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Marked for Later List

I have over 50 fanfics on my Marked for Later list at AO3. This number never seems to decrease from 50 mainly because with each story I read, I check out the author’s other works and/ or their bookmarks. I am so grateful for the fanfic authors who have shared their stories as well as taking the time to recommend other stories. My Marked for Later is the kind of endless loop I actually like, the more fics I read, the more fics I add to it!

You can find my bookmarks here

Day Twenty-five

of @the-wip-project‘s #100daysofwriting challenge

Q25: What have you learned recently,  about yourself, about your writing, about your story?

A25: I’ve learnt all kinds of things recently, part of it during this challenge the most important ones to me are:

It’s difficult for me to “find time” aka force myself into a chair and actually write. Part of this issue is because I do have little time with a young family, a full time job and elders whom I support. But ... more and more I am concerned that I am not writing because when I finish this current wip I will have to say goodbye to the wip’s world and characters and I’m not ready to give up that part of my brain.

I have no shortage of creative ideas. I have difficulty putting them into a cohesive plot.

I tend to rework my plot every few months. I try very hard to stick to one but ... then ideas that are better occur to me.

It is kinda exhausting and it sucks cause Clexa is like my safe place and it's always been there and so it sucks to see it hitting the fan a little but! I guess I'd prefer tea to an empty party if that's what we got for a while it's cool to see so many people sharing their thoughts too even if it's not the usual straight up Clexa. What are your favourite Clexa comfort fics?

I always loved the clexa fic: something suspiciously close to hope. It’s cute and very well written and i love clexa families

Day Sixty-four

@the-wip-project

Q64: How do you start writing a new story?

My answer: usually, an idea comes to me when I least expect it, e.g., in the shower, while driving, just before I fall asleep. To take an idea from a day dream to an actual story, I jot down some notes about the idea. The next step for me is to think about who would be an interesting character to have in the story. Are their any tropes I can spin on their head with this character? Then I write a short dialogue between two characters who are discussing the story I want to write. If the idea and story still interest me, I write it :)

Yes!

things got analytical in the discord channel

Lmao

REBLOG THIS SO I CAN SEE PLEASE

Thank you for sharing this.

Here is a very useful resource where FOG is an acronym for “fear, obligation, guilt”. The website is intended for those who are in relationships with people who have personality disorders but the toolbox is useful for everyone.

Out of the FOG | Personality Disorders, Narcissism, NPD, BPD

Out of the FOG | Personality Disorders, Narcissism, NPD, BPD

Helping family members & loved-ones of people who suffer from personality disorders.

it's hard to explain because inevitably you sound like an asshole, but some people are allowed to lose their temper, lose their mind - you're not, though.

when your friend never texts you first and misses your birthday and never makes an effort; you don't mind. you know she's struggling, and you want her to get the help that she deserves. you give her every excuse and every chance.

it shouldn't matter to you so much that people are always coming through for her. you want her to be happy, you love it for her. you love that her community rises up to the occasion. why does it bother you that when she snaps at someone, says horrible mean things - but two hours later, everyone is comforting her while she's crying. you know she's stressed. why do you kind of hate that she is welcomed back to her job, that her parents are endlessly wiring her money.

and you're - fuck, are you envious?

but when you don't text back, someone sits you down and says i know you're struggling, but you're being a bad friend. when you're too numb to show up for work, your boss just shakes his head. i'm sorry. i can't approve more time off. we have the company to protect. when you finally snap back at your family for making that shitty comment again, you're forced to apologize for being too sensitive.

god forbid you need something. people aren't used to you being the one asking. you're the giver like the book you hated; your pages all open and rumpled. you always have the answer, always have the solution. you are reliable, trustworthy. people like you don't struggle with things. you're supposed to be lifted by tragedy. you are given a maximum of 24 hours to grieve, and then you need to just behave at the party.

you can't read the giving tree without feeling like crying, and even that feels like it's too much emotion. like, nobody looks at you and assumes you're the tree; they'd name five other people before even considering you in the running. you're just there, never-asking.

your friend gets to say mean shit, that's just her personality. when you make a snide comment, you're just being petty. people laugh when your friend stands you up for another event; they say she's just like that. you were 5 minutes late to a meeting with friends and they were mad about it for the rest of the evening. your friend sets everything on fire; everyone applauds her through the ashes. you so much as light a candle: and suddenly now you're an arsonist.

you don't want your friend to suffer, though. the thing is that you just wish that the empathy and kindness your friend gets - you wish you had that option, that everyone offered you grace and money and a gentle reception.

the other day you were fighting down the bad urge; the void call, the end note. you tried-anyway. you went to the family event, tried laughing at the right moments. nodded and smiled and all of it. one of your siblings threw a fit, but she's allowed to, so everyone just rolled their eyes about it. you took 3 whole minutes to stand outside when you got overwhelmed. you literally set a timer about it.

in the morning you woke up to a text from your parents: you were a complete disgrace last night. idk what your attitude problem is, but you really need to fix it.

100% agree! Some of the fanfic I’ve read has better writing than the actual show. For example, Giant by @coeurdastronaute

Reblog if you think fanfiction is a legitimate form of creative writing.

Saves me everyday