I Need To Interact With Something About The Goldfinch Once An Hour While I’m Around My Family For The

"do it scared" ok but I would like to do something some other way occasionally. Like at least once. For a change.

theo decker is like "i will only pursue romantic relationships that are doomed to fail. the only two women i love are shallow projections of my own trauma, and cannot love me back. i will self-sabotage by entering loveless relationships with emotionally distant women. the last time i felt true love for another person was with my childhood best friend. i am a heterosexual."

I love that they have their subgenres of nerd. Like Will is the only one of them who knows morse code but Dustin knows more D&D lore off the top of his head like the details of shadow walking while Lucas is better with like aerodynamics (you can't tell me he's not being nerdy about those wristrocket angles) and like battle prep with all the random stuff in his bag and Mike's the one who says shit like "blasphemous" and "conspiring" in casual conversation.

she bought her a soft pretzel…I’m sobbing

boris worries abt theo so much it makes me sickkkkk and theo won’t tell us abt this bc he’s a fucking cunt but boris cleaned up his vomit and dragged him out of the pool and out of the road and out of the desert over and over and over again and when he sees him again all he asks is are you happy no but really are you happy. it’s been 8 years i haven’t been able to take care of you tell me you’re happy. bc he CARES.

Forest Nymph 1870

Paul Hermann Wagner

i want a penis but also i would get a boner from a stiff breeze. i would get hard from biting a particularly crisp apple

NEVER be vulnerable. FLUSH your medication down the toilet. LIE when people ask how you’re doing. SUPPRESS your feelings. ALWAYS be irritable and abrasive. MAKE SURE you push away anyone who’s close to you. CANCEL your therapy appointment.

the goldfinch left me permanently insane because why have I thought about it every day for the past 4 months