Fatima Aamer Bilal, From Coffin Heart? Bury Me.

fatima aamer bilal, from coffin heart? bury me.

[text id: how did you get so close that i have to dissect you out from under my skin? / memory is a deathbed. remembrance is a grave. the memory of you is a scab that i keep picking so that it scars. a burn, a souvenir, something to claw at that claws back at me. / i refuse to be haunted by something less. / there's a sun-sized ache where your hands used to be. / and now that your place is empty, the blood in my heart pumps around nothing. / nothing. / nothing at all. / senseless circulation. / what am i to live for when i have made my body my casket? / where am i to go from here? / and i always knew longing had another name she wouldn't let me call her by — it's hunger. / my heart grew up to be far more starved than my stomach. / it's the things you learn in your childhood, from the words of your mother, from the hands of your father. / if your teeth do not graze my bones, i do not wish for you to kiss me. / how have i turned gentle love into such devastation? / such greediness? / i carry a coffin for a heart; everything i love must be buried. / plant your garden in the cracks of my skin—mud, gravel, everything. let my blood be water to cater to your needs. / terrible, terrible human, thinks barbarity and love are words of the same meaning. / a mad dog would be a far more gentle lover to the rocks being thrown at him. / and, my dear, i wouldn't ask you to fold me in the pages of your favorite book, just the embedment of fingers between my ribs. / how did you get so close that i have to dissect you out from under my skin? / GET CLOSER.]

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3 weeks ago

Guys the IMF always does this. They have done it twice before lol.

May 18, 1971: Pakistan got $25 million 54 days after Operation Searchlight, during the Bangladesh genocide (300,000–3 million killed).

November 29, 1999: Pakistan got $1.56 billion ~4 months after Kargil.

Wikipedia link on Pakistan and the IMF

Wikipedia link on Operation Searchlight

Wikipedia link on the Kargil War

The west wants to fund a war while rattling on about de-escalation only to India. Why else would imf approve a loan this big

Regional War Speedrun edition?

Donald Trump just posted that India and Pakistan agreed to a ceasefire.

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3 weeks ago

Pakistani military targeting civilians in Jammu and Kashmir 💔

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3 weeks ago

“the only right answer is my answer”

The way people see stories of Muslims being denied services after the Kashmir shit and say, "What terrible people, treating random Muslims like they had anything to do with that" and they're the same ones who were blatantly saying shit like "If this is how JEWS treat people, then I don't care about being called an antisemite!" like HELLOOOOO??? CAN ANYONE HEAR ME OR IS THE BRRRRRRR OF COGNITIVE DISSONANCE DROWNING ME OUT?

“MY bigotry is acceptable and it doesn’t make me evil!”

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3 weeks ago

Pakistan has violated the ceasefire. And here's Western media sources covering it for all the white saviours.