Something That I Like, For A While But Somehow Only Just Realised, Is The Anthropomorphisation, Manifestation

Serious post & kinda rant

TW: mental health & maybe illness

One of my very frequent problems I have is something I can’t really explain in its entirety, because words feel too strict, nor do I understand it. The way i interpret reality feels very loose, as it’s difficult to discern what is and is not real, usually since I am pretty much seeing and hearing people, but not people, that aren’t there, other things too but I can’t find the words. Generally, after much introspection, they seem to happen more episodal, I find during these ‘episodes’ I am believing things that aren’t grounded in reality and are frankly absurd and ineffable. And, my mind feels like it contorting or being stirred during them Though, they tend to vanish once they are over.

Strangely, I think —I’m not at all sure though, so some skepticism is warranted— that minimising the amount of sensory information (light, sound etcetera) are minimising the non-episodal hallucinations. Saying that my senses aren’t entirely distinct anyways (probable synesthesia), and overlap a lot.

This has been a constant for my entire life (as much as I can remember at least). I have needed to remind myself that I’m not schizo (-phrenic / -affective) to stop me feeling like I’m crazy.

Anyways, to the point, does anyone relate? And where would it get me if i attempted to find some label, diagonsis, So I can understand wtf this is?

I would also like to state I mean no insult to people who have schizophrenia, schizoaffective disorders or anything similar. All i seek is some guidance from the void, about their own personal experiences.

I might of missed of some things, since I am only a few months to more dedicated introspection on this.

That is all.

Sometimes my brain goes: “EAT ME! EAT ME! EAT ME!”

It do be doin a distraction

Non vore post (again)

I’ve been thinking about what my treasure hoard would be if I were a dragon.

There’s so many options it’s so difficult to choose. But utterly useless things I will horde: tiny boats, rocks and myriad of other things

:3

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DEAR ARTISTS, PLEASE READ THIS POST I STUMBLED ACROSS

IF YOU ARE NOT DOING THIS ALREADY, YOU SHOULD TRY IT

I even tested it out myself, it works great

G/t stuff

I love tinies sm. you can just be a lil guy nomming a Pringle that’s as big as you! You can’t even eat all of it. You be there little personal calculator. So much more… but I need to show restraint.

There is something to the genre of ‘the tumblr ad’ that is just so [scrunched face]

That’s not the case, cuz that wasn’t the reason. Anyways, it would be a woman, cuz trust issues.

A while ago, semi-soon after I discovered that vore existed, something happened which caught me mad off guard. Although it was quick, it went:

Mum - “what would you want to get eaten by?”

Me - *internal screaming* followed by

“I don’t know, why?!”

Mum - “[elaborates]”

Me - *internally phew-es*