. Or songs that are said to be about straight relationships, but whose details seem to clearly suggest a wlw relationship. For instance, Cardigan referencing “high heels on cobblestones” and James in Betty singing “I was walking home on broken cobblestones”. The truth is in the details

Also the comment about too-obvious titles vs details made me cackle about London Boy 😂 it really is Blank Space 2.0

God there are so many other examples... “looking out the window like I’m not your favorite town/I’m New York City/I still do it for you baby” when joe has stated New York is definitely not his favorite city, but a certain lady loves it. “I’m so mystified by how this city screams your name”, etc.

She keeps giving us entire albums that are the equivalent of lyrical mood boards, covered in photos of Karlie (plus some of Emily and Sue, and other sapphic icons/characters) and then says “no I don’t know what you’re talking about, it’s from a male perspective”. And it’s so obvious that it’s a joke, just like this bit. It also stood out to me that there was audible laughter from the crew members in the studio(s). Which felt like it echoed all of us, watching Taylor pull gayer and gayer songs, themes, imagery with each album, then saying “where?” with a semi straight face, just redirecting the gps attention. And us sitting back in astonishment and delirious laughter asking “how can they not see it??”

Basic clownery

i just. can't get over "i don't want to keep secrets just to keep you" like that is the classic gay romance line. i don't want to stay closeted just to stay with you like wow. i can't handle it

literally… “i don’t want to keep secrets just to keep you” and “i love you, ain’t that the worst thing you ever heard” are just so deeply and profoundly gay i’m-

It’s giving the Blank Space MV castle. Also Cupid??? You mean the literal creature responsible for forcing people into a relationship without consent? Cool cool cool.

olivia rodrigo you have the opportunity to be the funniest human on the planet right now

Another reason I really like Marie Kondo is that in other cleaning shows the host will looked shocked at the mess and the camera will flash to different piles with dramatic music stings. When Marie sees a draw filled with clutter she smiles from ear to ear and goes “I love mess, I love tidying”. Its just so wholesome and you can see the clients are relieved that she didn’t have a bad reaction.

Llloooollll everybody in my life: did you see Taylor swift and Travis?!?!

Me: yes, very performative and pointed!

Everybody else: she finally getting married woop

Me: LISTEN to an entire cd all the way through. Just one, one time. ☝🏼 one cd, all the way through, one time. Then we can discuss.