Me, Watching Every Episode Of Yellowjackets S3:

Feeling this edit on a deeper level fr

Saying my life would be over if byler doesn’t happen would be an understatement. I would drop out of college

More than anything I was relieved that in my unfamiliar babbling-and-wanting-to-talk state I’d stopped myself from blurting the thing on the edge of my tongue, the thing I’d never said, even though it was something we both knew well enough without me saying it out loud to him in the street—which was, of course, I love you.

richard siken, the language of birds; from war of foxes

reaching the point of hyperfixation where I can no longer engage with it due to the nausea that I experience at the mere thought of seeing it on my screen is the closest I’ve ever been to being diagnosed with female hysteria

"A lot had changed since then; but not his eyes"

The Goldfinch (2019) dir. John Crowley

most unstable girl you know: i need to get a masters degree

I love thinking about the goldfinch's religious symbolism

Theo's name meaning "God's gift"

Boris introducing Theo as "Fyodor" to people the night they meet again, name which means the same thing

Still, Boris rarely uses the name Theo, preferring nicknames instead

The Goldfinch being wrapped by Theo like "a Christmas present"

The Goldfinch returning on Christmas

The Goldfinch being described as something "immortal" as long there were people that loved it

Boris converting to different religions solely because of people

Like Islam because the people were nice to him

When he tattooed David's star because he wanted to work for a Jewish man

When he loves Dostoyevsky's philosophy on orthodoxy

at the same time, he can't manage to be a good man or follow through with any of them

like when he starts drinking and leaves Islam because of that

Goldfinch on Donna Tartt's The Goldfinch