The Angst In This Scene Dammit

boris pavlikovsky be like is anyone going to talk this tiny prep boy out of his haze of self-loathing and tenderly hold him through the night & then not wait for an answer

Goldfinch on Donna Tartt's The Goldfinch

theo literally a few pages after kissing his best friend: i fucking hate my dog he makes me looks so gay

there has to be subtext behind boris singing the song about two kittens to theo after being horrifically beaten at the hands of his father and then proceeding to call his girlfriend a nickname that means kitty cat

theo decker is like "i will only pursue romantic relationships that are doomed to fail. the only two women i love are shallow projections of my own trauma, and cannot love me back. i will self-sabotage by entering loveless relationships with emotionally distant women. the last time i felt true love for another person was with my childhood best friend. i am a heterosexual."

STOP saying boris's scandinavian wife and three children are fake!!!! let adultery and absent fatherhood into your hearts!!!!!

Goldfinch obession has surpassed "Damn, someone I know needs to read the Goldfinch already so I can scream about it!" And reached a new, previously unknown level of "In truth, maybe it's better no one has, because it stops me from grabbing their arm and begging them to get in the car, come on fuck it, one seven hour flight, we'll be eating breakfast over Amsterdam when the sun comes up? A forty-five minute drive to the Hague, and we'll be on a transformative journey to the Netherlands, looking at the Goldfinch?"

my yearning compilation

I am a grown ass adult and I still get nausea when I feel like I'm in trouble. They're gonna send me to the principals office and take away my toys for a week. Can you just fucking kill me instead of making me stew in my fucking anxiety