They Told Me Leaving You Was The Cure To My Pain. It Was The Supposed Remedy For My Heartache. Leaving

The worst feeling is having to hide your true feelings for someone because you know it’s better off that way

“Not everyone who comes into our life is meant to stay. So stop holding onto people who clearly don’t want to be with you.”

— Unknown

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A part of suicidal ideation or self harm no one talks about is the numbness to the subject that comes with it. I sit and scroll through pages and pages of cries for help, suicide notes and plans and feel nothing. No worry, no concern, no crushing feeling in my chest. Nothing. Those familiar feelings are now replaced with a strange familiarity, a kind of comfort that it’s not just me.

Fuck. When did it get to this

Fun Fact: I can’t do this anymore

"People think depression is sadness. People think depression is crying. People think depression is dressing in black.  But people are wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions, being numb to life. You wake up in the morning just to go to bed again."

I don’t even want any of this, but I have to deal with all this failure which is a result of me being alive. And that just makes it a million times worse. I fail at everything, I can’t do one thing right. Yeah I failed but I don’t have the motivation or the will to work. I’m not being lazy. I just don’t know how to work towards anything when my end goal is to be dead