i have tourettes where I say sudden funny things but never any slurs because I am good boy π I have OCD but not the one that makes me really concerned about piss and shit but the movie one that makes me line things up properly nice and neat because I am a good boy π I have bipolar but not the one that makes me act embarrassingly in public because I am on the highest point of a downward curving emotional pendulum swing, but the one that makes me creative af via safely utilizing my tendency towards extreme emotions in my art (because I am a good boy π) I have autism but it's the one like from the movies where I'm good at math or being a detective, and not the one that makes other people hate me so bad they want to kill me because I am annoying to them. because I am a good boy π I have schizophrenia too but I also don't, because somehow in the cultural lexicon no one who has schizophrenia is a good boy and there is rarely a stylistic bullshit depiction of the condition, but I'm still a good boy π society knows this. society knows this.
"i had straight As in high school i don't understand why college is so hard" get tested for adhd. if you were tested as a kid and they didn't diagnose you it was cause your grades were good then but you've since lost the routine and structure in hs that kept you on top of everything so go get retested. go get tested for adhd. go
Fellow borderlines who actually caved and went crazy and angry on their fp was it worth it cuz I wanna.
Bpd culture is having two playlists for whether you love them or hate them
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final message: i love you people who were "scary" children. i love you people who attacked other people, who hurt animals, who destroyed people's things, on purpose or on accident. i love you people who got labeled "creepy" or "problem child" or "attention-seeking" or "manipulative". i love you people who got kicked out of class or suspended often, who got kicked out of schools, who transferred before you could get kicked, who didn't understand why they got in trouble. i love you students who failed classes, who'd cry in class, who'd sleep through class, who got sent to unhelpful counselors. you weren't at fault for being a struggling child, and i love you if you struggle feeling overwhelmingly guilty for how you acted as a child, and i love you if you dont. i especially love you if you struggle to see yourself as a good person because of whatever you did as a child. i love you people who cant remember what you did, but are told it makes you bad. you are not defined by the actions of your child self, and you are able to choose who to be as you are now. if you have the capacity and interest to make amends, you can, and its also okay to not do that and just leave it all behind. i love you all the same.
bpd question, what exactly is splitting? i hear abt it a lot and i think i might have bpd but i canβt figure out what it is lmao
Splitting is an extreme change in thinking, and this can go both positive and negative (or black and white)
Splitting white is when you idealize and idolize someone, thinking they're the best person ever and nobody can ever compare to them, that they have no flaws, and that they'd never hurt you in any way, intentionally or unintentionally. That they always love you. They make you feel the happiest you've ever been.
Splitting black is the opposite of that. Devaluing someone, thinking that they're the worst person ever or that they've always hurt you. That they're so flawed beyond repair. That they never really loved you. Wanting to insult them and being so angry at them. Or being so distraught and depressed at the thought of them, feeling betrayed almost. Just a complete contrast to the highs you'd get from them.
You may notice it's similar to black and white thinking, but b&w thinking is in a general context, while splitting is specific to a person or group of people.
Hope that helps some!
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bpd culture is feeling so mad and upset and angry you wanna throw punches and hit stuff when your fp doesn't respond but feeling insanely guilty when they do and say they were doing something normal
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Euripides (Tr. Anne Carson) / @wholeheartedsuggestions / Jenny Slate / Euripides again
bpd culture is just go ahead and tell me right in the face that i'm annoying. dont act like youre alright talking to me. you probably talk shit about me behind my back, saying that i'm so fucking annoying and humiliating and disgusting.
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ND culture is getting very irrationally angry around midnight, and having no idea whyβ¦ it couldβve been because I didnβt like the fanfic I was reading, or it couldβve been hormones, or it could be an ND thing, or maybe itβs some secret fourth thing (all of the above).
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