Thesemidnightthoughtss - Midnight Thoughts

I’m so sensitive and I feel things on such an intense level. I can’t do moderation. Pain and happiness is something we all experience, it’s a part of life . But there is so much more pain than the happiness. And that little happiness is no where near enough to mitigate the pain. And thinking that I have to fight this battle everyday for the rest of me life is exhausting. I can’t do it. I feel tired down to my bones. Talking myself out of killing myself everyday. Scared of triggers. Struggling to do basic things. Feeling hideous and unworthy of love. So much self hate. How can anyone do this for their entire life.

I don't wanna do this anymore

Just please...

Let me die

Let me end all this pain

― Mieko Kawakami, Heaven

I hate myself so fucking much.

Everything and everyone would be so much better off if I wasn't here at all.

I will never have purpose, I will never deserve to live.

I shouldn’t still be here.

I don’t want to be.

I don’t want to be here anymore.

Why wasn’t I enough?

Perhaps the fact that I chased a boy who ripped me to shreds says a lot more about me than it did about him.

Michelle K. — Lessons Learned

I don’t want to hurt people with my death

Instead I hurt myself with my existence

How am I supposed to succeed at life when on most days my best is getting out of bed. I have no energy to work towards anything. Showing up is my best sadly. But how do you explain that to people.

“We are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.”

— Eleanor Roosevelt