The-crying-shadow - Crying-Shadow

I'm trying to feel all the emotion

That I once used to have

But now, I barely feel any of it

Now I barely even laugh

It wasn't really my fault

It was all the masks doing

I wore it blankly every day

Until I decided I was fine

When I wanted to take it off

I was already way too late

It never moved at all after that

It was then that i realized I was too quick to take the unintentional bait

It's not really my fault

I just wanted to hide away

But now that they've replaced me

I'm ok with never having another happy day

After this, my mask sometimes falters

And I show some emotion now

But all the rest of the expressions that never come out

Comes out in tears, and all in a commotion

can we be friends

I love friends

I kind of want to text you but I don't want to bother you.

I miss you though:)

There's a song called drop dead gorgeous by VOILÀ and it reminds me of my friend

One of my friends asked me why I don't just try to heal myself

And I never came up with an answer

But I already had an answer, I just didn't want to sound stupid

I don't do it because I know I'm not done hurting

So I'm not going to fix myself if I'm not done breaking

The only way I can be fixed is if I'm finished breaking until I get broken down again

The only thing is, I don't think I'm going to stop breaking

And if I do it won't be soon

The other thing, if I'm going to break again then why should I rebuild myself?

Why should I take anywhere from days to years to rebuild myself when it only takes a few seconds to be broken again

And the worst part is when one part of you breaks it's almost guaranteed the rest will too

Rebuilding a person can take 10 years, breaking a person can take 10 seconds

Thats the exact reason why people would rather destroy me then help me

Which is why I thank all of my friends for being good people to me even though I'm always the depressed person in our group.

Pain isn't there for you to ignore it

It's there for a reason

There's nothing wrong with letting it win

If it was there for you to overcome it ALL THE TIME it probably wouldn't be there

Pain is just a limit, and you have to accept it

I've accepted it too much, and now I look like this

Don't let it completely overtake you, but let it do its job

I gave my slinky to my gf and never saw him again

But she just recently gave me a picture of him

I can't believe he's not dead