I Got A B In Personality Disorders??? Did I Not Study Enough?

tw sui ideations + jealousy + a lotta self hate

Why does it hurt why does it hurt why does it hurt Why does it hurt so much when i find out my fp has a partner fuck fuck fuck this is so stupid i literally am dating someone romantically and my relationship with my fp is strictly platonic so why does it hurtso much when i found out xe's dating someone Am i that scared of abandonment fuck this is so stupid fuck i hate this i hate myself im so scared i might lose xyr fuck i made a mistake getting too comfortable fuck xyrd be suspicious if i just started distancing myself from xyr and our friend group but god it hurts so much god i hate relationships so much i wish i could just bury myself alive god god i dont know what to do i really wished i just killed myself i wished one of my two attempts succeeded it hurts So much to be alive knowing this i wish i didnt have bpd i wish i didnt have to deal with this i wished i was alone but i have to stay strong i guess i have to Stay alive just for everyone i love and i fucking hate it i hate being loved please stop loving me it isnt worth it please please let me die alone crying myself to sleep

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bpd + maladaptive daydreaming culture is while not indulging in anything like alcohol or drugs, instead you indulge in the other world inside your head so you dont need to be in the current, painful reality – and with a low price!

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bpd culture is when your fps tone changes alittle from how they usually talk and now you NEED to isolate yourself until they act “normal” to you again

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yeah, sorry i exhibited symptoms of the disorder i told you i have. it will happen again because i have that disorder and will continue having it. hope this helps!! 🫶🫶🫶

ND culture is getting very irrationally angry around midnight, and having no idea why… it could’ve been because I didn’t like the fanfic I was reading, or it could’ve been hormones, or it could be an ND thing, or maybe it’s some secret fourth thing (all of the above).

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bpd culture is the ironic fact that all of your splits are due to misunderstandings which are resolved in the end yet your brain still manages to convince you that "yeah this is a real one. they hate you and you're annoying" every single time

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