Taming Of The Kern River

Also disclaimer if you don’t like vore me sowwy💀

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quick silly thing

little games that they play wheeeeeee

Mercy on his soul

I swear to good I have been lackin so fucking bad I keep forgetting more and more shit and mixing up shit especially people’s birthdays cuz I got like three friends who have had their birthdays in the past month or two and I fucking forgot.

Like of course I’m gonna draw them all something but like school has just been up my ass, they had a meeting with my fucking mom today and I kid you not my counselors where lieing about shit to try and get me in trouble with my mom but even my moms knows I wouldn’t be doin the shit they said I did 💀💀💀

THEY REALLY SAID IM SKIPPING EVERY CLASS TO GO HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS. BITCH I DONT HAVE FRIENDS IN THE SCHOOL, WHO THE FUCK DID YOU SEE ME WITH, A GHOST??? HHWHSHSHEHHWHWNNANW

Bruh and and with like my ADHD and autism I focuse better when I’m drawing, it keeps me stimulated. But when I’m just sitting there I kinda start to freak out and have super fucking bad anxiety. I think I may have a anxiety disorder or something but I would have to go to the doctors or whatever to see if I do. But all I know is that I am going to have to get meds to take when I get a job because if y’all don’t know my social anxiety is fucking crazy to the point where I have broke down into tears in public. Like I feel scared around people I don’t know. And I wish I didn’t. I wish I didn’t feel like this towards people and I wish I could just be normal for 5 minutes without freaking out.

Yet my teachers say all of that is just a excuse to draw 💀 LIKE NO I LITTERLY LISTEN WHEN IM DRAWING. I BET YOU I CAN NAME EVERYTHING THAT IS HAPPENING IN THE BOOK RIGHT NOW IN MY ENGLISH CLASS AND HOW TO DO TAXES IN MY ECONOMICS CLASS AND EVERY OTHER STUDENT WONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IM TALKIN ABOUT, PFTT AND THEY THINK I DONT LISTEN. I swear to god they all clowns. They are all just says people who find joy in causing people like me sadness, and it’s sad to see that they think they need to be a dick to students in order to feel happiness. I bet their children hate them and they get no attention from their sad husbands and or wives who are forces to be with them for the rest of their life. Because they don’t wanna get divorced, haha they don’t wanna loose money :2 Like holy shit I hate myself too, I’m unhappy. But like you don’t gotta go out and beat down your students just to feel happy. Maybe get a divorce. Maybe pick a different job if ya hate teens so much (I mean I’m not a teen but you know what I mean) YOUNGE ADULT.

Sorry for once again ranting I just think the New York schooling system is fucked and I would rather drop dead then step a foot in school if it meant not having to deal with the shit I have to put up with ever day when I walk in there. When I graduate this year I’m going to fucking go crazy. I swear imma have the best night of my life. AND IMMA LAUGH AT ALL THOSE BITCHES WHO FUCKED ME OVER AND BE LIKE HAHAH DICK NIPS HEHEHHEHEHHE.

I’m sorry I’m tired I will stop now hehdhhshwh

Sorry to those who are like “where tf did they go”

I just haven’t been posting I’m sorry. I haven’t been myself. My cat died on Sunday and I’m just very….emotionless? I just think I have cried all the tears I can possibly cry…I just can’t come to terms to the fact he is gone.

I have not gotten a full nights sleep ever since. I have been having nightmares. Nightmares that I buried him alive even though I knew he would dead, he died in my arms on Sunday. I feel weak, that I held him in my arms and I couldn’t do anything to help him.

Sometimes I feel like I hear his meowing and it scares me…my two other cats have taken notice and are also sad…I can feel it.

But I hope wherever he is, I hope he isn’t scared or alone…I hope someone is taking good care of him for me. I hope they are giving him all the cat food he can ever imagine… I hope he is getting pets and showered in love… for when the day comes where I die I hope I can see him again and hug him.

I will post art soon. I just need time.

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