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― Anne Sexton, Anne Sexton: A Self-Portrait in Letters

One of the funniest eras of my blog was people following me for the wizard posting and then being blindsided learning I actually study historical magic and Esotericism for a living.

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What people don’t get is when you comment on a post on here you’re not talking to an audience or to generalized presence or the void the way you are when making a post on here, you are talking directly to the person who made the post, to me. you are plopping down onto my lap slinging your arms around my neck looking into my eyes and saying whatever you just said bc it is my post and I am the only one getting an alert about it. You are speaking to me. And I’m going to murder you.

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Hey peeps! A small life update:

as some of you know, I was doing a "reset week" last week, but sort of disappeared around Thursday as important things were going on

I try my best to keep this blog an inviting, cosy respite from the outside world so will only say this here: please do look up and see if there's anything you can do to help. Protests. Donating (I donated to Save the Children, helping children and families in Ukraine). But also remember that if you can't do either of those, helping to solve problems in your area also contributes to decreasing world suck. This video explains it better than me.

On a personal note I feel like I've been on an emotional rollercoster

Positive points: meditation has stuck and it's been so great. Giving myself time to do nothing, letting the mind be clear. Exercise has also been going great, noticing immense improvements on my previously injured leg - feels like recovery is here and here to stay.

Have been reaping the benefits of "actually doing the things" - a theme for this year which is to actually do things instead of just saying I want to do them. Went on a day trip with a newer friend and it was amazing. Went to see a show with my sister and was so incredible.

Less positive points: a lack of motivation to work, which usually isn't a problem, having built systems through the years to work through these moments and just get shit done. But they're not really working right now and as a result I feel stressed and guilty.

Have also been struggling to listen / understand my body and its needs? Am I hungry or do I just need comfort? Am I physically or emotionally tired? Do I need to do more to get out of a rut or do I need rest? It's all very confusing, and as the last sentence in my journal entry says "feeling lost" (alternate title: being in your early twenties)

I'm back home tomorrow for a long weekend which I think it what I need - a calmer environment where I can't be as distracted. Also many dance classes today which I know help a lot. In the meantime, trying to be kind to myself and focus on the small wins.

I hope you are all well. Take this as your sign to take a few deep breaths.

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RUN THE DISHWASHER TWICE. 

When I was at one of my lowest (mental) points in life, I couldn’t get out of bed some days. I had no energy or motivation and was barely getting by.

I had therapy once per week, and on this particular week I didn’t have much to ‘bring’ to the session. He asked how my week was and I really had nothing to say.

“What are you struggling with?” he asked.

I gestured around me and said “I dunno man. Life.”

Not satisfied with my answer, he said “No, what exactly are you worried about right now? What feels overwhelming? When you go home after this session, what issue will be staring at you?”

I knew the answer, but it was so ridiculous that I didn’t want to say it.

I wanted to have something more substantial.

Something more profound.

But I didn’t.

So I told him, “Honestly? The dishes. It’s stupid, I know, but the more I look at them the more I CAN’T do them because I’ll have to scrub them before I put them in the dishwasher, because the dishwasher sucks, and I just can’t stand and scrub the dishes.”

I felt like an idiot even saying it.

What kind of grown ass woman is undone by a stack of dishes? There are people out there with *actual* problems, and I’m whining to my therapist about dishes?

But my therapist nodded in understanding and then said:

“RUN THE DISHWASHER TWICE.”

I began to tell him that you’re not supposed to, but he stopped me.

“Why the hell aren’t you supposed to? If you don’t want to scrub the dishes and your dishwasher sucks, run it twice. Run it three times, who cares?! Rules do not exist, so stop giving yourself rules.”

It blew my mind in a way that I don’t think I can properly express.

That day, I went home and tossed my smelly dishes haphazardly into the dishwasher and ran it three times.

I felt like I had conquered a dragon.

The next day, I took a shower lying down.

A few days later. I folded my laundry and put them wherever the fuck they fit.

There were no longer arbitrary rules I had to follow, and it gave me the freedom to make accomplishments again.

Now that I’m in a healthier place, I rinse off my dishes and put them in the dishwasher properly. I shower standing up. I sort my laundry.

But at a time when living was a struggle instead of a blessing, I learned an incredibly important lesson:

THERE ARE NO RULES.

RUN THE DISHWASHER TWICE!!!

(by Kate Scott 2018)