Craving

Aroused by my own voice

Tonight sir gave me the suggestion the sound of my own voice would arouse me. Of course I felt compelled to talk to him about it and he made me describe to him just how conditioned I am… Then he sent me the link to an erotic hypno story and made me read it out loud. Each word that came out of my mouth fuelled my arousal and made me whimper and squirm. After sir removed the suggestion I was still very much a horny mess, I was informed I wouldn’t be getting release this evening and I’m going to be on a couple of days of denial…

beauty of simple

(obvious, ain’t it? explains that one)

Sunday

The day I can cum without permission and it still feels weird. Although I still feel very submissive as sir uses me as his little obedient slut while I'm made to write this post. It's so hard to think.

My 2nd day of denial

Sir might have teased me to the point almost combustion last night… he made me get my dildo and gave the suggestion as I slide it in my mind went a bit more blank. Needless to say I was at the edge very fast. I expressed this to sir but he made me keep going… he even had me recite my abc’s. Then he came up with the idea for me to fuck myself fast with it while he counted down from 10. I protested saying I might go over the edge however sir merely said I’d be punished if I did. Sir teased me some more as I updated my diary entry and then had me stand at the mirror watching myself as he made me imagine and feel him fucking me.

After all of that when I finally thought we were winding down sir was giving me some nice pats and scritches. He started to subtly tease me when I was finally starting to relax. He told me how he wants me being in this aroused state to be a norm just like all the other things he’s conditioned me with… As he went on about this plan the hornier I got. He then asked me to tell him about my day but to hide the arousal in my voice. He also hinted at possibly extending the denial for more than a week which I can’t see happening given the state I’m in already…

Drip...

One of the most mild pleasure triggers I have. Unless of course I'm made to listen to a file on loop of sir saying it over and over. Which is exactly what he made me do while edging this morning. Pleasure just constantly grew with each drip. I also had to listen to it for an extra 5 minutes for complaining. Sir was nice however and let me cum at the end of it.

1st day of a month of denial

Tonight sir has decided I will begin a month of orgasm denial. I’ve never done a month of denial before so it will be interesting to see how subby and needy I become. I’m feeling very submissive at the moment.

Time and Space

I told you I would help.

After edging you the other day I told you to kneel and wait for me, that I would be right back. I left the room for not even two minutes, and when I came back you weren’t kneeling. You blabbered about how you had a hard time focusing because you were so horny. You cried and begged me to help you.

You don’t really seem to understand that the point was to make you feel like you were repaying me for that edge. It isn’t like you deserve them, so you definitely need to do something in return when I’m generous enough to give them to you. By asking for my help, you took away a lot of the value I felt I was gaining when you managed it on your on. I get it though, you’re incapable. I knew that the first time I laid eyes on you. That’s fine.

So from now on this is what we’re going to do when I’m done. You’re going to pay me back for each edge.

I hope you realize the effort I’m expending to do this for you. The stand and rope I bought for you, the time it took me to dress you even though you were still soaking wet, and the time I’m taking now to explain what should be an obvious situation to you. That’s not even counting the edging itself.

Damn.

That’s a lot of debt you’ve built up.

I’m not going to burden you further by making you try to pay me back for an orgasm. I’m going to wait until I feel like we’re even before I begin to consider when you’ll be allowed to cum.

Even when it is not there, I see it. Even when it is not there, you feel it.